Chapter 54: No Man's City (Fifty [II]) Single
The wolf fang stood up and began to walk down again, the wolf tooth pendant clutched in his hand, and the hemp rope tied to it swayed back and forth with the swing of his arm.
Soon, he walked out of the color TV tower, looked left and right, determined the direction, and walked slowly towards his destination.
Although he has a car, he doesn't want to drive it, and he also wants to take this opportunity to think about his feelings.
When did you start paying attention to her? When the woman named Mo Li saw the pendant? No, maybe later.
Kicking away a pebble at his feet, the pebble jumped and rolled twice on the ground, rolled away with the sound of collision with the ground, and disappeared into the darkness. He didn't care, and continued to walk forward, thinking about the woman in his mind.
He still remembered that after the joy of encountering his own kind faded, although his emotions were still excited, reason told him after analysis that the woman named Mo Li was not capable, and as a companion, the chance of dragging her feet was much higher than the possibility of helping. Especially after he found out what was unusual about this room, he just felt pity for her, because this room was not the difficulty of the newcomer, and she had not been guided, the newcomer directly entered the room of normal difficulty, and in his opinion, there was no accident and it must be a dead end, so he didn't care about her very much, after all, in his eyes, her death was doomed.
For a dying person, he doesn't need to be so restrained, right? Therefore, he occasionally indulged his emotions, with a faint mockery or contempt, and allowed himself to do as he pleased, but he deliberately kept the necessary distance, and had no intention of getting closer.
This continued until she found the pendant, and in his eyes, she just changed from indifferent to the owner of the pendant. Because the pendant is on her, he cares about her, and it has nothing to do with who she is or what she is. Even if the owner of the pendant is another person, he will still give that promise, after all, what matters to him is the pendant, not the person holding it.
He thought that a person like her, who was not very capable, would be the luckiest thing to be able to live by relying on others, so naturally he would not have any opinions. However, she is clearly not a smart person who knows what to do. When she asked him to look in the telescope, he happened to see the scene of Mecca pushing down Wang Guoen. But this is also a common thing in his eyes, after all, he has already seen too many people who have done anything in order to survive.
In the face of the fear of death, all morals and bottom lines will become vulnerable and penniless.
He won't say Mecca is wrong, but he won't save him, he won't put people like him on his side. After all, gratitude has no meaning to these people, and at the necessary moment, sacrificing their benefactors to protect themselves will not be a burden for them.
Therefore, he intends to sit on the sidelines.
However, there are always some people in this world who don't know what to do and can't recognize their identities, such as her. If it were someone else, even if he knew that her behavior was no different from sending her to death in terms of her ability, he would still only sneer and watch her go to the abyss of death, however, this person was her.
It was her, the woman who had the same pendant as him.
Useless and superfluous kindness, and self-righteousness, that's all he can say about her.
On the rooftop, Mecca really didn't let him down, first utilitarianly, not caring at all about her arrival—after all, her abilities couldn't save him, and then, while still leaving, he pushed her to delay the rat to ensure his safety.
He just wanted to sneer as he dragged her up from the ground and ran out of the mouse. Count her luck and bring the contraceptive pill to her by mistake, so she escaped. But can her heart survive the catastrophe? Is it clear now? In this endless room, how unfathomable the human heart is, and how filthy human nature is. Kindness and conscience will not help you live, but will become an accomplice to your death.
He thought that after this experience, she would change, at least stop showing her deliberate and excessive kindness like a virgin. Our Lady, I don't have enough ability, but I have a kind heart that will bring danger, he has not seen such a person, but they all have one thing in common, that is, they are either quickly hit by reality and give up kindness, or hope that they can still show kindness to death when they go to hell.
And she, he thought it would be the former, after all, he was framed by the person he was bent on saving, the unwillingness to give and gain unequally, the anger of betrayal, the disappointment in people's hearts, all these together produced negative power enough to destroy that fragile kindness and persistence. It's just that what he didn't expect was that she seemed even more stupid than he thought.
Seeing that she looked like she was going to give Mai a drug, he really wanted to ask her, are you mentally retarded? Comes with a polite smile.
Thinking that out of sight is pure, he hid out of the car, people like her have always been the people he hates the most, he can't understand what kind of world they are, he doesn't know how to adapt but blindly shouts to stick to his heart, escape from reality and refuse to face it. I am afraid that such a person will not survive for three episodes in the TV series, but the angry thing is that just because she is the one with the pendant, he still wants to take her as the protagonist.
"Are you alright?" Lin Ya chased out of the car, "Mo Li will add medicine to Mai again." ”
He glanced at Lin Ya and didn't make a sound, he didn't want to say anything about that mentally retarded woman.
"Actually, I admire Mo Li, I can still be tolerant and insist on kindness after experiencing that kind of betrayal and hurt, but if it were me, I wouldn't be able to do it."
Admire a fart, of course you can't do it, because you're not as retarded as she is.
"But I'm not completely incomprehensible, after all, only she can decide what kind of person she wants to be, and we have no right to interfere."
It is true that only she can decide, even if she is mentally retarded, the decisions she makes are also mentally retarded.
"Although I think she's too good-tempered? But anyway, kindness isn't a bad thing, is it? ”
A good-tempered ghost, I don't know how many eyes I have secretly whitened, obviously cowardly, I don't dare to be angry or speak all day.
"Maybe she's the most daring of us to face reality, and if you think about it, maybe our incomprehension of her is largely due to the fact that we can't be like her, not because we don't want to. After all, she said something like that, and I think you should know what I said when you were arguing on our way to the rooftop. ”
What he knows, he doesn't know, that woman talks so much nonsense day by day, who knows which one.
"You can calm down a little too, and I'll take a look around."
What she said He stood still, looking at the elongated shadow on the ground under the light of the street lamp, and didn't think about it because of anger at that time, but now he thought of which sentence it was-"What kind of person others are, and what kind of person I want to be, has nothing to do with it." What the world is like has nothing to do with what I want to become. ”
He couldn't help but smile, thinking to himself that she was really arrogant, could she really think that she could ignore the environment and not be changed by the environment? He shook his head, it was too hard,
As we walked forward, it was already getting light, and the darkness was fading, indicating that light was coming. He continued to walk unhurriedly, his thoughts continuing to spread.
Later, even if she was stupid and different, he didn't care much, and it was only when she analyzed something he hadn't thought of that that he began to think that maybe she wasn't a complete wastewood, but it wasn't worth his attention, he just felt that she at least had some merits, not all worthless.
What really changed his mind was her tears.
It was his fault, he hadn't had companions for too long, too long—if they could be considered companions—so even though he knew that trust could easily lose itself in killing and fear, he hadn't remembered to observe the condition of the men, especially the woman, who had lost her mind by the time he found out.
In this sense, he should be grateful to Mecca, after all, it was the woman and not Mecca who was valuable to him, and Mecca's sacrifice to save people helped him save her.
In his opinion, Mecca would go to save her, which was actually unexpected by him. Because it was a person who had traded someone else's life for his own safety, how could such a person sacrifice his life for the sake of others? He had always thought that his judgment of people was extremely accurate, but today he was wrong twice in a row. The first time was Moli, and the second time was Mecca.
However, even if Mecca sacrificed his life to save people, it was only a glimmer of happiness for him. Move? Shock? What the hell is that? After being in the endless room for so long, death has long been so ordinary for him, even so ordinary that it will not cause even the slightest ripple in his heart.
But when he saw her tears, he felt a wave of panic. I have seen too many tears, because of fear, because of despair, because of pity for myself. However, this seemed to be the first time he had seen someone shed tears for someone else.
"Mo Li"
He muttered unconsciously for the third time, and the woman was slowly weeping in his heart. Her tears did not howl or cry, but it was the quiet sadness that unexpectedly added weight to her tears. For a whole day, she didn't cry when she was hurt, she didn't cry when she was threatened by him, she didn't cry no matter how tired and scared she was, but when she cried, it was indeed because of someone who had only known her for a day, although he had saved her, he also harmed her.
He didn't understand what kind of emotion it was, just as he didn't understand what kind of person she was.
But the moment he saw her crying for others, the simple name "Mo Li" became clear in his heart.
She no longer exists only as the owner of the pendant, but gradually becomes clear in his cognition and becomes a living person.