What is Alive?

For others, life is just a little thing of firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea, no matter how much, talk about love, talk about love, plain, and a lifetime will pass.

But for Wei Yunyi, being alive is a very complicated thing.

It is so complex that it is necessary to devote all one's body and mind and energy to preparing for life.

Because he's a proton!

Protons are the bargaining chips for the emperor to weigh and restrict the place, a poor creature who humbly seeks to survive in other people's worlds, and a puppet whose life and death are not controlled by himself and have nothing to do with him. Those brocade clothes and jade food, wealth and leisure have nothing to do with protons, and the dignity that everyone admires is even more dazzling, and they can't touch the edge at all.

Ever since Wei Yunyi was sensible, he understood his situation.

He was the third son of King Huainan, and the eldest brother and second brother were sent to Kyoto one after another and never returned.

When he was six years old, his father sat on his lap, stroked his hair with tears, and sighed one after another: "Yi'er, my father really has no choice." ”

As a young man, he knew that Kyoto was a land of tigers and wolves.

The mother concubine was still there at that time, smiling in front of people, and after people, she always hugged him and shed thousands of tears, every time she cried, her eyes were painful when she looked at him.

Once, the nurse said that he had leaked his mouth, and he knew that he was the next to enter Kyoto.

It was at that moment that he suddenly understood why his father refused to have any more children, and no one could bear the blow of sending the children away one by one, and never knew whether they were alive or dead. The father only had three children, and he endured three heart-rending pains, and the emperor who was high up held his heart alive in his hands, which would be crushed at any time, and the father could only choose to be careful.

On the day that his father and mother sent him away, there was a heavy snowfall in Huainan, and the unprecedented snow almost covered the road to Kyoto, and the rut sank half a wheel when it moved.

Rao is like this, and the inner eunuch who came to announce the decree still urged him to leave, and kept saying that His Majesty wanted Yunyi, and let him come back when he went to Kyoto for the New Year.

The father responded expressionlessly, holding the waist of the mother concubine with one hand, holding him with the other, taking advantage of the unpreparedness of the inner prison, and whispered in his ear: "Yunyi, my father is incompetent and can't protect you." From now on, you have to protect yourself, and don't let anyone design you. Remember, don't trust anyone, anytime, anywhere! ”

"Where's the brothers?" Wei Yunyi seems to understand whether he understands or not.

Father gritted his teeth and looked pained: "I can't believe it!" No one believes it! ”

He nodded, and his father said, "Yunyi, your two brothers are living very hard over there, and you will be the same in the future, but don't hesitate to think of brotherhood." Father is looking forward to your return, but you must understand that when you return to Huainan, it will be when Father dies. At that time, no matter how sad or hateful you are, you have to find a way to protect yourself and try something else. ”

With that, his father sent him to the carriage from which he departed.

On the day he left Huainan, the snow was falling, and the inner supervisor was afraid of the cold, so he was not allowed to open the curtain to see his father and mother for the last time.

But he knew that the concubine was crying and fainting, because behind him came the cry of his father in pain, and there was a panic in the palace. This scene seems familiar, when the eldest brother and the second brother left the palace, it was like that.

It was the last time he saw his mother.

Two years after coming to Kyoto, the news came from Huainan that Princess Huainan had died of illness.

When the eight-year-old heard the news, he ran to his two older brothers to cry, but the two brothers pushed him away with some disgust, disgusted that he had delayed their polo game. He looked at the backs of his two elder brothers in the distance, and a chill came out of his heart - the terrible thing about Kyoto is probably not the jackals, tigers and leopards, but the prosperity that penetrates people's hearts, and wealth and coldness thin people's feelings!

But it was such a lack of affection, after the emperor heard it, he even sent someone to comfort his two elder brothers, and he, a sad man, was left out in the cold.

From that moment on, he found his way to survive in Kyoto.

Unbridled his desires, indulged in the arrogance of his nature, and let the rage, unscrupulousness, and ferocity fill him, the goal was achieved for the emperor, and he was truly safe.

An eight-year-old child, who is already quite scheming, is no longer difficult for him to abandon his good thoughts in front of others and fully demonstrate his malice. Others said that this child was hit to a slump, and since then he has broken the jar and broken, and there are a lot of complaints about his crazy behavior, but he saw from the more and more indulgent eyes of Emperor Wu that the path he chose was not a dead end.

Sure enough, Emperor Wu trusted him more and more, and while strictly guarding his two elder brothers, he gave him more freedom.

Later, Emperor Wu even let him enter the Guozijian and study with the princes.

He didn't like Guozijian, but he knew that the gentleman in Guozijian was the best in the world, and only by studying hard could he find a glimmer of life in the future. Not only Guozijian, he will go to any place that Emperor Wu asks him to go, and he must study hard when he goes.

However, his efforts cannot be seen by anyone, and he has to pretend to be indifferent and show others.

Ten years of Guozijian, in the blink of an eye, he has grown into a handsome young man, poetry, calligraphy, etiquette, piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, riding and archery swordsmanship, none of which is worse than a few princes. But he never showed his skills in front of others, and he did not show them easily after others. Similarly, after ten years of deliberate cultivation, anyone in Beijing who mentions him as the third son of Wei will show timidity, scold a "rebellious man", and grit his teeth in private, wishing that he would die into a pile of white bones soon.

By the time he turned eighteen, Emperor Wu had almost ignored his threats, and even allowed him to go out to play when he was happy.

At this time, Wei Shi wanted to go south to find an old man, but Emperor Wu was not at ease and asked him to accompany him, and he responded.

The old man Wei Shi was looking for only knew a nickname "Yun Yatou", what his surname and name were, and it was completely blank. The only clue is a small portrait drawn by Wei Shi himself, but it was only a four or five-year-old child. After many years, how can I find it?

In this regard, Wei Yunyi scoffed, but if he can get out of Kyoto, he will go too.

The two of them set off from Kyoto, walked and stopped along the south all the way, and after more than half a month, they only left Anyang City outside Kyoto for 20 miles. The speed at which the dog climbed made the two of them happy.

Two months later, the two arrived in Xiangzhou. After Xiangzhou, the northeast is the direction of Yangzhou, and the southeast is the direction of Huainan, he has an impulse in his heart, he wants to fly to Huainan immediately, and see his father who has been absent for a long time. But reason told him he couldn't. When Wei Shi asked him if he wanted to separate, he said categorically: "Your Majesty ordered me to protect you, and I will go wherever you go." ”

Wei Shi smiled at the time: "Do you know why I agreed to you to come with me?" ”

"Thank you, Your Highness, for your kindness." Wei Yunyi pursed his lips and smiled: "But the land of Huainan is like another country for me, and there is no difference between going and not going." ”

Is it really just a foreign land?

He remembered the wild daisies all over the mountains in Huainan, smelling it, the fragrance was fragrant; I remember the big red orange in Huainan, take a bite, and leave a fragrance on your lips and teeth; I remember the smile of the mother, as bright as the stars, and the shoulders of the father, majestic and generous......

Wei Shi no longer argued with him, and still took him to Yangzhou.

After a few days in Yangzhou, on this day, Wei Shi suddenly asked him: "Yunyi, if you have a daughter, you don't want people to find her, where will you hide her?" ”

"The small is hidden in the forest, and the big is hidden in the city." He thought for a moment and whispered.

Of course, this sentence was his temptation to Wei Shi, and he wanted to know whether this legendary prince who had no intention of seizing the heir was entrapping himself, or if he really had no quarrel with the world, and the answer would be known after returning to Beijing.

Wei Shi thought for a while and nodded: "Good way." ”

So, Wei Shi had a whim and went to Jinling.

Jinling, known as the Oriental Pearl of the Eastern Wei Dynasty, is one of the most prosperous cities in the eastern part of the Eastern Wei Dynasty. Standing under the defense of Jinling City, you can see the figures shuttling during the period, which is particularly lively. When he arrived here, as before, Wei Shizi went to find someone, and he also went to find his own fun, and half a month later, the two met in the same place again.

Plain white horse, slow with light fur, he led the horse to stroll on the street, looking at the ordinary people making small noises, and sincerely felt envious.

He never wronged himself, he lived in the best inn, and the food was all the most exquisite. As soon as I entered the inn, I asked about the most interesting place in the city.

The shopkeeper recommended the popular entertainment places on both sides of the Huai River, and Wei Yunyi also went.

The girl on the Huai River is spiritual, the sake is ecstatic, and she plays until night, and then she goes back to the inn. As soon as the breeze blew, the wine went to three points, and he walked around, knowing where he was. Unconsciously, his footsteps turned around and turned to a high wall.

It should be the backyard of a large family, separated by a carved fence, there are lights looming in the deep bamboo garden inside, happy laughter keeps coming, and the crisp girl's daily voice sounded behind the high wall: "Hurry up, hurry up, don't let my mother see it, let's play quietly for a while and go back." ”

"Miss, let's come back tomorrow, the craftsman said, the iron nails of this swing have just been driven in, and they are not tight enough, and it will not be easy to loosen when the big apricot tree grows a little longer. If it comes loose, it will fall. Then another voice rang out: "If you fall and hurt the young lady, the lady will punish the slave and maid." ”

He smiled slightly, I don't know which big family's daughter is so wild, and he gets up in the middle of the night to play on the swing.

Unconsciously, he stood on tiptoe and looked into the courtyard through the diamond-shaped carved hollow.

Next to the bamboo garden is a huge apricot tree, with lush branches and leaves, which is extremely pleasant. A thick branch stretched into the courtyard, and the swing in the maid's mouth was attached to it.

On the swing, a green figure was excitedly holding the two ropes of the swing, and his eyes were shining urging the maidservant: "Hurry up, hurry up and push." ”

The servant girl wept a sad face, and as she looked back, she carefully pushed her.

Wei Yunyi became interested, relying on his good martial arts, turned over the wall, stepped on the bamboo pole and jumped onto the apricot tree, and watched the excitement up close.

Unexpectedly, just after sitting down, the girl on the swing suddenly raised her head, and her eyes collided with him.