Chapter 191: Self-improvement
After listening to Li Yuntong's words, Chizun was silent for a long time.
After a while, she said: "It's easy to say, but it's so difficult to do." Since childhood, we women have been educated to follow their fathers at home and marry to their husbands, so how can we not put joys, sorrows, and sorrows on him? ”
"Sister, think about how men treat feelings." Li Yuntong said sincerely: "The reason why men don't worry about emotional matters like women is because their eyes have a bigger world, and although they will enjoy their feelings, they will never be stuck, or even lose themselves." ”
"Sister, as women, can we only regard men as heaven, and regard his joy as joy, and joy and sorrow as joy? Open your eyes and look into the distance, perhaps, you can see a wider world. ”
Li Yuntong's words pierced Chizun's heart and lungs, and she muttered: "Love parting, resentment will be, what you want is not self-seeking bitter water." All love will be, impermanence is rare for a long time, life is fearful, life is in danger of morning dew, from love to worry, from love to fear, if you are separated from your beloved, worry-free and fearless......"
Li Yuntong nodded, "My sister remembers the scriptures so strongly, and obviously she has persuaded herself a lot, but she struggled with it for a while, and it was difficult to get rid of it." But think about it, how many men destroy their future for the sake of their feelings? How many people don't eat or sleep for the sake of affection? How many will turn their backs on their families for the sake of affection? ”
A sneering smile appeared on her lips, "They are so smart, few men will collapse for the sake of feelings, but we are so stupid, most women seem to be separated from men, and they can't even breathe and laugh, but they don't want to think about how comfortable they were when they were pampered by their families before they met them?" ”
Thinking that she was indeed married and laughed less, although she did have the ultimate joy, but after that, it was more lonely waiting, lovesick torment, and then compared to the simplicity and freedom before she was married, arrogant and arbitrary, Chizun was obviously touched, she remembered the first time she showed jealousy when she was cold, after that, she didn't dare to fight with Zampu anymore, and the discomfort in her heart could not be relieved, sometimes, she could only recite the scriptures over and over again to relieve the discomfort in her heart.
However, she lost herself, she became disliked by herself, and Zamp, although he respected her, did not take her to heart, so sometimes he showed patience and restraint.
At first, when he saw her, he was obviously happy and appreciative.
"yes, it's always good at first, and then later, it slowly changes." Chizun sighed softly, "But, I really like him, it's the kind of love I want to see him every day, I'm very happy to see him, I just want that happiness, why is it so difficult?" ”
"It seems that if I can't see him, I'm not happy, what should I do?"
Li Yuntong took a sip of tea and persuaded softly: "Just like this tea, when it is brewed for the first time, it is the most intense, although it is light in the back, it is still sweet, but if you keep drinking it, it will be so light that it has no taste, if there are too many tears in it, you should pour it out, and if you drink it reluctantly, it is also bitter and astringent......"
She didn't say her name, but told Chizun about the story of Mona and Gamujie, "Maybe at the beginning, they also had a good time, but later, he was in a high position of power, and gradually lost control, and the evil in his heart was magnified, greedy and vicious...... She finally fought back, although she won, in fact, she didn't lose, and from then on it would be difficult for her to give such true love to a person, for an unworthy person, trapping herself. ”
"Sometimes I wonder why our parents have raised us with fine clothes and food, pampered and cared for, but why do we fall from the clouds to the mud after we get married, and go down to the dust to revolve around a man? Where are we and where have we gone? Could it be that the books we read, the piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, everything, the meaning of existence is for a man? ”
She asked lightly: "If you go back to the past, would you rather lose your parents and relatives and lose your entire family for the sake of that happiness, but also choose him?" ”
"I won't live like that, sister, are you willing to put your heart on someone else's?"
Hearing Li Yuntong's light question, Chizun looked up at her, and seemed to have an understanding in his heart.
She laughed slowly, and the moon rose with laughter.
Li Yuntong only felt that there were sparks flickering from the bottom of her eyes like stars, and those eyes were so beautiful that even she couldn't stop at them.
"My sister is so beautiful like this." She complimented heartily.
Chizun smiled embarrassedly, "You yourself are a beauty, come and praise me." ”。
Li Yuntong said unashamedly: "Then we are beauties and beauties, and we cherish them." ”
The two looked at each other and smiled.
Chizun was a little curious, "Speaking of which, I am two years older than you, but I want you to explain, how can you be so thorough at your young age?" ”
"Perhaps, it's because I saw my mother shed too many tears when I was a child, so I thought a lot, my brother loved me very much, no matter what strange thoughts he asked, he would explain to me, about men's thoughts, a lot of them were told to me. And my master, he said that men and women are equal, and what men can do, women can also do, and he said that there are female emperors in history......"
Speaking of this, Li Yuntong said with some confusion: "But I clearly remember that none of the emperors of all dynasties were women......"
Chizun thought about it, and shook his head: "There is no one in our country, and as far as I know, there is no one in Tibet. It may be other countries, after all, there are so many subject countries in Datang, and there are those countries that are far, far away. Your master is right, maybe it's a matter of other countries. ”
She said with some envy: "You have a good brother and a good master, no wonder you are so open-minded and graceful." ”
Li Yuntong chuckled, "Haha, my father...... My family always called me a crazy girl, that my master had taught me badly. ”
Thinking that because of his father's demotion, he saw the warmth and coldness of people, and he became sensible, Li Yuntong's eyes showed a little melancholy, "Actually, I also went through some changes to really understand what they said." My master once said that the Li family can have today's status in Datang because of the overall situation, the family first, and the sacrifice of countless people to get the achievements of Datang Megatron. ”
"In a family, if everyone is just happy for themselves and does not focus on the overall situation, not only will they not develop, but they will also be suppressed by their opponents and fall apart, men are sacrificing for the prosperity of the family, and women need to do the same."
"From the time I knew that I wanted to be close, I knew that my own selfish desires were not important to the king and the family, not to mention that Zampu was young and strong, even if he was seventy or eighty, I had to marry, anyway, why don't I follow the example of a man, and regard peace with Tibet as an envoy, and it is my responsibility to make friends and harmony between the two countries."
There was a bit of perseverance in her eyes, "The reason why it is difficult for women to have the achievements of founding a country like a man is of course related to the education we have received since childhood and being trapped in the back house, but there is also a big reason, that is, we are willing to do this, we take our own desires too seriously, and we take our own happiness too seriously, but if this love is put in the overall situation like a man, it is really insignificant." After figuring this out, he naturally doesn't care who he likes and whose palace he is resting in. ”
Because of this heart-to-heart exchange, the relationship between Li Yuntong and Chizun gradually became closer, which made Letoman, who wanted to see them fight, depressed.
When she heard that they were both going to Mount Serauz, she clamored to go together.
Sera Wuzi Mountain is only more than 20 miles away from the city of Luo, about 4,000 meters high, there is a hole at the foot of the mountain where there is a spring gushing out, there are many ancient trees on both sides of the mountain road, those leaves are red and yellow in late autumn, the birdsong of all colors on the treetops is crisp and beautiful, echoing in the valley far and near, the scenery looks very beautiful.
On the top of Sera Wuz Mountain, you can see the entire city of Luo, the sunset is obliquely shining, and the city of Luo is like being full of gold, and it is full of gold.
At night, the mountain is very cold, and even if you are wearing a fox fur, you don't feel hot.
Letoman regretted that he had followed.
She held the hot tea and asked, "Jiamusa, you came from the Tang Dynasty, and you are not afraid of the cold, and you went to this Sera Wuzi Mountain to watch the sunrise, which is really leisurely and elegant." It's rare for Jiajin Saken to accompany you, and I will join in the fun, but at this time, I still feel that it is more comfortable to be warm and warm in the palace. ”
Li Yuntong and Chizun glanced at each other, of course watching the sunrise was their excuse, the woman who could speak beast language, it is said that she lived in the Sera Wuzi Mountain, they came with this excuse because first, this matter was more confidential, and second, to explore the mountain feng shui, to see where the mountain is suitable for building a temple, after all, if you want Buddhism to replace Bon, you have to let the Buddhist temples and pagodas bloom everywhere.
Some things can be handed over to the people below, but the matter of feng shui is related to the national fortune of Tubo, and Li Yuntong doesn't want to be idle in the harem all day long, so he took this opportunity to come out and have a look.
Chizun rarely went out of the palace before, but now that he changed his mind, he also thought about it, so the two changed into men's clothes and brought out dozens of retinues with strong martial arts.
Letoman came with them when they left the palace, and said that they represented the Tang Dynasty and Nipolo, and she wanted to pray for blessings at sunrise on behalf of Tibet.
Because Letoman is the sister-in-law of King Yangtong, and her sister Sekarma will marry Yangtong in the spring of next year, Songtsen Gampo will allow her, and Li Yuntong and Chizun have no choice but to take her and set off together.
At this time, hearing Letoman's complaint, Chizun just smiled faintly.
Li Yuntong glanced at Letoman, and said lightly: "Since it is a blessing, of course, you have to be sincere, Yang Tongsa is actually to join in the fun, aren't you afraid that the Bodhisattva will be unhappy when he hears it?" ”
"Huh?" Letoman was a little dumbfounded, no matter how big her heart was, she didn't dare to offend the Bodhisattva, and muttered in a low voice: "I, I didn't say anything, where is the Bodhisattva to blame?" ”
Li Yuntong had the heart to support her, so he said: "I advise Yang Tongsa that you should go outside and apologize to the Bodhisattva, remember, you must worship the moon and be sincere." ”
Letoman, though reluctantly, stood up.