Endless rooms, lonely people, the desire to gluttony and the anxiety of anorexia.

I never thought that anything would change for me who was so cowardly, and the timing of the change was like the end of the world.

I think it seems like Shakespeare said it? If you don't explode in silence, you perish in silence.

It's really embarrassing to say, but what really makes me change in the final analysis is cowardice.

I was cowardly, even if I planned to die like this several times in my heart, but in the deepest part of my heart, I was still afraid of death.

So when my stomach was finally overwhelmed and began to bleed profusely, when I watched a lot of blood vomit out and stain the white tiles red, when I really realized that the result of this would inevitably be death—I was afraid, cowardly, and I changed.

Holding on to the pendant seemed to be so powerful that I began to change after lying on the tiles and crying in the dark.

I drilled a small hole under the basin to make a simple water leak, imagined the length of the seconds, silently counted the numbers, compared the speed of the water droplets, planned the time of the day, and began to strictly control the time and amount of food I ate according to the standard of three meals a day. Although I was still vomiting and aching in the dark at first, the good news is that this simple planning routine has worked in this situation where there is no medical treatment and no medicine, and my body finally began to slowly improve.

It's a blessing, even if I need it because I'm trapped and unlucky, but I still feel happy.

As with all things, it's hard to get started, and when I have my first positive mindset, it seems like everything starts to work out for the better.

Face reality or face death, when the latter is completely denied, there is only one way left for me, isn't it? After a long period of decadence and depression, I finally began to look for ways to live an active life.

I started researching recipes to make more dishes with just the ingredients, such as tomato and egg soup, candied tomatoes, porridge made from rice, and soup with snack chips. Although there are still negative emotions in my heart from time to time, they are all consciously suppressed and alleviated, not because I am optimistic and positive, but because I don't want to die.

Maybe it was because I didn't suffer from illness, or maybe it was my health that gave me more energy, and I slowly began to resent loneliness and loneliness.

I think human beings are really a lowly species, and how I used to enjoy this loneliness and loneliness, because it was my own choice; And now I am starting to resent this state, just because I don't have the right to choose, everything is forced. I used to be lonely when I could communicate with people, but now when loneliness is always with me, I crave hustle and bustle. What is this? What you can't get is always in turmoil, and those who are favored have nothing to fear? Humans are really a cheap species.

When the negativity of loneliness became more frequent and obvious to me, I realized that something had to be done, otherwise I would have a nervous breakdown in this situation, and what good could I do?

In order to relieve the boring time of loneliness, I started to create again. No longer to make money, no longer to cater to readers, I just need to write the stories I have in mind and paint the world in my head. Unexpectedly, this kind of creation made me feel happy, and even gave me more energy and desire to explore more new things and changes.

Although time has stopped, the Internet is still available, and I have started to use the Internet to learn, enrich myself, and enrich my life.

I learned to draw, I learned to sing all the songs I could find, I learned to fold beautiful roses out of a blank piece of paper, I learned to transform a bouquet of lilies out of a piece of cloth.

I read all the books I could find, novels, fairy tales, academic papers, scientific works, countless words that translated into a huge amount of knowledge into my mind, which made me realize how small I was and how full my life could be.

I don't think I'll ever get bored anymore because I can never stop learning, because I can never learn everything because I have infinite time for me to learn all this.

If you don't explode in silence, you perish in silence. This sentence was originally said by Lu Xun, while Shakespeare said: Ignorance is sin, and knowledge is the wings by which we fly to heaven.

Lu Xun was not wrong at all, but Shakespeare said it......

I didn't rely on learning or knowledge to find heaven.

I fell in love with this simple life, adapted to this model of learning and not getting bored, and soon after I finally got used to it and accepted it all, thinking that it was not bad, the change came again.

On this day, I opened the door of my room as usual to carry the refreshed supplies, only to find that the scene outside the door had changed.

The mirrored room vanished, replaced by a hallway, a familiar hallway, a hallway with an unsavory smell, a dirty, mottled staircase, and a hallway full of small advertising stickers.

My original hallway.

I stood in shock for a few seconds, tentatively walked out of the room, a little incredulous at what I saw, but whether it was the rustling of the plastic garbage bags under my feet or the stench of the stuffy smell in my nose, everything really reminded me that I had come out.

A little surprised, but also a little uneasy, I just stood in front of the door and subconsciously grabbed the pendant. Behind me was a familiar room, and in front of me was the outside world as I remembered. The joy and trepidation of leaving that enclosed space flooded into my mind at the same time, and I couldn't tell for a moment whether I wanted to be "free" at this time.

I took two tentative steps, but the unfamiliar ground beneath my feet still gave me a feeling of unreality, and I got used to the situation a little, and then I remembered the common sense that I should bring my room key. But when I turned around, the door was closed.

Frowning and sighing, I have to go downstairs to take a look, even if I want to go back to my room, I have to find someone to open the lock first.

Enduring the slight discomfort of the outside environment, I walked down the stairs in my memory, still wearing nightgowns and slippers, but in our low-class community, there are many housewives who go out in this attire, so I don't really care.

Only the rustle of slippers rubbing on the floor and the low sound of stepping on the stairs echoed in the hallway, and the sunlight shining through the small window of the stairwell added some warmth and reassured me.

Perhaps these small comforts, however, were too extravagant, and by the time I stepped out of the cave, they were all shattered and dissipated—and there was no one in sight.

At this time, the sun is poisonous, the sun is hanging in the sky, the hot sun is scorching the earth, and the air is so irradiated by the heat wave that people can see a slight distortion, it should be an ordinary summer day with a scorching summer atmosphere, but it makes me feel a more and more dense coldness and fear. There was already a layer of fine beads of sweat on my back, and I couldn't tell if it was because of the heat or fear, but I listened closely, but there was no sound from people, only a few occasional cicadas.

Because I'm used to having only my own voice, I haven't noticed anything wrong in the corridor just now, but I'm even more frightened when I listen carefully. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't hear any human sounds, only insects, and nothing else.

I probably experienced this kind of loneliness and anxiety with only one person before, or it was a long time of solitude and loneliness that made my spirit stronger, so although I was still panicked and uneasy this time, I didn't collapse like I had just been locked in my room, but calmed down a little and calmed down, and walked outside the community to start exploring.

This degree... I guess no one has been here for a long time? I pinched my nose and frowned and approached the garbage bin full of garbage to check, after all, it was summer, and the stench of garbage in such a hot weather made me roll my eyes, but I still had to endure the discomfort and check carefully, after all, from the degree of decay of domestic garbage, I can roughly guess the time when a human disappeared.

Yes, disappear. By all indications, the humans who originally lived here suddenly disappeared.

At first, I thought that everyone had entered the space where time stood still like me, but then I realized that it was wrong, because there were small benches and fans that fell to the ground in the shade, and there were unlocked motorcycles on the street. This means that someone disappeared outside, they didn't enter an enclosed space, and it couldn't be the same situation as me. So, I had to start with the disappearance and find out what was going on.

"Paper towels, plastic bags, water bottles... Why is there no food or something? It's hard to tell how long it's been like this..."I frowned and rummaged through the trash cans with the sticks I had picked up, but probably because it was a garbage can on the side of the street, there was no rubbish such as vegetable leaves and food scraps, so I couldn't tell the exact time, and I could only roughly tell that it had been a long time.

Maybe I should go back to my own neighborhood? First, there must be food waste in the garbage heap in the community, which is easier to judge the decay situation, and secondly, you can also confirm it door-to-door, and maybe you can find any other clues.

Thinking so, I threw the branch in my hand aside and straightened up, ready to go back to the neighborhood to replan.

However, as soon as I turned around, a feeling of being targeted suddenly came from the bottom of my heart, and I seemed to feel a real gaze on my back, which made me chill for a moment, and my hairs stood on end.

"Who is it! Come out! ”

I screamed and quickly turned to look, but the streets were open and clear in the midday sun, with all the places in full view, and there were no hidden corners.

Empty.