"It hurts"

By the time I woke up, it was completely dark. Rubbing the back of my neck to relieve the soreness, I gradually woke up from my sleep.

It was as if I had a dream that we were led through the sewers into the rat camp, and the mountain of rat cubs and corpses presented a hell on earth, and several of us were fighting with rats, and Mecca was dying trying to save me.

It's a dream, right? Such a real and terrifying dream.

"Are you awake?"

The voice of the wolf tooth came from the front, and subconsciously looked up, in the dim environment in the car, Lin Ya and the wolf tooth were sitting in the front row, Lin Ya was driving the car, and the wolf tooth was looking up, looking at me from the rearview mirror and asked.

I subconsciously looked back and saw that Mecca was not here.

Not a dream Mecca is dead.

Thinking back to the previous "dream", my body couldn't help but tremble a little. At that time, I seemed to be a completely different person, facing those terrible rats, with no fear at all, only a desire to kill. I don't know why I am like this, and this unprovoked excitement for killing can be said to be the reason why I killed Mecca.

And before I was knocked unconscious, I distinctly remember that state again.

"How long did I sleep?" I turned my head to look out the window at the thick darkness of the night and asked.

"** hours, it's early in the morning."

It was still the wolffangs that answered me, and as he spoke, he leaned back in his chair and stretched, and as he stretched, there was a dull crunch of bones coming from his body.

"What the hell happened to me?"

After a moment of silence, I asked, thinking of Mecca's death, I couldn't help but bow my head and bury my face in my hands, my eye sockets felt the warm temperature of my palms, but instead of a feeling of complete comfort, there was a slight pain of soreness.

"You're afraid of rats, aren't you? In the face of the rat, your spirit is in a state of high tension, and the emotion that should have been fear is transformed into excitement in this state, and this emotion is so strong that you can't use your own reason to perfectly restrain it, but are controlled by this emotion" Wolf Fang paused, as if to think about how to explain it to me, "You can simply understand that it is an emotional out-of-control, but at that time your emotional out-of-control was already very serious, regardless of the time I knocked you out before getting into the car, It's still the same time I was in the cave before. Both times, you were on the verge of a nervous breakdown. ”

"What is that," I said, not looking up, still burying my face in my hands, "does a mental breakdown mean I have a mental illness?" ”

"It can be said to be an emergency mental illness, but everyone can suffer from it. Everyone may have strong uncontrollable or unacceptable emotions when they experience something beyond their ability to bear, which is an emergency mental illness that everyone has a chance to suffer. The deep voice of the wolf's tooth came into my ears, and my vision fell into darkness, but I completely indulged in his unique voice, "I have seen many people who are as emotionally out of control as you, but some of them are very intense, and some are very quiet, if they are not found in time, people can easily fall into a collapse and cannot return to their normal state." You should be glad that you woke up on the verge of collapse both times. ”

"I wish I hadn't woken up," I muffled, my eyes growing sore, "Mecca was killed by me." ”

"That's his own choice, and it has nothing to do with you." This time it was Lin Ya's voice, with some helplessness and comfort, "You can say that he saved you, but it wasn't you who killed him." ”

"Is there a difference between me and me, and he is the one who died for me." I couldn't help but think of the previous scene in my mind, Mecca covered in blood, shouting for me to go quickly

"The difference? Here, death is the most common thing, and someone will die at any time, so what's there to worry about. I don't know if it's my delusion, but I actually heard a little tiredness and decadence in the indifferent voice of the wolf's fang, "At least in my opinion, your life is more valuable than his, and it is not a big deal that he dies for you." ”

Hearing the wolf's words, my body couldn't help but tremble, and I couldn't help but raise my head, grabbed the wolf's shoulders and made him turn around, and shouted at him uncontrollably, "Why are you saying such a thing!" How can you say such a thing! Whose life is valuable? Are you? You don't need to judge someone else's worth! ”

"You" wolf fang's face was a little blurry in front of my eyes, I don't know if it was because of the darkness, I couldn't see clearly, but I could still distinguish the momentary sluggishness on his face, "You cried?" ”

Am I crying? Hearing the wolf's words, I subconsciously raised my hand to touch my face, but found that I didn't know when, I had already burst into tears.

It turns out that I cried, but unfortunately no matter how many tears I shed, Mecca will not come back

A tissue came to me from the front, and I raised my eyes to realize that it was Lin Ya who handed it with his backhand. Reaching out to take the tissue, I wiped the tears on my face indiscriminately, but more tears welled up uncontrollably in my eyes, I tried to control the tear glands to stop secreting, but it didn't work at all.

Suddenly I wanted to cry, for Mecca, for the secret room, for the world, for everything

Another piece of tissue was handed to me, I simply took it and pressed it directly to my eyes, and my eyelids felt the softness of the tissue, moist and a little warm, soothing

"Have you always been like this?" I didn't know what he was referring to, but before I could ask, he explained, "It's always easy to forgive others, but I'm not willing to let myself go. ”

Before I could figure out what Wolf Fang meant, I heard him continue.

"He pushed you, pulled you again, and flattened it, and the emotional loss of control in that state is not something you can control, so you don't need to have any burden." Wolf Fang said as he reached out and pulled down the hand and tissue covering my eyes, looking at me with a little helplessness and a little tenderness? "Aren't you going to hold fast to your heart? You can go to the angels, but don't think of yourself as God. ”

I looked at the wolf fang who comforted me, and for a moment I didn't know what to say, but I whispered as if I was talking, "I know the reason why he has to insist on coming with us in Mecca, because he really feels like he owes me my life." Even when he told me to leave, I looked back at him, and at that time his body had been bitten into a blur of flesh and blood, and I couldn't imagine the pain of being torn alive and flesh all over his body. But Mecca was smiling when she told me to go away, and he was smiling! In that pain, a second before death, just because he saved me, he was laughing! He's laughing."

I looked up, took a deep breath to hold back my tears, calmed down before I said again, "I have two bottles of powder, one is mine, and the other is the one that I left in my hand because I thought Mecca would not come, but then forgot to give it to him, and he helped me twice. Maybe I shouldn't be sad, but surviving shows that I've done at least something right. ”

"yes, you're doing something right."

I couldn't help but be slightly stunned when I saw that Wolf Fang actually agreed to what I said, because just before, he had completely disdained my words. He handed me a tissue again and looked at what I had put on my neck after I took it. He moved quickly, and I didn't react until something hung down to my chest, and realized that the wolf fang had given me the key to the operation authority that I had been given.

"Live well, escape from this room alive, don't let you live well."

Wolffang's words were not finished, but I knew exactly what he meant. Thinking of Mecca's laughter I'll live, deal with the rats, and get out of this room alive.

certain

"Where are we now? I remember it was still light when we climbed out of the sewer, why was it early in the morning and we hadn't returned to the color TV tower? ”

I tried to cheer myself up and inquired about the current situation of Wolf Tooth and Lin Ya, since I had decided to try to escape from here, the first thing to do was to survive.

Lin Ya and Wolf Tooth glanced at each other, and Wolf Tooth opened his mouth to answer my question, "A good news or a bad news, which one do you want to hear first?" ”

I looked at the wolf's tooth and rolled my eyes silently, I didn't expect him to be in the mood to play such a childish game at this time, "Bad." ”

From the rearview mirror, it can be seen that Wolf Fang raised his eyebrows slightly, and his face was a little strange, "Bad?" I thought you'd listen first. ”

'Do you think 039 knows me well?' I was sneering in my heart, but I didn't say it directly, and my brain was working quickly to analyze the current situation. In fact, there is a reason why I chose the bad one,There must be some special reason why we haven't returned to the color TV tower during this time period,There are two possibilities,One is that the color TV tower is no longer safe,The other is that there is something blocking our way back,And both of these are absolutely bad news。

As for the good news, I swept the headlights that swept the forest cliff and turned on unabashedly, and there was a slight guess in my heart.

"The bad news is that it's hard to get back to the tower, but the good news is that it's safe in the city now, and there's a small chance that we'll be attacked on the road, right?"

I could clearly see that Wolf Fang was slightly stunned when he heard my words, and it seemed that my guess was correct.

"Sleeping and sleeping your IQ on the line?" Wolf Fang made a boring joke, and then explained seriously, "You're right, it's a little difficult to go back to the color TV tower now." Those rats seem to have a certain amount of intelligence, or it may be the instinct of creatures we don't understand, anyway, they should have learned that the color TV tower is a very dangerous place for them, those rats probably poured out of the nest, all surrounded by the color TV tower, with the color TV tower as the center, and the surrounding positions within five hundred meters were occupied by dense mice. ”

"Within 500 meters around? Is it such a huge number? "I frowned in shock, even though I had known that there were a lot of rats, I didn't expect them to be so many." So nowhere else in the city are they gone? So, are they waiting for the rabbit? ”