I watched her smile at me, and my heart skipped a beat.

Seeing that I didn't say anything, Xu Shi tilted her head slightly, with a hint of doubt in her eyes, "What's wrong?" ”

"......," I lowered, "nothing." ”

I don't know why, the way she suddenly turned her head to look at me just now reminded me of her standing at the door of Nohi's room many years ago.

"Dean, do you have something to say to me?"

"......," I squeezed my fingertips slightly, and looked up and smiled at her, "I just wanted to ask you if today's dessert is appetizing?" ”

Her delicate eyebrows frowned slightly, then pouted lightly and shook her head, "It's not sweet." ”

My eyes opened slightly, so I went to pick up a kamacaron, and when I took a bite, the aroma and sweetness of the almonds instantly melted in my mouth......

"Xuanxuan......" I lifted my eyes to look at her, so angry and funny, I was actually fooled.

However, she looked at me with a very serious expression and said, "Not only is it not sweet, but it is also a little bitter." ”

"......" I looked at her in a daze.

She also looked at me, paused and said, "My sister hasn't come to see me for three months or four months, is it because of Brother Wen?" ”

"Of course not." I hurriedly said: "She's busy, your sister is in charge of the recently hit "Imperial Scheme", she has been busy with that for the past few months, the production is quite big, and ......"

I didn't say any more, because she was looking at me and suddenly turned her head to look at the lawn not far away, a little dazed, and a little like contemplation.

I frowned and called her, "Xuanxuan? ”

"Brother Wen flies solo, my sister must be sad." She said, turning her head to look at me, "She's been waiting six years. ”

I couldn't help but wrinkle my eyebrows, "How do you know so clearly?" ”

She curled her lips slightly, "At the end of each episode, the company will be revealed." ”

I came to me suddenly, but I still felt that something was wrong, and the feeling that came back six years ago.

And, as we chatted later, I found out that she knew obviously more than I thought, such as she even knew about Jiayuan's existence.

Although she behaved as usual, and even asked me to spend more time with Noxi, her sister must be sad at the moment.

I nodded in agreement, not daring to tell her that I was going back, or even to tell her that I hadn't seen Noshi in a long time.

I didn't rush to leave the ward, but went to her attending doctor and asked her about her recent condition, and the doctor said that she had been normal and that there was nothing wrong with her.

also said that if it weren't for her case, there would be no need to stay here at all.

I was sad for a moment, and then I asked the doctor to pay more attention to her recently, because Arwen came back, and I was afraid that there would be some impact on her heart.

The doctor nodded yes, and I said I'd come back next week.

After I went back, I didn't feel at ease, thinking about the way she looked when she mentioned Noxi, I almost couldn't help but want to call Noxi.

But in the end, I held back, because I knew very well that some things, once there was a glimmer of hope, just couldn't let go.

When she saw Xuanxuan again, her first question was to ask why she came.

I couldn't help but laugh, "Aren't you welcome me?" ”

"Of course not...... I mean, you...... I only came here last week, don't you usually come once a month? She said.

I looked at her thin face, and the sourness spread in my heart again, "Then I'll come once a week, okay?" ”

I thought she would be happy, but she wrung her eyebrows and asked me, "Dean, are you at odds with my sister?" ”

“…… Of course not. ”

She looked at me and was silent for a long time, and I was a little dumbfounded by her, feeling that my lies were so vulnerable.

I lowered my eyes, looked away, and paused for her voice to come, "If you didn't have a conflict, you should be guarding my sister now." ”

I took a deep breath, tried to purse my lips, and turned to look at her, "You mean, I shouldn't even be able to spare time to see you when I'm with her?" ”

"It's not ......" This time she lowered her eyes, and was silent for a while before saying, "I haven't seen her for a long time, and I miss her very much." ”

"......" My heart was sour again, and I pursed my lips and said, "Well, I'll go back and tell her, and then she will take some time to come and see you." ”

"Really?"

"Of course."

I chatted with her for more than an hour, then sent her to the ward, went to her doctor again, and got back the same as last time, everything was normal.

On the way back, I kept flashing in front of my eyes Xuanxuan bowed her head slightly and said that she missed Nuoxi, and I finally took out my mobile phone and called her.

However, it was her assistant who answered the phone, and her assistant told me that Noshi had not been to the company for more than half a month and had been at home.

I knew she would have a hard time accepting the fact that she had lost, but I really didn't expect her to be so decadent that she even put down her work, which can be said to be a part of her life......

I went to see her, there were no debris all over the floor, no empty wine bottles that had fallen to the ground, but she was in a worse condition than I had imagined.

Dressed in white pajamas and pajamas, her long hair was scattered behind her, messy, her face was a little pale, and the important thing was that the confidence and arrogance in her body were gone, as if she had changed.

My heart is like a knife, but I can't do anything, just like since, I can only watch silently......

I told her that I went to see Xuanxuan, and Xuanxuan said that she missed her very much.

She said she would take the time to see Xuanxuan, and then there was a long silence.

Twenty minutes later, I walked out of the villa, and our conversation was just two sentences, nothing more.

Just as I opened the car door to get into the car, the assistant who sent me out actually stopped me, and then looked hesitant.

Zhu Ning has been with Nuoxi for many years, and she knows me well, so I can't help but wonder what happened to her?

She hesitated for another two seconds before telling me that Noxi had agreed to the marriage arranged by her father, and the other party was very powerful, but he was already fifty years old, and his ex-wife had only passed away for more than a year, so he was not worthy of Noxi at all.

My heart was shocked, looking at Zhu Ning's anxious eyes were red, a wave of anger rushed to the top of my head, and when I came back to my senses, I had already thrown myself out of the door and rushed back to the villa.

She was standing at the mouth of the spiral staircase, apparently trying to go back to her room.

"Gu Nuoxi—" I called out to her, so loud, so resentful, and angry for the first time, and burned my reason to pieces.

She turned to look at me sideways, and I rushed to her, reaching out and grabbing her shoulder, "Are you crazy?" ”

I don't know what it was, but she was visibly frightened by the way I looked, staring blankly at me, and paused for two seconds before she wrung her eyebrows and reached out to try to push me away.

"Let go!" She drank low.

"I'm asking if you're crazy?" The voice that burst out between my teeth, so cruel, I couldn't believe it was mine.

"You're crazy!" She yelled at me, shoved me hard, "Let go—"

I looked at her at this moment, shaking her snow-white slender neck hidden under her black hair, and the world in front of me seemed to turn red, and an urge to pinch it arose.

Since they are all living so painfully, so cautious, so tired, isn't it a relief to die?

Just like my dad, you don't have to think about anything, you don't have to care about anything, you don't have to face the eyes of the world, you don't have to be overwhelmed by the shackles of fate......

"Dean—you let go of Miss Gu—" The voice of a crying voice came in his ear, it was Zhu Ning.

Zhu Ning cried and grabbed my arm, and the housekeeper rushed over at some point, pulling my other hand.

When I came back to my senses, I found my hand resting on Noshi's neck, and her pale face turned red and her lips purple.

I quickly let go of my hand and took two sharp steps back, and Noshi slid to the ground, covering his neck and coughing.

Zhu Ning hurriedly bowed and knelt on the ground and anxiously asked her if she was okay, while the housekeeper stood between her and me.

I chattered my lips and slowly rolled my eyes, and the servant standing next to me stepped back, and I turned back to look at Noshi who was coughing with his head down.

I shook my head and shook as I said, "I won't apologize, I won't ......"

Yes, no, I always wanted her to be happy, but she actually gave up on herself in the end! There are better choices, but I prefer to practice myself!

"Gu Nuoxi, you are the most selfish person I have ever met, you can only see yourself!" I turned and walked out of the villa, "So I'm not going to apologize." ”

I didn't go to the restaurant again, I stayed at home all day, looking at my hands from time to time, and every time I think about the feeling of these hands on that slender neck, I feel terrified.

It turns out that people are so terrible when they lose their minds, was Xuanxuan the same as me back then?

However, even though I know I was wrong, I still won't apologize.

Because she is too selfish, selfishly giving warmth and help to others, giving people hope, just because she wants to, and selfishly giving up those who rely on her and hope that she is happy, just because she is willful.

She's the one who doesn't grow up, no matter how she looks......

I waited for two days, and I waited for Nuoxi's call, but it was not to accuse me, nor to sue me, but to ask me if Xuanxuan had come to me.

I was stunned, "Isn't Xuanxuan in the hospital?" ”

"She ran away last night." Noshi's voice trembled a little.

My heart hit my chest hard, and I paused for two seconds before I found a voice, "What did you say?" ”

Nuoxi told me that Xuanxuan ran out of the psychiatric hospital last night, and only found out when she was doing rounds in the morning, and then she searched around for a long time and didn't find it, and now it's night, and she is very worried, if she can't find it again, she can only call the police.

My head flashed over Xuanxuan's mention of Awen, first I was frightened, and then I thought that the mental hospital was outside the suburbs, she ran out last night, and I didn't know if something would happen, so I hung up the phone and rushed into the room to change clothes, ready to find someone.

However, I had just changed my clothes and walked out of the room when I heard the doorbell ring.

I walked quickly to the door, and when I opened it, I froze.

"You quarreled with my sister?" She looked up at me and said, her voice soft, and her little cloth shoes were full of mud.

I slowed for two seconds to find a voice, not angry, "What's the matter with you?!" ”