"Why don't you go in?" Seeing that I was distracted, standing motionless at the door, Lou Shaotang chuckled and asked.

I came back to my senses and turned my head to look at him, trying to speak, but my throat was so sore that I couldn't make a single syllable.

He smiled at me again, and I could tell from his smile that he knew what I was going to say.

But he didn't say anything, took me by the hand and walked in.

Closing the door, he immediately squatted down, took the women's slippers on the ground and put them at my feet, and then took off the shoes on my feet and helped me put them on.

I lifted my gaze from the slippers I had worn three years ago on my feet, and then looked into the room, slowly looking around. The tears that had been holding back before could no longer be held back, and they welled up in their eyes.

the crystal swan ornament on the shoe cabinet in the entryway, the crystal tray next to the key next to it, and the abstract oil painting on the opposite wall; table runners, placemats on the dining table; a glass vase on a coffee table, a few red tulips inserted in the vase, a crystal ashtray and a magazine; pillows and blankets on sofas; 3 frames of my photographs inlaid on the TV stand, crystal lamps on the ceiling; The fabric curtains on both sides of the floor-to-ceiling windows are tied with the pendant tassels of the curtains; There is also the Chinese knot that hung with him during the Chinese New Year, every arrangement and furnishing is exactly the same as when we lived together three years ago, and even the position has not changed in the slightest.

The tears flowed uncontrollably, I couldn't bother to wipe them, and my steps unconsciously walked in and came to the kitchen.

knives on the cooking table, wok and soup casserole on the stovetop, rice cooker, cup holder and cups next to it; Hooked aprons on the wall, insulated gloves. As from the outside, nothing has changed here, even the sticker on the fridge that I wrote to remind him to eat is still in place. And on the coffee machine, the last instructions I wrote to him on the day I left are still there.

With a salty liquid in my mouth, I looked back at Lou Shaotang who was standing behind me.

I couldn't speak, I really couldn't speak, my heart hurt too much. It's something I never dreamed of.

Lou Shaotang was not as excited as me, he looked very calm, and there was a faint smile on the corner of his mouth, but there was a slight fluctuation in his eyes.

He raised his hand to stroke the sparkle from my cheek, "Want to go to our room?" ”

Swallowing a sour throat, I nodded.

Lou Shaotang took my hand and walked towards the master bedroom.

Seeing all this outside, I think the room is the same as it was 3 years ago. But when he opened the door, I was stunned again.

The inside is exactly as I thought it was. The skin care products I left behind on the dressing table, the lipstick I wrote in the upper right corner of the makeup mirror, and the "ILOVEU, husband!" that I was reluctant to wipe off when I left. The desk lamp on the bedside table, the notebook, and the charger of the mobile phone I used to use are all still there.

But all four walls were plastered with my photographs, even the headlights and curtain rails.

Shocked, I hurried to the wall closest to me, my eyes scanning the photographs......

Some of these photos were taken by him for me, some were secretly taken by the paparazzi and published in the media, some were posted on his phone after I took selfies, and some I had never seen before and I don't know where he got them. There are me alone, and there are also photos with him.

What surprised me even more was that Shu Qiao helped me take a few photos when I met Shu Qiao in France in the past 3 years, and he must have downloaded and saved them from Shu Qiao's WeChat circle of friends.

Because I've already blocked him, he can't see my current situation, and I haven't sent a message in the circle of friends in the past 3 years. Although Rui Rui has relieved a lot of my pain, I have been comforted and happy. But those happiness are not enough for me to show to the world, only the happiness of staying with Lou Shaotang can.

In the past 3 years, I have also repeatedly looked through all the photos I posted in the circle of friends and the sweet time with Lou Shaotang in order to relieve my deep lovesickness for him. And his circle of friends. Even though it's blocked, I still go out to see it from time to time.

But like me, he hasn't updated it, it's still just the same photo we took in Monet's Park in France, which he named "we".

Every time I look at that picture, I feel pain and tears, how I wish it had been a nightmare, and when I woke up, he and I were still a loving couple.

But reality cruelly tells me that no. He and I have indeed been separated, and there will never be a return to the past, and all happiness has long since left me.

Looking at the pictures on the wall, each one was like a hammer hitting my heart. I reached out and stroked the photos, my fingers trembling uncontrollably, and my suppressed grief could no longer be suppressed, and I completely collapsed.

I covered my mouth and wept bitterly.

Ever since I stood by the wall and looked at these photos, Lou Shaotang has been standing silently next to me. He stretched out his arms and took me into his arms, stroked my head, and buried it in his chest, "Fool, what are you crying about?" ”

He laughed at me, but it was clear that he was crying himself.

He stroked the back of my head to soothe my agitation.

But my emotions were still difficult to calm down, and his shirt before the moon was soon cried by me.

I raised my face and saw that Lou Shaotang's eyes were red, his cheeks were stained with tears, and tears fell out of his wet eyes.

Unexpectedly, I would suddenly look at him, Lou Shaotang hurriedly raised his hand to wipe his face, hooked the corners of his mouth, and opened a smile that seemed extremely pleasant.

He didn't want me to be sad, I know.

But how can I not be sad!

His fingers gently wiped away my tears, but my tears kept flowing.

"Have you lived here for the past 3 years?" I asked, choked up.

Lou Shaotang's throat rolled lightly, "Hmm." His voice was visibly choked.

I looked around at the pictures on the wall again, "Why ......"

Lou Shaotang knew what I was going to ask, and immediately said: "When you just left, I couldn't sleep all night, I opened my eyes to miss you, and closed my eyes to miss you." I don't want to throw away any of the things I have shared memories with you, and seeing them is like seeing you. However, I was annoyed that I wanted to miss you so much, and every time I was so annoyed, I picked up those things and wanted to smash them, but I couldn't smash them out of my hand, so I had to put them all away, thinking that out of sight was clear. But it didn't work, all those things were already engraved in my mind, even if I couldn't see it with my eyes, my brain was like a movie replaying the scenes of our past sweet life, bit by bit. ”

With that, a heavy breath trembled out of his mouth. adjusted his mood slightly, and after a few seconds, he continued: "During that time, I was very irritable, so I kept smoking, and my addiction to smoking began to grow at that time, and then I also drank heavily, and then I started gambling again, trying to numb my brain through those to stop thinking about you, but it was still useless." In the end, I can't admit defeat, I really can't forget you, not only that, but I miss you more and more. ”

He paused, raised his head slightly, forced back the tears in his reddened eyes, rolled his Adam's apple a few times, was silent for a while, and spoke again: "So I didn't run away anymore, I simply took out all those things and put them back in place, and printed all your photos and pasted them on the wall, looking at them every day, like you were still by my side, and never left." We are still husband and wife, and we are still living happily together. Every night before I look down on these photos and say goodnight to you, the first thing I do when I wake up is to stare at these photos and ask you how are you doing? When I get home from work, I'll say, 'I'm back,' and I'll go to the kitchen to cook what you like, and I'll ask you, 'Is it delicious?' ’”

His words were very calm, his eyes were fixed on those photos, the inky black pupils were far-reaching and profound, as if he was reminiscing about that time, and his face was still floating with a faint bitter but happy light, but my heart was already like a knife, and tears flowed down my face.

"Don't say it......" I raised my hand to his mouth to say again, "Don't say it again......"

But once a person's long-closed heart is opened, it rushes like a flood, and it cannot be stopped. At this time, Lou Shaotang is like this.

He took my hand away and continued: "But as I said just now, while I still love you and miss you, I also hate you and hate you, so these photos have been torn up by me many times, but in the end I still can't stand the thoughts of you, so I reprinted them and pasted them back one by one." ”

With his words, my tears flowed like a flood.

I always thought that I was the most painful, but I never thought that he had lived like this in the past 3 years, and his life was ten million times more painful than mine.

When Zhai Jin and I pretended to be in love and played happily with Rui Rui, he was tormented in endless loneliness;

When Zhai Jin and I pretended to be happy and celebrated the festival with Rui Rui, he was tortured in boundless loneliness;

When I thought that he had been affectionate with other women and had forgotten me to the clouds, it turned out that he had been thinking about me all the time, thinking of me, and living a life with me in self-deception; On the verge of love and hatred for me, a repeated and painful struggle.

I was speechless. It hurts, it hurts, it hurts. It hurt like I had never experienced in my life, and it hurt 10,000 times more than when I left him.

Lou Shaotang pulled my hand down, held my tear-soaked cheeks with both hands, and gently removed the tears on my face little by little.

"Lou Shaotang, let's do X." Finally, I broke through the tears that filled my throat and said to him.

At this moment, I have no other thoughts in my mind, I just want him strongly, I want to be one with him.

Lou Shaotang was stunned for a moment, and the next second I was picked up by him and walked to the king-sized bed that we had melted countless times.

He treated me like a precious work of art, and gently laid me down on the bed, and I was on my back......

Although we hadn't been so close for 3 years, he still knew everything about my body, and I was quickly ignited by him, and soon sank into the whirlpool of hopelessness.

And I knew him the same, and I was not reserved or unfamiliar with him, and he was immediately driven crazy by me, like a wild horse that had escaped from the reins, and ran with me to the high clouds......

Because I hadn't done anything like this for too long, Lou Shaotang was quickly released, but he also quickly took me to start the second round of climbing.

Immediately after the third, fourth, nth ......

When we finally felt satisfied, and the stars were already in the night sky, we remembered that we hadn't eaten yet.

I reluctantly withdrew from Lou Shaotang's arms, got up, and was just about to scoop up the clothes on the ground, Lou Shaotang grabbed my arm and sat up, "You lie down for a while, I'll cook." ”

"I'll go, you exercised too much just now, and you're more tired than me." Just as he felt sorry for me, I felt sorry for him, but the tone was playful.

Lou Shaotang raised his eyebrows, and the corners of his mouth hooked with a wicked smile, "What is this amount of exercise, it seems that you have forgotten how good I am," raised his hand and softened my X, "It's okay, I will let you remember it slowly in the future." ”

I also laughed, and suddenly thought of a question, raised my hand, cocked my fingers, and gently circled around his pre-Min Dian with a very picky bean, "Lou Shaotang, how have you solved your needs for so many years?" "I also deliberately used an amorous tone.

Obviously I didn't expect me to ask this question, Lou Shaotang's face flashed with a moment of surprise, and then he hid his smile, and his expression became slightly calm and serious, "There is something I want to confess to you." ”

My heart fluttered, and a smile froze at the corner of my mouth, "What's the matter?" "My heart was pounding.

"In fact, I have always had a regular partner over the years."

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