"Last year she was grumpy, frightened, babbling gibberish, and now she doesn't remember anyone but her mother."

I quietly looked at Tong Anqi sitting on the bed through the glassless window frame on the door of the ward. She curled up her legs, tugging at the pom-poms on a shabby knit sweater with great interest, humming something inaudible in her mouth, serious like a child finishing her homework.

"Does she like to tuddle with that cotton ball?"

The head of the department nodded. He was a friend of my little uncle, and Angel was transferred to the hospital because my uncle helped me go through the procedures, so after knowing my intention of coming, he was very enthusiastic and took me to see Tong Anqi. "Yes, the nurses in our hospital will specially ask for this kind of rubbed pilling gown from relatives at home, such patients will have some quirks, but as long as they are satisfied, they will be quiet and cooperate with the treatment."

I think she took these cotton balls as her trouble, and when she cleaned them, she felt comfortable.

"Angel Tong."

I whispered her name, but she didn't look up, still humming an out-of-tune tune and doing the job at hand very seriously.

"I'm Ma Jiaolong."

The movement of her hand paused, and finally she raised her eyes to look at me, the face that I could only remember only arrogantly, unsuspecting for the first time, simply ignorant, I looked at her. Again: "Do you remember me?" ”

She looked at me and smiled, the kind of smile without content, like you were walking down the street and saw a stranger who suddenly laughed at you, and before I could react, she lowered her head. Humming the tune, the movements of his hands continued, and after a while, a small pile of pom-pom strings had been pulled out of the hospital bed beside him.

"It's useless, she forgets no one but her mother."

I forgot, she hated me so much, a sister who had become an imaginary enemy when she was ten years old, if she hadn't forgotten, how could she smile at me.

"Does her mom come often?"

The director nodded, "Come, her mother will clean up in the yard in the morning, but she only dares to come to see her while she is asleep." Otherwise, she would have changed her appearance just by thinking about it, scolding her mother, and having suicidal tendencies."

I nodded, "Who is responsible for Tong Anqi's hospitalization expenses?" ”

"Dr. Zhuo."

The director responded lightly, and sighed in his mouth: "It's not easy for him, he came back once before, and he came to see her, and the cost has always been the responsibility of Dr. Zhuo and his lover, but the patient's mother didn't appreciate it and kept shouting that she didn't need it, but in fact, if there was no Dr. Zhuo, her mother's own life would be a problem, how could she afford Tong Anqi's hospitalization fee." "Remember the blood.

I was stunned for a moment: "Is my aunt's life very difficult?" ”

The director nodded: "The perpetrator who violated Tong Anqi before was caught, and their family members compensated part of the cost, but there were many, and people couldn't take it out, it was no problem to give the money to Tong Anqi's mother for the elderly, and I also persuaded her to save the money, once Tong Anqi's condition was controlled, the mother and daughter would also need to live after being discharged from the hospital, but she had to do any business, that person really didn't listen to persuasion at all, of course, she lost it all, and she was diagnosed with diabetes again, I also see her pitiful, That's why she came over every morning as a temporary worker to clean and clean."

"Then does my sister-in-law know my aunt's current situation?"

The director also had a trace of helplessness on his face: "It's useless to know, your aunt is unforgiving, saying that people are gone, that is, she has cut off relations with her, she is so sad, even if she can't ask them for food, hey, I really don't know how to evaluate her, I don't understand the good and bad intentions of others, I still have to ask for a backbone, and as a result, it is like this now." ”

I think of my aunt's act of selling mink, slapping her swollen face and becoming fat, which is something she can do.

"I know, let's go, Director, please bring me over to see her."

The director's hand was sent to the side: "Let's go, although Tong Anqi can't leave the hospital yet, the situation has recovered well." ”

I didn't answer, looking at Tong Anqi, who only lived in her own world, there seemed to be a switch in her body, blocking everything, even if I stood at the door with the director and talked for a long time, she didn't raise her eyes, and she was quiet.

It wasn't until I walked out of that corridor that I looked at some patients in the ward who were either squeaking or throwing around with a paper airplane, and everyone's reaction to the lesion was still different.

I think that Tong Anqi has always been a simple person, she is easy to be instilled with something and believes in it, as long as she believes in a person, believes that this person will be for her good, then she will go down one by one, on the contrary, she will be opposed to the end, to some extent, she can be regarded as a clear love and hate.

Although I admit that she has really caused herself to come to this point, maybe she was in a conscious trance, she figured it out, so she only hated her mother, but she couldn't really face this woman who had always instilled her concept of right and wrong that should be the closest to her, so she chose to continue to be sick in a simple world, and if she didn't face it, there would be no more pain.

She is my only sister who has some blood relatives, but our relationship, at the last moment of her soberness, is still like fire and water, and the most satisfactory result should be to let go of the mustard, but unfortunately, it will never be done.

After returning home, my body was exhausted and depressed, and I regarded the things that the onmyoji needed to deal with as my job, but even if the work was smooth, it was inevitable that the mood would be affected by this process, and in addition, I was disgusted and had no appetite for food, and went to see Tong Anqi, and the emotions were accumulated together, and it was difficult to withdraw for a while, so I took out a new drink from the refrigerator and opened it for those children who came to play at night, and then the whole person collapsed on the sofa and didn't like to move.

The room was a little quiet, looking at the second hand on the clock moving non-stop for a moment, I suddenly felt that the needle represented everyone, round by circle, tirelessly and without turning back on their own lives.

'Bell bell bell ~ bell bell bell ~'

The ringing phone pulled back my thoughts, glanced at the caller, I refreshed and put the phone to my ear: "Third sister, how do you feel today." ”

"Very good, I cleaned the room when he went to work, and a lot of my things were still there, and now I make dinner, and I'll eat it when he comes back."

I smiled: "Doctor Han will be surprised, how can this taste be so familiar, don't expose it too much at once, you have to penetrate a little bit You know, it takes a process for a modern doctor to accept that you are the Rong Danfeng he loves." ”

"I know, don't worry, I'm confident, it's just that I'm worried about you, you live alone, whether you are suitable or not, what to eat at night."

"Eating outside, good food!!"

I tried to make my voice sound as easy as possible, and turned on the TV: "You don't know how chic I am, now lying on the sofa watching TV, do you hear the sound, it's been a long time since I've been very comfortable." ”

"It seems that today's affairs are going well."

Seeing me say this, the third sister's tone gradually relaxed.

"Of course, is there anything wrong with my shot, SAS!"

"Haha, then I'm relieved that you're like this, I'm afraid you'll feel lonely or something, thinking, do you want to go back and see you at night!"

"No, what is there to worry about a person of my age, but it's you, I'm afraid that you are too anxious and too expressive, so that Dr. Han thinks, wow, how can this fourteen-year-old child act in such an adult style, then it will be troublesome Do you know, don't make adult jokes before Dr. Han approves of you!"

The third sister laughed twice: "Well, I know, I will accompany him, let him slowly accept me, accept me as the third sister, have you heard a sentence, companionship, is the most affectionate confession"

I was shocked, and opened my mouth with my eyes down: "Oh, I heard it." ”

"I'll be with him, oh, let's not talk about it, he seems to be back to talk about Jiaolong!!"

It wasn't until the third sister hung up the phone for a long time that I remembered to take the phone off my ear, raised my eyes and looked at the ceiling, gritted my teeth and directly dialed the number that had not been dialed for more than two years again, and listened to the ringtone waiting to be connected, after a while, suddenly a voice came, and I opened my mouth full of surprise: "Hey, Cheng"

"Sorry, the phone you dialed is on a call, please call again later"

Glancing at my phone, he must have hung up on me

Don't give up, dial it again, and the result will be clear, and the voice prompt will be turned off.

I naturally understood his intentions, and he was full of sourness at the phone screen, "Even if you don't want to see me, at least, let me know how you're doing."

'Suzu~'

The phone rang, and before I could see the caller, my finger pressed it directly, and before I could hold my breath to speak, there was a female voice over there, "Jiaolong." ”

"Xiaoshu?"

"It's me, Brother Cheng asked me to tell you, saying that he is fine, you don't have to worry."

My eyes were uncontrollably red, and I nodded: "He, is he next to you?" ”

"Well, Brother Cheng, you can say a few words to Jiaolong"

My heart tightened, and finally I heard a familiar voice: "No, she understands my mind, just let her know that I'm fine."

Tears slipped out uncontrollably at that time, I covered my mouth, and heard Xiao Shu respond, as if closing the door on the mobile phone, and then continued to speak: "Jiaolong, you don't have to worry about Brother Cheng, his body is recovering very well now, but you, where have you been, I called you before, but I couldn't get through the process, and the eldest brother told me, when you called him, it means that you are fine, Jiaolong, are you well." ”

I buckled my phone to the sofa and took a deep breath hard, then picked it up and continued to speak, "I'm fine, Cheng Baize's eyes are better." ”

Xiao Shu's voice paused for a moment, and only replied after a while: "I can't see without his eyes."

"What?!"

I was like, "How could it be, he?"

"Don't worry about Jiaolong, not only was he hospitalized at that time, but Master Qi also used many methods, which could have been saved, but this result was chosen by Brother Cheng himself, he only said four words at the time, I don't see it, I don't read it."

I cried and couldn't speak, I don't see, I don't read?

"Jiaolong, don't be uncomfortable, in fact, this result is good, Brother Cheng has calmed down a lot in the past two years, Master Qi also said that after he let go of some distracting thoughts, his mind is more peaceful, and he has also made breakthroughs in Taoism, his heart is clear and pure, and he also follows Master Qi to study Gu arts, and he can't see any impact on him in life, Master Qi is now semi-retired, and now Brother Cheng is with us, and his reputation is much greater than that of Master Qi."

I don't know why, Cheng Baize's poignant face suddenly jumped in my mind, "This is the last time I will see you, Jiaolong, if there is a next life, you must hide it, don't let me know you again"

The last look, it's really the last look, Cheng Baize, if you are really calm, why don't you answer my call?

"Jiaolong, are you listening to me, I know that you definitely still hope that Brother Cheng's eyes can see, but you think, this choice was made by Brother Cheng himself, and he must also hope that he can let go, don't be too entangled, Master Qi understands him very well, saying that this is his best result, and it can be regarded as saying goodbye to his past, and the last thing he did for you."

"Is it related to the Dark Wizard?"

"Well, at that time, Brother Cheng's life was still connected to her, according to Master Qi, the initiative was in Brother Cheng's place, if Brother Cheng didn't want the light here, it would be self-redemption, but Yu Xiangling's blindness would inevitably cause some backlash at the same time, because she had done too much evil magic, she would try her best to let herself see it, but Brother Cheng couldn't see it, all her methods were in vain, the more she wanted to let herself see, the more she would hurt herself, the result was nothing more than two kinds, the first, is that Yu Xiangling will die in her own hands one day, and the second is that you come back to defeat her after recovery, but she will definitely be much weaker than before after her own toss, so it won't take much effort for you to defeat her

We didn't know if you would recover at the time, because I also saw it, you were seriously injured at the time, although Brother Cheng didn't say it, but I knew that he was leaving Yu Xiangling to fend for himself in another way, you are the most important person in his heart, how could he watch Yu Xiangling live well in the world and pose a threat to you. “

Suddenly I didn't know what to say, I opened my mouth: "Thank you Xiaoshu, thank you for helping to take care of my brother." ”

"Don't be so polite, I am the happiest thing to see him every day, Brother Cheng said that he likes it very much, he can see every grass and tree clearly, sometimes, you don't need to use your eyes to see things, you can use your heart"

Saying that, Xiao Shu's tone paused again: "Jiaolong, what we have to do is to give him time and let his heart settle down completely, I think, this is also what you want to see, right?" ”

Of course I understood what Xiaoshu meant, and sank slightly: "Xiaoshu, you help me tell Cheng Baize, I really thank him, thank him for all the things he did for me." ”

"I will, you have to take care of yourself, if you are well, Brother Cheng will rest assured."

"Hmm"

Putting down the phone, I raised my hand to wipe my tears, closed my eyes, Cheng Baize's face with dimples when he smiled was still very clear, I owe him, I can't pay it off in the next life, in the next life.

After a long time, when I felt that I could restrain my emotions, I went to take a shower with swollen eyes, and gradually made up my mind in my heart, when Yu Xiangling was solved, I would go to see him, even if it was just to look at him from a distance, and not let him know that I went, I would be satisfied.