148. What if it was me?
But seeing him, he shook his head and said, "You are not like it, whether it is your appearance or temperament." Maybe in Ping'er's eyes, you look better than anyone else, but she is the most beautiful in my heart. Not to mention her temperament, she is gentle and pure, and you seem to be soft on the surface but you are actually very hard, Ping'er must have touched nails on you. ”
...... "Is he here to rehabilitate his grandson?" It's really hard to plan for a grandfather and grandchildren.
I can't refute it, so I can only say it silently.
Zhu Yuanzhang took a sip of tea and said: "Maybe there is a providence in the dark, I want to pave the way for Ping'er, Xiuying was my lucky star back then, and I chose the daughter of Ma Quan, the young secretary of Guanglu Temple, at a glance in the selection list." Who knows that Ping'er learned to secretly cross Chen Cang and secretly swapped you with the daughter of the Ma family. The wood has become a boat, I didn't want to care about it anymore, but it happened before, Ping'er came to ask me to give this orchid garden to you to know what his intentions were, and finally I agreed. ”
I didn't know where to start, so I had to pick up the teapot and continue to pour tea for him. And his demeanor was rarely a little stunned, and his eyes were no longer so sharp when they shot at me: "When I walked in just now, I saw you squatting in the garden, and I really thought that I had returned to the scene twenty years ago, when Xiuying was transplanting orchids. It's just that things are not people. ”
Seeing his emotion, I couldn't help but comfort me softly: "Grandfather Huang, although things are wrong, Queen Ma has never left, she has always lived in your heart, don't be too sad." ”
He was stunned, his eyes were instantly dazed, and when he returned to clarity, he smiled bitterly: "You can still see it clearly, yes, Xiuying lives in my heart and will never change." Also, since you call me the imperial grandfather, you should also call her the imperial grandmother, how can you call Queen Ma? ”
"What the emperor's grandfather taught is that the emperor's grandmother's goodness will go down in history, so that future generations will respect her."
Seeing the childlike smile on the face of the emperor in front of me, as if the person I just praised was him, I suddenly thought of Ah Ping, if someone praised me in front of him, what would be my expression? It must be the same as his imperial grandfather.
It is said that among Zhu Yuanzhang's many children and grandchildren, Zhu Di is the person who is most like him, but in fact, Ah Ping also has places like him. In an ordinary family, it is natural for a grandfather to love his grandson, but in this imperial family, Zhu Yuanzhang has 26 sons, and I believe that there should be a lot of grandsons at this time, but he favors Ah Ping alone.
It's just that this sole favor is not necessarily a good thing, Zhu Yuanzhang, do you know that even if you are wise and martial, as soon as you die, the world you thought was planned and arranged will start to be turbulent, and your grandson who is bent on preserving will also rise and fall in the torrent of history.
If you knew the future, would you still make decisions now?
There are many things I can't talk about, but I always hover in my heart. The point is that I can't find a way to stop this from happening, and if I can't even say anything, how can I turn the situation around?
"What are you thinking?"
I wasn't actually distracted, I just read in silence, and it was rare for the old man to look at me with peaceful eyes, so he should just ask casually. After thinking for a while, he replied: "I am thinking that I will benefit a lot from not being able to meet the imperial grandmother. When listening to Ah Ping's mention, you can hear great respect and concern in his tone. ”
"He, that is, he just listened to his father more, Xiuying was still young when he died, and I still remember that when I caught Zhou Shiping'er, he grabbed the brush with one hand and the document with the other, Xiuying smiled and said that Ping'er will be like his father as a literati in the future, oh yes, Ping'er's name is still given by Xiuying."
I was a little surprised, it turned out that the word "Ping" was given by Queen Ma, which should mean smooth and smooth. However, Ah Ping's father was still alive at that time, and Ah Ping was a concubine, neither Zhu Yuanzhang nor Queen Ma would have thought that the imperial power would fall to Ah Ping in the end.
Since Zhu Yuanzhang took the initiative to mention it, I also followed his words and said: "It seems that the imperial grandmother is in a word, and Ah Ping really follows the text." I don't know what his previous results were, and whether he made it to the top three? ”
Speaking of this grandson, although Zhu Yuanzhang was not as smiling as when he mentioned Queen Ma just now, there was pride and satisfaction in his eyes, he said: "Ping'er's results are the champion if they are released, and his advice is very insightful, and he is more far-sighted than his father back then." During this period, I took him to the court to watch the twists and turns, taught him to discuss politics, and his comprehension was very high, in addition to listening to my strategy, he would also draw inferences from one another, and over time he would definitely be able to have talents. ”
It's Ah Ping who praises, I should be happy, but my heart is getting heavier and heavier.
The more Zhu Yuanzhang is satisfied with Ah Ping, it means that he is getting closer and closer to the emperor's road, and he is already the emperor's grandson, and he has told the world that he will inherit the throne. If you want Zhu Yuanzhang to take back his life in less than four years, unless Ah Ping made some big mistake, but if he makes a serious mistake in the royal family, it will be a disaster of death at every turn, how to grasp this degree?
I'm sad and I have nowhere to go.
Zhu Yuanzhang got up after drinking tea, came to the courtyard and looked around again before waving his hand so that I didn't have to send it away. When I turned back into the room, I sat down at the table and stared at the empty cup across from me, my mind racing.
If Ah Ping is really a genius in the world, is there another possibility that he can get rid of that predetermined fate? For example, rewriting history. All of this is because Zhu Di is brave and good at fighting, and at the same time, he is unwilling to let the throne fall into the hands of his nephew, what if Zhu Di can extinguish this desire to seize the throne? is also a destiny in the dark, if I hadn't gone to the hot springs, I wouldn't have met Zhu Di, maybe he really wouldn't have ...... If the injury is seriously incurred, how can everything come about?
But when Zhu Di's figure flashed in my mind, I couldn't help but think of what the person in my dream said, I didn't hesitate when I was unsure, let alone today? sighed lightly, it was just a fantasy, no matter which way it went.
Ah Ping came back and asked about his imperial grandfather, I told the truth, he heard it and said that this was the first time his imperial grandfather stepped into this door, and it was sealed here at the beginning, and although it was unsealed, the imperial grandfather never came.
I smiled and asked, "They must have a good relationship, right?" ”
"I don't remember when my grandmother died, I only have a vague impression that my grandmother was sitting in a rocking chair in the courtyard with me. Later, when I was older, I asked my father about it, but I was reprimanded, and the matter about the emperor's grandmother almost became a taboo in the palace, and no one dared to mention it. ”
I raised an eyebrow, "You dare to mention it." ”
Ah Ping's face was slightly stunned, and he paused for a moment before saying: "I didn't understand the mood of the emperor's grandfather before, and during the period when I couldn't find you this time, every time I returned to the house where you lived, I felt that my mind was mixed, and at home in Ginkgo Village, I felt that the house was empty and panicked. I believe that my grandfather once walked here after the departure of the imperial grandmother and I felt the same feeling, and the feeling of emptiness will always remind me that I have lost and that it is difficult to turn back. ”
"Why, then, why do you mention your imperial grandmother to him, doesn't that make him sad?"
"The imperial grandmother has been gone for too long, and the imperial grandfather should also come out of it."
Chu Yi didn't feel anything when he heard this, but after tasting it carefully, he felt a little uncomfortable in his heart, "Do you want your imperial grandfather to stop thinking about the imperial grandmother?" Sure enough, I saw him nod: "For so many years, the emperor's grandfather has worked hard for state affairs every day, and he has not stopped to rest for a day, and he should no longer be trapped in the friendship of the old past." ”
I squinted at him and asked softly, "What if it was me?" ”
He didn't react for a moment, "What? I repeated my words: "If it were me, one day before you, would you forget me sooner as you did?" ”
Stunned first appeared on that face, and then panicked to grab my hand resting in front of him, he said eagerly: "Lan, how can you have such an idea? What do you mean you're one step ahead of me? It's impossible. ”
"Why can't it be?" I asked softly, "Birth, old age, sickness and death are common things in people, not to mention that there are many unstable factors, maybe one day I will disappear out of thin air." So you're actually right, instead of dwelling on the painful past, it's better to let go and come out. "Actually, I am a factor of instability, I came without warning, I have no way of knowing how many years I will stay here, it may be a lifetime, it may be ten or eight years, or one day I will suddenly disappear for some reason, and it is actually a good thing for Ah Ping to have such thoughts, it is better than living in the pain of losing me day and night.
Inevitably, there is pain in my heart.
Who wants to be let go of a loved one and then forgotten? People are the most selfish animals in the world, shouting on their lips and hoping that the other party can let go, but even if two people are no longer possible, deep down they still hope that they will always be engraved somewhere in each other's hearts and not forgotten. It can be said that such thoughts have become human instincts.
Ah Ping didn't come to refute me, but there was something in those dark eyes, and by the time I could tell it was pain, he had already pounced. The two of them were sitting in the chairs, but I was completely caught off guard by his pounce and fell backwards, and both of them fell to the ground. I thought my shoulders were going to hit the ground, but in an instant I turned into a posture under Ah Ping's cushion, and the dull sound stirred my eardrums, and I fell on his chest.
I was about to get up and scold him for having some nerves, but he flipped over again, and this time I was crushed under him.
Lu He, who was originally waiting outside, hurriedly ran in when he heard such a movement inside, and was still asking, "Niangniang, what happened?" But he didn't want to be shouted angrily by Ah Ping: "Get out!" ”