The yard at home has changed a lot, chickens, ducks, geese and dogs are really the same, not to mention the vegetables still planted in the vegetable garden and the morning glory that climbs on the bamboo pole in the corner, the breath of life is simply stronger than when I lived here with my grandfather, no wonder my mother said that grandpa didn't want to go, and he always said that the leaves would return to the roots, here, it is indeed a place to take care of his life.

If it weren't for Xu Meijin to get some son to insert a pole, I think I must be both excited and touched, I haven't seen my grandfather for more than two years, I don't want it to be me lying, there was even a little stunned in Luomenling, I would be in a trance when I saw an old man who was about the same age as my grandfather, thinking that it was my grandfather, although he didn't remember me anymore.

"Young man, you used to call me grandpa."

I accompanied my grandfather to eat breakfast after a long absence, listening to his words and still nodding, I remember that my grandfather mistook me for a little plum before returning to the countryside, and now he must have forgotten the little plum, but it's also good, at least, I can still hear him call me Jiaolong from my grandfather's mouth.

"In Anton, I often walked with you, and you always said that my name is Jiaolong, and our fate is deep."

Grandpa nodded and pointed to his head: "I won't tell you, young man, I think you are also very kind, but my brain is not very good, and I always forget people, but I came to see me for you, and I also know that you must have a good relationship with me...... Don't worry, Jiaolong, you and my granddaughter have the same name, I have written it down now, I can't forget it, come, eat, eat more. ”

This breakfast is very lively, whether grandpa forgets me or not, he is a hospitable person, as soon as he finishes eating, he drives his electric wheelchair to take me to visit the pigs and chickens and ducks raised in the yard, and so on Aunt Sun takes out the chicken food after living, I want to help feed it, grandpa waved his hand and said no, "Jiaolong, this is my job, others do not worry about me!" ”

Seeing this, my mother pulled me aside and whispered: "These chickens, ducks, geese and dogs raised in the yard have to be your grandfather himself. ”

I nodded, looking at my grandfather who was smiling and feeding the chickens and did not respond, for the elderly, a regular life is more important than anything else.

Aunt Sun walked out of the house with a basket full of joy on her face: "Xiaolin, aunt went to the village entrance market to buy some pork ribs and prawns, what else do you want to eat, why do you have to cook ten or eight dishes after you came back for a long time!" ”

I came back to my senses and looked at Aunt Sun and smiled, and stretched out my hand to the vegetable garden: "Aunt Sun, they are all from their own family, just eat some vegetables grown at home." ”

"That's okay!"

Mom vetoed it directly next to her, glanced at Grandpa's back and then suppressed her voice: "You also said that you have to go back to the city in the afternoon to have something to do, just stay at home for a short time, and the dollar next door at noon and your Uncle Xu will come over, why do you have to do more...... It's the chickens in the house, your grandfather didn't let them kill if he raised his feelings, or he would catch two of them directly in the yard, Sister Sun, when you took care of Qiaoqiao for a while, you would buy whatever she liked to eat. ”

"Hey! Okay, I'll look at it and buy it! ”

Aunt Sun answered and went out, and grandpa turned his head to look at her when he heard the voice: "Little grandson, buy a live fish to steam and give it to Xiaolong to eat." ”

"Got it!"

My mother smiled directly and looked at me: "See, your grandfather likes the children of the Meijin family, but that child is indeed likable, and he is close to your grandfather." ”

I nodded, child, whoever is good to him will kiss whom, they know very well, I have a deep understanding of this when I was a child, thinking, I slowly returned to the point, "Mom, that...... Has Xu Meijin been living in the village? ”

"No, she only came back from abroad two months ago, doesn't she have a stepmother, no, she came back to help with the funeral, yes, now she is going through the formalities for his father, and she wants to get her father abroad, she has a younger brother, called Xiaohu, who has gone abroad to study, and their whole family, now she is all open."

I was stunned for a moment and followed my mother into the house: "Aunt Yanhong, it's gone." ”

"Hmm."

Mom nodded, sat on the edge of the kang and looked at me a little scared: "I heard Mei Jin say that there is a sister, or a star or something, it seems that she jumped off the building and died under pressure, when we just moved back, her stepmother often cried in the house at night, especially in the second half of the night, she can wake you up, oops, I can't live for a while, noisy, and then your Uncle Xu has no rut, give her some sleeping pills at night, she will be quiet a little bit, and she won't go out at home, your Uncle Xu will talk to himself when he says it's okay, But no matter why he didn't come out to do it, he was also relieved of his worries, more than two months ago, one night suddenly shouted that Linlin was not anything, and I woke up with your aunt grandchild, and after a while, your uncle Xu came to knock on the door, saying that it was bright red and breathless, and I went below to accompany her girl, or I went with your aunt to change clothes in a hurry, and I was scared enough to both of them, no, did the dollar come back with the child......

I sighed, Aunt Yanhong's condition was already not light, people with abnormal mental conditions have a weak magnetic field, and the medical explanation is that there will be hallucinations, but in our words, it is qi deficiency, easy to see ghosts, Xu Linlin left again, and came back to see Aunt Yanhong, so is it okay, look at it, won't it be taken away, this, Uncle Xu is not wrong, but halfway as a couple, he can still serve Aunt Yanhong when she is abnormal, and it is not easy.

"Mom, then, Xu Meijin said that the child was born abroad? Where's the child's father? ”

"Well, I didn't ask."

Mother waved her hand: "The dollar said that the child's father died, and she didn't want to say anything else, but your Uncle Xu came to talk and said that it was strange, I hadn't heard that she was pregnant, so why did she have a grandson, but the child is really rare, and the mouth is particularly sweet, at first your Uncle Xu didn't want to go abroad with the dollar, but he couldn't leave the step that was affected by this little grandson, and he agreed, I'm worried now, when this little guy is gone, your grandfather must have thought about it!" ”

I was still desperately counting the time in my head, and I remember very clearly that the last time I met Xu Meijin was on the day my identity was about to be completely exposed, because my grandfather kept talking about watching TV that night, but the power was unplugged by me, and it was Xu Meijin's arrival that diverted my grandfather's attention-

If everything is as I think, what did Xu Meijin do to me, even if she is pregnant and gives birth to a child, it is absolutely impossible to be three years old, and she will be more than a year old to die, but she is really disgusting to me when she gives the child a name, Xu Linlong!? Don't be so obvious.

I can't figure it out, if the child is mine, is it because he has eaten powerful feed to grow so big...... It's dirty, it's dirty!

"Qiaoqiao, what do you want, tell your mother, where have you been going to show people in the past two years, why don't you come back for the New Year."

I came back to my senses and said, "Go to a far place, you have to keep it a secret." ”

"Confidentiality?"

Mom's eyes widened: "It's really for the officials......"

"Hmm." I agreed.

Mom nodded with an understanding look: "No wonder I don't see you driving the previous Jetta, this car is a good car at first glance, okay, Jiaolong, we have a family out of you are burning high incense, there are people on it!" ”

I can't laugh or cry, who is there up there! It's weird and scary to hear.

"That, Mom, let's not talk about this for a while, Aunt Sun will finish cooking meat and vegetables, you can give me a few separate bowls, I want to go and see Grandma......"

"Hey, okay, I know, you must go to see your grandma when you come back, just say hello in advance, I will prepare everything for you."

"I've prepared it myself, put it in the car, paper incense candles or something, it's not good to take it into the door, I'll just wait for a few meat dishes at home for a while, I haven't come back for two years, I want to talk to grandma well."

Mom hugged my shoulder: "Qiaoqiao, I'm relieved when you come back, you have a great future, Mom doesn't ask for anything in this life, really, Mom didn't expect to live so comfortably here, it's all thanks to you......"

I smiled soothingly and patted the back of her hand: "Don't say that, if you live well with your grandfather, it's really good, so I'm relieved." ”

In the morning, Aunt Sun was cooking, and the child named Xiaolong was leading a small earth dog raised by my family in the yard giggling and running, Grandpa looked at him lovingly and kept telling him to slow down, the sun was just right, I looked at the old and the young in the yard and was a little lost in a trance.

When Xiaolong was tired of running, he naturally came to me, surrounded me like a little chatter and kept asking, uncle, my mother said that you knew each other when you were my age, but why did I see you for the first time?

I crouched down and looked at him: "Because, uncle is busy." ”

He looked at me as if he didn't understand: "Are all adults busy?" ”

I laughed: "Well, the adults are busy......"

"Uncle, can you take me to your car to play, I haven't had a car here for a long time."

"Okay."

Although I still have doubts, I don't deny that I like any child now, no matter what the adults are, the child's eyes are clean.

The little dragon jumped and took my hand and walked towards my parked car, and when he passed by their door, he turned around and shouted, "Mommy! Uncle took me to the car!! ”

Xu Meijin stood at the door of her own house and looked at me with a worried expression, then turned away, and looked at Xiaolong and opened her mouth softly: "Don't be naughty, you know." ”

"Well, I'm not naughty! Uncle is good! ”

I didn't rush to ask Xu Meijin anything, according to Xu Meijin's character, she was sure that she would find a chance to explain it to me, and besides, there were some things that I couldn't ask in front of the child.

He was particularly interested in the open sunroof of my car, and he always wanted to poke his head out to see it, of course I couldn't agree with a somewhat dangerous move for his age, so I just asked him to stretch out his hand and feel it, "Uncle, your car is so cool!" Wind energy comes in!! ”

It wasn't until I drove four or five laps that my mother put the meat and vegetables I wanted in a bowl and sent them out, that Xiaolong reluctantly got out of the car, and was still inviting me, "Uncle, you will take me on a ride in the afternoon." ”

……

Grandma's grave naturally hasn't changed, and my mother knelt next to me while burning the paper in her mouth and muttering: "Mom, Qiaoqiao is home, you can rest assured below, this child has a great future, it's all your credit......"

I stretched out my hand and gently rubbed my grandmother's tombstone, and I said a thousand words, but I only said one sentence: "Grandma, Jiaolong is back......"

The fireworks burned by the paper were very strong, and I think my grandmother was also happy.

After the wine and food were sent to grandma according to the procedure, my mother glanced at the time and opened her mouth: "Qiaoqiao, go back." ”

"You go back first, Mom, I haven't been to the grave for a long time, and then sit with grandma for a while."

My mother glanced at me and could only nod: "Okay, then you stay with grandma for a while, and I'll go back to help your aunt with her work." ”

Everything is not abnormal, the sun is still warm, the birds in the forest are also chirping, I sit quietly, time seems to go back to eight years ago, people have not changed, the heart has really changed, at that time I was at a loss, has been asking grandma, when will I be like a gentleman?

But now I seem to be much stronger, and I know the road under my feet, I can support my family, protect my friends, I can confidently say, I am a gentleman, an onmyoji, but my dear grandmother, why do I have to face so many losses in the process of growing up, why, I am not as happy as I imagined.

"Grandma, I'll go back first, and when I'm done with that dark wizard, I'll come to see you......"

After putting on the last incense, I got up and went down the mountain, but as soon as I got to the bottom of the mountain, the people waiting next to my car unexpectedly appeared.

"Jiaolong."

She called my name, and looked at me with a forced smile on the corner of her mouth: "There are many people in the family, I saw your mother go back, so I wanted to come over and talk to you alone......

I nodded, pulled the door open and motioned for her to sit in, then walked to the cab without rushing to start the car, "What do you want to tell me." ”

"Where have you been in the past two years, I called you, but you haven't answered, I just want to know if you're doing well......"

"I'm fine, you see it."

I replied, looking at her with a straight face: "Now let me ask you what you did to me on the night you left more than two years ago." ”

"I'm ......," her eyes flickered, "you should be able to guess." ”

"I don't want to guess! Now I'm asking you!! ”

Since you're here, don't you just want to make this matter clear?

"Yes......"

"What ?!!"

Xu Meijin lifted his breath: "That night, I drugged you, and then, with my hands, took out some of your ...... Tadpole. ”

Dirty......

I stared at her, and it took it out in twenty minutes? I don't have to fucking be so useless! I haven't ever asked someone to give LU myself!

"So...... You gave your child that name to me, it's mine? Can you tell me, how did you manage to get pregnant, give birth, and take out a baby to grow up to three years old in two years?! ”

"The little dragon is not your child......"

Xu Meijin lowered her eyes as if she didn't dare to look at me: "But he is indeed my sustenance to you." “

"Wait, you make it clear, what about my things, what about the things you took from me, could it be that you are planning to get pregnant after you meet me and then I will give birth to a baby?

Xu Meijin, do you know that your actions are simply shamelessly trampling on my bottom line, if I have a child, then I will give birth to myself! I never fucking wanted to be a dad! You're not just insulting me with your actions, you're delaying that kid! Have you ever thought about it, if you make a child of mine, how will I deal with it!! ”

Xu Meijin took a deep breath, as if she was controlling the tears she was about to come out, "If I really give birth to your child, I won't let him come back to see you!" You can live the life you want, I just want a child of yours! But, God...... God doesn't give me that right at all......"

My tense face was relieved at the time: "What do you mean......"

She raised her hand and gently rubbed her teary eyes, as if she had tasted all the pain, and she couldn't speak: "The doctor said that there is a problem with the quality of your sperm......"

No way!

The instinctive reaction was to who had the problem, but immediately realized that although there was a slap in the face, I have to say, it was good news......

God, thank you for making me have a problem, I am willing to let Ding Ding not raise all kinds of premature ejaculation and all kinds of disabilities, I thank you for your eight ancestors, fortunately, you didn't let my life be so bloody that I can't face it!

"Originally, the first time was successful, but at the beginning I said that the fetal heart and fetal buds were unstable, and I was afraid that the child would have a problem, but then the examining doctor told me that the child would be born stupid, that is, Down's child, but I still have to insist until six months old, the child died in the belly......"

Speaking of this, Xu Meijin was already in tears, she took a deep breath and looked at me: "I don't want to give up, I want to do it again, because I believe in the medical level over there, but the doctor's examination results said that there is a problem with your quality, perhaps, it is also related to the process of obtaining it or the conditions of storage when I take it out of the country, they said, I continue to conceive, it is also the result, the child will stop developing after a certain period of time...... Jiaolong, I'm even ready to raise a problematic child, as long as it's yours, but why didn't God even give me this opportunity......

"Because God knows that you are doing evil."

I looked at her with a cold face, I'm sorry, I can't give her sympathy, I can only say that I'm glad, fortunately, advanced medicine directly blocked her way to death, otherwise, I would be the one who wants to die.

No wonder, the woman in the big red wedding dress I saw that day would say that I owed her and didn't want to admit it, but I still couldn't guess what Xu Meijin did to me, otherwise I wouldn't have said anything I owe Xu Meijin a child, and I have stumbled with my previous life in this life.

But...... Although in the end, there was a problem with the tadpoles, but what I should have been taken away was still taken away, theoretically, I can be regarded as understanding the fate of Xu Meijin in this last life.

"And what's going on with this little dragon, whose child?"

Xu Meijin was there to slow down her emotions, and after a while, she opened her mouth: "It's Lu Xia's, she died in an accident abroad, the child's biological father is a local Chinese advertising director, has his own family, and broke up with her after playing with Lu Xia for a while, the child was born at Lu Xia's insistence, and her only request before her death was not to let the child know that she was a junior and the child's biological mother."

I can't conceive your child anymore, the saddest time, it is also this child to accompany me, I think although he has no blood relationship with you and me, but I can raise him, it is fate, he is my spiritual sustenance, and I always feel in my heart that this child knows what I think, and the longer he grows, the more like you......"

Like me, what nonsense, how similar can a child be if he doesn't grow up, and he can't be like me because his eyes are big, aren't they all tiger-headed!

However, although I was scolded for a while, my heart was relieved, "Then are you going not to tell him the truth about his biological parents for the rest of your life?" ”

"I don't have any plans to do that right now."

Xu Meijin lowered her eyes and opened her mouth, her tears dried up, but her hand suddenly shook up: "Jiaolong, I will leave again this time, and I plan to take my father with me, and in the future, I really won't come back." ”

I took her hand off and looked through the window, "So, what else do you want to say?" ”

"I want to say, I can't conceive your child, I admit it. But can you not keep doing this with me...... Shall we still be friends, and make an occasional phone call to let me know how you are doing...... I really miss when I was a kid, you would think of me when you ate a popsicle, and you had to bring me one, when ......"

"Xu Meijin!"

I interrupted her, "The best result for you and me is to stop interacting, fortunately you didn't give birth to my child, otherwise, I really can't face you, I don't want to think about the things when I was a child anymore, even if I beg you, let's live in peace, ah." ”

Xu Meijin watched the tears welling up again: "Then you hug me one last time, is it okay......"

I turned my face away from her: "I can't do it." ”