After dinner, Nan Heng moved a bench and accompanied his brother to do his homework, Nan Heng put a jar of biscuits next to his homework book, he wrote for a while, afraid that his sister would be bored, so he would take a biscuit and feed it to his sister's mouth.

Sometimes she will teach Nan Yan to read, in fact, after Nan Yan was born, Nan Heng often helped Da Bai to take her, and Nan Yan also listened to her brother's words, and the relationship between the brother and sister made Li Fan feel very touched.

She couldn't help but say to Dabai: "With the boss here, you don't have to worry a lot, right?" ”

Da Bai looked at the two guys with a smile: "I didn't agree with Nan Xiu always like free-range him, a good child's heart has become wild, but in the past two years, I have slowly felt that Nan Xiu is right." ”

Dabai made Li Fan a cup of health tea, and the two sisters sat on a wooden chair outside the house facing a black sea.

The door opened, and Nan Xiu came out with two coats, one handed to Li Fan, and the other was draped for Dabai: "I haven't had back pain for a long time?" I don't know what to pay attention to. ”

Da Bai smiled softly at him, and he went in again without disturbing their small talk.

Li Fan's eyes followed Nan Xiu into the house and asked, "How is he?" ”

Da Bai tucked the clothes on his shoulders, looked at the invisible night in the distance, and nodded "um".

Li Fan's gaze fell on Da Bai's face, she looked very different from the original, but it didn't seem to be any different if she could distinguish it carefully.

Suddenly, Li Fan remembered the question during the day, and couldn't help but ask her: "What do you think is the most precious thing in the world?" ”

Da Bai looked sideways at Nan Heng under the warm light in the room, his homework seemed to have been written, and he was taking his sister to read a storybook, Nan Yan turned her head sideways and listened to Nan Heng read the story intently, her red face was nervous for a while and smiled heartlessly for a while.

The corners of Da Bai's mouth also hooked a shallow arc: "I should already have it." ”

At that moment, Li Fan's eyes suddenly widened and looked at Bai Bai in disbelief, the emotion and shock in her eyes looked so dazzling under the bright starry sky, Da Bai looked back at her and asked her, "What's wrong?" ”

Li Fan hurriedly put aside her eyes and stood up and walked a few steps to the white railing, she propped her hands on the railing, her eyes were full of moisture...

The waves, wave after wave, and tend to be calm, she can't describe the shock from the depths of her soul at this time, suddenly, she experienced a feeling, across time and space, region, enchantment, everything, before she came, she couldn't understand the indifference in Li Ziluo's eyes, until this moment, she understood...

Already owned! I never gave up! Smile at the flowers! The heart is like stopping water!

She turned around, Da Bai picked up the kettle and helped Li Fan add some hot water, very calmly: "Are you still used to drinking this health tea?" There are astragalus, red dates, wolfberry, ginger, brown sugar, after giving birth to Nan Yu that year, the physique is a little cold, Nan Xiu makes this tea for me to drink every day, which can relieve the cold limbs, I don't like to drink at first, he takes a thermos cup to me every day, let me take it to the homestay, and now I am used to drinking, but I can't do without. ”

She put down the kettle, raised her head and had a faint smile on her face: "I haven't drunk tea for many years, and when I was pregnant, he would be anemic when he drank tea, so I slowly quit." ”

She picked up the teacup and took a shallow sip of health tea, and slowly put the cup on the wooden table beside her, looking at the wolfberry in the cup and saying: "Actually, after a long time, if you don't drink it, you won't drink it, so it's okay..."

Li Fan looked at Da Bai like that, the warm light in the room shone on her side face, lining her facial features more three-dimensionally, and the big amber eyes under the shadow of the lamp were clear and flawless, just like many years ago, but now it seems to be elegant beyond the dust.

The round face has become more refined and mature with the passage of time, exuding the grace of the changes of time.

Time seemed to have passed all at once, and she still couldn't imagine that the girl in her heart was already a mother of two children.

Li Fan flashed for a while, looked at it in a trance, and saw a pair of children in the window behind her through Dabai, I don't know what question my sister asked my brother, Nan Heng raised his head and thought seriously, those dark eyes made Li Fan's heart move, it was so... déjà vu, when she looked at Da Bai again, her fingers trembled slightly, and her eyes kept flashing...

Li Fan spent the night at Dabai's house, yes, the two had nothing else to do except talk about health care and children.

Li Fan was going to leave the next morning, although Da Bai left her to stay for a few more days, but Li Fan still insisted on going back.

Before leaving, Da Bai seemed to think of something, and asked Li Fan to wait for her, she hurriedly ran back and got some jars out: "By the way, didn't this sauce be bought before, it happened that I and Nanxiu went to sea and passed through Australia a while ago and saw it, and I have to send it to you." ”

Li Fan looked at this familiar package, and indeed missed this taste for a long time, and she finally took a deep look at Nan Heng and Da Bai who were carrying their school bags: "I'm leaving." ”

Da Bai stood quietly by the door, and did not turn around until she couldn't see Li Fan's figure at all, facing Shang Nanxiu's deep and inquiring eyes, and the corners of her mouth pulled up a faint arc: "I... Want to get out for a while..."

Nan Xiu stood in front of her, didn't move, didn't speak, the two children came out of the house and surrounded him, dragged him into the car, after the car started, he saw the big white thin figure coming out of the house through the rearview mirror, facing the sea breeze I don't know who I was thinking, such a lonely back, so that Nan Xiu felt a heartache!

He usually laughs with the two children in the car and watches them go to kindergarten and school respectively.

But today, he couldn't laugh at all, he was flustered all the way, and after sending off the two children, he immediately rushed home, running upstairs like a madman, but Dabai had already left home...

He dragged his steps to the front of his house, looked at the endless sea line, and suddenly felt that his heart had been ripped out of life!

He couldn't remember when it started, whenever he hugged Dabai and loved her, she no longer complained about his numbness, but smiled quietly and didn't say anything.

I can't remember the specific day, Da Bai no longer said "I love you too" to him, from the moment he realized it, this suffocating fear made him uneasy, he began to observe Da Bai's words and deeds, and she became more and more scruples, and since then, there seems to have been a subtle change between the two.

Nan Xiu became more and more afraid of Dabai in a daze, and many times, he wanted to get into her brain to see what she was thinking.

That nightmare also appeared more and more frequently in his dreams, and even made him wake up in the middle of the night with a sweat, he was afraid of Da Bai's quiet, because every time she was quiet, the precipitated eyes would always make him feel strange.

But at the same time, he knows very well that sooner or later he will have to face this day, sooner or later...

However, when the day really came, he still felt that the meridians in his body were being sucked away, and he sat at the door of his house all at once, from sunrise to sunset.

In the past few years, the days have been shuttling in his mind like a movie, and those bits and pieces have converged into inseparable emotions, which are painful!

Until the two children came back from school, he still didn't know how to move, Nan Ma asked him where Dabai had gone, why had he been sitting at the door?

Nan Xiu still didn't say anything, and he refused to enter the house.

His abnormality made the two children feel strange, Nan Xiu cried and asked Nan Xiu to ask for her mother, Nan Xiu only hugged her and put her on her lap and looked into the distance, Nan Heng was a little older, although he didn't cry like his sister, but he could also feel the heaviness of Nan Xiu's heart, he silently sat next to Nan Xiu and asked him: "Did Mom go to a far place today?" Will be back in the evening, right? ”

Nan Xiu looked at Nan Heng with side eyebrows, hugged him silently, and the three of them snuggled together until the sunset on the horizon disappeared into the earth...

I forgot where to go, it should have been a time when Dabai accompanied Nanxiu to the sea, she was to Nanxiu, she used to like to watch the sunrise when she was in the past, because the sunrise brings a new day and a new hope.

But as she grew older, she also knew how to appreciate the sunset, because without the sunset, there would be no sunrise!

……

It was already afternoon when Li Fan returned home, Nie An was sorting out his papers in the house, and after hearing the movement, he took off the glasses on the bridge of his nose and walked to the door, and saw Li Fan open the door, and before he could ask her why she came back so soon, Li Fan hugged him and leaned on his arms.

Nie An showed a gentle smile and surrounded Li Fan and asked, "What's wrong?" You won't be driven back by Dabai, will you? ”

Li Fan's face was buried in Nie An's arms and he shook his head: "I want to come back myself." ”

Nie An touched her black and silky hair: "Oh? Missed me? ”

Li Fan paused for a few seconds and said, "I originally planned to tell Da Bai everything this time. ”

Nie An looked down at her quietly: "And then?" ”

"And then I'll be back..."

Nie An smiled and shook his head and pulled her into the house, taking the bag and a bag of things from her hand: "What about you, you always do whatever you want in your heart, and you have always worried about the two of them, but Ziluo has always been an assertive person, and Da Bai is no longer a child now, you should also let go of their business." ”

Li Fan let out a long breath and collapsed on the sofa, if she still had a knot in her heart before she went, this time she walked down, she did see through some, if so, she didn't know, she just felt relieved.

Nie An put the bag away for her, opened the bag and asked her, "What's in here?" ”

Li Fan said casually: "The pasta sauce that Dabai brought me is the brand I used to like to eat, help me put it away." ”

Nie An took out the dark blue jar from the bag, and then the whole person was stunned, and looked up at Li Fan: "I remember when you used to be a lawyer, you fought with time all day long, and you always used this sauce to mix pasta for convenience. ”

Li Fan nodded as he lowered his hair: "Yes." ”

Suddenly, she realized something, suddenly stood up and looked at the jar in Nie An's hand, and walked in front of him with some trembling, at that moment, countless hundreds of turns and thousands of times lingered in Li Fan's heart, her expression was completely condensed, the pain in her heart slowly magnified, that elegant look appeared in her mind again, and when she turned around, tears were already raining down...

Li Fan slowly moved to the window, the sunset dyed a large area of the sky red, the years always passed silently in the sunrise and sunset, that girl really grew up...

The last afterglow of the sun was reflected in Nan Xiu's pupils, and Nan Yu in her arms suddenly shouted, "Mom, Mom is back!" ”

Nan Xiu turned his head in a daze, and saw a figure far away, he stood up from the ground in a daze, put Nan Xiu down, and walked towards the figure step by step, Da Bai's appearance became clearer and clearer in his eyes, he ran towards her excitedly, and ran until he ran to the front to see her as when he left in the morning, and his heart fluctuated and dragged her into his arms, hugged her tightly, and almost suffocated her!

Da Bai muttered dissatisfiedly and pushed him away and shouted, "Nanxiu, you are enough!" What a nerve! ”

Nan Xiu let go of her and observed her expression with a heart: "You have been out for a long time. ”

Da Bai raised the plastic bag in his hand: "Didn't you not fry spicy crabs for you for a long time, I specially asked Uncle Wu to help me get fresh sea crabs, and what is the autumn wind, crab feet are itchy, but it took me a day to get me such a point, but all of them are very fat, and..."

Before she finished speaking, Nan Xiu held her face and kissed her deeply...

The two children jumped to their feet and hugged Da Bai's legs and shouted to their mother, a family of four walked along the beach to their home, the sea breeze blew the corners of Da Bai's clothes, Nan Xiu tightly took her into his arms, blocked the gust of sea breeze for her, Da Bai arm passed through his waist and leaned against him and muttered: "You are very wrong when you go out today!" ”

Nan Xiu's heart was shocked, but he didn't show it and glanced at Dabai: "What's wrong?" ”

When he asked this sentence, he was apprehensive in his heart, and he was afraid that Dabai would tear off the layer of paper.

But Da Bai seemed to be deliberately teasing him, and he didn't say anything for a long time, Nan Xiu was anxious, went around to Da Bai's body, grabbed her waist and leaned over and asked, "What's wrong?" ”

Da Bai raised his face and wrapped his neck around his neck: "If you forget to love me, I'll leave, Ming..."

Her fingers slid down Nanxiu's neck to her heart: "You have something to do here." ”

Nan Xiu's eyes flickered, and he looked at the sea, and Da Bai continued: "You are also very wrong now!" ”

Nan Xiu didn't ask her eagerly this time, but asked in a low voice after a while: "What's wrong?" ”

Da Bai sighed, leaned his face on his chest, and faced the sea with him: "A mirage is an illusion, but I have heard that this is an image formed by the refraction of the light reflected by objects on the earth, so the scene presented by the mirage is real in this world, how can it be an illusion, but we have seen it through another form, right?" ”

Nan Xiu's eyebrows were all pinched together, thinking carefully about Da Bai's words, Da Bai got out of his arms, picked up Nan Xiu, who was chasing with his brother, and smiled at Nan Xiu: "Go home for dinner, fool!" ”

Nan Xiu looked at her cheerful back, smiled too, and led Nan Heng to catch up with them...

……

Tearful eyes asked Huahua silently, and the red flew over the swing...

It was late autumn again, Dong Han drove to the apartment very early, and when he entered the door, he saw that his luggage had already been packed and placed by the door, and the man stood by the window with a cigarette in his hand and looked at the old city, his eyes were real and empty, and there was no focus.

Dong Han looked at his back lightly, and couldn't bear to call him for a while, so he waited quietly for the cigarette in his hand to burn out before calling, "You can go." ”

Li Ziluo turned around and saw the backpack on his body raised his eyebrows slightly: "You don't have to follow me." ”

Dong Han's eyes were firm: "I passed earlier, my life in this life is yours, whatever you want to do, I will follow you." ”

Li Ziluo's lips rippled with a faint arc: "Don't want home?" ”

Dong Han's eyes moved slightly, Li Ziluo walked to him and patted him on the shoulder: "There is nothing more important than home, send me to the airport and go back to take good care of my wife and children, you and I have different paths." ”

Dong Han stared at Li Ziluo movingly, he had followed him for so many years, not because he was rich and advantageous, maybe he was grateful to Li Ziluo at the beginning, but later, this man's wisdom, forbearance, tenacity, and strength were like a towering mountain that could not be shaken, which slowly convinced him and made him follow him willingly.

But now, they are about to part ways, and in the days to come, he can no longer be by his side, and can only watch him walk steadily into the security check.

His posture is as tall as it was many years ago, drowning in the crowd with half a lifetime of warmth, half a lifetime of pain, and half a lifetime of memories...

……

A person's life seems to be very long, but sometimes it is really short, when he is young, he may always fall in love with someone vigorously, for him even to die, he feels that the whole world is bleak compared to him, without him, the liver and intestines are broken, life is better than death.

With the precipitation of the years, he may still retain the appearance of the year in our hearts, but we all know that in the end, he did not lose to love, trust, or persistence, but he lost to life.

How many hearts are kept by people who have been gentle for years, this is what life is as it is.

……

You ask me if it's worth it to love you, in fact, you should know that love is not asking if it's worth it.

——Zhang Ailing, "Half Life"

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