Chapter 39: You Don't Have Hate?
But I vomited for a long time, all retching, and I vomited some stomach acid. It was as if all the strength was drained, and it was really uncomfortable. What the Zhuo family's aunt said, I probably thought about it, maybe he was washed away by the pool of water at that time, and the Zhuo family's aunt didn't find him, so he escaped. Thinking about it, I didn't pay much attention to it, and before I knew it, I fell asleep there.
When I woke up, it was dusk outside, and dimly I saw a person sitting next to me silently, I was scared and woke up instantly, and when I opened my eyes, I rolled my eyes angrily. "When did you come in?"
Liu Wenxuan smiled, "The medicine that Daoist Tianqing asked me to boil, I boiled it well, and brought it in." ”
As he spoke, he handed me a bowl of jet-black medicine, and when I looked at the color, I felt bitter in my mouth, and I wanted to vomit inexplicably. He comforted me and said, "Okay, the medicine is bitter, why don't you like to drink this, like Gege?" ”
I took it, pinched my nose and poured it down. The nausea almost didn't churn my stomach, and I held it back so I didn't vomit. Looking at him, I smiled wryly. "I wasn't so pretentious before."
"It's not hypocritical, I just saw him put some scorpions, centipedes and the like into it, and it will really be difficult to swallow."
When I heard this, I was stunned!
At that moment, the stomach and heart collectively rebelled, and most of them vomited. Liu Wenxuan was also stunned next to him, and patted me on the back again and again, "Blame me...... Why say it. ”
The tears I spat out were almost coming out, and I finally stopped. "Alright...... Stop it. ”
He nodded and quickly put the bowl away. He glanced at me, "Why don't you go back and rest for a while?" ”
I vomited tiredness, heard him say this, lay down, and sure enough, after a while, sleepiness came back up. I don't know how long I have been sleeping, but I haven't slept well, and I always vaguely feel that there is a place in my heart that seems to be a little empty, as if I am thinking about something, and I can't sleep deeply. groggily turned over several times, and simply opened his eyes, only to find that Liu Wenxuan was ...... Not gone yet.
He sat on a stool, his eyes open as if in a daze.
I was a little stunned and sat up. "You've been guarding here?"
Liu Wenxuan came back to his senses when he heard this, turned his head to look at me, and I found that his eyes were bloodshot. It's as if I kept staring at it just now, and I didn't blink. "Damn, what's wrong with your eyes?"
He blinked slowly, his eyes were swollen and wet, and he smiled awkwardly. "I was just thinking about something...... Hehe, Daoist Tianqing asked me to guard you and see if there would be any adverse reactions. ”
I looked at him like this, and I felt very guilty. "You go back and rest, I'm fine, I don't feel uncomfortable."
"Really?"
"Well, let's go back." After I urged him to ask him three times, he yawned and left. Looking at his tired appearance, I was full of gratitude. I've known him for many years, and I've known him since I met Gege in high school. He and Gege both grew up in the dean, and since they were children, they like to chase after Gege, and the buddies are long and the buddies are short. Later, after making a lot of girls, I found out that I liked Gege, and there was no lace news after that.
Although he looks very flowery on the outside, he can know that he is really good to his friends after getting along for a long time, especially the kind of old-fashioned and warm-hearted.
After sighing, I came back to my senses and saw that his coat had fallen here, so I got out of bed and planned to give it to him.
As a result, when I went out of the door, I found ...... I don't seem to be familiar with this place at all!
It's a very small courtyard, and it doesn't look like a Taoist temple at all. The rooms are relatively dilapidated, and they haven't been renovated for a long time, but there are a lot of rooms, and I'm afraid of touching the taboo, so I don't dare to push open every door, so I can only go around the outside, and I didn't guess which one is Liu Wenxuan's room. Just as I was puzzled, a small pebble was suddenly thrown on my leg, and as soon as I was in pain, I looked up and saw the Tianqing Daoist.
He sat on the eaves with a battered kettle in his hand, as if he had been drinking to the moon. He looked at me and raised an eyebrow. "With your physique, you dare to walk alone at night, not afraid of being sneaky again?"
"Master Sanqing Ancestor is above, and it is in your Taoist temple, shouldn't I relax?"
He chuckled and snorted, "Little girl, don't think that if you have a sweet mouth, I won't take your money." Let me tell you, today's bowl of medicine cost me a lot of treasures, and this money will have to be calculated separately afterwards. Oh...... Also, the treasures prepared later also have to be counted as extra. ”
The corners of my mouth twitched, and I confessed. He was in a better mood at this time, and threw a talisman and stuck it on my chest, I suddenly felt that my limbs were bound, and the next second my body was in the air, and as soon as he beckoned, I was blown in front of him by a gust of wind.
My face turned a little pale, and I quickly sat down with the eaves and pulled the corners of my lips. "The Tao is a good means."
"Naturally, you and I are the ...... What's going on? ”
"Zhang Tianfan."
"That's right! Are you like that kid, a pretend? ”
I smiled, didn't speak, glanced at him, and saw that he must have been lying on it for a long time, and his hair was a little white. I thought about it, and handed him the coat that Liu Wenxuan had left behind, "Cover it a little, right?" ”
He was stunned and looked at me for not answering. I said amusedly, "Don't worry, I won't take your money." ”
He grinned toothily and took it. I sat next to me and looked at the moon for a while, and found that the moon in the mountains was really bright, and I only felt that the stars were so close when I lay down in the sky and looked at them, as if I could reach out and pick the stars. My state of mind was calmer than ever, and I lay down with my hands behind my back. "It's been a long time since I've looked at the moon so closely."
He sneered, "You little doll, what kind of artistic conception can you see?" ”
"I know it's definitely not as much as you, but when I was a child, my mother had to take four or five jobs a day to support me, and she didn't come back until late at night. At that time, I would lean against the door with a bench and watch the moon wait for her, and sometimes when I fell asleep, she would come back and carry me back. It was also fortunate that there weren't many child abduction gangs at that time, otherwise I wouldn't have known where I would have been sold. I joked to myself, but found that he didn't answer, and looked at him a little suspiciously, and found that he was looking at me in a daze.
I nudged him, "Dao Chief, what's wrong?" ”
He looked at me and suddenly pointed to God and asked. "Haunted by sneakiness, have you ever hated this God?"
I was stunned, and looked up a little confused. Bright stars and bright moon, I thought for a long time, "There is no hate, but there is resentment!" When Grandpa Wang died because of me, I complained about this fate. When my mother was calculated because of me and almost fell into danger, I complained. Yesterday, the Zhuo family's aunt and Liu Wenxuan were almost attacked by ghost butterflies on the plank road, and when they fell off the cliff, I also complained...... But these are all complaints, not to the level of hate. ”
He asked with a burning gaze as he pointed to my back again. "Then when you were tortured by the dragon pattern on your body, you didn't hate? That male ghost forcibly took away your innocence, and you didn't hate it? ”
He asked two questions in a row, both of which were sharp, hitting the side of my heart that I had been avoiding all avoidance. I was a little panicked, but more of a daze. "I hated it before! I hate him for not giving any respect, forcibly taking away my innocence, and even letting Zhang Zi'an watch from the side, trampling on all my dignity. I also hate him, if it weren't for this Kui Dragon Pattern, I wouldn't have been running all the way here, and I wouldn't have hurt Liu Wenxuan's life several times, and the people around me would have been hurt because of this. ”
"I hated! But later, after I heard Grandpa Wang talk about my physique, I realized that even without him, I would still harm my relatives and friends in two or three years, and he just exposed my problems in advance. And I found out later...... It seems like...... He hates me even more! As I spoke, I couldn't help but see his eyes in my head.
Although it is as red as blood, it is still deep, and in that depth, in addition to the bitter hatred, there will always be one more feeling, which I can't say.
That emotion is hidden deeper and suppressed more thoroughly. I can't see through it, and I can't figure it out.
"I can't figure out why he hates me so much. Moreover, I can't figure out why he saves me every time he saves me from fire and water since he hates me so much! I want to kill me, but I don't seem to want me to be hurt......" I raised my head in confusion and looked at the Tianqing Daoist, "It's because I can't figure it out, and the hatred seems to be inexplicably less!" ”
"I think I should hate him, too! But when I think of his eyes, I can't help but hate them! It's always like ...... in my heart It seems like...... Guilt, I don't understand, it's guilt. ”
I thought I was a little incoherent, but the Tianqing Taoist seemed to understand.
He looked at me and let out a long sigh, "Bad fate! ”