When I opened my eyes, I saw the familiar ceiling above, stunned, still unrecovered from the time reset.

There was a familiar sound in my ears, it rang in my ears, and the sound waves came into my ears in bursts, all the way to the depths of my nerves, and I felt a little dizzy in my head, with a slight pain and trembling, and for the first time I felt that this alarm clock was so harsh and terrifying.

I wanted to turn off the sound, to stop the torture it was inflicting on me, but in reality, I was still lying motionless on the bed, staring blankly at the ceiling, as if my whole body had stiffened, from my head and neck to every finger and fingertip, I felt like I had suddenly lost control of my body, and I could only lie there stiffly, as if I had lost all the strength to roll my eyes.

I knew what was wrong with me and what the reason was, but I couldn't do anything, and now I'd rather I didn't know anything.

It wasn't yet dawn outside, and the room was still a little dark, and I looked at the dark white ceiling above with my eyes open, and felt as if something was condensing in the corners of my eyes, dripping down the side of my eyes, dripping into the scattered hair of my sideburns, and I felt a chill of dampness.

What is that, tears? Am I crying? Oh yes, I'm supposed to cry.

I don't know what I'm thinking, whether I'm thinking about the truth Lu Haisheng told me, or I'm grieving for myself or others, I don't know, I don't know. There was chaos in his eyes, and he couldn't figure it out, and he couldn't find the terminal. I just kept my eyes open and let the tears keep sliding down the corners of my eyes, soaking both sideburns.

Honestly, I don't feel crying, and if it weren't for the coldness of my sideburns, maybe I wouldn't even notice that I'm crying. My heart doesn't feel anything now, it's stiff, it's dead, it's numb. My heart was hollow, something was crumbling, collapsing, shattering, and I didn't know what was left there.

I don't know how long I lay like this, it felt like hours, and it wasn't until I couldn't seem to even cry that I regained control of my body and lifted my hand to grab my phone next to my pillow.

I pressed the button at random, and the phone screen lit up in front of me, and the light was still a little dazzling in the dim environment, and for a moment I felt that my eyes that had just lost moisture were unusually sour. Squinting slightly, I could see the time on the screen, and it turned out that I had only been lying here for ten minutes

I watched for a few seconds, but finally didn't stop, slamming the hand holding the phone on the bed and covering my closed eyes with the other. Under the cover of my palms, I was completely in darkness when I closed my eyes, and tears were secreted from the lacrimal glands uncontrollably, and even with my eyes closed, I could not stop the tears from flowing. I felt the wetness on my hands and grinned silently, venting all the pent-up emotions and emotions in my heart.

When I felt that I was finally feeling better, I sat up from the bed, reached out to put on the clothes I had prepared, and sat for a few seconds before I quickly got out of bed and went to the bathroom to wash up.

"Toot-toot-"

The waiting tone came from the receiver, and I desperately wanted the phone to be connected, wanting to hear Xu Ruohan's voice, and on the other hand, I had a strong urge to hang up the phone. I took a deep breath to calm down, my fingers gripping the receiver tightly, waiting for the moment when the call was connected.

"Hey, call early in the morning"

Xu Ruohan's familiar voice came from the microphone, and the hoarse and sleepy voice that had just woken up was actually not very clear, but when it came to my ears, it made me tremble slightly, and I almost cried again, and I collapsed and covered my mouth with my hands to suppress my voice, while breathing heavily, trying to calm myself down. Really, what's wrong with me, I hear her every day, don't I? Why why now

"Hello? Feed? Who is it? If you don't talk on the phone, I'll hang up if you don't talk anymore. ”

"Don't hang up"

Hearing Xu Ruohan's words, I hurriedly spoke out to stop him. It's just that because my emotions haven't completely calmed down, there is still a little weirdness in my voice.

"Mo Li?" Xu Ruohan's voice sounded puzzled, "Why did you call me at this time?" How many hours are left until our agreed time? What happened to you? It doesn't sound right."

I bit my lower lip tightly to prevent myself from crying again, took two deep breaths quickly, and said with difficulty, "I, can I go to your house now?" I've come across something that needs your input. ”

Xu Ruohan seemed to feel a little strange, but she didn't delve into it, she just happily agreed on the phone, "Of course you can, come here, I didn't come back from the business trip, my mother has already gone to work, and now I'm home alone, come and talk about it." ”

"Okay, then I'll go find you"

It wasn't until Xu Ruohan hung up the phone first, and after listening to the busy tone for several seconds, I also hung up the phone, stood for a few seconds, and then turned around and went out.

My house is not far from Xu Ruohan's house, and it only takes ten minutes to walk. On the way to Xu Ruohan's house, I kept forcing myself not to think, but I couldn't help but recall the truth that Lu Haisheng told me, I think I need opinions, I need other people's opinions, I need them very much.

When I arrived at Xu Ruohan's house, she hadn't gotten up yet, but after getting up and opening the door for me, she went back to her room and nestled in her messy quilt.

"Hah Tell me, something must have happened to you, and what advice do you need from me? ”

I looked at Xu Ruohan silent, I don't know if I really should tell her, I don't know if what I told her should be the truth or part of the content that has changed, and if I really have to tell her, then where to start, I don't know either.

Speaking of which, Xu Ruohan was originally an impatient person, but to my surprise, she was not in a hurry at all today, just quietly waiting for me to speak. I have to say that her patience and waiting wonderfully soothed me and gave me the courage to say everything.

Actually, I was very tired, and I really had to start with the time reset, it was like a secret in front of me, reminding me of its existence all the time, but I couldn't tell anyone, so I had to bear the weight of this secret alone. And then, I learned about the Endless Room, and I learned about today, and the secret was getting heavier and heavier, and she was oppressing my spirit and overwhelming me.

Although Lu Haisheng does know that time resets, I don't think his presence has helped me share that weight. Even if according to Lu Haisheng, I am actually the self of 2012, but I don't remember the memories of the past seven years for the time being, but it is one thing to know, and it is another thing to feel. At least in the perception I have now, Lu Haisheng is the person who appears with the time reset, and he seems to be a part of the time reset, and those people in my original life are the ones who can really make me feel that I have helped me share the heaviness.

Even if Lu Haisheng has already told me that these people around me, Xu Ruohan, my parents, and everyone I meet are illusory. But to my feelings, they were so real that I couldn't see them as deliberately created fakes.

I looked at Xu Ruohan in front of me and once again realized the true feelings in my heart. Whether it's her appearance, personality, way of speaking, everything, she's the person I remember, how can I see her as a fake person!?

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, opened them again and said, "I'm going to tell you something, something that sounds incredible. To be clear, this is not a prank, I am not mentally ill, and no matter how bizarre what I say next, please believe that what I say is the truth. ”

Xu Ruohan blinked, his eyes rolled in his sockets, he raised his hand and scratched his forehead but did not speak.

I thought she didn't believe me, that I was playing a prank or something, so I eagerly explained.

"I'm serious, I'm saying everything"

"I believe in you."

"What?"

"I said, I believe you."

I looked at Xu Ruohan in disbelief, thinking that what I heard just now was my own delusion, but seeing the expression on her face, I confirmed that it was not an illusion that she really had to say that she was willing to believe me.

"Why?" After a moment's hesitation, I couldn't help but ask.

Why did you believe me so easily? You don't even know what I'm talking about! If I told you that you are false, that you were created, that all the people and everything that connects your world are in fact false, that you were created to trap me, would you still be willing to believe me so simply and firmly?

I looked at Xu Ruohan waiting for her answer, she just shrugged her shoulders with a relaxed expression, "Why are there so many why?" Probably just because it's you. ”

"Just because it's me?"

"yes, just because it's you. We've known each other for so many years, and I know exactly what kind of person you are, and naturally I know that your serious appearance now can't be a prank. I think what you are going to say must be a very special thing, and I can feel it, and it is very difficult for you to say this, but you are really troubled, and I hope someone can give you advice. And in the end, you chose to tell me. ”

I looked at Xu Ruohan in a daze, and suddenly felt that my eyes were a little sour, it turns out that there really must be such a person in this world, you don't need to say much in front of such a person, that person will see through all your troubles and forbearance.

"If you're willing to tell me about this, it means that you think I'm going to believe in you and give you some advice." Xu Ruohan looked at me and smiled, "Since you have already chosen to believe me, how can I live up to the trust you gave me?" ”

I suddenly understood, just like Xu Ruohan said, because I subconsciously believed that she would trust me, so I chose to tell her the truth. And in the same way, she trusted me as I expected, just as I trusted her.

Maybe we can't tell in any order, we just trust each other, because we have been friends for many years, because that person is each other.

Probably this is the most precious part of friendship-

Because it is you, I am willing to choose to believe unconditionally, no matter when, where and what.

Thank you, thank you, willing to believe.