I had another dream about her, in which she smiled at me and woke up in a very good mood. Looking up at the window, the weather was fine and the breeze was blowing. I got up and sat down at the window, opened my notebook, and logged into my mailbox.

I have the habit of using mailbox records, I don't like long speeches, and the details that are recorded are basically details that I don't want to forget, I think, I don't need to say that you also know that after knowing her, the most recorded content is related to her.

There were more than a dozen unread emails in the mailbox, and after clicking on them at random, I saw the words "Lin Siyu", and among the dozen emails, the largest number was sent by her.

She knows that I have the habit of using an email address, and has always been haunted by the last incident in Nanjing, she is a good little girl, but it is not suitable for me, as she herself said: "Senior brother, in fact, sometimes I am very conflicted, I like you, you know, so I want to be good to you desperately, but after reading these contents of your record, I suddenly sobered up, I think, I am afraid that I will never be able to replace the position of Xiao Yuan." ”

In fact, she doesn't need to feel guilty, after reading these contents, I don't have to say some words, indeed, I have already passed the marriageable age, but, I can't settle down, love someone, you have to be from the heart, knowing that she is happy, I can be satisfied.

Lin Siyu's first email was sent the day after my departure, she said: "Senior brother, I know that you have a habit of using emails, in this case, I still want to share a message with you, the day you left, Sister Xiao Yuan cried at the door of the hospital, I know, she is reluctant to you, I won't say much else, you take care of yourself." ”

See, I knew she would react this way, and for the sake of me having to go, I was afraid of pity, and I had my own pride.

In the past, I always felt that in the relationship between two people, there must be some scruples and fears, but then I realized that there is no reason to say about this kind of thing, and my forbearance is indeed a kind of protection for her, but I know that in comparison, his honesty can get her distress more.

I regret it, and I want to tell her that I have done some trivial things for you.

In my small account, the fourth time we met, under the reminder of Yingzi, I took the lunch box to the cafeteria and prepared a bowl of hot dumplings for her. I would be glad that she had used my utensils, but I would not dare to show it too clearly in front of her.

I rarely lose my temper with people, but when I saw Zeng Ziqian angry at her in the hospital, I couldn't help but be angry, think about it, this is also quite stupid, where is there a couple who doesn't quarrel?

I was really stupid, so I could only secretly stare at the CT photo of her ribs after she left the hospital, and I couldn't wait for her news for a day, two days, so I could only ask her to come to the hospital in the name of thinking about her health.

Ms. Fu still understands my thoughts, and before leaving work, she sent me a text message with the address of a restaurant.

I know, she's there.

How do you create opportunities for chance encounters? After thinking about it, I could only pull my colleagues from the same department to have dinner together. I know they were surprised, and everyone knew that Dr. Leung didn't like to socialize.

Maybe I'm naïve, right? I don't have much appetite for a bunch of fresh food, but I often use the name of going to the bathroom to create opportunities for chance encounters. Also, if you run directly to the private room next door, it will definitely arouse some suspicion. Just when I was being ridiculed by a male colleague in the same department for going to the urology department, she came out of the private room.

I don't like women to socialize outside for a long time, and I even reject this kind of women a little, but this matter is not a shortcoming for her. As Ms. Fu said, she struggles alone, and all her bad habits are forced out.

I have seen her more than once forced by life to socialize, and I know that she doesn't need my help.

Why is she so stubborn? I'm a little distressed.

She didn't know that this time they met, in fact, my self-esteem was still destroyed in a large area, indeed, I was not good, but I was not bad, but after she said a few words to me, she said the man's name.

Well, before this, I didn't know that the man's name was Zeng Ziqian.

Probably because of jealousy and anger, I remembered the name.

She's drunk, and even though it's me who sent her back this time, even if I want to reason in front of her, I still can't say it.

She didn't know that she was so cute even when she was drunk. Well, even if I'm crazy.

If I'm not crazy, why do I stubbornly like her even though I know she has someone in her heart?

The fifth time we met, I took the initiative. Her drunken words did hit my man's self-esteem, but I couldn't help it, I just wanted to see her, I was even thinking, when I saw her, I said bluntly "I want to pursue you", but I was afraid of scaring her.

It's okay to put this thing abroad, whether it's a heart or a kidney, the girls won't care, but she's not, she's a girl who will be shy even for a physical examination.

Ms. Fu said: "Wen Hao, you have studied medicine for so many years, and you have memorized so many literatures, if you use your perseverance in learning to chase girls, what girls can't catch up." ”

Ms. Fu said wrong, reading the literature, what you want is perseverance, but chasing girls, in addition to perseverance, you also have to be thick-skinned, Ms. Fu doesn't know, I have always been quite thin-skinned. But the sixth time we met, I couldn't bear it anymore. I thought, as a human being, there must be a time when you are cheeky, but I heard her words of refusal with my own ears.

Liang Wenhao was rejected, it's a pity, some words don't even have a chance to speak. Willingly? Of course not reconciled.

Therefore, when Ms. Fu told me on the phone the next day that she was in difficulty, I did not hesitate to go to the director, and drove off without having time to write a leave note.

The seventh time we met, it was in her hometown. She may not know, but I am ready to face the difficulties, after all, she has a sweetheart.

Actually, I understand, after all, touched and liked, there is still some feeling missing.

So, when I saw the man appear downstairs at her house, I chose to leave silently. I know, this time, I failed again, and there is no shame in failure, and shamefully, I still want to kick another man out of her heart.

How do you describe that loss? Say sad, maybe some people don't believe it, when this incident didn't happen, I also didn't believe it, I always felt that the feelings between people are all getting along, and we, only eight times, eight times, can make one person care about another person? But my heart just hurts.

I didn't want to compromise on my feelings, I would make Ms. Fu feel at ease through blind dates and other means, but she was the only woman who really walked into my heart.

In a bar by the River Thames, Jack asked me, "What is it about her that attracts you?" ”

I thought about it and couldn't find a specific reason, well, she fulfilled all my fantasies about the opposite sex.

"Then go after it." Jack said the same thing to Ms. Fu, "After all, she hasn't put a ring on her ring finger yet." ”

The ninth time we met, on the third day after I returned home, the four of us sat at a dining table, and through the thick fog, my eyes were full of her smile.

For fear that my eyes would be too naked, I could only drink with my head down, and the more alcohol accumulated in my stomach, the more I couldn't suppress the true emotions in my heart. I thought, so be it, but when there were only the two of us left in the car, I was still greedy for her lips.

When I think about it day and night, the soft, fragrant lips are as beautiful as I imagined.

Yingzi and a group of young nurses who have just graduated once talked about me outside the department, in short, saying that I am not close to women. I remember a blind date half a year ago, a girl led me to a bar, and after two more drinks, she took the initiative to take off her clothes in front of me, which has always disgusted me. But this time, Miss Yuan, do you know that I have also become the kind of person who makes me disgusted.

But I am, I can't help it.

She must not have known, and I was upset for a few days because of this. I was annoyed that I didn't respect her enough, and I regretted even more that being slapped by the girl I liked was equivalent to a death sentence for myself.

I don't think I had a chance, if I didn't know she was in dire straits during that time.

Ms. Fu is also an old man, in her words, it is rare to see that I am so attentive to a girl, so naturally I help in every way, and the way she helps is very special - help me check the situation of my rival.

I've always disdained to steal things from others, fame and fortune, I've always looked at things very lightly, whether it's at Stanford, or in the hospital where I'm currently located, what is the best evaluation, who wants to take it, I can't look down on it, and I don't want to fight, let alone love, which is an elegant thing?

But what I didn't expect was that Zeng Ziqian, a man, turned out to be a shareholder of Hengyu. Ms. Fu said: "Wen Hao, do you understand the door? Your advantage is that whoever you like, your aunt will spare no effort to help you. And they are blocked by tens of millions, and it is difficult to succeed. ”

Ms. Fu is right, everyone knows that in this materialistic society, everyone has their own position, so it may be a joke to say such a thing as love than Jin Jian. But I think, if she really loses to reality, she won't be the woman I love so much, right?

ps: That's all for today, see you tomorrow, about Liang Wenhao, a man with a prototype, I've only seen photos, but Xiao Yuan's mouth is excellent, I also agree, see you tomorrow!