105 Man is not dust in dust
Because of Shi Xiang's request, I let go of my hand.
Chen Haodong's face was already ugly and crazy.
That's right, I can recognize Wang Yue at a glance because I once really wanted to take her to heart, so a back can make me recognize her. And she has never entered Chen Haodong's heart, not even into his eyes, how could Chen Haodong recognize it.
I hated Wang Yue's behavior of kneeling at my feet and pretending, and I said slowly: "Wang Yue, didn't you hate my pitiful appearance the most before? What are you doing now? ”
"What the hell are you talking about?" Wang Yue gasped on the ground, looked back at Chen Haodong, and asked blatantly: "Who is Wang Yue, are they all crazy?" Why don't they say I don't understand a word? ”
The scene suddenly descended into chaos.
Chen Haodong stared at her, his Adam's apple slid slightly, he looked at me, and then looked at the scene and sneered pathetically: "Even if she is really Wang Yue, she just wants to live again." Maybe she, like Lao Tzu, hates her former self to death. Girl, get up, don't kneel, at least don't kneel to someone who doesn't have a heart. ”
Wang Yue stood up with Chen Haodong in his eyes.
My heart fluttered, whether Chen Haodong's words meant to believe my words or not.
Just as I was thinking about this, Chen Haodong shook the stick in his hand and asked me in a low voice: "Fu San-year-old, I don't care who she is, even if it's Wang Yue, it doesn't matter." I'm still the same question, does that sentence you just said count? ”
Chen Haodong's eyes are particularly firm, like a camel running only for me, crushing the morning sun and twilight in life, and I can't forget it.
I stood there and shook slightly.
Before he could speak, Chen Haodong lifted the stick in his hand, then smiled and let go of his five fingers, and the smooth surface of the stick slid down the palm of his hand and fell to the floor making an extremely ugly and harsh sound.
Chen Haodong said calmly and bloodthirsty: "You don't have to answer. A woman who wants Lao Tzu to explode her head, I have ...... for so many years" The voice was suddenly a little choked, Chen Haodong crossed his hands on his hips, raised his chin very high, and said slowly: "What have you been doing for so many years?" When I was three years old, I also had flesh and blood, and it hurt terribly. I've said many times before to stop loving you, but this time was different. But don't be too happy, I, Chen Haodong, will still do what I should do. In the future, we really don't have any affection. I just want to have a good drink today, open the door, and let Lao Tzu go. ”
broke the sentence several times, and was picked up by Chen Haodong with difficulty, and finally said that he was completely discouraged.
Although he spoke very roughly, his words were actually not lethal, because he had said these things many times, and in the end he could not control himself, and I didn't think he could have said anything different this time.
I stared at him, and a complete chill passed through me. I looked at everyone around me, and each of us was not flesh and blood, and each of us knew all too well what it was like to be in pain. It's just that this thing doesn't use any comparison, does it? In this world, it's not that whoever hurts a little more, God will treat someone a little better.
Never.
What's even more ironic is that all the pain of our cadres is self-inflicted.
We are paranoid about loving someone, and then we can't tolerate others, in fact, there are only two outcomes of love.
One is together, the other is not together, and it sounds so sparse and ordinary.
Shi Fu frowned, stretched out his hand to Wang Yue and said, "Come home with me." ”
Wang Yue didn't dare to look into Shi Xiang's eyes, took a step back, and did not speak.
Chen Haodong turned his head to look at Wang Yue, pushed Wang Yue over with a push of his palm, and said coldly: "Everyone get out of Lao Tzu, I want to be quiet alone." ”
When he went to the moment, he grabbed Wang Yue's hand domineeringly, and Wang Yue desperately broke free, but it was useless.
"Brother Dong, just let Shen Gou go? My mother's brothers are all here, so let him leave some arms and legs or something. Ah Fei said anxiously.
Chen Haodong was afraid of Ah Fei's skull, and scolded in disgust: "See for yourself what kind of scene this will be?" Damn, pig brains. ”
"You made the door shut. Who is a pig brain. Ah Fei retorted very lightly.
Chen Haodong's eyes were frighteningly red, and he pointed to the door and said, "My pig brain, Lao Tzu's pig brain, go open the door!" After speaking, Chen Haodong raised his foot and kicked Ah Fei's ass.
The door of the bar finally opened, and Shen Huanjiu quietly took my hand and said in a low voice, "Three years old, let's go home and sleep." ”
In the end, Wang Yue still relied on his unchangeable willpower to say to Shi Xiang: "You let go." ”
That's right, Shi Xiang didn't take him away in the end.
For a while, we walked to the door of the bar like the previous guests in the bar, I looked back at Wang Yue step by step, Chen Haodong kept telling her to get out, but she just lowered her head, no matter how Chen Haodong pushed her, she didn't leave, and finally simply sat on the ground and hugged her legs, looking like she was here today.
Out of the bar, Shi Fu and I got into Shen Huanjiu's car. It's just that Shi Xiang proposed that he drive the car, but he drank, and when I wanted to say something, Shen Huanjiu covered my mouth and shook his head at me.
In this way, Shen Huanjiu and I sat in the back seat, covering our eyelids by ourselves, and even the long and dense eyelashes were covered quietly.
He took my hand and leaned back in his chair with his eyes closed.
The speed of the car is probably the best way to show the mood of the driver, Shi Xiang drove the car very fast, Shen Huanjiu closed his eyes and didn't care about anything, but I, a person with open eyes, didn't seem to have a stable heart rate the moment I went to drive.
The sedan drove out of F1 and was rampage through the streets of Beijing in the dead of night, almost scaring me to scream.
Finally, the car stopped firmly at the door of the villa, and I came out with a sigh of relief. Shen Huanjiu's hand also moved away at the right time, opened his eyes and said to me calmly, "Get out of the car." ”
He drove the car down, handed the car to Shi Fu, told him to drive away, and then led me into the house.
The night was dark as if ink had been splashed, Shen Huanjiu asked me to boil a pot of hot water, and then went upstairs to take a shower and drink the tea I made for him.
We finally had a quiet conversation, but he didn't mean to talk to me about anything, and I realized that maybe he was still angry with me.
You must know that an impulsive word in the bar that does not go through the brain hurts not only Chen Haodong alone.
"Shen Huanjiu." I moved my position and got very close to him.
He looked at me, pursed his lips lightly, and still ignored me.
I poked Shen Huanjiu's shoulder with my finger: "Didn't some people swear that they would exchange the smallest price for the greatest victory and benefits, urging Chen Haodong's arrogance?" How did you end up sullen and unhappy? ”
Shen Huanjiu sneered, and his eyes lightly passed over my face: "When I was in the bar, I suddenly felt that I didn't matter to you at all. If that kid really blows his own head out on the spur of the moment, are you going to have to leave me? I still have to slap myself in the face, and what I say doesn't count. ”
My heart is always easy to soften for Shen Huanjiu, I bit my mouth, put my face in front of him and asked, "Are you scared?" You're so smart that you can't tell I'm talking angry, right? ”
Shen Huanjiu followed up and gave me a sneer: "Am I smart? Do you think Chen Haodong is really stupid? Or do you think it's silly to go to the right place? ”
My brief smile stopped for a moment, and I was speechless when he asked.
"I, no."
The light spread softly, Shen Huanjiu sighed deeply, raised his finger and pointed at my nose and said very seriously: "Three years old, I am different from Chen Haodong. If you say you don't love him, he will still pester you again and again, and I may not be able to. The chances of two people being together for a long time and getting together are not high at all, I have broken my bottom line for you, I don't want to have a second time, I will give her everything I can to the woman next to me, I hope that person will always be you. ”
Since I got the certificate, Shen Huanjiu has been pampered by me in every way, and he often makes some unobtrusive jokes to me, he is eight years older than me, he is not as mechanical as before, there are many more people, and there are many more dangers.
His circle has slowly changed, and he has long been disgusted with doing business. I think he wants to live an ordinary life more than anyone else, but in Shen Huanjiu, an ordinary life is destined to be like a dream. Because everyone and everything are clearly telling him what he can't escape and what he must face.
I suddenly miss the days with him in Thailand, in that small courtyard full of different atmosphere, we can sleep until we wake up naturally, no one will really bother us to hug the early morning when we wake up, we can also stand at the window and kiss wantonly, in the sunset, at dusk, abandon trivialities, eat exotic food, enjoy the humble Thai hand salute, soft depiction of my love with him.
However, the exception is divination.
Shen Huanjiu put down the teacup and stood up, his eyes stayed on my face for a moment, and then he walked barefoot to the floor-to-ceiling window that had been smashed by Chen Haodong with his bare hands, lit a cigarette, and admired the darkness of the night, which was not beautiful at all.
His back is so beautiful, in my eyes, no matter how beautiful the scenery is, it may not be as good as Shen Huanjiu's casual movements or silhouettes.
My feet involuntarily approached him, and I felt safe when I looked at him when I was particularly upset.
I wanted to hug him, but his anger didn't seem to have cleared up, and all his hands still didn't reach out in the end. He moved his feet lightly and saw Shen Huanjiu's face on the glass.
He suddenly reached out and opened the window, tearing his shadow in two with his own hands.
I thought he just wanted to throw the cigarette butt out, but he said calmly: "It's all here, why don't you come in?" ”
The fastest update is error-free reading, please visit Please bookmark this site to read the latest!