A phone call from Liang Wenhao made me insomnia all night, and in the process of sleeping, I kept reflecting on what I had done in the past two years, I knew that they were now a small couple, dragging the family with their mouths, and I was definitely not qualified to be this shameless third party, after all, there was a child.

I'm not reconciled. Seeing that it was about to be completed by using such a long time to lay a big net, he suddenly stopped, only to suddenly find that the spiritual world that supported him suddenly collapsed.

I can't get out of my own world, and the worst plan is - I help someone else raise a son.

I still want to be with her, I want to tell her in person that as long as there is a little free during the time of separation, I am sketching the scene of our reunion, I want to tell her in person, I have no other luxury in my life, and if I am not with her, I will have no heart.

Caught in such a blind spot, I smoked most of the pack of cigarettes all night, but I didn't have an answer in my heart, from a moral point of view, what qualifications do I have to get close to this woman again? But I couldn't let it go.

I made a bet with myself that if the cigarette butt I smoked was singular, I would admit it, and if it was even, I would have the audacity to try again...... After counting the cigarette butts on the floor, I took a glad breath and comforted myself that it was God's will, and then got on the elevator, and when I mustered up the courage to press the doorbell, no one answered.

I stood in the doorway in discouragement, and then I realized that she was not in the house.

At this moment, I walked out of the emotional impulse, secretly glad that she was not there, and returned to the room in frustration.

Liu Ju probably saw my hesitation and called me, and I knew that he wanted to confirm whether I had made up my mind to cooperate with him. After all, this matter was important, and I provoked it, so I changed my clothes and went out.

I'll admit that for a moment, I did have a thought of giving up on myself in my head, and I thought that she had a new life, and that no amount of effort I had tried was useless, and I even wanted to tell her all about my plans for more than a year, and I wanted to see her look back.

Thankfully, I didn't have to.

At ten o'clock in the evening, the front desk called me and said that she had come back from outside, and I hurriedly withdrew from the dinner, and this time, I knocked on her door without hesitation.

I saw a woman scrambling to take care of the child, this kind of life scene in my future blueprint is more vain, this moment is truly manifested in front of me, in the face of this lovely child, I can't hate it, in an old saying, I love the house and Wu, because I love this woman deeply, so, I am willing to accept this child.

I don't dare to easily test whether this woman still has me in her heart at the moment, the shackles of morality invisibly bind me, I can only silently watch her every move, however, the slight touch of the fingertips, such a subtle contact, but ignited the fire in my heart.

Her temptation to me has not diminished in the slightest.

I want to her. From a man's point of view, I want to conquer this woman, at this moment. But I don't dare, I'm afraid that if I do this, I will only receive a slap from this woman.

I didn't want to ruin my image in the eyes of this woman, so I walked out the door.

Desire drove me to this woman, but reason advised me not to do anything that was sorry for a family, and I was proud of my "understanding", but hated myself for not being shameless enough.

I was in torment countless times, at half past eleven, I opened a bottle of wine in the room, after drinking two large glasses, not only did I not have any sleepiness, but my consciousness became clearer, I couldn't cross the hurdle in my heart, but I comforted myself and said, I was drunk, in the face of an alcoholic, everyone will be a little more tolerant, right?

At midnight, I was alone in a strange city, looking at the neon lights across the road, my heart was very lonely, as she said, a man's biggest dream is nothing more than a successful career, a happy family, happy children, I admit, this is my biggest wish at the moment.

The premise is that there must be a woman who forms a family with me.

I couldn't resist picking up my phone and sending her a message. I wanted to tell her the story, but after waiting for a while, my phone didn't move.

We have experienced so much between us, from the initial crisis of trust, to the mutual understanding later, from my silent face of death, to her determination to stay together, I know that missing this woman will be the biggest regret of my life.

Without her, I don't have the heart to fall in love with the world anymore.

I miss her so much.

With a sense of impulse, I knocked on her door, and the midnight corridor was so quiet that I could hear my heartbeat, and I just stood in the doorway, silently watching her.

A second, a long second.

Just for this second, I told myself, to hell with those so-called morality, I just want to hug the woman I like, that's all.

I pressed her behind the door, worried that there was a little guy in the room, my range of movements was not too large, and there was a nervousness in her eyes, we looked at each other, a thousand words, all in these eyes. I restrained myself, but I couldn't.

When my lips touched hers, the feeling of love at first sight returned, I felt the blood in my body boiling, I wanted to possess all of this woman, I desperately sniffed her familiar hair, I inhaled the tip of her tongue unbridledly, my reason had taken off the reins, and then, my hand reached into her clothes. I sensed her consternation, and for some reason, I didn't even feel her rejection, on the contrary, I actually felt her expectation.

We looked at each other again for a second, I pressed her against the door, lifted her collar, and kissed without hesitation, the smooth skin stimulated every inch of my skin, my body involuntarily approached, I wanted to her.

The child's dream words on the bed woke me up, and at this second, I wanted to slap myself twice, however, I still wanted to call her dear.

I know that there is a kind of love, even if there is a time in between, at this moment of encounter, it still exists. I guess that's the power of love.

In just two days, my spirit suffered a torture that I had never experienced before, and before that I didn't know that it was just a little joke that Liang Wenhao played with me, as he said, these tortures you have suffered are not as hard as a woman using her precious youth to raise this crystallization of love between you.

I admit that Liang Wenhao is right, when I saw the scar on her stomach, my heart trembled, I don't know how much this woman suffered because of me before we met, I think we met too late, I didn't have time to witness the growth of this love crystal, I don't know what kind of process Lele went through in her womb, I didn't tell Lele a little story of prenatal education like a father, I didn't listen to prenatal music with Lele once, I didn't witness how he grew into a little boy little by little on the ultrasound picture, I could only hear the story of my son from her mouth.

The most important thing is that as a man, at the moment when she was born prematurely, I actually did not accompany this fragile mother and child in the delivery room, I missed too much, and even missed every small day of growth before Lele was one year old.

I saw a small pimple on her hand, I saw a long scar on her stomach, I knew she had a small scar in the corner of her eye, none of which we had at the beginning of our meeting.

This woman has paid too much for me, a word of gratitude, a word of thanks, a word of sorry can not clearly express my heart, if I cherished her before is pampered, then from the moment we met, I respect her.

I admire this woman and love this woman deeply. And I know that without her, my life would be absolutely incomplete.

Yuan Xiaojie, thank you for bringing me a different world. When Lele grows up, I will tell him about our year, and when the time comes, I must seriously tell him that he has the most amazing mother in the world.

PS: The last sentence was the last time I met the husband and wife, I heard the man say it in person, no matter what, I was deeply moved by it. The number of words in this chapter is not enough, so let's make it up later, write the text tomorrow, and read it at night. I'm going to resume my role as the protagonist, and I'll see you tomorrow.