133 It is better to die than to die

I was stunned by his slap, my face was hot, and my mind went blank for a moment...... I stared at him in such a daze, and he also glared at me, and that cold-blooded and merciless look made me feel chills and disillusionment...... My whole heart sank and fell, into a dark black hole, and I was surrounded by a sense of despair that I had never felt before.

I don't know how much effort it took me to hold myself up, and sneered, "Duan Companion, if you want to break up with me, you only need one sentence, is it necessary to charge me with so many crimes?" ”

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"I'm really tired, and since we're not fit to be together, let's break up. I will not explain your accusations, but I will never forgive you again...... I only have one request now, please take your mother out of my house, completely disappear in front of my eyes in 5 minutes, and never see each other in the future, never owe each other! ”

His cold gaze locked on me for a long time, his tall and stiff body stood in front of him, and his aura was full of hatred and hostility towards me, eager to tear me apart in the next second...... I know that my lack of noise, no fuss, and no excuse further angered him, leaving him with nowhere to vent his hatred, and perhaps, more certain of his suspicions about me.

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"Roll !!" I finally exploded, and the roar interrupted him, and when he was done, he rushed into the room, turned all his clothes out of the closet and still on the floor, trembling as he threw them, his nose was sore, and tears finally rushed out.

turned to look at him, but he was just trying to comfort the frightened Jiang Wanru......

Next, he really took Jiang Wan and left without hesitation, but he didn't take any of his own things with him. The person was gone, but there were traces of him everywhere in the house, especially his clothes that I threw away, the more I looked at them, the more I couldn't stand it, and finally cleaned up his expensive clothes, drove them to a nearby garbage dump and threw them away!

Nightmares always come unprepared, and before I can even react to what is happening, every detail of my life reminds me that I have lost him. I thought I had gone through so many nightmares that I should have been made into steel a long time ago, but I didn't ...... I collapsed the day after he left, no matter how I pretended to be strong, the huge sense of loss and helplessness in my heart still weighed me down, and I couldn't breathe. I began the days when life was worse than death again.

He said those bastard things just because he never knew how much I loved him......

In his opinion, in the face of his original deception, I should take revenge on him and fight him to the death, instead of being willing to be his woman in the center of enduring humiliation. My compromise made him always feel that I was 'abnormal' like this, and I always suspected that I would 'retaliate' against him fiercely, especially He Yu's repeated entanglement, which made him even more insecure in this relationship. Therefore, once Jiang Wanru's matter broke out, he pointed the finger at me as if he had fallen into an evil spirit. It was not so much that he had listened to the nonsense of the three suspects, but that he had long suspected it in his heart, but he had not found a fuse.

Yes, in his opinion, only I have the greatest motivation to attack Jiang Wan.

It turned out that he and I had experienced such an embarrassing and unspeakable relationship...... From beginning to end, there is only calculation, deception, suspicion, revenge, and the so-called sweetness is just a short-term pleasure after the desire is satisfied, there is never any deep attachment to the bone marrow, and we can never come together to become a real family, not to mention, I can't even give him a child.

Now I finally understand that his 'infatuation' that once completely touched me was nothing more than a superficial oily tone, a signal of hunger and thirst when his body needed me. I was willing to let go of what happened, let go of my pride, let go of my pride, completely opened myself to him, and was ready to love him so much, and even when I was dependent on him in every way, he pushed me into hell again......

Every day, I am trapped in the pain of a sudden fall, trapped in this emptiness of losing him, wrapping myself tighter and tighter, repeatedly going around and around and unable to find an exit, feeling that the sky is dark every day, and the water I drink is also bitter, I don't want to see people, let alone see myself in the mirror.

I hate him, and I miss him even more, especially in the middle of the night, like crazy...... That man, his body, his smile, his eyes, his voice, his breath, his temperature, all that he had, had long since become the core of my life, the source of my joys and sorrows, and now, gone...... He was like a big living person who suddenly turned into a wisp of green smoke and drifted away.

Many times, I couldn't stand the torment, I took my mobile phone and wanted to take the initiative to contact him, I thought about how to explain my innocence to him, and I wanted to lower my arrogant head and beg him once, telling him how reluctant I was to him...... But I finally held it back and got through it day by day.

The charges he gave me were the greatest insult I have ever suffered in my life. From the moment he became suspicious of me, I knew that he and I would never be able to live forever, and it was completely over between us! No matter how much I miss, it's just that I'm not used to it.

But I'm still sick, very sick. Lying alone in bed, with a high fever, splitting headache, confused thinking, and confusion, but the physical pain has relieved me a lot of mental pressure, at least the physical discomfort, which can make me have no strength to entangle those ethereal things...... I want to sleep like this forever and never wake up again.

But in the haze, I heard the mobile phone ringing, my heart suddenly brightened, and my spirit was lifted, I thought it was him calling, trembling hands touched the mobile phone to look, and found that it was a call from the company secretary. The secretary respectfully reminded me on the phone that the quarterly summary meeting scheduled for this month was at 3 p.m. today, and asked me if I was sure I could attend so that she could proceed to the next step.

Even though my head was dizzy, I vaguely agreed to go to the company. I told myself that I couldn't go down like this anymore, that I couldn't die or live for men anymore, that I had to start all over again...... Oh, start over...... I got up with a strong spirit, struggled to get dressed, walked up and down with people floating, and casually cleaned myself up and went out.

Driving a car on the road is full of conditions, several times almost had a car accident, after being frightened, only a little concentration barely drove to the company safely. In the morning, I sat in the office and looked at the mountains of documents on the desk, and the words I saw were ghosted, my brain was about to explode, my whole body was cold, and my hands trembled, but in such a bad state, I still didn't want to go to the hospital.

I stayed up for another two hours, and when the ghosting on the document became heavier and heavier, and I was extremely uncomfortable, it was dark in front of my eyes, and I fainted.

When I woke up, I found myself lying in the hospital for infusion, and the person guarding me next to the bed turned out to be Lao Hu.

"Are you awake?" Lao Hu asked me with concern, and quickly poured me another glass of warm water and asked me to drink some water.

I took the glass of water and took a sip, and after saying thank you to Lao Hu briefly, after a short period of relaxation, my heart sank unconsciously, and I couldn't get up anymore.

Lao Hu didn't ask me what happened, nor did he complain about why I didn't come to the hospital when I was sick, but he was very considerate and quiet and took care of me by the bedside, lame but still kept running upstairs and downstairs for me. In the vagueness, Lao Hu became so kind in my eyes, although he was a strange and older man to me, he was very measured in contact with me, and did not make me feel any discomfort or inappropriateness...... I can see that he is not trying to repay me for helping him, but treating me well from the bottom of his heart, so that I will not be too desperate in these cold days.

Since Lao Hu sent me to the hospital, he didn't have extra money, so he only chose an ordinary ward, the ward was very simple, and there were several other patients living in it, and they all acquiesced that the relationship between me and Lao Hu was father and daughter, I didn't clarify, Lao Hu was just smiling.

In short, with Lao Hu's company and guidance, my state is slightly better, and I can eat.

But on the third day, the nurse smiled and informed me that my family had registered me and transferred me to the VIP ward, and quickly sent me to a new ward, which was a single room in good condition, and the air was much better than the original group ward. It seems that Lao Hu is really caring, and in the name of going out to buy lunch, he quietly transferred me to the ward, and he was thoughtful everywhere.

Half an hour later, when I was almost settled, lying on the bed to continue the infusion, closing my eyes and wanting to sleep, I remembered a familiar and gentle male voice in my ears, "Are you better?" ”

opened his eyes suddenly, and what appeared in his eyes was He Yu.

"What are you going to do?" I asked weakly, and then I turned my face away and didn't want to look at him.

"I transferred the ward for you." He sat down on the chair in front of me, and there was a little sarcasm between his eyebrows, "You're so sick that that person won't come to see you?" ”

"......" I didn't respond to him again.

His hand stroked my hair again, and the warm breath surrounded me, and soon, he leaned over and kissed me on the cheek, "Lu Yuncan, you are still my ...... after all"

I didn't resist or speak, like a puppet without a soul, leaving him to talk to himself.

"Even I didn't expect this trick to work so well, it seems that he actually doesn't treat you very well," He Yu said mockingly in my ear.

I heard something and turned to look at him, "What do you mean by that?" ”

He snorted and laughed, and after a little deliberation, he slowly confessed to me, "It's nothing, it's just that I got those three people and let them tell a little lie in front of Duan Beifeng, but I didn't expect Duan Beifeng to be so brainless, and I really believed it...... Things were going so smoothly that I was caught off guard. ”