My legs and feet stumbled backwards, Ah Ping was far away, and I fell to the ground. Ah Ping immediately came to help me, and asked nervously: "Did the fall hurt?" I didn't respond, I looked up at the young man in the monk's robe in front of me, he didn't even change his expression, he just stood there with a cold gaze and looked at me. And from this angle, I found that his face was unhealthily white, his heart suddenly ached, and tears filled the frame, blurring his vision.

I couldn't control my emotions anymore, and cried and said: "Xiaotong, I know that you must be blaming Sister in your heart, because I was not there when you were most helpless, leaving you to bear the pain of losing your parents alone, and you came to the capital to find me again......"

Before he finished speaking, he was truncated by Xiaotong: "Who is looking for you?" I came to the capital to become a monk, and I heard that the water in the capital is better than the river in Batou Village, so I just want to see if the temples in the capital are fragrant. Did you see it when you came in? It's just that, there are few people, the incense is about to be cut off, and the monks in the temple only have steamed buns to gnaw every day, which is not as good as the food of rhubarb in the village. ”

In the end, they are sisters and brothers, they know how to poke me, and they know how to make me regret not being at the beginning.

But the most painful thing for me was the uncomfortable words, but the way he looked at me, there was boundless ridicule and hatred in it. He hated me, and he blamed me for all the sorrows he had experienced, and I was powerless to refute them.

Because Xiaotong grew up in the protected environment of his family since he was a child, he hardly even stepped out of the door, and the only time he went out was to come to Ginkgo Village to find me. He is very lonely, he puts the focus of his life on his family, and I am a dependent, a companion, and a straw for him, so the death of his parents has hit him the hardest is that I am not there.

It is certain that he left Batou Village to look for me, and even heard many times that I had come to the capital, but I am afraid that the bumps and twists and turns along the way are difficult for him to bear as a person who has never had social experience, otherwise how could he ...... Entered this ancient temple and became a monk?

"Come back with me." When the four characters burst out from between his teeth, he realized that he had been tightening his teeth, and when he suddenly let go, even the roots of his teeth were sore.

But Xiaotong smiled, his eyebrows were full of sarcasm: "Go back with you?" Where to go? Batou Village or Ginkgo Village? Oh no, they said you went to the capital, and you still have a home in the capital. ”

I was speechless to refute, at first I didn't know Ah Ping's true identity, and then I was taken away from Ginkgo Village involuntarily, but I asked myself, can't I even spare a little time to go home? Obviously not, it's that I always think that I can put the "home" itinerary aside, and always think that there is something more important to do, and when I look back, I realize that it is too late.

I have heard a sentence before - the son wants to raise but does not wait, at that time when I listened to it, I felt that it had nothing to do with myself, and I did not feel deeply, but today I feel that this is not only a painful thing, but also a sad thing, and I have experienced it twice.

Strictly speaking, the previous one can't be counted, but I am separated from my biological parents by the rings of time and space; And the next time it was a real son who wanted to raise and didn't wait. Maybe Xiaotong doesn't understand this truth too well, but the grief of his parents' death is like a boulder slammed on his head.

No, I'm going to have to insist on taking him away.

got up with Ah Ping's hand, stepped forward and grabbed Xiaotong's monk's robe, but the next moment I was stunned, my mind was blank, and I only murmured: "Your hand is ......"

The boy smiled miserably and said to me word by word, "Do you still want to take me back?" ”

I stared at his empty sleeve in disbelief, no way, how could his left hand be gone? Even tried to recall the scene when he swept the floor with his back when he came in just now, and his face turned pale inch by inch.

As soon as he opened his mouth, he was cut off by Xiao Tong and asked, "Do you want to ask why I broke my arm?" Let me tell you, I ran out of entanglements on the way to the capital, and I had to go to pick wild fruits from the trees to satisfy my hunger, but I was bitten by a poisonous snake. At that time, the whole arm was blackened, and if I wanted to live, I had to give it up, and I wanted to live, and I wanted to live to come to you. ”

"Xu Tong, that's enough!" Ah Ping, who had been silent for a long time, finally couldn't help but speak, his momentum may be much stronger than before, but Xiaotong smiled as if he was out of the way: "What? Distressed? I haven't said how to come to this monastery, she is my sister, she wants to know, I have to tell her one by one. When I arrived in the capital, I found out that I didn't know where to go to find you, and I was even stupid enough to ask if anyone had seen Xu Lan, and you said that I was stupid at that time. I was so stupid that I fainted in the corner of the street with hunger, and it was an old monk who carried me up the mountain and came here, and the old monk asked me if I wanted to stay, and if I wanted to stay, I had to shave my head and become a monk, did I still have a choice at that time? ”

As Xiao Tong spoke, I reflected the scene in my head, as if a hammer was hitting my heart one by one. Everything that happened was something I would never have thought about him before, and I found that I had lost all my position on what I could say and do, so I could only ask: "Xiaotong, what do you want me to do?" ”

"How?" He suddenly pulled away from the sleeve that I was holding between the palms, and pushed me hard, pushing me backwards, and then yelled at me: "I want you to get out, as far as you can!" ”

I looked at him fixedly, and spat softly: "Impossible! ”

Knowing that he's here, there's no way I'm going to let it go. Maybe people are sad to the extreme, but their thoughts are clear, and I have to take Xiaotong away today no matter what. I could already hear from his voice that the monks here did not treat him well, but in order to live, he had to stay. It sounds like the reason "to live", which is sad and sad.

Taking a deep breath, he looked at Xiao Tong and said seriously: "Xu Tong, whether you hate me or not, I must take you away today." ”

"What are you going to do with me? To give you peace of mind? He threw the broom at my feet and said hatefully, "Don't you think! Unexpectedly, the broom handle smashed directly into my knee, and the pain was a knee-jerk reaction, when his eyes were still on his face, and he could clearly see the worry in his eyes.

As soon as the broom landed on the ground, my knee bent up, and it really hurt so much that half of my leg went numb almost instantly.

Ah Ping was also immediately angry: "Come on, tie him up and take him away for me!" ”

The guards behind us immediately stepped forward to obey the order, and the two of them didn't have much effort to detain Xiao Tong, Xiao Tong's struggling face turned red, and his mouth roared my name: "Xu Lan, you dare to let them move me!" Heavenly Daddy and Auntie are watching. ”

"Stop!" I shouted, pushed Ah Ping away and walked over bumpy, the two guards saw that Ah Ping behind him still let go of his hand and retreated to the side, staring at those resentful eyes and saying word by word: "If you insist on not leaving, then I will stay." ”

Not to mention that he was stunned, even Ah Ping was shocked and asked, "What did you say?" ”

"I said I was going to stay."

Xiaotong: "But you're a woman." ”

"Is it stipulated that there can be no female pilgrims in the temple?" Turning his head to A-Ping, "I want to stay, you go back first, Yuan'er will leave it to you in the next few days." ”

Ah Ping's eyebrows furrowed, obviously disagreeing with my approach, "If you want to take him away and let them do it, why do you need to stay together?" I shook my head, he didn't know that after hearing about Xiaotong's many experiences and seeing his current state, I couldn't force him to do anything.

Since he doesn't want to go, I'll stay.

Eventually, Ah Ping went down the mountain, and before leaving, he found the presiding officer of the temple, and I don't know how to let me stay, and I was arranged to stay in a meditation room. But at the same time, I left two guards behind, and before leaving, I only said that he would come to pick me up tomorrow.

I am not too sad about his departure, I can understand that he has a lot of political affairs now, and it is not easy to accompany me out today, but I will feel a little lonely. At this time, if he can be by his side, he can give me more motivation to persevere, and I can also have more confidence to persuade Xiaotong.

Of course, it was Xiaotong who grieved me the most, after I witnessed the meal in the temple and felt the cold night on the mountain.

If the meditation room assigned to me was cold and sleepless, then the place where he slept was almost in the open air. He slept in the far corner of the meditation room, the room was not only ventilated, the window paper was torn, I stood by the window and looked through the moonlight, and saw him curled up into a ball wrapped in a thin quilt, still shivering.

At that moment, I was heartbroken, this is the child I once cared for, but now I am being treated so poorly.

I knocked open the host's door, and when I came back, I hugged a thick quilt, and when I covered it for Xiaotong, I heard him hum and say, "Why bother to fake me again, I'm already a waste." ”

His hands trembled, but he actually knew that he was not sleeping, how could he sleep if he was shaking like this. There is a cold wind on the mountain from time to time, and when it blows in through the cracks, the coolness drills into the bones. I said softly: "I asked for a quilt from the host, and if you don't want to cover it, throw it aside." He got up and walked back, but he asked, "How could he give you a quilt?" ”

After a pause, he replied truthfully: "I broke open his door and threatened that if he didn't give me the quilt, he would make a fuss about his whole temple." After waiting for a moment, he did not speak again, and walked towards the door, and as I stepped out of the threshold and turned to close the door, I heard a faint voice: "I am used to it." ”

My heart ached, and I almost burst into tears when the door closed.