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He used his body as bait and shamelessly took advantage of me.

I looked at him in a daze, and I didn't dare to ask for a word for Sun Tingjun for a while.

Because the current Ah Lin is like a gas tank that has been opened, I may say one more tough word on this matter and really detonate him.

Even my head was a little dazed, and I thought back to telling everyone's secrets as if I had lost my soul just now, how did this happen? It's really like being hypnotized, or like you've fallen into an evil spirit.

I didn't make a sound for a long time, Ah Lin closed his eyelids slightly, and when he opened them, he suddenly asked me softly, "Why don't you speak?" ”

I swallowed lightly and said lightly: "I was just fantasizing that on a soft sunny afternoon, we were sitting on the fifth floor of the villa drinking afternoon tea, maybe we already had a child at that time, and maybe it was really as you hoped, I gave birth to a daughter." Her pink little face is pressed against your long legs, and she has a pair of cleanest and clearest eyes in the world and asks you, Daddy, Daddy, how long will you love me. When I said this, the corners of my mouth couldn't help but rise: "Then you tell her that you will love her until her hair is gray." ”

I mentioned the child without a head, Ah Lin's cold eyes suddenly became gentle like water, his Adam's apple rolled lightly, and he asked expectantly, "Sounds very happy." And then what? ”

I froze for a moment, my eyes lowered, and I said with some hollowness, "Then someone broke in and handcuffed your hands." The child had no idea what was going on, but I was crying. A month later, I was told to wait near the execution ground, and I couldn't even see the body, and it wasn't until after the cremation that the criminal police handed me the urn. For a long time to come, my child may keep asking me the same question. That's where did Dad go? And I can only treat our little ones with endless lies. I think that's how I came back to life. I was thrown away by my mother, but Cheng Lixin, in order not to make me sad, never said a bad word about Jiang Fengying in front of me. He had made all sorts of excuses for her. I also really thought that my father loved Jiang Fengying to death. But in the split second I suddenly understood. He doesn't say a bad word about her, does he really think she's good? No, he just didn't want me to realize in my childhood without my mother that in another ten or twenty years, my mother would not come back. I had lived with all the lies my dad had made up for me for a long time, and I knew the paleness and panic so deeply. Maybe one day in the future I will deceive my own children in the same way. Do you still feel happy? ”

A hint of panic quickly flashed in Ah Lin's eyes, and he got out of bed and walked to the window very slowly.

Shirtless, he pushed open the window and stood in front of it like a sculpture for a long time.

I looked at his back, indescribably uncomfortable.

I knew I had cut his heart hard, and it was much deeper than the wound on his arm tonight.

I got out of bed silently, walked behind him, put my slender arms around his waist, and pressed my face tightly against the fierce Quirk on his back.

Ah Lin's body shrank slightly, and I deeply felt the timidity hidden under his powerful aura.

He tilted his head at me and said slowly, "So what do you want me to do?" ”

I chuckled in my heart, and I realized that while I was guiding him, I was only telling him what not to do, but I didn't really think of a solution, which was tantamount to turning my persuasion into one nonsense after another.

At this time, Ah Lin turned around, looked me directly with his sharp eyes and asked, "What do you think I should do will be the best result?" ”

He hooked the corners of his mouth helplessly: "Cheng Yishu, do you understand that this matter has no result?" If you want to judge right and wrong with the logic of thinking in a normal environment, you are already very wrong. What is the underworld and what is a criminal, do you know? In that disgraceful and cruel world, there is no right or wrong, only life or death. If you are still alive in the end, you can argue about what is wrong and what is right. But if it was me who died, does right and wrong mean anything to a corpse? ”

I gasped, as if completely absorbed by Ah Lin's eyes, I took a step back, as if I had been pressed a time bomb in my head, I felt the jump of the countdown stopwatch, watched the last second of time rewind to zero, and then the bomb exploded in my head, and all the deep-rooted thoughts seemed to be zeroed from this moment on.

I took another step back, and Ah Lin walked slowly towards me, and said in a calm and feminine gesture that was heartbreaking: "Cheng Yishu, I haven't killed anyone so far. It's not what you think is shirking responsibility, but all the killing thoughts are already in other people's minds, and I just hooked it out with a small 'hook'. Sun Tingjun loves you, he can even kill people. Because I love you, any obstacle will be removed. As a piece of the puzzle in a dangerous relationship, one of the culprits, you don't even know it. The mud bodhisattva crossed the river and wanted to protect others! You protect his dick! ”

I think the blood on my face has faded clean.

He said so much, every word seemed to be stained with blood, and even seemed to have a bloody smell. It is never a good thing for a former student to become so pessimistic after experiencing changes in his life.

I'll admit that for a moment I was almost brainwashed by Ah Lin, but I don't think he was doing it right. There are still many things in this world that are based on life and death, and everyone will die, sooner or later, nothing more than form. Not everyone's pursuits have to exist in such a pessimistic way. To live, people should do something worthy of life.

I shook my fainting head and wandered on the scales of heartache and love.

Finally, I said to Ah Lin with difficulty, even extreme pain: "Little Linlin, during the time I have loved you, I think that even on the day I die, I will feel worthy of this relationship, for you, I have indeed loved like a female warrior with all my might." Now you know everything you need to tell and what you shouldn't tell you. I have nothing to hide from you. It's very tiring to carry a burden, and today I have unloaded it in front of you. There is a saying that the Tao is not the same. I can't convince you, and neither can you. I want love and life that doesn't have to come at the cost of anyone's life. Thank you for these days by your side, you quietly flattened and rounded the paranoid and selfish me. Use your more extreme methods to make me understand how unworthy it is to live with your own hatred. In fact, in the past few days, I have gradually stopped hating Jiang Fengying. I don't hate Sun Tingjun, Zhou Ming, or even Lu You and Qiao Shiyi. I understand, I understand, but I don't agree with everything. So we're done with it, and we're going to cut it in two for today. ”

I don't think Ah Lin expected that this would be the result after his heart-to-heart words.

Under the incandescent light, he looked like a wounded wolf, looking at me in shock and defeat.

His brow furrowed, and his body shook violently at my words.

He stood loosely, leaning over one shoulder, and his chest, as solid as a mountain, began to rise and fall rapidly, and he didn't even seem to believe me.

Because I always needed him so much, pestered him, and in the days when he didn't like me, I pestered him like a piece of kraft candy, and generously told him that I liked him at first because he lasted long enough in bed to make me feel like a floating cloud in the ocean of love, and I was fluttered by his strong wind.

Later, I showed him the proof that I was not just chasing him for such superficial reasons. In me, I believe he can feel passionate love. So he always told me a lot with confidence, even if it was such a fatal thing as designing Sun Tingjun to kill people. Because even though he will feel insecure, deep down he actually feels that I will not really abandon him because of something one day.

So much so that when I said the end with great reluctance and pain, his expression looked so pitiful and incredulous.

The eyes of the sinister are gone, and the various evil smiles at the corners of his mouth are gone.

It was as if he had changed from a wolf to a dog, a fierce-looking wolfdog that had been discarded, looking at me with pitiful eyes, and tears suddenly fell from his dark and dim eyes.

I couldn't bear to look at him any more, or I couldn't bear to stay for another second.

I hung my neck and tried to bury my head in the soil like a wounded ostrich.

I said, "Goodbye." ”

Then I quickly opened the closet and packed up all my clothes, hats, and shoes. I stuffed them all into an old suitcase, and when I turned around, Ah Lin was still standing, he didn't even dare to come near me anymore, his instep and slippers as if they had just been fished out of the foot bucket, completely soaked with tears.

His teeth bit his lip. His mouth shook slightly, but at this moment he was as immobile as Jesus who was stared at the cross.

I quickly left the villa, pulling my suitcase and running all the way.

Because I know myself too well, if I don't leave as a joke, I may really leave......

That night, I stopped in front of a 24-hour convenience store.

I walked in and asked for a bowl of instant noodles, and the owner helped me heat it up in the microwave and serve it to me. Across from them sat a young couple, both of whom looked to be seventeen or eighteen years old, hugging each other, with only a finished bread and a half-drunk Coke in front of the table.

I don't think they have much money to choose a more comfortable place, but they laugh so much that a loaf of bread and a glass of Coke can make me laugh so much that I am jealous.

I picked up the instant noodles and kept them in my mouth and didn't stuff them in my mouth, watching them laugh involuntarily.

I didn't pay attention to the sound of steady footsteps behind me, but someone suddenly knocked my head with a hand.

I looked up and saw that it was a man carrying a bag of Huadiao wine.