After passing by He Yu again, I returned home embarrassed and cried for a long time.

Now I finally know that it's not that I can't find him, it's that he doesn't want to see me at all, and if he insists on not letting me find him, I may not find him for the rest of my life.

But why did he come to me again and again to find a sense of existence and make a mess of my life?

Thinking of all the heartbreaks and sorrows I have paid for him over the years, the hundreds of thousands of words of missing diaries I have written for him, and the relics I have sorted out for him...... Suddenly I found out that I was so stupid! I never thought that the man I used to see was more important than life would carefully weave such a scam for me and deceive me for 8 years!

I was trapped in such a whirlpool and couldn't get out, the more I thought about it, the more I felt it, the more I hated it, and the more I thought about it, the more I collapsed...... But what can I do now, I can't see his people, I can't do anything, the boundless depression and depression crushed me again, the darkness invaded me deeply, I lay on the bed, and I clearly heard the sound of my heart breaking into slag.

I don't know what time it was at night, Jiang Feng appeared at the door of my bedroom, he silently closed the door and walked to my bed with a calm face.

"Get up!" He didn't come to soothe my wounded heart, but he violently dragged me out of bed.

"Lu Yuncan, who are you going to show this ghost who is going to die or live?" He wrapped his arms around my head, forcing me to face him, gritted his teeth and said, "I've never seen you lose your soul for a man like this, tell me, how deep are your feelings for that dead man?" Do you have to find him and continue your previous marriage with him? What the are you doing with me, you say! ”

"......" After listening to his questioning, there was no wave on my face or in my heart, just coldly and lightly spit out a word, "Get out." ”

"Say it again!" He pointed at me with his finger, his pupils filled with hideousness, and his whole expression became particularly penetrating.

However, in the face of his sinister look, I was still unmoved...... I was numb and sleepy, and I couldn't take any interest in him in front of me anymore, so I was even more disgusted by his unreasonable and domineering behavior, I didn't even look at him, and a sentence came out of my mouth, "Let you go, can't you hear?" ”

He suddenly overthrew me on the bed, rode up directly, frantically tore my clothes, gritted his teeth and said, "You dare to let me go, I didn't put your pajamas, okay, tonight you will never forget the ......pain I gave you for the rest of your life" As he spoke, his frenzied and chaotic kiss fell on my cheek, one hand pressed my hand tightly, and the other hand began to quickly untie his own belt......

In the face of this kind of violent encroachment, I was originally irritable and depressed, and the anger in my heart was ignited at once, and I didn't know where the strength came from, so I desperately broke free from his control, and shook my hand was a slap, "Get out!" I don't want to see you! "With this roar, my throat is about to burst.

The moment he was beaten by me, I took the opportunity to let him flip over on the bed, curled up on the side.

He unwillingly pressed me under him again, staring at me fiercely and deeply, his chest rose and fell with anger, and there was some hazy pain in his eyes, "Lu Yuncan, you tell the truth, do I have any place in your heart?" Is that dead man named He Yu really more important than me? ”

I closed my eyes, barely hesitated in the chaos, and snorted coldly, "Where did you get the qualifications to compare with him?" He is my husband, and you are nothing but a stinky man for my amusement, so why should you compare with him...... Hehe, no one in this world can compare with him......"

"......" Jiang Feng did not speak.

I kept my eyes closed, I didn't know what his expression was, but I could still clearly feel the coldness on his body, I felt my wrists being pinched so tightly by him, almost my bones were about to be pinched, I struggled in pain, but I couldn't break free.

"Seriously?" He asked in a hoarse voice, his breath sharp and dangerous, "Are you sure you've just been playing with me this year?" ”

"Yes," I was numb from tiredness, and I just wanted him to leave quickly and return me to a clean place.

His breathing became a little more rapid, so rapid that it made me panic...... Just when I thought he was going to force me more forcefully, he gradually let go of my hand, got off me, and quickly got out of bed, put on his shoes, put on his pants and buckled his belt, and seemed to calm down in a short time.

"President Lu, I'm sorry, I offended just now." He sneered, his smile was no longer that ruffian, but more insidious, "Don't worry, I still know my 'identity', since you just use me as a tool for fun, then, I will continue to play this role in the future, and thank you for reminding me, that's all, good night!" ”

After saying that, he didn't linger for a moment, walked out of the bedroom door with firm steps, and quickly drove away from the villa, walking calmly.

This is too much of a 'current affairs' performance, but it makes me have some bad premonitions in my heart.

Probably still worried that if he offended me, he would lose everything he has now. After all, he has already gained too much from me, and once he crosses that degree domineeringly in front of me, it will not do him any good. Therefore, he had to bow his head at the right time.

I was not affected by Jiang Feng's episode, and when I looked back, I was still soaking in the pain brought by He Yu, struggling to find a shore...... I took the photo with him and looked at it again and again, recalling the past over and over again in my mind, and I couldn't believe that the man who had made countless good vows to me, the man who had given me the purest love in the world, would make up such a scam to play with me...... I'd rather he was really dead, at least our love was eternal, and the image of him in my heart wouldn't be so completely destroyed.

I have to admit that so far there is still no man who can surpass He Yu's status in my heart, Zhou Kaicheng can't, and Jiang Feng can't ...... No one can understand the warmth that He Yu gave me, the joy of re-understanding life, the happiness of being cared for, respected and spoiled. At that time, we were both in love with each other at first sight, and we were deeply infatuated with each other, which was a kind of beauty that no amount of money could buy~

But what's the point of recalling those things that have passed away so often? All of this has long been shattered because of his betrayal.

What's even more sad is that that man still doesn't dare to come out to face me, and still refuses to give me an explanation...... I wonder how he spent these 8 years? Perhaps, he has remarried a long time ago and has had his own children, right? Oh, he even has an 'assistant', so naturally he found a rich woman to climb the high branches, and now, seeing that I am also developed, he began to test me frequently, wanting to 'relive the old dream' with me.

Yes, he left me because he was poor and cowardly, and deceived me by feigning his death for fear that I would be entangled, and when he saw that I was rich, he came out to test me again...... These reasons are so plausible that some of his actions are so plausible. So in the end, the man I, Lu Yuncan, have loved with my life, is just a complete scumbag bastard!

I began to numb myself with a lot of alcohol again, drinking it during the day and at night, completely ignoring the fact that I had just suffered from gastrointestinal bleeding, and only thinking of falling into that drunken fantasy world, and remembering nothing. Smoke a few cigarettes once in a while...... I used to smoke a lot, in order to protect my skin, I tried my best to quit, but now I smoke again, that kind of taste, can bring a kind of pleasure and stimulation to the brain, so that people have such a short period of quiet relaxation, not when I can't figure it out and miserable, silently smoking a cigarette is much more stable~

That night, I sent Sister Tao to her relative's house, and I was so drunk that I was paralyzed on the sofa, my body was numb, my limbs were weak, I couldn't stand up, my eyes were hard to open, and my mind was very confused...... In this daze, a familiar man appeared in my ghostly sight.

Jiang Feng. I at least recognized him.

"......" He didn't speak, he stood there and stared at me for a long time, letting me continue cup after cup, and he didn't stop me.

Then, he sat down on the sofa next to me, reached out to help me sit up a little straighter, took out a document and put it in my eyes, and told me that this was an important document about the company's listing, which needed to be submitted to the CSRC tomorrow, so he came overnight to ask me to sign it.

I glanced at it and saw that the documents were full of words such as equity and stock price, because I trusted Jiang Feng, I would not waste time reading many documents and materials he handed over to me in the past, and I would sign them directly, which was considered to be approved. This time, because I was drunk and my mind was not clear, I didn't have the energy to take a closer look, so I only asked Jiang Feng to bring a pen over...... When I signed, my consciousness couldn't be concentrated, my head was very heavy, and I couldn't even hold the pen very steadily, let alone sign.

Jiang Feng directly held my hand, and with the drive of his palm, I reluctantly signed my name. As soon as he finished signing, he quickly put the document away, then snatched the cup from my hand, scooped me into his arms and went upstairs.

When I fell on the bed, I was completely unconscious, I didn't know what was going on, and when I woke up the next day, I found Jiang Feng lying next to me.

I glared at him, "When did you climb into my bed again?" ”

"Probably sleepwalking," he teased, then sat up from the bed and said, "Don't you want me to help find that man, show me his picture and see what the hell he is?" ”