Bai has not been very active in the past two months, Li Ziluo has been with us for so many years, people are inherently old, not to mention cats, I will always remember the day he gave me a cat, from Rongcheng specially rushed to Jiangcheng, or a Valentine's Day, this seems to be the first Valentine's Day gift he gave me, from Jiangcheng back to Rongcheng to the old house, I have been by my side, and I have long regarded it as a family.

Death is a long process for some people, and some are only a matter of moments.

However, it was such a warm afternoon, curled up in the hanging basket and basking in the sun with its eyes closed, just... I never woke up again, I cried a lot, I dragged Li Ziluo to bury it, looking at the mound, I was sad and shed tears, Li Ziluo circled me in his arms and said to me: "If you are reluctant, buy another one back?" ”

I shook my head: "I don't raise it anymore, I don't raise it anymore, I pay so much affection, I can't stand watching it leave me..."

He hugged me tightly and didn't say a word.

In fact, since I left, I have a bad premonition, and I panic every day.

It was early one morning a week after Li Fan's wedding, before dawn, but I don't know why I woke up early, and then I couldn't sleep, I got into the sleeping Li Ziluo's arms, he has a habit, no matter how heavy he sleeps, as long as I come over, he will always subconsciously hug me, I asked him about this question when he was awake.

He didn't know, maybe it was a conditioned reflex, I once exhaled: "Then if you sleep with other women, will you subconsciously hug others?" ”

He didn't take it seriously at all and replied casually: "I won't sleep with other women." ”

I smiled warmly, got out of his arms, after getting up, I rarely went into the kitchen to get a hearty breakfast for him, it's strange to come, recently I've been like a lazy cancer attack, I like Ge You to lie down when it's okay, and I hate to go into the kitchen, but this morning, I don't know where the interest comes from, I also specially turned out the mold that I bought a long time ago and didn't use it once, fried a heart-shaped egg, and then added ham, tomato juice, and boiled a cup of fragrant coffee.

I opened my eyes again, the dazzling light made me feel like a new life, I slowly blinked my eyelids, and saw a somewhat funny pink pig hanging above my head, eating a hamburger with his mouth wide open, I looked at this strange doll ignorantly, and then reached out and patted it, the pig's fat belly was shaking, and I showed a shallow smile.

Someone probably smelled it, wearing a loose dark blue mink nightgown slowly appeared on the stairs, I glanced back at him, the thin lips under the bridge of his high nose were shallowly hooked, the warm golden sun gilded his body, glowing with a beautiful halo, even if we were together for so long, occasionally at a certain moment, at a certain angle, at a certain moment, I would still see him suddenly, my heart would still beat faster, as now.

I raised my lips and raised my chin to look at him: "You will really step on the meal, great Mr. Schinbucher." ”

He walked towards me, I turned around and picked up the plate, he wrapped around me from behind, put the plate in my hand aside, and the kiss fell on my waist with one hand, and picked me up and put me on the kitchen countertop, and the deep kiss fell on me, the sun shone warmly on us, as if the world had become so lovely, there was no more darkness, it seemed... It's my last memory of him...

Death is a long process for some people, and some are only a matter of moments.

We had a very cozy, calm and happy breakfast together, he helped me clean up my things, and I sat lazily outside the living room and watched him, chatting with him casually and lazily.

I asked him, "Is Dong Han with Yao Jin?" These two people didn't reveal anything at all, are they going to have an affair or what? ”

He turned his back to me and smiled, "You are always so concerned about other people's affairs. ”

I sat up: "That's not it, I think I was going to introduce Yao Jin to Dong Han at the beginning, he won't pay attention to me, you also let me not meddle in my affairs, look, this is going around and around The two are not together anymore, this is called fate!" ”

He washed the dishes while I said: "You have this kung fu, why don't you go to the hospital to check your body, have you had back pain recently?" I see you're tossing and turning at night. ”

I don't think it's the same thing: "Anyway, it's an old problem, it's not like this if you look at it or not, I'm called a god waist, and it's going to rain if it hurts, and it's better than the weather forecast, I'll tell you." ”

Finally one day, Nan Xiu broke out, he looked at my bruised chin, he couldn't bear to forcibly break me anymore, simply gulped into his mouth and then pressed me in his arms and stuck to my lips, and gave me food, his slender eyes were like water pain and looked deep into my eyes, my eyes finally moved, blinked lightly and pushed him away with all his strength, he was pushed to the ground by me in embarrassment, raised his hand to wipe his mouth, picked up the bowl and slammed it on the ground, the food splashed everywhere, his eyes were full of pain and looked at me affectionately.

He suddenly lost his voice, and I looked up and saw that he didn't know when he dropped the plate in his hand, and looked out the window, and I couldn't help but ask him, "What are you looking at?" ”

He froze for a few seconds, then walked up to me and put down the burger, and came up to me, looking left and right, as if he were examining a prehistoric creature!

He instantly retracted his gaze, propped his hands on the side of the pool, and lowered his head to me and me: "Poo, where is the gray suit you bought for me before Li Fan got married?" ”

When I heard the sound of the door lock, I reacted to something, and hurriedly pressed the handle, but the door of the room was locked from the outside by Li Ziluo, and I knocked on the door frantically, but I could only hear his footsteps getting farther and farther away from me, farther and farther away...

I was puzzled: "Hang it in the closet." ”

"Oh, I don't seem to see it, you go up and help me take it out, I'll wear it later."

"Okay."

I put down my glass and went upstairs, went back to my room and opened the closet, the gray suit was clearly hanging in a prominent place, and I could see it as soon as I opened the closet.

This is still before Li Fan got married, I asked Li Ziluo to accompany me to buy a beautiful dress, I happened to see this suit, cut very decently and straight, I saw it, thinking that Li Ziluo must be very handsome in it, so I insisted on buying it.

It's just that I haven't had a chance to wear it yet, and the brand new ones are hanging in the closet.

As soon as I took the suit out of the closet, I heard the doorbell ringing in the yard, I put the suit on the bed, went to the window of the room and looked downstairs, two police cars were parked at the door of Bull Bay, a few policemen were guarding the car, and two other policemen were standing at the gate of the courtyard.

At that moment, my heart sank to the bottom, I saw Li Ziluo calmly walk out of the house, open the door of the yard, the two policemen showed their IDs, and Li Ziluo said a few words, my brain seemed to be put into the ice, even my breath was frozen, only to hear Li Ziluo to them: "Okay, wait for me to change my clothes and come down!" ”

Then I saw him turn back, and I leaned against the cold wall gradually... Paralyzed into mud, the stairs made a sound, his steady steps slowly approached the room, when the door opened and he appeared in front of me, I trembled so much that I couldn't even stand steadily, my eyelids and lips were trembling wildly, and from a short distance, I stared at him deeply, his long and straight figure stood by the door, his eyes were full of unbearable and great grief, and I was suffocated!

The air froze between us, and the whole time seemed to stand still, and it may have been a second, a minute, or a long time before he slowly stepped into the room, and said to me while changing his clothes: "I have arranged everything, after I leave, don't come to see me, and don't talk to anyone about our recent dealings." ”

My body slid down the wall to the ground, and he couldn't bear to look at me, so he simply turned his back: "When you have back pain, you should go to the hospital to have a look, don't brace hard, go to massage regularly, don't get along with your body."

In addition to the indispensable socializing, drink less, I know you're getting more in the amount of alcohol now, but... A girl's house tries to drink as little as possible outside.

If you think it's troublesome to cook, just ask an aunt to come back, don't forget to eat because you're busy with work, your life is still long... If you meet good people in the future, you will..."

"Enough!"

I yelled at him, but he still didn't turn around, his back to me trembled slightly, and then put on a light gray blazer and said in a low voice: "I'm leaving..."

He turned his back to me and smiled, "You are always so concerned about other people's affairs. ”

I desperately got up from the ground, ran towards him frantically, put my arms through his waist and hugged him tightly from behind him and cried: "Li Ziluo, I can't live without you, I can't live without you, what should I do..."

He turned around suddenly, looked at me with bloodshot eyes, and slowly stretched out his right hand to me, I cried and handed my left hand to him, he held the ring on my ring finger tightly and said to me heavily: "Do you believe me?" ”

I sobbed and focused my head: "I believe!" ”

He looked at me deeply and solemnly explained: "If you believe me! Just live well and take care of yourself! Do you hear that? ”

Death is a long process for some people, and some are only a matter of moments.

I cried and trembled, and my hands clasped him tightly and shook my head desperately, and he raised his voice in vain and whispered to me, "Do you hear that? ”

I shivered, nodded, gasped for air...

He finally said to me: "Don't come out, don't try to come and see me, stay at home, I'll have someone come to you later!" ”

He instantly retracted his gaze, propped his hands on the side of the pool, and lowered his head to me and me: "Poo, where is the gray suit you bought for me before Li Fan got married?" ”

I used all my strength to drag him to prevent him from leaving, he grabbed my hand and put it on his lips and kissed it fiercely, his voice choked: "Maybe I owe you in the previous life, and I will pay it back in this life, but what you owe me in this life, I will pay me back in the next life!" ”

He suddenly looked up and let go of me, opened the door and walked away without looking back, the door of the room closed in front of me, as if it took away my soul, my blood, my mind, and all of me in an instant!

When I heard the sound of the door lock, I reacted to something, and hurriedly pressed the handle, but the door of the room was locked from the outside by Li Ziluo, and I knocked on the door frantically, but I could only hear his footsteps getting farther and farther away from me, farther and farther away...

I ran to the window in a panic, that familiar window, from the beginning, I had watched him leave the house countless times, but this time, he walked out of this door but... Never came back...

I watched him walk to the police car, his steps paused, I looked at him firmly, but in the end he couldn't turn around and look at me again, when he completely disappeared in front of my eyes, my world collapsed, I heard the sound of crumbling, I felt myself fall to the ground, but I didn't lose consciousness, I felt the cold ground against my back, the roof kept spinning and spinning in front of my eyes, I felt my soul floating away from my body, the moment I left him, I was gone, Doom!

I lay on the ground with my eyes open but I felt like I was dead, cramping, vomiting, and everything in front of me turned white...

Time has come to me completely still, I can't hear any sound, I can't see the alternation of day and night.

I opened my eyes again, the dazzling light made me feel like a new life, I slowly blinked my eyelids, and saw a somewhat funny pink pig hanging above my head, eating a hamburger with his mouth wide open, I looked at this strange doll ignorantly, and then reached out and patted it, the pig's fat belly was shaking, and I showed a shallow smile.

It wasn't until my body was picked up from the ground that I suddenly woke up from the chaos of life and death, Nan Xiu's worried eyes reflected in front of me, I don't know when he came, I don't know how long it has been since Li Ziluo was taken away.

When I heard the sound of the door lock, I reacted to something, and hurriedly pressed the handle, but the door of the room was locked from the outside by Li Ziluo, and I knocked on the door frantically, but I could only hear his footsteps getting farther and farther away from me, farther and farther away...

However, when I realized that the door of the room was opened, I ran out as hard as I could, and I had only one belief in my heart, I was going to find him, even if it was a guillotine waiting for me!

But before I took a few steps, my body fell to the ground without a fight, I got up and ran downstairs with the railing of the stairs, Nan Xiu couldn't stop me, so he simply picked me up and pressed me on the sofa!

I kept pushing him, hitting him and biting him, and I said to him: "Let me go to him, please, let me go to him..."

He looked at me with a scumbag on his face and frowned, raised his hand to imprison me under him, and whispered to me: "You go to him? Why did he lock you in the house just to save your life! Bai is miserable, you have already divorced him! He doesn't want you to wade into this troubled water, do you understand! ”

I bit my lip and stared at Nan Xiu with bitter blood: "No, it's you who doesn't understand!" You let me out! ”

"I tell you! No way! I'm not going to watch you die! ”

I clutched my chest and kept retching, and he anxiously carried me upstairs, and I seemed to feel that my whole body was already collapsed, and he found a hot towel to wipe it for me, and I lay motionless on the bed like a corpse.

From that day on, no matter what Nan Xiu and I did, or what I fed, I was indifferent, and sat by the window like a walking corpse every day, looking out the window at the hibiscus and the camphor tree.

I refused to eat, Nan Xiu forcibly broke my chin and fed me in my mouth every day, I refused to take a bath, he just looked away and helped me wipe my body, many times, I lost consciousness of everything in the outside world, I felt like I was back in my nascent state, I felt a deep fear of everything, it was like someone had taken away my limbs and brain, I didn't know what I was breathing for every day...

I yelled at him, but he still didn't turn around, his back to me trembled slightly, and then put on a light gray blazer and said in a low voice: "I'm leaving..."

Finally one day, Nan Xiu broke out, he looked at my bruised chin, he couldn't bear to forcibly break me anymore, simply gulped into his mouth and then pressed me in his arms and stuck to my lips, and gave me food, his slender eyes were like water pain and looked deep into my eyes, my eyes finally moved, blinked lightly and pushed him away with all his strength, he was pushed to the ground by me in embarrassment, raised his hand to wipe his mouth, picked up the bowl and slammed it on the ground, the food splashed everywhere, his eyes were full of pain and looked at me affectionately.

He pointed at me with trembling sadness: "When he called me, I was on the other side of the world, do you know how I arrived at you day and night?" Do you disdain me when I take my heart and lungs out? You have never had him in your eyes, and even now that you have come to this point, you still want to die or live for him!

I told you a long time ago, this road can't be taken, you don't listen to me, if you had listened to me, would things have come to this point?

If you have the courage to love, you must have the courage to bear today's ending! ”

He walked up to me, stretched out his hand and gently lifted my chin, his eyes were bright, like a fire in the thorns, looking at me: "If I told you when I was in college that I was in love with you, would you choose me?" ”

I looked at him in disbelief, between the four eyes, countless hundreds of turns, light and shadow passed, until silent tears slipped from my eyes, I slowly stood up and desolate: "No if..."

I walked past him empty, barefoot, until I reached the door, and his voice suddenly came from behind me: "He has a court session in the morning." ”

This is still before Li Fan got married, I asked Li Ziluo to accompany me to buy a beautiful dress, I happened to see this suit, cut very decently and straight, I saw it, thinking that Li Ziluo must be very handsome in it, so I insisted on buying it.

I paused.

His heavy voice fell on my heart: "Death penalty, with a two-year reprieve..."

I raised my eyes to look at the sunset that was setting outside the window, staring at it from a distance, Nan Xiu was silent and lowered his head to clean up the mess, I raised my feet and walked down the stairs, looking at the door in front of me step by step!

The moment I opened the door, my body was as light as a butterfly, flying madly towards the outside of the house...

Finally one day, Nan Xiu broke out, he looked at my bruised chin, he couldn't bear to forcibly break me anymore, simply gulped into his mouth and then pressed me in his arms and stuck to my lips, and gave me food, his slender eyes were like water pain and looked deep into my eyes, my eyes finally moved, blinked lightly and pushed him away with all his strength, he was pushed to the ground by me in embarrassment, raised his hand to wipe his mouth, picked up the bowl and slammed it on the ground, the food splashed everywhere, his eyes were full of pain and looked at me affectionately.

Look at his face again, it is a man with sideburns like a knife, eyebrows like ink paintings, a face like peach petals, and eyes like autumn waves, that face actually looks like five points of chestnut, three points of Wu Yanzu, two points of the taste of Yamashita Zhijiu, plus the bangs are evil hanging on both sides of the face, a lazy and uninhibited handsomeness, I was stunned in an instant!

I stood on the street, the endless stream of vehicles passed in front of me, Nan Xiu ran to me from a distance, anxiously shouted at me, I slowly retracted my gaze and looked at the last sunset on the edge of the sky, silently to him, since you can't grow old, then life and death together!

He turned around and walked away from me until he was completely gone...

He was "sad, separated, gathered, and reconciled", and it was not until this moment that I understood that he used himself to fulfill the word "and"!

He instantly retracted his gaze, propped his hands on the side of the pool, and lowered his head to me and me: "Poo, where is the gray suit you bought for me before Li Fan got married?" ”

I closed my eyes and raised my feet and walked towards the speeding traffic...

I closed my eyes with his blessing on me, and from then on, the world was dark, and in the chaos I seemed to be standing on the edge of an endless enchantment, looking at a tall figure standing far away, I seemed to know him, and it seemed that I couldn't remember who he was, but the feeling of déjà vu made my heart hurt so much that I couldn't breathe.

He froze for a few seconds, then walked up to me and put down the burger, and came up to me, looking left and right, as if he were examining a prehistoric creature!

My face flushed slightly, and I stared at him with some nymphomaniacs: "Who are you?" ”

In my last memory, I saw the string of copper coins flying all over the sky, and his voice sounded in my ears: "This is Kangxi Arhat money, which is rare now, especially when the condition is so well preserved, when I heard it in the Republic of China, lovers would give each other Arhat money, like a love token, and it could also keep peace..."

Death is a long process for some people, and some are only a matter of moments.

I seemed to see him standing in front of the dirt house in a clean white shirt, and the moment he smiled at me, my whole world lit up!

Then he showed me a bright smile: "My name is Nanxiu, although we met for the first time, but I will cover you later." ”

I stared at him curiously, he was wearing a red jacket, a pair of ripped jeans, and a large burger in his hand, and he looked both sleek and funny.

Death is a long process for some people, and some are only a matter of moments.

But suddenly I felt the door of the room opened, and I looked sideways, and a man walked in and stared at the shaking pig in disbelief, and then looked at me with wide eyes.

I opened my eyes again, the dazzling light made me feel like a new life, I slowly blinked my eyelids, and saw a somewhat funny pink pig hanging above my head, eating a hamburger with his mouth wide open, I looked at this strange doll ignorantly, and then reached out and patted it, the pig's fat belly was shaking, and I showed a shallow smile.

I looked at him until he became stranger and stranger, and I whispered to him, "Goodbye." ”