Song Qingchun's heart ached sullenly, and he continued to look down.

"October 3rd, 1996, fine. I transferred to a new school, and I had been out of the mental hospital for three days, but I felt that my world was still dark, and everything around me was clearly in front of my eyes, but I felt that it was far away from me. ”

"In 1996, on October 5th, at three o'clock in the morning, there was no moon and no stars. I woke up from my nightmare again, lifted the quilt and jumped out of bed, and the first thing I did was to rush into the bathroom. There was no hot water in the dormitory, so I took a cold shower for a full hour on a late autumn night. The other roommates were all asleep, the dormitory was very quiet, and I was shivering from the cold, lying on the bed, but I didn't feel sleepy at all. I felt dirty. ”

Dirty? Why does Su Zhinian feel dirty?

On the first page of the diary, three diaries had already been written, but it gave Song Qingchun a lot of questions.

She flipped through the paper lightly and looked at the second page.

"On October 6, 1996, it was cloudy and rainy. I had a nightmare again, it was still the scene in the mental hospital, it was clear that so much time had passed, but the feeling of the old woman touching me was still exceptionally clear in the dream, I was disgusting, I hid in the toilet and vomited for half an hour, and then it was still a cold shower for more than an hour, I went to class during the day, I felt that everything in the classroom was dirty, even my classmates were dirty, I started to have a fever in the afternoon, today is Friday, I came home from school in the evening, my mother worked overtime, I was the only one at home, I had a high fever and was uncomfortable, I didn't call my mother to ask for dependence as before, I found some medicine to eat, and lay on the bed and fell asleep. ”

"The feeling of an old woman touching me", Song Qingchun read this sentence several times before he realized what it meant.

Young Su Zhinian, has he ever been bullied? No wonder she has always felt that his cleanliness is terrible, it turns out that it is because of this incident......

In front of her eyes, there seemed to be a faint appearance, the beautiful Su Zhinian when she was young, and the scene of being bullied; A man is sick and unconscious in bed...... Song Qingchun felt that her heart was tightly bound by something and contracted hard, and it was a little difficult for her to breathe in pain.

She never knew that he had such a dark experience when she was a child......

"On October 8, 1996, the weather was sunny and windless. On weekends, boring, walking around alone with headphones on, so many people on the street, noisy and lively, but I don't fit in with this world. At the mouth of Mingjing Hutong, I met a little girl, a person wearing a peaked cap said to invite her to eat candy, and she nodded stupidly and agreed. The man in the cap was a trafficker. I didn't want to bother with it, but the girl picked up my wallet while she was passing me. I simply didn't want to owe her a favor and told her that uncle was a bad person. She looked at me with blinking eyes, and didn't speak, she looked really stupid, the kind of hopelessly stupid, which made me think she didn't understand what I was talking about, and just when I regretted talking a little and was about to turn away, she actually said to the man, I don't want you to leave, my brother said you are a bad person. ”