……

"Jojo?"

"Jojo?"

I felt my eyelids sink a little, and I pushed a gap open, but I felt the white light flicker in, "Sister-in-law......"

My sister-in-law reached out and touched my head, and said softly: "Wake up, it's okay, you have to rest now, don't go out and walk around, what if you suddenly faint outside." ”

"Fainted?"

My eyes adjusted to the light in the ward, but my brows frowned uncontrollably, my head hurt, and I looked at my sister-in-law sitting next to my bed: "How could I faint." ”

The sister-in-law sighed: "That's how it is to be sick, I don't know if I am sick and I think of myself as a good person, but as soon as I check it out, I feel a lot of pressure in my heart, and the lesion comes out, you ran out yesterday afternoon to find your good friend, probably excited, so you two chatted and you fainted, and your good friend carried you back to the hospital, and we were all scared to death." ”

"She carried me back to the hospital?" I repeated my sister-in-law's words, but suddenly remembered that something was wrong, sat up, and my brain was dizzy: "Yesterday?!!! ”

My sister-in-law was taken aback by my actions, and quickly reached out to help me: "Yes, it was yesterday, what's wrong with you." ”

"What about Xiaobao!!"

I looked around, this is Xiaobao's ward, yesterday I was lying here eavesdropping on my mother and aunt, Xiaobao is lying in the ward next to me, but now Xiaobao is gone!!

Xu Meijin went to replace Xiaobao's kidney?!!

"Xiaobao went to surgery, I stayed here to take care of you, don't worry, this hospital ......"

I shook my head and lifted the quilt to get to the ground: "Sister-in-law, is it the kidney that Xu Meijin changed for Xiaobao, ah, is it Xu Meijin!" ”

If Xu Meijin changes Xiaobao's kidney, then how should I face her in my life!

My sister-in-law was probably a little overwhelmed by my excitement, holding me in her hand, and responding again and again in her mouth: "Qiaoqiao, what's wrong with you, at first I was going to ask your friend to change Xiaobao, but then I found the kidney source of the corpse, so I didn't use your friend's kidney ......"

"Didn't use Xu Mei?" I looked at my sister-in-law with a trembling voice: "Xiaobao has found the kidney source of the corpse?" ”

My sister-in-law nodded: "Yes, I was going to use your friend, your friend said it herself, she was ready, but after you fainted yesterday afternoon and were sent back, the hospital received a call that there was a suitable cadaver kidney source, considering that the risk of living transplant is too great, and it is two people who bear the risk at the same time, so the hospital decided to use the corpse kidney source, but your friend is very good, she has stayed here to take care of you until this morning Xiaobao pushed into the operating room before leaving, she also said that if she can be used in the future, She can help with anything...... Jojo, why are you crying......"

"I don't know ...... either"

I murmured, but reached out and hugged my sister-in-law, "Sister-in-law, you let me hug me." “

My sister-in-law patted me lightly on the back: "I know, you're worried about Xiaobao, right?" Don't worry, this is a big hospital, so there will be no problem with surgery. ”

I didn't speak, only tears kept flowing, I don't know why I cried, or rather, I thank God, if it was really Xu Meijin's donated kidney, I really had a feeling of being cornered.

Along the way, first my parents forced me, I was cold, but I was also afraid, but Xiaobao made me no longer able to say no, and then Cheng Baize helped me avoid it in another way, but it increased the guilt in my heart in disguise, and then Xu Meijin who jumped out, I really have no master of the six gods.

I don't want to owe anyone, I'm also afraid that after donating a kidney, it will affect being an onmyoji, I'm just an ordinary person, I don't know what to do, I don't have an idea at all, it seems to be led by a lot of people and things, under the guise of being good for me and not for me, my sense of powerlessness comes from the bottom of my heart, spreading infinitely, from the beginning of knowing that Cheng Baize has put a Gu on my body, I seem to be hypocritical, I know that I don't want to donate in my heart, but I ran into a box, Attached Xiaobao's life directly to his body.

This feeling is really going to torture myself to death, and I don't know what is right and wrong for a moment, let Cheng Baize go down, it's like watching Xiaobao die, I want to break the curse, but I feel like a clown again, I want to set up a sign of great love for myself, obviously I don't want to donate!

Coupled with Xu Meijin's sudden appearance, I was really at a loss, all the spearheads were pointed at myself in an instant, they seemed to let me see the dark side of my own humanity in disguise, and then pushed me into an abyss of morality and humanity.

At this moment, I am really lucky, thank the sky, all, entanglement, struggle, are erupting at this moment, I am really afraid, afraid that if I can't donate, Xu Meijin donated, in this life, I will leave a shadow!

"Don't cry Qiaoqiao, crying too much is not good for your health, it's okay, don't worry, Xiaobao will be directly admitted to the ICU intensive care after it is launched, as long as a week passes, the danger period will be over, we all hope that Xiaobao can survive healthily, he is also the hope of our Lin family, right."

My sister-in-law was still comforting me softly, she thought I was worried about Xiaobao, but in fact I was redeeming myself.

Growing up is too bloody, and the light of my life is always fleeting, but I thank God that he has not advanced me into the abyss and never let me never be reborn.

I don't know how long I cried, but the breathing in my chest finally smoothed out, my sister-in-law took a tissue and wiped my face, and smiled softly at the corner of her mouth: "Okay, don't cry, it's not good to look good after crying, tsk, such a handsome face, crying as if it was a broken love, besides, your brother is still in the operating room, your crying doesn't mean good." ”

I sniffed, took the tissue and wiped it myself: "Sister-in-law, in fact, I feel that I am very cowardly and cowardly, and I am afraid to donate a kidney to Xiaobao...... I ......"

"Okay, needless to say, it's everyone's fear, Anqi is also afraid, she doesn't dare to come back, hey, you're already very good, my sister-in-law understands better than anyone else, but I don't want to say it, in fact, it's ugly, Anqi's feelings for Xiaobao should be deeper than yours, she watched Xiaobao grow up, but it's not the same, soft-hearted nature is uncomfortable, and even invisibly gives yourself a lot of pressure, hard-hearted, don't you live well, don't put too much pressure on yourself."

I nodded, my sister-in-law's words really made me a lot easier, and the pressure before was really not ordinary.

"Sister-in-law, how did you find this kidney source?"

The sister-in-law's expression suddenly became a little hesitant: "Uh...... This ......"

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