It's still a familiar shade of gray, with a hint of age. In the blur, Ran Sinian saw the street sign of "Yongping Street", and on both sides of the road were low buildings that looked a little old.

A teenager in an ugly school uniform came by at a trot from afar, and when he rubbed shoulders with Ran Sinian, he said hello, and he shouted, "Hi, Yifeng! Going to the circus to find your dad? ”

Before Ran Sinian could reply, the boy ran away without looking back. Ran Sinian saw himself clearly through the window pane of a roadside shop, he was also a fourteen or fifteen-year-old boy, wearing the same ugly school uniform, combing ugly hairstyle, and having a white face.

It turns out that Ran Sinian is dreaming now, and in the dream he is Bai Yifeng. It must be that diary, the diary of Bai Yifeng that I hurriedly scanned, that brought Ran Sinian into Bai Yifeng's youth.

After being reminded by the classmate just now, Ran Sinian already knew that he was going to the circus to find Bai Yifeng's father Bai Lin, who played the clown. From now on, Ran Sinian must enter the play and treat himself as Bai Yifeng.

Bai Yifeng walked for a while, and soon saw a playground in an open field surrounded by a rusty iron fence. It is a middle school that was abandoned a few years ago and is now the home base of the Moonlight Circus. The Moonlight Circus is where my father works, and he tours the province about twice a year, and the rest of the time he spends the rest of his time at the base camp to recuperate, train, and rehearse new shows. This year, the circus business is not good, and it should be the season for touring, but the group still stays in the base camp to eat their old books. I heard that the head of the circus is considering layoffs.

Bai Yifeng walked briskly towards the two-story building, it was noon, he had to take advantage of his lunch break to go to the circus cafeteria and have lunch with his father, because the circus lunch was free. After lunch, he had to walk briskly back to school to continue his lessons.

The canteen is on the first floor, only more than 30 square meters of space, it is already overcrowded, and all the members of the circus, including some family members who live in the circus, are concentrated here. Bai Yifeng and his father don't live here, they live in a tube building not far from the circus, but his father goes out early and returns late, 24 hours a day, almost 20 hours a day. Bai Yifeng didn't understand, since it was so difficult at home, why did he have to buy a house outside to live in, why didn't he live in the group directly. Although the regiment is poor, there are still many empty rooms.

"Xiaofeng, you ...... too" Aunt Zhao, who was serving the meal, crooked her mouth and pulled her throat as if she wanted to vent her dissatisfaction, but before she finished speaking, she was stopped by Bai Yifeng's father.

"Sister Zhao, Sister Zhao, I'm sorry, this child is now adolescent and very sensitive, take care of it, take care of it, if you have anything to say, don't say it in front of the child, turn around and tell me, tell me." Bai Yifeng's father, Bai Lin, interjected in time, making that Sister Zhao shut up in a daze.

Bai Yifeng buried his head in eating, and occasionally looked up to see that the people around him would cast strange glances at him from time to time. Bai Yifeng whispered to his father if he had done anything wrong, and his father patted him on the head lovingly and said, "It's nothing, you just need to focus on your studies, and don't worry about the rest." And, have you forgotten? Don't talk while eating! Eat quickly, and when you're done eating, go back to class. ”

After hastily finishing eating, Bai Yifeng hurriedly ran to the school, and when he ran to the door of the playground, his sensitive ears still caught the conversation between the two aunts who had just come out of the cafeteria after lunch.

"What a drag bottle!"

"Well, don't say that, kid, he's growing up."

"No, I have to talk to the head of the regiment."

"I said don't be nosy, don't forget, you're a mom too!"

Bai Yifeng vaguely sensed the meaning of these two people's words, to be precise, it was the sensitive Ran Sinian who sensed the meaning of the words. According to the records in the diary, Bai Yifeng didn't know at all, and he didn't think much about the deep meaning of this conversation.

Bai Yifeng is a child of a single-parent family, he has no mother, and the uncles and aunts in the group said that his mother left their father and son as soon as she gave birth, because she disliked Bai Lin's poverty. Bai Lin knelt down for the head of the regiment before he got the consent of the head of the regiment, leaving Bai Lin and Bai Yifeng as drag oil bottles, and giving Bai Yifeng a bite to eat.

Bai Yifeng doesn't hate his mother, because he can understand his mother, and he has been living in hatred of poverty for more than ten years. Although he doesn't want to admit it, in fact, Bai Yifeng also resents his father in his bones, because his father is weak and incompetent, except for playing the role of a clown to make the audience laugh and become the laughing stock of everyone, he knows nothing, he is a cowardly and content little man with the status quo. Bai Yifeng likes the animal trainer in the circus even more, the big man who is with lions and tigers all day long, he is not only more handsome than his father, his salary is higher than his father, but he is also a cheerful man who can speak well, not at all like his father, who is a good man who is a man of few words. If anyone bullied him, he told his father, and his father would only let him endure it, saying that the family had no money and no power, and he couldn't afford to cause trouble. But if he complains to the animal trainer Uncle Huang, Uncle Huang will take Bai Yifeng to take revenge. Bai Yifeng can feel Uncle Huang's love for him, probably because Uncle Huang has no children at his age.

Jumping to the flag-raising ceremony on Monday, the flag-raising ceremony every Monday, the school stipulates that all students must wear school uniforms. The school has just ordered a batch of new school uniforms, no longer ugly sportswear, but navy blue suits like in idol dramas, and girls are suits with knee-length skirts.

Bai Yifeng finally managed to scrape together enough money for the new school uniform, but another boy in the class gossiped behind his back, saying that Bai Yifeng couldn't afford to pay for the school uniform at all, his school uniform was stolen, and it was his school uniform that was stolen.

At Monday's flag-raising ceremony, the boy did not wear a school uniform and was directly criticized by the principal. The boy couldn't hold his face, and directly accused Bai Yifeng of stealing his school uniform in front of the whole school. In order to prove that the school uniform was indeed his own, Bai Yifeng ran home directly to find the receipt issued to him by the teacher when he paid for the school uniform.

On the way home, Bai Yifeng met Aunt Zhao who was serving dinner in the circus, and Aunt Zhao shouted at him: "Little rabbit, skipping class again?" See if I don't tell your dad to go! Your dad is also a useless thing, and the child skips class repeatedly, and he can't discipline him! ”

Bai Yifeng didn't bother to pay attention to this pungent woman, and made a grimace at her, and didn't stop at all, but in his heart he was secretly cursing this old woman, your son only skipped class five times, talking nonsense, a bad woman who chews the root of her tongue, of course my father won't discipline me, because you framed me at all!

In the end, Bai Yifeng ran back to school with the receipt. The teacher and the principal did not pursue his truancy by running home before the flag-raising ceremony began, but were mainly busy pursuing the boy's false accusations.

Ran Sinian continued to play the role of Bai Yifeng in his dreams.

It's still the slightly deserted and dilapidated Yongping Street, and the hue is still dim yellow and dark green. Bai Yifeng was in the dilapidated tube building bought by his father Bai Lin at a low price, and in the evening, the people from the demolition office came to the door again, catching up with his father's absence, Bai Yifeng once again conveyed his father's meaning that the demolition compensation did not meet their requirements, and they would never move out.

finally drove away the two people in the demolition office, Bai Yifeng did his homework and concentrated on studying, because he believed that only by studying hard and being admitted to a good university could it be possible to reverse the current embarrassing situation, and the future of him and his father was all on his back, and he had no other way out except to study hard.

There was a mess of heavy footsteps in the hallway, and you could tell from the sound that the people walking were arrogant, not good. Sure enough, the sound of slamming the door sounded, and outside the door only a few meters away from Bai Yifeng were three hooligans, who cursed loudly, and smashed their neighbors' doors from time to time, as if picking quarrels and provoking trouble. But the nail households in the tube building knew in their hearts that these gangsters were helpers hired by the capable little boss of the demolition and relocation office. They came during the day, persuaded them bitterly, and came to Wu at night, directly threatening and intimidating, all for the purpose of wanting them to move out.

On this day, the gangsters seemed to work very hard, and they directly smashed open the thin wooden door of Bai Yifeng's house. The three tattooed men were menacing, standing in front of Bai Yifeng, like three hungry wolves surrounding a helpless fawn.

Bai Yifeng grabbed the phone and dialed his father without thinking about it, but all he heard was the endless sound of dialing and the evil laughter of the three thugs.

Bai Lin didn't answer the phone, I don't know if it was because he was busy and didn't hear it or for some other reason. At that moment, Bai Yifeng's heart was cold. For the first time, he had the idea of killing someone, and he wanted to kill these three gangsters who always came to bully people. In fact, in the near future, among the three people, the gangster who beat Bai Lin is really dead, died in Bai Yifeng's dream, and died in reality.

Just when the three thugs grabbed Bai Yifeng by the collar and wanted to give him a third slap and burn a firework on the back of his hand, Uncle Huang Huang Yong rushed in and scuffled with the three thugs, as brave and fearless as he was when he was circling among the beasts.

It was also at that time that Uncle Huang became the hero in Bai Yifeng's heart, he despised his father Bai Lin even more, admired Uncle Huang even more, and sometimes, he even had an idea, how good it would be if his father was Uncle Huang. He even doubted that maybe he was really Uncle Huang's son, otherwise how could he be so good to himself? Moreover, he has also heard gossip in the circus, and there are indeed gossip aunts who suspect that he is Huang Yong's son, because he looks so similar to Huang Yong.

The gangsters were finally driven away, Uncle Huang's face was also colored, he hurriedly said goodbye to Bai Yifeng, saying that he would let Bai Yifeng go to a neighbor's house to stay overnight, and when he went to school during the day tomorrow, Bai Lin would find someone to repair the wooden door.

As a result, the next night, the wooden door was really repaired, but on this day, Bai Yifeng didn't see his father. The people in the circus said that Bai Lin was afraid of the thugs' revenge and planned to hide for a few days, so he entrusted Bai Yifeng to Huang Yong. Bai Yifeng despised his father's cowardice even more, because he was afraid of the gangsters, he actually left his son and hid himself, what kind of father is this? But after all, his father is his father, and after so many years of hard work, Bai Yifeng also sees it in his eyes.

Bai Yifeng came up with an idea in the contradiction, he wanted to kill those three gangsters, he wanted to be the hero, protector, and defender of this family, he was different from his cowardly father, he wanted to fight back! And not hiding! He has to kill those three thugs for the sake of his father and himself, for the future peace of this family, and for the sake of fighting for a breath, and even more so that those people in the demolition office die and take away their only home!