I slowly turned my eyes, I couldn't see my own expression, but I could see from his suddenly sunken face that I must no longer be as calm as before at this moment, I asked, "Ah Ping, did you forget to tell me something?" ”

He didn't make a sound, but his eyes gradually darkened, perhaps words had no meaning at this time. But I still burst out of my teeth with the words, "What about the kids?" ”

I've dreamed for too long, and when I wake up, I forget the most important thing, what about the child?

"Ah Ping, where is the child?" At that time, the child was April when I was beaten by the concubine's people, and I was in a coma for half a year, what about the child in my womb?

The hand that was being held tightened for a minute, and in the line of sight, Ah Ping got up from the chair and squatted in front of me, looking up slightly and staring at me.

"Lan, we'll be fine later."

One sentence is a real hammer, and it also destroys all my hopes.

The heart is very sad, it turns out that there is a kind of pain in this world that I don't know where to start, I just feel that it is dense like a needle prick, piercing into the skin at once, submerged into the blood vessels, and the next moment the emotion completely collapses, leaving only the wailing of pain.

My body suddenly soared into the air, and I was carried into my arms, and he was put into the chaise longue and grabbed me, my face pressed into his chest. He didn't say anything to comfort, just tightened his arms. At this time, we are like animals that depend on each other, hugging each other to keep us alive, and if it weren't for him, I think I might really be suffocating.

Orchid Garden, once my safest fortress, is now a nightmare for me. I finally understood why Ah Ping wanted to seal this place, because it buried my son's soul, and I wanted to sink into a nightmare, but Ah Ping would not allow it.

He forcibly carried me out of the Orchid Garden, and said firmly in my ear, "I don't want to see you sad whenever possible, but I must not let you leave me, it will destroy your mind here." ”

I was taken back to his dormitory, and almost all of them were taken care of by him, except for the fact that he took care of me every morning when he was in the morning court, and the little palace maid named Xiaoxiao took care of me. And Aunt Yun still needs to bring Yuan'er, so most of the time I serve with a smile.

On the surface, it seems that the trip to Orchid Garden has passed that night, but I know that there is a big hole in my heart, and I can't fill it up. I didn't even dare to see Yuan'er, when Aunt Yun brought Yuan'er here, I would close my eyes and pretend to be asleep, no matter how Yuan'er shouted at me, I didn't pay attention to it, and only slowly opened my eyes after they left.

Xiaoxiao didn't understand why I did this, because she didn't understand that when I saw Yuan'er, I thought of the debt I owed to him since he was born, and the child I hadn't met before was even killed in the right to live.

I must be the most irresponsible mother in the whole world.

Xiaoxiao would tell Ah Ping about my condition every day, and he would see my situation when he came back, so although he didn't seem to be doing well on the surface, he could feel his mood very negative when he hugged me at night. But there was nothing I could do, and I couldn't go through this psychological digestion process for the time being, so I couldn't comfort him.

I even wonder if I was just relieved, even if I wasn't happy, would I be too cruel to the child who wasn't born yet? I don't know if God has eyes, but I hope that tiny soul can become a star in the night sky, so that I can look up and repent.

I know that there is something wrong with my mentality, and it also affects the emotions of the people around me, but it is like walking into a swamp and getting lost, and I can't get out myself. Especially Xiaoxiao once said that she leaked her mouth and revealed the diagnosis of the imperial doctor on me!

After I asked again and again, Xiaoxiao cringed and said the situation at that time. At that time, she was just a little maid in the Tai Hospital, and when she got the order, she rushed to the Orchid Garden with a group of imperial doctors, she was very surprised when she saw me for the first time, and she could almost describe me as a bloody person, the entire lower half of her skirt was soaked with blood, and her chest was undulating as if she had been silent. She saw that Ah Ping's eyes were red at that time, his face was fierce, and he burst out of his mouth with a death order: If I am gone that day, then he will be buried with everyone present!

It is said that everyone present did not come alone when he rushed over, but brought a group of brocade guards and guards, and they surrounded the Orchid Garden layer by layer. The doctors were all frightened, even Xiaoxiao felt that it might be because he had to give his life that day, the doctors were trembling and treating me, and Renke proposed to use the thousand-year-old ginseng to hang my breath, and with the permission of Ah Ping, Xiaoxiao was sent back to the hospital to get ginseng, and after she took it, she was ordered to cut the ginseng into ginseng slices and put it under my tongue.

She didn't even dare to breathe, and when she heard the doctor behind her trembling and say, I may have ...... because of this injury. It's hard to conceive again!

The air condensed in an instant, and Ah Ping asked them to repeat it again, and all the imperial doctors were so frightened that they didn't dare to speak again.

Zhu Yuanzhang came at this time, it can be said that he came at the right time, if Zhu Yuanzhang didn't come to preside over the overall situation, I was afraid that Ah Ping at that time might really go crazy.

After listening to Xiaoxiao's words, I was silent for a long time, and finally asked the question: "What about the concubine?" ”

In the final analysis, the root cause of all this is the concubine, and she wants to stand up for her Li family. As for Concubine Lu, I don't know, judging from the situation at the time, she seems to have a hint of wanting to stand on my side, because she has persuaded her.

Xiaoxiao's face changed suddenly, and he subconsciously shook his head and said he didn't know.

I frowned, her reaction was obviously informed, "If you don't say it, you can get out now." "People who don't really want to stay with me. However, I think that since Zhu Yuanzhang is here, there should not be too many waves in the follow-up, at least it is impossible to let Ah Ping move the concubine, but to ask those palace maids and eunuchs for guilt.

But he laughed and confessed quietly: "At that time, after the emperor came, the emperor was angry and thoroughly investigated the whole incident, but he only beheaded several eunuchs who did it in public, and the rest were taken into custody first. Everyone thought that this incident was in the past, until the first emperor died, and the emperor ascended the throne as emperor first, and then issued an edict ......"

"What's more?" I vaguely felt that Xiaoxiao was afraid of that command, and I could already see the fear in her eyes.

"Martyrdom of the concubine!"

I was shocked, Ah Ping finally made a move? He did not hide this hatred because of Zhu Yuanzhang, and chose to push the concubine into hell regardless of the world's tongue when he had the real power.

Suddenly, a deep fear surged in his heart, if he said that he hated the concubine, then he must have a grudge against Concubine Lu. I had heard this before I fell into a coma at that time, and his resentment against Concubine Lu had overshadowed everything. The final fate of the concubine is this, so what about Concubine Lu? Will he do something reckless that his six relatives don't recognize? I'm really afraid that he will do this, because it is reasonable to let the concubine give Zhu Yuanzhang a funeral, but once the act of killing his mother is completed, it will inevitably make him lose the support of the people, and he will even be shameless.

Almost holding his breath, he asked, "So, what about Concubine Lu?" ”

Xiaoxiao was stunned for a moment, and then replied: "Niangniang said that it is the Empress Dowager Lu, and she was also named the Empress Dowager after the emperor ascended the throne." I breathed a sigh of relief, after all, Ah Ping didn't really do anything unfilial, but he laughed and said: "However, the Queen Mother is now dedicated to the Buddha and doesn't ask about the harem." ”

"One heart to the Buddha?" I was amazed by this answer, the impression of Concubine Lu is always dignified and solemn, and she has nothing to do with the Buddha at all.

"The emperor ordered someone to build a Buddhist hall in the palace, which was specially used by the Queen Mother to chant Buddha."

This matter doesn't sound suspicious, but with my understanding of Ah Ping, I'm afraid that on the surface, he named Concubine Lu as the queen mother, but in private, he took away her right to be in charge of the harem, and used a Buddhist hall as a cage, so that Concubine Lu will only have the false name of the queen mother for the rest of her life. I don't know if this is the biggest punishment for Concubine Lu, but I only know that Ah Ping's approach is ruthless enough.

Concubine Lu was relieved, so who is in charge of this harem?

"Me?" I looked at Xiaoxiao in amazement, she actually said that I was the master of the harem, how could it be? I've been in a coma in bed for half a year, what am I going to do?

And Xiaoxiao gave me an even more shocking answer - after Ah Ping ascended the throne, he also made a will, that is, to make me the queen and take charge of the golden seal of the harem. During the period when I didn't wake up, he temporarily took charge of the harem, which means that in the end he grabbed all the power in his hands, including the power of life and death in the harem. What makes my heart flutter is that I am one step closer to history!

Before the identity was poured into the palace to marry Ah Ping, I always thought that maybe there was a turning point, because it was still early, and I could always find the most appropriate way to break this game. But I never imagined that there would be a concubine, let alone that I would be in a coma for half a year, and I missed many opportunities that might be able to turn the situation around.

Now, Ah Ping has called the emperor to change the name of the year to Jianwen, and I have been canonized as the queen for four years.

Will I be able to turn the tide in the remaining four years? After this conversation, I became more and more decadent, and even though I had the ability to move, I still lay down most of the time.

In the afternoon of this day, I was lying in the temple when I felt my elbow being pushed and opened my eyes, and I saw that Ah Ping had returned. He pulled me up from the bed, frowned slightly, and asked, "Have you eaten today?" ”

I replied, "Yes." "In fact, I can't eat it after two bites, not because of mood or anything, it's really hard to swallow, no matter how delicious it is, I feel bland and tasteless in my mouth, and even a little nauseous, maybe I have anorexia.

Ah Ping didn't break me, but just took me in front of him and said, "Come down, take you somewhere?" ”