I stood there for a long time until my feet went numb......

Collapsed on the bed with a limp body, his mind echoed over and over again the few sneering words he had just said, and a huge sense of collapse came towards me~

After a while, Sister Tao came to the house quietly and knocked on the door, "Yuncan, what's going on, it's so noisy?" ”

"It's okay, leave me alone."

Sister Tao met Jiang Feng half a year ago, and at that time I always thought that he was just my driver and assistant, but now I saw him staying with me for one night, and I heard the quarrel we just had, I couldn't hide anything from her.

Sister Tao walked in, silently picked up the broken lamp, and when she was about to pick up the shredded paper on the ground, I stopped her, "These are what I want, go out, don't worry about it yet." ”

Sister Tao sighed, and after several words before she sat down beside me, "Yuncan, since you don't treat Sister Tao and me as outsiders, don't think I'm too talkative, I'll just ask, this handsome guy who went out just now is your boyfriend, right?" ”

I shook my head, "Sister Tao, don't ask again, go and get busy with you." ”

Sister Tao is a confidant and interesting person, as soon as she heard me say this, she didn't bother much and went out silently. But as soon as she walked out, I stopped her again.

"How?" She asked.

"Sister Tao, be careful not to tell Mr. Zhou what happened between me and the man just now."

"......" Sister Tao was stunned for a moment, but quickly reacted and smiled, "Okay, don't worry, I don't talk much." ”

I lay on the bed for a while, calming down a little before picking up the fragments of the diary on the floor one by one, placing them on the dresser, and trying to put them back together...... However, because he was so torn that I couldn't put it together, the more I looked at it, the more angry I became, and I simply put the pile of waste paper back into a box.

I went downstairs and found the diary that he threw out of the balcony again, sat in the room and looked through it, and glanced at the sincere words on it, those bloody thoughts about He Yu, and after watching it for a long time, even I felt ridiculous.

Jiang Feng's accusation against me is not justified?

If I really have such deep feelings for He Yu, why don't I keep my body and let him be the first and only man in my life?

But I can't.

Because, in addition to missing him, more often than not, I still hate him deeply, and I can't do it, and I'm not willing to be a widow for him for a lifetime.

He, He Yu, is not worth burying the rest of his life at all, not worth it at all.

***

In the following time, Jiang Feng seemed to have really 'disappeared', and there was no one in the company, and he no longer appeared in my life. Zhang Suxiao often has to connect with him at work, and he has called him several times to prompt the state of shutdown, so he asked me strangely what was going on. Inevitably, she was nosy, so I had to prevaricate on the grounds that Jiang Feng was on a business trip.

The anger of that morning gradually subsided, but somehow, I was still lonely every day, my heart was empty, and I always felt that something was missing.

Without Jiang Feng, a lot of work has to fall on my head again, there are piles of documents waiting to be signed on the desk, and the daily meetings are even fuller, one moment is the invitation to this forum, the other is the customer visiting, or a certain project is not progressing for a long time...... I'm busier, but I'm not as focused as I used to be, I'm always tired and bored.

The more night it gets, the more blocked my heart becomes, and I can't breathe~

So, I couldn't help but pick up my phone, flipped to Jiang Feng's number, and dialed out. But soon, the phone was prompted to shut down.

Shutdown! He actually turned me off!

This has never been the case...... In the six months that I got along, his mobile phone was turned on for me 24 hours a day, and the messages were never returned in seconds, and I could call him whenever I called, and sometimes I woke up hungry in the middle of the night, and there was nothing to eat in the refrigerator, and he would wake up immediately when he gave him a call, and he would buy food for me non-stop and send it to me.

In spite of all the breaking things that day, and even though he had been away from my life for a week, I felt in my heart that he would come back in a few days, come back and kneel down to confess his mistakes, and continue to please me and revolve around me, because I would give him money, give him lots and lots of money, give him decent work...... So I haven't taken his departure too seriously these days, but now it seems that things are getting more and more wrong.

Is he really gone?

Suddenly, I couldn't accept it, especially when I called his mobile phone again and again, and the feeling of loneliness was even stronger~

In fact, for the next week, he still did not appear, and he 'disappeared' without a trace.

My mood is getting worse and worse day by day, and I am often absent-minded and distracted.

It seems that I live every day normally, but I have a very tormented life, yes, torment...... Every day, every hour, every minute, became long. After a busy day in the company, I came home to relax, but I felt even more uncomfortable, and I wanted to go to bed early, but I couldn't sleep after tossing and turning.

When I got up one morning to change clothes, I took out one of the dresses and smelled a faint fragrance on it...... I can't help but remember that this skirt was washed by Jiang Feng himself last time, and every time he washed and dried my clothes, he would always spray me with some good-smelling perfume on it. So whenever I want to wear it, I smell the indifferent aftertaste, and my mood becomes good.

But now, the scents only upset me even more.

I threw away my skirt and found a new outfit to change into, and I didn't bother to look in the mirror again, because now I was not even in the mood to dress up.

Driving on the road is also full of situations, because the green light was on for a while, it was not started in time, and the owner of the car behind honked wildly; After a while, I accidentally scratched someone else's car, and for a while, I pressed the line, ran a red light, etc., frequently violated the rules, and the points for a year were almost deducted, and it is estimated that if I drive so absent-mindedly, my driver's license will be revoked sooner or later.

In the company, I became an unreasonable menopausal woman again, slapping the secretary on the table for no reason, holding a meeting to criticize everyone, and making the designer's draft change and ...... Even Zhou Kaicheng asked me out, but I used various excuses to shirk and didn't go.

In the afternoon of that day, Zhang Suxiao walked into my office with a bag in his hand. After greeting me, she sat down on the leather chair, looked at me for a long time, and asked, "Hey, I see that you are very wrong these days, your face is very haggard, is there something wrong with your body?" ”

I shook my head, as if I couldn't even lift my strength to answer her.

"By the way, there are three days left until your birthday, and it happens to be Saturday, so why don't you leave it to the public relations department to plan, how to celebrate, and who to invite——"

"Say no more," I said, grimacingly, "what is there to celebrate, and to announce to the world that I am over thirty years old, is it something to be proud of?" ”

"Oh, oh," Zhang Suxiao said with a smile, "Actually, it's nothing, I'm still older than you, and besides, you're over thirty years older than many twenty-year-old girls, okay?" It's mainly to be happy, I see you've been depressed for a long time, so it's better to simply invite a few people to eat and sing, and it's okay to have a lively time. ”

"No, don't bother me, I've been tired lately and don't want to talk."

In fact, I have always been very sensitive to my birthday, and I never like birthdays, other people's births are highly anticipated and joyful, and my birth is the beginning of being spurned by the world...... When I thought of my birthday, the day I came out of Han Qiaojuan's belly, I felt a chill in my heart.

Later, Zhou Kaicheng knew that I had this heart disease, so he set another date for me, November 15, as my birthday, and celebrated it for me every year. And this day happened to be the day I met him. Therefore, in the short five or six years since I met him, I had the joy of celebrating my birthday.

But this year, at this moment, I'm really not in the mood for that.

Zhang Suxiao walked up to me and patted me on the shoulder with his hand, "Don't hide it from me, you like Jiang Feng, even fools can see it!" ”

I was immediately enraged and pushed her hand away, "Stop talking nonsense, just go out if it's okay." ”

"Okay, then I'll put it another way, Jiang Feng likes you, even fools can see it, okay?" After speaking, Zhang Suxiao walked to the sofa and took out a big white box from the bag she carried, and the box was also tied with delicate ribbons, which looked like a gift box.

"This is a birthday gift that Jiang Feng asked me to pass on to you," she put the box in front of my eyes and said, "I don't know what it is, but I guess it should be a set of clothes, because I see that he has been busy designing and making patterns last month, and he also went to the production workshop to cut and sew, and went to several fabric factories before finally making the finished ......."

"You see, people are so well-intentioned." She added.

I stared at the box blankly, listening to Zhang Suxiao's description, and felt that my heart suddenly brightened a little...... Then, I asked lightly, "You've been in contact with him?" ”

"You can't contact him, how can I have contact with him." Zhang Suxiao said with a smile, "This gift was given to me by him the day half a month ago, and I asked me to give it to you when your birthday is approaching." At that time, I asked him why he didn't send you personally, and he didn't tell me the reason, how did I know he was leaving~"

"Okay," I said to Zhang Suxiao, "you go out, I want to be quiet for a while." ”

After she left, I stared at the gift box for a long time, with a champagne-colored ribbon on it, which looked fairy and beautiful...... Coupled with Zhang Suxiao's description of his 'good intentions' just now, the words that echoed in my ears for a long time, I finally couldn't help but be curious to take a look at it, and I was a little surprised-

Because what is contained here is actually a set of navy blue papers, bras and panties!