030: An unspeakable secret
This meal, Ai Changhuan and Lu Zhanke didn't go back to eat, Du Yucheng drank a lot of wine again, but he wasn't as drunk as last time, and he didn't want others to send it when the meal was over, so he staggered back to the moonlight by himself.
Ji Xingfan looked at his back, inexplicably felt very lonely, and faintly felt sad, she suddenly felt that she was a little too much today, and she shouldn't have helped Ai Changhuan to test him.
With a wry smile, she understood why she insisted like this, because her own feelings had never been recognized, so she hated those who wanted to love but didn't dare to love.
There are two kinds of feelings in this world, like and dislike, if you like it, you have to say it, if you don't like it, if you don't like it, it's not shy at all, it's all.
Ji Xingfan looked up at the moonlight, and suddenly felt that she was also drunk, she really wanted Bai Jin.
Because there were guests at home, Lu Zhanke automatically went to sleep in the guest room, leaving the master bedroom to Ai Changhuan and Ji Xingfan.
The two sisters hadn't slept together for a long time, and they should have endless words, but because they had their own hearts, they were unusually silent.
Just as he was thinking wildly, Ji Xingfan's phone rang, and he didn't need to look to know that it was Bai Jin calling, because it was his exclusive ringtone, 'Exclusive Angel', that rang.
No one can snatch you away from me, you are my exclusive angel, only I can monopolize you, no one can replace you in my heart......
Listening to such lyrics, Ji Xingfan couldn't help crying.
didn't expect her to cry suddenly, Ai Changhuan was startled, and hurriedly asked, "Xiao Fan, what's wrong with you?" ”
Ji Xingfan turned around and hugged Ai Changhuan, crying silently in her arms: "San'er, I hate him, I hate him, I hate him......"
She kept saying that.
"Who? Who are you talking about? Ai Changhuan was confused.
Ji Xingfan has many unknown secrets in her heart, she wants to find someone to talk to, but she has to continue to hide those secrets, she is too painful, the pain that cannot be vented is tightly pressed on her heart, she is really afraid that one day she will not be able to hold on.
She loves Bai Jin, but she can't love him, because if she wants to call him brother, these two words are enough to block all the possibility of them being together.
She hated him again, and if it weren't for him, she wouldn't be in such pain. Knowing that two people can't be in everything, why should she fall in love with him?
With such a shameful secret, she didn't even dare to tell Ai Changhuan, she was afraid that she would look down on her, so it would be good to cry a little longer, just cry a little longer.
Seeing her crying so sadly, Ai Changhuan was relieved, and hurriedly asked what was going on: "Xiao Fan, what's wrong with you, you said, you want to kill me in a hurry, right?" ”
Ai Chang is anxious, Ji Xingfan has always been a cheerful, optimistic and strong person, and now that her career is booming, she really can't figure out what can make her cry like this, and it is precisely because she doesn't know anything that she is more worried.
Ji Xingfan didn't speak, just hugged Ai Changhuan and cried non-stop, Ai Changhuan was so angry that she cried, so he could only continue to comfort her and stop forcing her.
When Ji Xingfan had cried enough, he talked about the reason why he cried, but the reason was just an excuse she made up.
"Did you read the news some time ago? Ye Chen's fans are about to scold me to death, I am under a lot of pressure now, I dare not watch TV, I dare not answer the phone, and I dare not go on Weibo, this is really the biggest pressure I have suffered since I entered the entertainment industry. Ji Xingfan exhaled slowly, "This pressure is too great, I am almost out of breath." ”
Gossip psychology is the general psychology of the people, others don't say it, Ai Changhuan herself usually likes to watch gossip, but she just looks at it, she won't take it seriously, and she won't leave some radical remarks, most of the things in the entertainment industry are hype for various purposes, and if you are serious, you will lose.
Ji Xingfan has also seen a lot of strong winds and waves, and it seems that it is really stressful to be forced like this this time, no wonder she wants to come here to seek a trace of fresh and free air.
Ai Changhuan couldn't help but sigh: "If you want to get something, you have to pay something." When you become a popular star, you will inevitably lose some freedom, but Xiao Fan, it's good for you to be yourself, don't care too much about what others think of you, you might as well think more about those who support you, such as ...... For example, Sister Anxin......"
Ji Xingfan wiped his tears: "You're right, I should think more about those who support me, I can't be defeated, absolutely not." ”
As soon as the voice fell, the phone remembered again, it was still that song, it was still that person.
Ai Changhuan asked: "Do you want to pick it up, maybe it was my aunt calling." ”
She felt that Anniversary's heart must be very worried about Ji Xingfan, so she called one after another.
Ji Xingfan coldly hooked the corners of his mouth, that call may be from anyone, but it can't be Anniversary, she only has Uncle Bai in her eyes, and even her own daughter has to stand aside.
Closing his eyes, Ji Xingfan said lightly: "It's not my mother, it's probably a reporter from Entertainment Weekly who called to ask." ”
"Ah......" Ai Changhuan felt a little bored, these people are really, isn't it enough that they have already forced people to this role, they even called and chased after them, don't they know that artists are also human beings and are vulnerable? Why bother with each other like this.
"Why don't you just shut it down?" She proposed.
Ji Xingfan thought about it, finally took the phone, looked at the two words Bai Jin on the screen and kept jumping, his eyes flashed, and then he pressed the power button and chose to turn it off.
It's time to worry him a little as a punishment for him.
After shutting down, Ji Xingfan asked Ai Changhuan: "It shouldn't be found here, right?" ”
Bai Jin is a very powerful person, before she went to film in other places because her mobile phone was out of battery, he also found someone to quickly locate her location, specific to which hotel and which room, now she doesn't want to be found by him so easily.
"Ah, I guess I can't find it." This is the military region's station, and if it is so easily traced, there is no need to mix it up.
"That's good." Ji Xingfan calmed down.
"Hmm." Seeing that Ji Xingfan was fine, Ai Changhuan began to wander again.
Ji Xingfan knew that she must be worried about the incident that happened at dinner, and after groaning, she asked, "Who are you thinking about, Lu Zhanke or Du Yucheng?" ”
"Huh?" was poked at the heart all of a sudden, Ai Changhuan panicked slightly, and then began to think about who he was thinking about just now.
Ji Xingfan said: "You always have to make a decision, whether it is Du Yucheng or Lu Zhanke." ”
Ai Changhuan's eyes flashed, but after a long silence, he chose to avoid reality: "I...... I don't know, everything is still unknown, isn't it? Du Yucheng...... Maybe it's not Qin Zhan......"
Without an answer from him, it was all just speculation.
Ji Xingfan really couldn't stand her luck mentality: "What other answers do you want to get, don't you know how much Du Yucheng drank after you and Lu Zhanke left?" You didn't see him leave at the end...... It's heartbreaking......"
Ji Xingfan sighed, if Bai Jin could be as infatuated as Du Yucheng, she would not be as sad and crying alone as she is now.
"Really?" Ai Changhuan bit her lip, a deep sense of guilt and uneasiness welled up in her heart, when Lu Zhanke said that, she was indeed scared silly, and she didn't think of going back, "But ......"
Why didn't he say anything while she was there?
"If you don't believe me, I'll ask again tomorrow, but you have to think about it now, what you're going to do after you say hello."
"I ...... I haven't thought about it yet......" The relationship between the three people is really messy, she wanted to continue to escape, but she didn't expect to be forced by Ji Xingfan to move forward.
"It's okay if he wasn't Qin Zhan, what if he is?"
"Then I want to ask him first, who is he, Du Yucheng, Qin Zhan, which one is the real him...... Why did he lie to me, why didn't he recognize me......"
"So, did you choose Qin Zhan? Then you have to think about it well, you must always be firm in this idea, don't waver anymore, no matter what Lu Zhanke says, you don't change your decision. ”
"I ......" Ai Changhuan looked at Ji Xingfan, and stopped talking, if it was before, she would definitely be able to agree, because at that time, there was only one Qin Zhan in her heart, but now, she would feel sorry for Lu Zhanke, she didn't want to be sorry for him.
Did she change her mind? I still heard that she has become a bad woman, and she can love two people at the same time.
No, it's not, all she loves in her heart is Qin Zhan, she never thought of loving Lu Zhanke, this is the truest thought in her heart.
"Have you forgotten what you're here for? It was to discuss the divorce with Lu Zhanke, you forgot what you said before, you said that you love Qin Zhan. Ji Xingfan was ruthless, and took another dose of fierce medicine, "If you hesitate like this, you will only harm others and yourself." ”
"But didn't you encourage me to be with Lu Zhanke before?" Ai Changhuan remembered that time when she secretly took photos to show her, she scolded her for being stupid at the time, and she didn't want a man as good as Lu Zhanke.
"I ......" Ji Xingfan was speechless for a while, and was stunned for a while before he said, "At this time and that time, I am here to remind you that you can make your own decisions, I am afraid that you will be hurt." ”
"I ...... I know. Ai Changhuan said this, as if he had made up his mind.
Ji Xingfan's eyes quickly flashed a trace of complicated emotions, she clenched Ai Changhuan's hand, and whispered: "You are right to do this, you know very well who you love in your heart." ”
Just like herself, she knew in her heart that although she hated Bai Jin to death, she was willing to die for him.
She doesn't care, she can sacrifice anything.