When my consciousness slowly recovered, I reluctantly opened my eyes, and I was greeted by a monotonous white.

In this monotonous white, Zhang Jingchi's face also came into my eyes, his beard was unshaven, his hair was messy, as soon as he saw that I was awake, he hurriedly leaned over and asked softly, "Are you thirsty?" ”

I glanced at him a little blankly, my hand wrapped in gauze unconsciously covered my abdomen, I looked up at Zhang Jingchi and asked, "My child, are you okay?" He's still here, right? ”

Zhang Jingchi's eyes turned red suddenly, his hand reached over to my hair, and he replied, "I'll go get you some warm water to drink." ”

I've got it.

But I still want to make sure, I need a definite answer.

I just stared at him like this, and asked word by word, "I'm asking you, my child is still not there." ”

Still answering the question, Zhang Jingchi said: "You must be thirsty, I'll get you some warm water to drink." ”

My tears flowed out of my eyes at once, and I couldn't control my sanity, so I yelled at him hysterically: "What water!" What more water do I want to drink! After drinking water, you will have a way to stuff my baby back into my stomach, right? ”

Zhang Jingchi suddenly rushed over and hugged me half, his voice was a little trembling, he said, "Orange, we are still young." ”

I know that it is also his child, I know that he is also sad, but I can't understand his sadness at this moment, I can't control my emotions, my hand slapped his back hard, my voice was raised very high, I shouted incoherently without logic: "Zhang Jingchi, your family is a devil, a beast, a scumbag, my two children, both children are gone." It's all gone. Do you know that when my last child was gone, my whole body seemed to die once, and now I die again. I have no future, I have no future, I want to kill the scum who killed my child, I want to die with him, I don't want to live anymore, I have lived enough, I want to kill him! You told me to kill him! I'm going to let him bury my child, I'm going to kill him!" ”

Tightly imprisoned in his arms, Zhang Jingchi let me keep hitting his back without dodging, his voice was very soft, as light as a feather, he said: "Orange, you still have me." ”

Such comfort was insignificant, and I desperately tried to push Zhang Race, but his hand was like an impregnable wall, and I always found nothing.

In such a standoff, I wanted to open my mouth and continue to speak, but as soon as I opened my mouth, it turned into a cry.

I originally thought that the tears in my body had already flowed out, but I didn't expect those tears to continue to flow out, how desperate I was, how turbulent they were.

During this time, I tried my best to make all kinds of calculations and schemes, to defeat the demons that I thought were indirectly killing my children one by one, but how ironic, I fought monsters all the way to escalate, but after I killed all the monsters I thought I thought I had, after I had no strength left, the initiator who really controlled all this behind me could not only get away with it, but he could continue to do a lot of evil to me.

And I thought that after going through so many things, I could be ironclad and urgent, but I didn't even save my second child.

How ironic it is!

What's even more ironic is that the man who is now holding me and swears to love me, he knows who the murderer is and who the initiator is, but he keeps me in the dark, and he shields the devil, so that the devil has room to do evil again.

I suddenly had too much confusion about this man.

It suddenly occurred to me that I shouldn't go any further with him.

Because of him, I have carried too much heavy burden about the loss of life, my two children have never been able to see the world, and Sister Hong, who is lying in the hospital, does not know when she will wake up.

If Sister Hong wakes up fine, then I only need to feel guilty about my two children in the second half of my life, and if Sister Hong makes any mistakes in the future, I will have to carry more guilt and guilt in the second half of my life.

I originally thought that after I married him, the sunshine of life had already shown a smile on me, but now I know that all the memories of happiness are all cruel illusions built under his heavy concealment.

Everything that happened turned out to be a dream of Nan Ke.

When you wake up from the dream, all the so-called beautiful illusions will disappear, and all that remains is the hideousness and cruelty of reality.

The heart was cold at first, and when it was extremely cold, it froze to death.

I'm fed up with this flat life, I've had enough of this encounter, I've had enough.

But I was so cowardly, I didn't have the courage to tell him that we were going to separate, these dilemmas supported me, and I finally desperately pressed the turbulent waves in my heart, I tried to calm myself, and I said, "You let me go first." ”

Zhang Jingchi still wrapped his arms around me tightly, and he said, "Don't let go, never let go." ”

I didn't have the urge to echo his hypocrisy at all, I said without emotion and without waves: "I'll let you let me go." ”

After another stalemate with me, Zhang Jingchi finally compromised, and he slowly let go of me.

But he still stood there hunched, and he looked at me, but my eyes were still misty with tears, and I couldn't make out his expression.

I can't see him clearly, either.

Just then, a phone ringing interrupted all this strange stalemate between us.

Zhang Jingchi straightened up, he took out his mobile phone and looked at it, and he picked it up in front of me.

Soon, he said into the microphone: "Brother Liu, don't move Sister Hong at will, I'll make a call and ask the hospital to arrange a specialist to do a check-up, I'll be there later." ”

After hanging up the phone, Zhang Jingchi whispered, "Orange, Sister Hong is awake." ”

The heaviest stone in my heart finally landed, and I thought that it was the right thing to go and see Sister Hong first, so I put away all my emotions, and I wanted to climb off the hospital bed.

Zhang Jingchi quickly reached over and wanted to hold me, I looked at his hand lightly, and I said, "I'm going to see Sister Hong." ”

His hand ended up hanging in mid-air and didn't land on my shoulder.

He was silent for about a minute before he whispered, "You had a minor operation, and the doctor said you had to rest in bed today." ”

Listening to his cautious tone, and looking at the complicated look on his face, I think the minor operation he was talking about was probably a uterine evacuation operation, which was the operation that completely cut my child out of my body.

My heart was sour, but as if I didn't understand, I still said, "I'm going to see Sister Hong." ”

Zhang Jingchi was silent again, and I had to repeat what I just said in an accentuated tone.

He didn't say anything more, but leaned down and picked me up and walked out the door, and he quickly walked to the parking lot and put me in the car.

As he drove, I stared at the speeding scenery outside in confusion, and the words "Meisha Hospital" slowly turned into a blur in my vision.

When we went to Longgang Central Hospital, Zhang Jingchi wanted to come and hug me, but I pushed his hand away and said, "I don't miss an arm or a broken leg, I'll go by myself." ”

Zhang Jingchi was silent, he pursed his mouth and followed me.

In the elevator, I wiped my eyes desperately with the back of my hand.

I'm afraid that Sister Hong and Brother Liu will know that I cried hard just now.

When we pushed the door in, Sister Hong was already half-lying on the bed, and Brother Liu was holding a cup and spoon to feed her water and drink.

Her face was still so pale and bloodless.

But when she saw me and Zhang Jingchi walking over, she reluctantly pulled out a shallow smile and said weakly: "Sister, Xiao Zhang, you are here." ”

I had a lot of things I wanted to say to Sister Hong, but it was like a fish in my throat, I walked to Brother Liu's side, and I said, "Brother Liu, let me feed my sister." ”

Brother Liu didn't say anything, so he handed me the cup.

When I was feeding Sister Hong, she kept staring at me for no less than two minutes, and she didn't start and said, "Don't drink it." ”

I just put the cup on the bedside table, and Sister Hong said to Zhang Jingchi: "Xiao Zhang, Brother Liu and Xiaoxin haven't eaten today, you can take them out to eat." ”

Zhang Jingchi didn't move yet, and Sister Hong said again: "Listen to my sister, go ahead." ”

When there were only two of us left in the room, Sister Hong slowly reached over and gently held my hand wrapped in gauze, and she said, "Sister, what's wrong with your hand?" ”

I hurriedly said, "I'm fine." ”

But I had to bury my head at once, because my eyes were red.

Sister Hong touched my hand gently, but she still said weakly, "Why did you cry just now?" Is it because of my business, are you still messing with Xiao Zhang? Sister knows about it, you and Xiao Zhang don't know that the car was tampered with, sister doesn't blame you, you don't have to be angry with him anymore, live a good life, don't blame yourself anymore, I'm fine. ”

I pursed my lips, just nodding my head like a chick pecking rice, I didn't dare to open my mouth to speak, I was afraid that I would become a crybaby.

Sister Hong saw that I didn't speak, she continued: "You still have a doll in your belly, you have to restrain your temper, stop fighting with Xiao Zhang, listen to sister, okay." ”

I really can't open my mouth and say to Sister Hong, who has just woken up from the rest of her life, that my child is gone.

So I kept my head buried there, not talking.

Sister Hong sighed slightly, and she said faintly after a while: "Are you because Xiao Zhang hid the truth about your medical accident four years ago, and you all messed with him?" If you can't forgive him, then you hold a grudge against me, I made him hide it, this is my idea, if you want to blame, you have to blame me first. ”

It was like someone suddenly hitting my head with the lid of a pot, I only felt that my head was stuffy, I was surprised to raise my head and look at Sister Hong, I asked in disbelief: "Sister Hong, do you know that four years ago it was not a medical accident at all, someone designed to kill my child?" ”