My question went unanswered, and Chen Si sat motionless, silent for a long time.

I asked again, and this time she reacted, lifting her head slightly from her knees, but not looking at me.

"Did you come to see my jokes?"

Chen Si's voice was calm, not as hysterical as every time he came into contact with her before. I looked at her half-dead appearance, sighed slightly, and sat down next to her.

I didn't turn my head to look at her, I just looked at the roast chicken in my hand, tore a piece of meat from it again, put it in my mouth, chewed it a few times, and then said, "Do you have anything worth my joke about?" I don't think there's anything funny about what happened before. ”

"Heh" Chen Si chuckled, meaning uncertain, "I really hate you, I hate you from the first sight." Seeing you like this now makes me even more annoying. ”

"I don't think I did anything to provoke you." I turned to look at her, "I don't understand why you're hostile to me. ”

"Do you need a reason to hate someone?" Chen Si's face was expressionless, "It's annoying to see you standing with those men, and the way you look now makes me even more annoying." ”

"I don't really understand." I shook my head, "I don't think I've done anything out of the ordinary, and your disgust is inexplicable." And in fact, you've also shown favor to Wolf Fang and Lin Ya, haven't you? ”

"I just don't like to see you get along, for me, men are just a resource, and other women are enemies competing for resources." Chen Si sat up straight, leaning against the tree behind him, his eyes looking in the direction in front of him without focus. "I hate your way of getting along with them as friends, there is never real affection between men and women, friendship between men and women is wishful thinking that one party wants to sleep with the other, and love is that both people want to abduct each other to bed, it's as simple as that."

How do I answer this? I frowned, I didn't expect Chen Si's thoughts to be so extreme, why did she have such thoughts?

"Have you never had a male friend?" I had a headache, "Then you and forget it." ”

"Are you trying to ask me and Qu Ying? You can just say it, and you don't have to look like you're worried about irritating me. Chen Si turned her head to look at me, but the expression on her face made me feel very uncomfortable, it was a cold and mocking look, "That's what I said I hated you now, looking like a virgin white lotus, I'm curious why you came here to comfort?" Yes, I should say comfort to me. You think I need your pathetic? Or do you think you are God and therefore you have to love all beings? Even if it's someone who hates you and targets you, should you go and put a hot face on someone else's cold ass? What annoys me the most is that I know that you are genuinely trying to comfort me, and I really hate the way you look like a virgin. ”

I blinked, not expecting such an accusation for a moment, and thought for a few seconds before sighing.

"It has nothing to do with poor or anything, you say I'm the Virgin, then I am." I shrugged my shoulders and smiled, "I don't think there's anything wrong with Our Lady, at least it represents kindness, I want to be a kind person, and I don't feel that kindness is at fault." ”

"As for why you want to comfort you, it's not a comfort, it's just that in this place, whether you like me or hate me, you are my companion, as long as you don't take the initiative to hurt me, even if our relationship is not good, I don't want you to encounter any danger." I tore the roast chicken into two portions and handed one of them to Chen Si, "Javier said, we insist on one thing, not because it will be effective, but because we firmly believe that it is the right thing to do. ”

"So in your understanding, it's right to help a poor man like me, right?"

Chen Si sneered and looked at me, his face full of mockery and provocation, I looked back at her calmly, just holding the roast chicken handed to her and not speaking.

We looked at each other for a long time, and then Chen Si took the lead in turning his head, and at the same time reached out to take the food I handed over, and looked at the food for a while but did not eat it. I was wondering if she wasn't going to say anything to me anymore when she suddenly said something completely unexpected.

"You know what? I did it with Qu Ying, just after we went through the last room together, in the period before we entered here. In my house, we did. I didn't want to be alone in my room anymore and he had something to do with me, so we did it naturally. ”

"What have you done" I subconsciously asked, but I suddenly understood what Chen Si meant, opened my mouth slightly in shock, and saw Chen Si's gaze, so I hurriedly adjusted my facial expression and turned my head, "I'm sorry." ”

"Sorry what? What do you have to apologize to me? Chen Si sneered, his voice full of self-deprecation, "What do you think I am like now?" Rotten who can sleep with someone just after they met? Or not self-loving? Tell me about it, I wonder what you think. ”

"I'm just shocked that you're so close, and I don't mean anything else." I looked at Chen Si and shook my head, "It's your freedom to do what you want, first, it's not illegal, and second, it doesn't bother anyone, even if it's different from my own opinion, it's not something I'm qualified to interfere with or criticize, I don't think about anything." ”

Seriously, I didn't expect that Chen Si and Qu Ying had already reached that point

Hearing my words, Chen Si turned his head to look at me, with a calm but chilling look on his face, "I really hate you more and more." ”

Yes? Yes?? Yes??? What did I do again? Does this guy have to be criticized by others for her to be happy? Jitter attributes?

I pursed my lips and was silent for a while, before I finally couldn't help but ask again, "Why?" It doesn't seem to have anything to do with Our Lady, does it? ”

"Because you're a good person."

"What!?"

"I said you're a good guy."

I looked at Chen Si a little stunned, I didn't expect her to say this, it seemed that it was funny to look at me stunned, Chen Si suddenly laughed, and even covered his stomach with laughter.

Just when I was overwhelmed by her laughter, she finally stopped, with a smile in her voice, "Speaking of which, I hate all three of you girls, but I hate you especially well." I hate a good girl like you, I really hate it. One of the funniest things I've ever heard is that I smoke, drink, get tattoos, get tires, go to nightclubs, and talk dirty, but I know I'm a good girl. And in fact, a person like me is a good girl, a person like you. ”

I was silent and didn't know how to answer this question, Chen Si looked bad, I always felt that there seemed to be something in this that I didn't know. Everyone in this world has everyone's pain, and I can't empathize with it, and I can't say to others that I understand.

"Forget it, you won't understand." Chen Si shook his head, and suddenly said, "By the way, I've always been curious, what do people like you do?" ”

Although I don't know why Chen Si suddenly became interested in this matter, I still honestly replied, "I am a family and write for a living." ”

"It's no wonder writer, I don't think you have been exposed to many people." Chen Si turned his head to look at me, a sarcastic smile on his face, "What are you writing?" Love? ”

"No, I don't write about love, I write about suspense, about the struggles of human nature?" I replied with a shrug.

"Humanity, I only know sex." Looking at my sluggish look, Chen Si burst out laughing again, "I really can't imagine how a person like you can write such a dark thing, I'm afraid what you depict is also an ivory tower." Why are you writing it? ”

Ivory tower? I didn't argue with Chen Si about this, writing comes from life, it's just that good and evil will be highlighted and expanded, but that really exists. As for the other question, I think I haven't thought about it for a long time. Writing is my job, I have to write in order to survive, think about the first time I wrote, when my parents were away, what did I write for?

"In order to live, I have to live." I smiled bitterly, and suddenly found that I seemed to have inadvertently forgotten my original intention in those decadent days, "And the original intention is just to write a story, I hope someone can like this story, and I hope that someone can read my soul through time and space." ”

"Soul, Naya's soul is clean"

"What did you say?" Chen Si's voice was too small to hear it clearly, so I asked suspiciously.

Chen Si shook his head, "It's nothing, enough talking, remember that I hate you, I don't want to eat with you anymore, you can get out." ”

Does this count as crossing the river and demolishing the bridge? The corners of my mouth twitched. But come to think of it, there doesn't seem to be any friendship bridge between me and her, so I'd better get out of here.

So I didn't say anything, I stood up and took the rest of the regular roast chicken back to my original position. Thinking about the original intention of writing that I just remembered, I suddenly felt a little funny.

When I was in peace and quiet, I let myself be decadent, forgetting all the important things and just living in a blur. But in the face of the threat of death, he woke up little by little and found his original intention.

Before entering the Endless Room, I was just a walking corpse with no worries about life. It was only after I came here that I was truly alive again.

Maybe it's hell here, everyone will inevitably change when they get here, the difference is just that they will either sink or be reborn.