84. Do you know how scared I am
If the night gave me room to undisguise myself, then alcohol gave me the courage to indulge in this moment, and this moment, not brave, smell, was filled with this familiar smell.
The next second, Mr. Zeng avoided my lips.
This scene has appeared countless times in the dream world, and I can accept it, so I simply closed my eyes and prepared to continue sleeping. However, this dream was unusual, in addition to the turbulence in my consciousness, there was also a hand that had been holding me tightly.
This hand was cold, I couldn't stand it a little, and in a daze, I saw Mr. Zeng's face again.
I looked at him depressedly, but he put the quilt on my body and said softly, "Go to sleep." ”
He got up to leave, but I didn't want to, so I just reached out and pulled him, and I patted my palm on the back of my hand, and then said, "I'm going to get a hot towel." ”
These words soothed me in impatience.
After all, this opportunity to be alone is too difficult for me.
I squinted and counted the time silently in my heart, if it was too long, Mr. Zeng would definitely be gone, and I couldn't let him go, so once I forced myself to stay awake.
I relaxed slightly as the warm towel gently wiped my face, and the man still liked me as much as he did at the beginning, and I could feel it all from his subtle movements.
I said, "If time can stand still, it will stop at the beginning of our acquaintance." ”
Mr. Zeng was helping me wipe my hands, and when he heard my words, he suddenly paused, and then did not speak.
I said, "You used to talk so much, why are you talking less and less now?" ”
I didn't get a reply, and I occasionally heard the sound of twisting a towel in my ears, which was very pleasant at this moment, and I felt reassured. After a while, there was an additional figure at my side, I held out my hand, and the next moment, he took my hand.
I'm like a hungry, and he's an immovable Buddha.
I have too many problems in my heart, but I know how difficult it is to get along for a short time, so I just lie down honestly, and feel more and more at ease.
Then I asked him, "Didn't you go abroad?" Are you worried that I'm coming back? ”
In hindsight, such a shameless question can only be said at this time.
Mr. Zeng was uncharacteristically quiet, I was a little irritable, I didn't like this man who pretended to be deep now, and as soon as I stretched out my hand, I put my arms around his waist.
Although someone's face looked a little thinner, the abdominal muscles around the waist were still so strong, and I symbolically touched it, and saw that he didn't object, and became more and more bold.
Then, I unbuttoned the man.
Even though I was already very drunk at this moment, my subconscious told me that it was not a dream. It doesn't matter where the gap between reality and fantasy is, because, this man is here.
I touched his pectorals, and I felt a gasp in my ear, and I was secretly smug, then I rolled over and pressed my lips to his heart.
One second, two seconds, three seconds.
His heartbeat was as wild as I had guessed.
At that moment, his hand blocked mine, and then shoved my hand back into the bed.
Of course I was angry, so I made a bold move and didn't hesitate to put my hand under his waist.
I felt that this man was trying to restrain himself, as if we were challenging each other's limits at this moment, but under my temptation, within a minute, the cold lips fell.
There was never a moment when we were desperate like this, and I clearly felt the uneasiness, but I couldn't contain it, so we had to ask for each other physically, and I finally understood that it was not a dream.
Mr. Zeng, I miss you.
Half-asleep, I vaguely heard this man whispering something in my ear, and I was so tired from the overtime and physical exertion just now that I couldn't hear what he was saying, and then fell asleep.
When I woke up, I realized that I was lying on a strange bed. To be exact, I was actually lying in the hotel.
On the table is a change of clothes, and there is a note on the clothes: clothes can be changed, I'll pick you up later.
It's Mr. Zeng, and I know his handwriting.
I happily got up from the bed, took a shower, put on makeup, heard the sound outside the door, and when I turned around, I saw Zeng Ziqian standing behind me.
However, the look on his face was detached.
I stared at him, fantasizing about being as honest as I had ever been, but he only told me to send me back.
Even though I couldn't be conscious last night, I could still feel how this man felt for me, but at this moment, why did he suddenly become so cold?
We didn't speak all the way, and we were about to get to the residence, Zeng Ziqian still didn't say anything, the anger in my heart was already uncontrollable, could it be that the night last night was just a vent?
I ordered Zeng Ziqian to stop, I walked to the moat neatly, tried to adjust my breathing, realized that Zeng Ziqian also got out of the car, I turned around and said, "What do you mean?" ”
Zeng Ziqian looked at me, a trace of panic flashed in his eyes, and said, "What do you understand." ”
What do I mean? Drunk and messy X? Even if I wasn't conscious last night, at least he was awake, right? I can't accept this kind of attitude of imminence, and I can't accept his attitude of alternating enthusiasm and coldness.
"Zeng Ziqian, are you rich and amazing?" I pointed to the man in front of me, who had already lost his mind, and said, "Why do you treat me like this, aren't you just remembering my old feelings for you?" ”
"Forget me."
I looked over in astonishment, saw Zeng Ziqian looking at me calmly, and said, "I will leave here at the end of the month, and after that, I will not come back." ”
It took me two minutes to restrain my emotions at the moment, and the so-called mixed feelings are my current mental state.
Leave?
"And what was last night? Breakup cannon? ”
Zeng Ziqian avoided my gaze and remained silent.
I looked at the side of this man's face, tears fell involuntarily, I wiped away the tears violently, looked at Zeng Ziqian, and said, "Zeng Ziqian, let me ask you one last time, are you just playing with me?" Are you struggling? If there is, you say it, let's spread it out and say, if you are just playing and want to change your taste with me, you can also be blunt, the last time in Fujia, I gave you a slap, we lack a chance to communicate correctly, now, I give it to you. ”
Zeng Ziqian turned his back to me and did not speak.
My voice is calmer than I imagined, instead of being so half-dead entangled, it is better to say a happy thing at once, entanglement, which will only make me more and more cheap.
"Family, external conditions, or other objective reasons, you say."
Zeng Ziqian suddenly turned to look at me and said angrily: "Yuan Xiaojie, don't you understand my current performance?" Why do you have to force a man to tell you so thoroughly? I used to think you were 2, now I think you're stupid. ”
I looked at Zeng Ziqian's bullying chest, and suddenly felt that it was not so terrifying when I spread it out.
"I understand," I looked at Zeng Ziqian and said, "Mr. Zeng, I am not thick-skinned enough to hold your big Buddha, today, we officially broke up." ”
Zeng Ziqian stared at me, suddenly turned his face away, coughed violently, I bit my lips, forced myself to ignore it, and then raised my feet, and did not look back.
All along, I didn't have the courage to face this relationship, several times I was ready to start over, however, because of the failure of this man's appearance, I hesitated, hesitated, and even tried to close the distance between us, I knew that this was a crime, but I couldn't control myself.
Now, the reality is in front of us, and we have finally cut it in two.
Some people have experienced the ups and downs in three and a half years of love, however, in the one year that I have been with Zeng Ziqian, I have tasted all the tastes, and it is not until today that we completely broke down, and I realized that I liked him more than I imagined.
I am worthy of five months in exchange for one without regrets. As for the unknown, everything about him, I will try to let go completely. If you think about it, in fact, this relationship was very blind from the beginning, at that time, I didn't have time to get to know this man well, however, when I wanted to get to know him thoroughly, the passion had already dissipated.
I hid it better, Xiaobai didn't notice that I was any different from before, if I was reluctant to bring a bit of hypocrisy before, then at this moment, I was completely calm.
The car advertisement was more successful than I imagined, the love scene was frustrated, the workplace was proud, and I got the first payment of more than 100,000 yuan in my life, but at this moment, I want to thank Mr. Zeng.
If it weren't for him, maybe I would still be doing nothing in the advertising agency at the beginning, if it weren't for him, I would never have learned the level 4 spoken French, without him, I wouldn't have been able to see me in social situations calmly, and without him, I wouldn't have been able to achieve what I am now.
A week later, Manager Zhang sent an invitation letter to our company, asking me and Xiaobai to attend the evening thank-you reception, Xiaobai wanted to attend the wedding with Heizi, and suggested that I find Liang Wenhao as a male companion, I didn't agree, I went to Yintai and chose a Burberry A-line jacquard inlaid lace piece dress, after removing the event price, 20,000.
After swiping the card, I got a little psychological satisfaction. I know that in the eyes of some people, this is simply not a big deal, after all, there are so many ways for a woman to want to wear expensive clothes.
But when you really become good, you will find that the world is actually very gentle.
For example, when I handed my 50,000 yuan deposit to my mother, she didn't frown anymore and offered to let me go home for dinner after work.
For example, a female customer will be interested in continuing to communicate because of your pair of shoes, and a male customer will find the woman to have good taste.
In fact, they don't know that a year ago, I didn't even have a luxury item in my hands.
During my relationship with Mr. Zeng, the only thing I was glad about was that I didn't talk to him about money.
The driver reminded me that the place had arrived, I pulled back my thoughts, got out of the car, held my handbag and walked up the steps, there are always countless steps in front of the grand hotel, but only when I walk here, will I realize that there is more than one step above.
When Manager Zhang saw me walk in, he immediately came over to greet me, and introduced to the few people in front of him with a smile: "This is Director Yuan, and we have been able to achieve so much this time, all of which are the credit of this talented woman." ”
The few people in front of me showed their appreciation to me, and I smiled and said, "Manager Zhang, you are holding me up too much, if it weren't for your discerning eyes that gave us this opportunity, where would I be today." ”
Manager Zhang looked at me and said, "Let me say, there is a saying called what, by the way, you can eat with your face, but you chose talent, and it is our Director Yuan." ”
I continued to play compliments to them, anyway, now that I am familiar with the road, who knew that one of the bosses suddenly spoke, saying: "I heard that Director Yuan and Hengyu's Zeng Zong are also old acquaintances, so you must know the beauty next to Mr. Zeng?" ”
I must have been flustered before I said this, but now I've learned to be self-conscious.
I followed the boss's eyes, and the next moment, I realized that I had met an old acquaintance.
It's Wang Luoqi.
Of course, she saw me too.
After coming back this time, I fought with Zeng Ziqian several times, and I always felt that there was something shortcoming, but after seeing Wang Luoqi, I instantly understood.
Wang Luoqi glanced at me and walked towards me with champagne. Her figure was as good as ever, she chose a shiny hip skirt, and said with a smile: "Miss Yuan, long time no see." No, no, no, it seems that I have to call you Director Yuan now? ”
"It's been a long time."
Wang Luoqi glanced at the other guests walking around, gave me a look, and said, "I haven't seen you for a long time, why don't we take a step to talk?" ”
I smiled and said, "Miss Wang, you can't have a bad memory, haven't you and I always been speculative?" ”
Wang Luoqi had already realized that I was not the persimmon that I was pinching before, so he simply looked me up and down and said, "Yes, you are wearing Burberry?" ”
As I expected, this woman still had to teach her a lesson.
"However, let me make a small suggestion," Wang Luoqi pointed to the shoes on my feet and said, "I personally feel that nude color is not suitable for you, you see, how wide the soles of your feet look." ”
"Miss Wang may not know, the soles of her feet are wide, and she is also very powerful at kicking people."
Wang Luoqi looked at me in a panic, and when he saw that I was silent, he pretended to be calm and said, "Why do you bother? It's not my fault that my cousin didn't choose you. ”
And poked me in the sore spot.
"At the end of the month, we will go back to California, where the house is very large, with more than 20 rooms, and if Yuan Xiaojie comes to the United States, she can come to live at home." Wang Luoqi looked at me with a smile, and his voice became more and more disgusting.
"So, more than twenty days left?" I said this and pondered, "I still have a chance." ”
When Wang Luoqi heard me say this, he immediately became calm, stared at me, and said, "Your skin is really thicker than the medieval city wall, I heard that you have been rejected by your cousin many times." ”
"Did you listen to Jiang Tianyang?"
Wang Luoqi didn't expect me to talk about Jiang Tianyang, a blush flashed on his face, and he turned around and walked towards another place.
I gave him a blank look, and as soon as I turned around, I bumped into a man.
Wait, this smells familiar?
I hurriedly raised my head, and then I saw Liang Wenhao.
He looked at me smugly, pointed to the front door, and said, "Don't be surprised, I also came with an invitation." ”
It was an invitation from Sister Fu to him.
"Look at it, the two of us seem to be weird." Liang Wenhao leaned against the window with champagne, pointed to the guests coming and going in the center of the hall, glanced at me, and said, "Everyone is one-on-one, and when they come to us, ...... them."
Liang Wenhao didn't say that it was okay, but when he reminded me like this, I didn't feel any discomfort, but I was a little embarrassed.
At this moment, Mr. Zhang of the pharmaceutical company walked over, with a small belly, and said with a smile: "Director Yuan, why are you hiding here, I am looking for you so hard." ”
I laughed: "Mr. Zhang, you are joking with me again, you look for me, call me a name, and I won't go over?" ”
Mr. Zhang looked at me, stretched out a hand in front of me, and said, "Then Miss Yuan, can I ask you to dance?" ”
I'm going to panic, firstly, because I am still very reluctant to this kind of communication, and secondly, my ballroom dancing is really average, if something happens on the dance floor, isn't it fun for Wang Luoqi?
But everyone knows that Mr. Zhang belongs to the absolute real power faction in their company, if I don't jump, it will not give face, and when the time comes, where will I still have my share in the advertisements in their hands?
Just when I was embarrassed, Liang Wenhao suddenly walked over, glanced at me, looked at Mr. Zhang, and said in a reproachful tone: "Look at you, you have been embarrassed for a long time, and I don't know that to be honest, is it so ugly that the shoes are broken?" I'll take a look at ......"
As Liang Wenhao spoke, he squatted down, and when his fingers touched my ankles, I was instantly stunned.
"Oh, the button is broken." Liang Wenhao got up again and said with a smile: "Mr. Zhang, I'm afraid this dance won't be able to be danced." ”
Mr. Zhang looked at me, but he didn't notice that it was Liang Wenhao's hands and feet, and said apologetically: "Look at me, I didn't pay attention, why don't you let the waiter find another pair?" ”
"No need," Liang Wenhao put his arm on my shoulder and said, "I can't dance anyway, I'm going to send her back." ”
This statement is very ambiguous.
But I don't feel like I'm staying here anymore.
After saying goodbye to a few CEOs, Liang Wenhao helped me out of the hall all the way, with first-class acting skills, but it's a pity that my shoes are gone.
Sitting in the car, he couldn't help but smile and said, "Little Miss Yuan, your acting skills are good." ”
I glared at him and said, "Each other." ”
Liang Wenhao saw me looking down at my shoes, couldn't help but rub my hair, and said, "Okay, shoes, I'll pay for them." ”
I didn't speak again, Liang Wenhao drove me downstairs, saw me carrying shoes and was leaving, directly in front of me, and said, "Hey, Yuan Xiaojie, I also helped tonight, I have to give a reward, right?" ”
I glared at him and said, "Liang Wenhao, I found that you have been getting more and more flamboyant lately. ”
Liang Wenhao avoided my eyes and said to himself: "Didn't you put several big moves, and you ignored them?" ”
I knew that this man had helped me, so I simply said, "Okay, except for some unreasonable demands, what do you want to reward?" ”
Liang Wenhao raised his head, took out two concert tickets from his pocket, and said, "My friend gave it to me, the location is not bad, in City C, let's go together?" ”
I glanced at the tickets and found that it was Liang Jingru who held the concert.
That's right, I like Liang Jingru a lot.
Coincidentally, I've been in a bad mood lately, so I simply said, "What day? ”
"Ten days later."
"Then you can remind me then." I pulled one out of it and said as I walked down the hallway, "If things don't work out, forget it." ”
Behind him, Liang Wenhao responded unusually crisply.
The mask is only removed when no one is around, but I don't expect it to heal my already broken heart, but I won't expose it to that person again.
What I didn't expect was that the next day, Mr. Zhang of the pharmaceutical company called me, saying that there was a pharmaceutical advertisement that wanted to hear my opinion, and invited me to have a meal by the way to apologize for yesterday's incident.
Xiaobai told me that there is no silver three hundred taels here, I think that this time can be regarded as a lesson in all kinds of wonders, I am not afraid that he Zhang Zong will come up with any indiscriminate recruitment, besides, people are serious about asking me to eat Italian food, where the grid is so high, what can happen?
I was invited to an appointment, and at the dinner table, Mr. Zhang really talked to me about advertising seriously, and I answered honestly, and the meal was quite pleasant. After dinner, it was eight o'clock in the evening, Mr. Zhang asked me if I had a car, I was stunned, and then I lied.
I took him to the parking lot, and after seeing him off, I went back the way I came.
I didn't take a taxi, I walked around Swan Lake, and my mood was very peaceful.
I think Zeng Ziqian and I started this relationship from the beginning of our hearts, but we both know very well that only with a fixed mind can we move towards marriage.
Life is full of regrets, and I should be content.
Just thinking so, suddenly a "buzzing" sound sounded in my ears, and I knew that it was the sound of the engine. The next moment, however, my body flew out.
Hurt.
I barely managed to open my eyes and found myself lying among the flowers on the side of the road, the sidebar overpowered by me, and my head was dizzy.
There were drops of water falling from my eyes, and I reached out to touch them, and I was startled.
It's blood.
I nervously went to pull out my phone, but I couldn't move because of the pain. But the place where I was lying was still so secret.
People who have never faced death usually do not understand the helplessness at this time, I shed tears, but the desire to survive supported me, and I finally crawled out of the grass, but my handbag was still behind me.
I wanted to get my phone, and the more I thought about it, the more sad I became.
At this time, it happened that a bunch of exercising couples passed by, and I opened my mouth and immediately called for help.
Life is so abrupt that you don't know when, you will leave suddenly. When I was sent to the hospital, I didn't have a loved one by my side, and at that moment, I suddenly felt pathetic.
Four stitches were placed on the right eyelid.
To this day, there is still a scar on the corner of the eye.
When I woke up in the ward, the little couple was still there, and I heard them say that they called my parents, but no one answered, and it took several calls to get through to one.
It was Liang Wenhao who came.
When he saw that I had a gauze tied around my eyes, he suddenly rushed over and hugged me desperately.
He said, "Do you know how scared I am? ”
Actually, I'm afraid.