12, a dream of sorghum
It seems that only the paper figures that I burned are real.
I looked at the paper figure that was burned to ashes at the door, I didn't know why I was stunned, I didn't know what was going on in my mind, I just looked at this pile of ashes unnaturally, and then I looked at the coffin behind me, I don't know what the reason was, and then I heard someone call me: "Xiao Mu." ”
It seemed to be the voice of Hua Xiu, I looked blankly at the place where the voice came from, but I couldn't see her at all, and then I only felt a rumble in my ears, and then I only felt like I had suddenly fallen into some darkness, as if everything around me did not exist. I myself don't exist, everything is the same as non-existent.
Until I opened my eyes again.
The moment I opened my eyes, it was darkness.
But the smell was familiar, and I didn't know where I was for a while. I just felt that my mouth was dry, and then I moved and found myself lying on the bed, I was a little inexplicable, some memories seemed to echo in my mind, but the voice became weaker and weaker, I looked around in the dark, and found that I was still in my room.
So I got up and forgot to put on my shoes. I didn't even know what time it was, but I opened the door, and the sound was harsh in the silence of the night, and I came into the hall. The hall was still the same arrangement, exactly the same as the home I was familiar with, I opened the door again, but when I opened the door of the hall, the light in my parents' room was on, and soon I saw that the light on the door of the hall was also turned on, and then my parents came out of the room in a panic, and my mother quickly grabbed me and asked, "Wood, where are you going?" ”
I looked at them blankly, and then shouted, "Mom, where am I?" ”
When my mom heard me shouting like this, she glanced at my dad with a look of surprise and horror on her face, and then she turned her face again and looked at me cautiously: "Wood, do you know who I am?" ”
I glanced at her, and I felt that the memories in my mind had finally faded away, and in the end, only some memories of my relatives were left. So I said, "You're my mom, you're my dad, what's the problem?" ”
I looked at my dad, and my mom heard me say that. Suddenly, he covered his mouth and began to cry, and said in a silent voice while crying: "This is the first time you have been so sober, I thought you would be like this for the rest of your life." ”
She couldn't go on with the rest of the story, and I heard my mom say that. So he asked, "What's the matter, I ......."
Then my dad asked me, "You really don't remember anything?" ”
I asked, "What do you remember?" ”
My dad said, "You ran out of the door that night for no reason, and I don't know where to carry a paper man, since that day you have been evil, we have looked for Mr. to help you exorcise demons and evil spirits, and we have been to the hospital, and we have done everything for you, but you are becoming more and more crazy." Even later, you said that you ruled the ghost king, and the world we live in was created by more advanced people, and you said that you are Pangu, and you created this place, and there are a lot of strange words, we take you to the hospital, and the hospital says that you are schizophrenic, let Mr. see. The gentleman said that you are haunted by evil spirits, but you can't find any evil spirits, and you can't drive them away. ”
I recalled the fading memories in my mind, I thought it was a dream, but I didn't expect it to be my imagination, I was shocked to hear it, so I repeated my father's words: "Schizophrenia? ”
My dad said, "It's crazy in local terms, and you've been doing this for two years." Do you know you've been like this for two years? ”
I looked at my dad blankly and said, "I felt like I had a dream." ”
And my mom had calmed down, and she complained to my dad and said, "He just came to his senses, what are you doing with him?" ”
Then my mother looked at me again and said, "It's good to be sober, it's good to be sober, after all, you are the only seedling in our family." You said what would we do if you had any strengths and weaknesses? ”
As she spoke, my mother couldn't hold back her emotions and began to cry, and I was about to say something, when suddenly I saw a person climbing on the beam outside the hall. When it came to his throat, the words were swallowed back alive, and then he took two steps back, and my father saw all these movements, and he asked me, "Wood, what's wrong with you?" ”
I looked at the beam, but when I looked at it again, it seemed that there was nothing left, and I was shocked and said, "I want to see something on the beam." ”
My dad also looked at Liang Shang and asked, "Is it a flower show?" ”
I remembered that Hua Xiu hanged herself on this beam, so I asked my father, "How did Hua Xiu die, have you found the reason?" ”
When I mentioned Huaxiu, my dad said, "We'll talk to you about this during the day, don't think about anything else first." ”
Then my dad told me to sit down first, and my mom went to the north wing to call my grandma and grandpa. When I sat down, my dad poured me a glass of water like he was taking care of a sick person, and said, "Wood, don't be afraid of anything, we're there for everything, if only you could come to your senses, it's good." ”
I could see that my dad was very excited when I came to my senses, and I couldn't suppress the feeling of being lost and regained, and I said, "I don't know how this happened." I didn't feel anything at all. ”
My dad said, "The doctor said that you are not aware of it, you will live in your own consciousness, and the gentleman who helped you also said that you are just invaded by evil spirits, and there is no threat to life, but it is just that you have been pestering you, and you will always be crazy like this." ”
I asked, "Is it Mr. Bai who has been helping us watch?" ”
My dad was stunned for a moment when he heard this, then sighed and said, "Mr. Bai died a year ago, and now it is Mr. Zou who is helping you to see." ”
I heard it and felt a little familiar with the name. He asked, "Is it called Zou Tianqi?" ”
My dad said, "Yes, it seems that although you are not conscious, these people can still remember something." ”
I only feel that the name of reality is mixed with some memories in my head, and I don't know which ones are true and which ones are false, and my father said on the side: "This Mr. Zou was an acquaintance of your grandmother when she was young, and your grandmother went all the way to invite him, and at first he seemed to be able to calm down a little when he came, and you were a lot more stable, although he was still not sober, but at least he was not as crazy as usual, but then he gradually stopped working, and then this Mr. Zou left." ”
I asked, "Does this Mr. Zou have a son?" ”
My dad looked at me and shook his head and said, "No, Mr. Zou has no wife and no queen, and I heard him say that he committed a crime in his life, so he can't get married." ”
It seems that Eleven is also my imagination, and then through some of my words with my father, I found that many things are real in reality, mixed with my conjecture in it, as for the Pangu Ghost King, I myself feel that I will talk about these places, it's incredible, and then I deeply feel that this person is abnormal, especially the brain is abnormal, and it can really rationalize everything.
After that I met my grandma and my grandfather. I am glad that my grandfather is still alive and can be reunited with the whole family, I feel very surprised and surprised, after all, in the two years that I have been crazy, I have always believed that I am the only one in my family, and the rest are almost dead, and the whole family has become a villain who wants to threaten me, when I think of this, I asked my parents, "I must be very protective of you when I am crazy, right?" ”
Hearing me say this, my dad said, "You don't just want to guard against us, in your eyes we are like people who want to harm you, for a long time you will hide when you see us, as long as we touch something, you will never touch it again, you will never eat the food we cook, if we touch the food, you will immediately throw it away." ”
I just thought it was unbelievable that I had done this and I didn't know it, so I said to them, "I didn't know I had done this, and in my consciousness you were all ghosts, people who were here to kill me." ”