This is a mountain, not a flat cemetery, and looking at the hillside through the car window, there are graves.

I finally know the difference between a cemetery and a cemetery, and the difference is not ordinary...... Not only in appearance, but also in the feeling, revealing an eerie forest cold, especially on this drizzly night.

Ah Wen drove all the way up, the speed was not fast, but there was no sign of stopping, after a while, I found that the grave bag was gradually decreasing, and I couldn't help asking: "Don't you get out of the car to find it?" ”

He paused and replied, "It should still be up there." ”

"How do you know?"

"There are no traces of firecrackers on the side of the road, and firecrackers will be set off on the coffin mountain."

"......" I see.

I just nodded, the speed of the car suddenly slowed down, Awen suddenly pulled over the steering wheel, I subconsciously turned my head to look out, and saw the side of the road and the weeds on the mountain a little white.

I think I've found a close intersection......

He pulled over and said to me, "I'll go by myself, you wait for me in the car." ”

How could I possibly reassure him that he was alone, "Can't I go?" ”

He took out a cigarette and lit it, exhaling the smoke, "It's not that you can't, it's that the mountain road is difficult to walk, and it's still raining, so you don't need to accompany me." ”

I wrinkled my eyebrows, "But I want to go." ”

Yes, I think, not only to accompany Arvin, but also to ...... Do you apologize and repent for Xuanxuan?

It's too pale, as Noshi said, things have happened, and everything seems pale, but I still want to see it......

He lifted his eyes, looked at me in the rearview mirror, and nodded with a pause, "Whatever you want." ”

As he spoke, he bit his cigarette on the tip of his teeth, pulled the car door and got out of the car, and I quickly followed him out of the car.

He led me a few steps forward and then branched off into a path that sloped upwards, and a little further in, I could see a staggered pile of graves.

The rain was not heavy, it was the kind of rain that would form like frosting when you put it on your hair, and the sky in the distance was gray and white, even if you didn't have lighting tools, it was not black that you couldn't see anything, but gray, dim feeling.

The road was full of weeds and gravel, and the mud soaked by the rain was slippery, and I almost fell down several times, but Arwen grabbed the weeds on the side of the road and walked quickly up the hill.

I almost fell again, I subconsciously reached out to grab the grass next to me, but my body was stable, but I slipped back, and the hand holding the grass was hot and painful, and there were barbs on the blades of grass.

"Are you alright?" Arwen finally stopped and turned to look at me.

"It's fine." I looked back, and when I raised my hand, there was a thin layer of plaster in my palm, and the burning pain spread......

"That grass will cut people, don't drag it." As he spoke, he turned and moved on.

...... "Now that you know that he still keeps pulling the grass up?" I wrung my eyebrows and followed, "How do I find it?" ”

"Find a high point, and look at it."

"......" turns out to be like this.

The mountain here is not high or steep, but the road is difficult to walk, more than ten minutes like this, he suddenly stopped, I suddenly felt it when I walked forward with my head covered, and I also stopped, looking up at him.

He was standing where he was, and he had turned his back to me, looking into the distance.

I realized something, and turned my head to look in the direction he was looking, and saw that at the bottom of the gray hillside, there was a place that looked a little white, which was different from the old and new around it.

I turned around, and just wanted to ask Arwen if he wanted to go down and have a look, but he was already walking briskly down, in that direction, at a very fast speed.

"Arwen—be careful—" He's too fast, and the trail is slippery, and I feel dangerous when I look at him.

He didn't reply to me, but quickly pulled a long distance from me, and by the time I went to chase after me, I turned around and stepped over a small pit and raised my head, his figure had become blurry and distant.

My eyebrows tightened, and I raised my hand again, and found that blood was oozing from my palm, a faint hint of red......

When I chased the new grave, Ah Wen was sitting on the ground smoking a cigarette against the tombstone, and in the dim light, he had to get close to see the words on the tombstone.

But I didn't dare to get closer, I didn't even dare to look, and the guilt and remorse in my heart churned terribly.

My gaze swept over the fruits and flowers laid out in front of the tombstone, and then landed on Arvin.

He hunched over, cigarette in his mouth, elbows on his knees, as if looking into the distance, as if he were looking at nothing.

My mouth moved, I didn't speak, I walked next to him and sat down, "I feel useless......"

"Why do you say that?"

“…… You're almost out of smoke before I catch up. "Actually, what I want to say is...... Along the way, I have always wanted to change something, but not only can't change it, but I can't even stop it......

This feeling was very powerless, indescribable powerlessness, and I turned my eyes and looked around.

This tomb is much larger than the surroundings, the tombstone is surrounded by a cement stone platform, very flat, and there are two not small stone lions, the weeds and mud around the stone platform are red and white confetti everywhere, and there is something white stuck in the grave, which has been beaten by the rain and cannot be seen.

Ah Wen, who had been silent for a while, suddenly raised his hand, took down the cigarette that was already a short piece of cigarette in his mouth, and then held it on his fingertips and bounced it out into the distance.

"You reminded me of ......"

"......" I missed a beat.

"And I also know what happened to Xuanxuan before."

"Arwen ......"

"Dean." He interrupted me, then raised his hand and patted me on the shoulder, "It's okay with you, I've been thinking a lot about it these days, I still have to wait for a result, if it ......"

His lips moved, but he didn't continue, I frowned, "Awen, no matter what, you don't want to do stupid things anymore, if Xuanxuan ......"

I couldn't say any more, my head flashed over the way Xuanxuan crossed the kitchen corridor with her schoolbag on her back and ran towards me, I paused before saying, "Is it okay to leave it to the law?" ”

He didn't reply to me, but turned to look sideways at the tombstone, "I'm sorry, I'm only coming to see you now." ”

"......" My heart tightened, and my vision was instantly clouded with a layer of mist.

If Xuanxuan really intentionally killed someone, maybe it would be a death sentence, then how would I feel when I sat in front of the tombstone again?

That night, I sat in front of the tombstone with Arwen for more than two hours, until the rain suddenly became heavy, and he said let's go.

In fact, his clothes were already soaking wet, and the rain was not the same, and I thought that if I hadn't been there, he might have sat until dawn.

And he must have realized something, because he said something to the tombstone, he did not dare to meet her parents, forgive him for his cowardice.

The day after we went back, we flew directly back to S City, and he wanted to follow the case.

The first thing he did when he went back was to find Noshi, and he said that he was going to question her face to face, and he wanted to listen to her in person.

Noshi came, and rushed to the restaurant an hour after hanging up the phone, and the table where the four of them had been talking and laughing was not only one less at the moment, but also so silent that they seemed to be able to hear each other's breathing.

After half a ring, Arwen looked at Nuoxi, "I want to listen to you say it once, you don't mean it." ”

"My answer is still the same, I will not do this kind of thing that harms the interests of the family."

Aven looked at her steadily, paused and nodded, then stood up, "Let's go first." ”

I hurriedly stood up to chase Awen, and when I got to the door, he said, "You don't need to accompany me, you have been with me long enough, I want to be alone quietly." ”

...... I wanted to say something, but I couldn't, and he had already turned around and walked quickly to the car and got into the car.

When Xuanxuan identified it, I was relieved.

I know I'm selfish, but I really don't want to see her die, or rather, I really don't want to believe that the real her would do such a thing, I'd rather believe that she's sick.

The case didn't drag on for too long, and I wasn't qualified to go to the hearing, but Noxi told me that Jiayi's parents were not convinced and would apply for the above, and Awen never appeared.

I had called him a few times before, but he didn't seem to want to talk to me more, so I hesitated for a night and called him anyway, but it turned out to be empty......

Arwen disappeared like this, without leaving a word, as if the world had evaporated, just when Nuoxi and I were so worried that we wanted to go to the police, I received an email, which was sent by Arwen, with only one sentence.

'Help me tell Sister Gu, I've found a new job, don't read it. ’

Sister Gu, the bridge of my nose became sour again...... Has this storm passed?

I didn't tell him about it, but forwarded the email directly to Noxi, who came to the restaurant in the afternoon and drank a lot of wine alone, and then I saw her cry for the second time, but it wasn't when she was so drunk that she didn't know anything.

She cried and asked me, whose fault was it? Why is it so tiring to be alive? Why did she tell Xuan Xuan Jiayi's address? Why can't you turn back time?

I couldn't answer her, I could only watch her continue to cry, so powerless.

In the second month after Xuanxuan was sent to a psychiatric hospital, I applied to see her, but I could only look through the heavy door panel and through the small window on the door.

She was dressed in a white hospital gown, she had lost a full circle of weight, she was huddled at the head of the bed, her knees rolled up, and she didn't move, and my heart ached for a while.

"Can I go in and have a few words with her?"

"I'm sorry, not at the moment."

“……”

After that, I insisted on seeing her every month, and occasionally Noshi would go with me when he had time, and after three months, we were finally able to meet her normally over the heavy door, but with the doctors and nurses present.

She didn't look much, she was so thin that her eyes were sunken, and she kept asking us, is Brother Wen okay? Why didn't Brother Wen come to see her?

She begged us to tell Arwen that she knew she was wrong, but that woman was not a good person, she really wanted to harm him, and she would harm him to nothing.

I looked at that thin face, and the feeling of powerlessness crept up in my heart again......

As for Arwen, I didn't find him until a year later.

He has a grandmother, in a nursing home, so I go back every month to see Xuanxuan, I will also go to the nursing home to see his grandmother, more than half a year later, her grandmother said that Ah Wen came the day before yesterday, my heart at the same time, but also begged the staff, if Ah Wen came again, remember to call me.

So, when he showed up at the nursing home for the second time, I rushed over when I got the call.