"Joe, is it really okay for you to be alone?" After Ashi sent me home, he repeated this question to me uncomfortably before leaving.

"I'm fine, I just want to be alone and quiet......" I blocked the door, repeatedly refusing his kindness to stay with me, at this time anyone's concern has no effect on me.

"Since that's ......, then you have a good rest, and I'll come to see you tomorrow." Ah Xi couldn't resist me, so in the end he could only nod his head and agree. From his eyes, I understood an emotion called "helplessness", perhaps, just as helpless as I can't wait for the heart of a wicked man, but now I can't even take care of my own emotions, and I don't have the extra energy to take care of other people's emotions.

"Well, go slowly, don't send it." I nodded, eagerly sent Asi away, then closed the door and left myself in the dark.

In the empty home, in addition to the sound of my own heartbeat and breathing, I only heard the sound of the wall clock on the wall "ticking and clicking", very similar to the sound of my heart dripping with blood little by little, with my back against the door panel, fortunately it also supported the weight of the body, and then the whole person collapsed along the door panel, as if all the senses, all the senses were withdrawn.

He stared blankly at the handicraft that was going to be given to him, the "evil man", and it was dragging and smiling at me.

This smile is very familiar, but there is no temperature, looking at this smile, I can clearly feel that the corners of my mouth are also rising with it, but my heart is so sad that I am about to collapse, so sad that I want to cry, but no tears come out......

Slowly a scene of our first encounter appeared in my mind: on that night, I bumped into him, I was drunk, I was drunk and crazy at him, and vomited on him, he was grumpy, and he chased me all over the building regardless of his identity, this picture is the worst first acquaintance between us, and it seems that from that night, we are destined to be entangled, is this the arrangement of fate?

If so, then why did he break my heart again and again after I opened my mind to accept him? It was like this last time, it was like this last time, even this 100-day anniversary, I can't remember how many times I was left behind by him, is it true that in his heart, I am really not as important as Cher?

I don't know how long I sat on the floor, I don't know how long I thought about it, until my nose was not breathing well, and the cold floor was gradually gaining my residual warmth, and I felt that the night was already deep......

I've always been afraid of the dark, but I didn't dare to turn on the light at this time, I was afraid to see the cold light, only me and the shadow alone, I was afraid that the feeling of loneliness and helplessness would swallow me, so I sniffed hard, made a little noise, wiped my cheeks indiscriminately, and then struggled to get up from the ground, maybe I hadn't moved for too long, I felt dizzy in my head, and my legs were a little numb and stiff.

I don't think he will come to me now, I'd better wait until tomorrow to ask him about it, at this time, I need a hot bath to warm up my body and clear my mind.