I don't know when I became so timid, but I've fantasized about this moment many times in my heart. I am very strong in every fantasy, and my baby and I are safe.

But at this moment, I actually cried here so uncompromisingly, if I was seen by others, then I would really be ashamed to die.

So I also held Song Yichen's hand and said vigorously, "Husband, can you accompany me into the delivery room later?" ”

Although I know that it is impossible for ordinary people to enter the delivery room, Song Yichen, as the director of the hospital, made an exception, which should be okay.

Besides, as long as Song Yichen stays by my side, my heart won't be so worried.

Hearing me say this, he hurriedly nodded: "Don't worry, I will stay by your side." ”

By the time we got to the hospital, I was in pain and I didn't have any strength. After the doctor's examination, it was found that my uterine opening had broken a few centimeters, so the doctor quickly arranged surgery to deliver the baby for me.

Just as I was about to enter the delivery room, my godfather and godmother also came to the hospital.

Shuangshuang was beside my bedside and said vigorously: "Xinxin, you are okay." ”

Lying on the bed, I was so in pain that I didn't have the strength to speak, so my godmother talked to me, and I didn't answer at all.

And they are still talking: "Xinxin, this time it is really hard for you, but don't worry, your father and I are waiting for you outside, I hope you and the baby can come out healthy." ”

The pain now, so painful that I can't hear what my godmother is talking about.

I felt cold sweat, and I was rushing out of my body, and I was so uncomfortable that I was going to die.

Seeing me so uncomfortable, Song Yichen hurried to the side: "Mom, don't talk to her, my heart hurts now, and I don't have the strength to talk to you." ”

It seems that only Song Yichen can understand how I feel now.

It turns out that those who have seen it on the Internet are true, and giving birth to a child really requires half a mother's life.

At this time, the nurse ran over: "Okay, family members, don't stay here, you go to the side to rest, we have to push the pregnant woman into the delivery room." ”

Under everyone's watchful eye, I was wheeled into the delivery room by the nurse. And Song Yichen also changed his clothes and followed me into the delivery room.

Although I was accompanied by Song Yichen, my heart was still very worried. Because of the pain, I couldn't speak at all, and I couldn't do anything other than hold Song Yichen's hand tightly.

I don't know how long it took me to go through this painful ordeal, just when I was about to faint. But I heard the cry of a baby.

Actually, I really wanted to open my eyes and see my baby, but I just couldn't open my eyes, and I didn't know anything about the rest of it!

When I woke up again, I found myself in a hospital bed with no one around. It made me feel sad all of a sudden.

Is this the treatment after giving birth? It seems that it is really like what is said on the Internet, a princess for one day, a queen for ten months, and a slave for a lifetime, I just gave birth to a child and got such treatment, which is too chilling.

Just when I was very sad, my godmother walked in.

As soon as he saw that I was awake, he quickly spoke to me: "Xinxin, you are awake!" Are you hungry? If you're hungry, I'll buy you something. ”

Although there is a godmother's shush and warmth, but my heart is cold and cold, why didn't Song Yichen stay with me when I woke up.

So I closed my eyes and said, "Mom, I'm not hungry. ”

Maybe my godmother saw that I was very depressed, so she quickly said, "Xinxin, is there something uncomfortable?" If you are uncomfortable, you have to tell your godmother, don't hold back, you must know that when a woman is confined, she must be in a happy mood, and she must not be angry, you know? If a woman doesn't do a good job in confinement, it will be a lifelong illness when she comes out in the future! ”

In fact, my mother told me these things when I didn't have a baby, and I didn't want to be angry, but I just couldn't control myself.

So I could only speak: "Mom, what about the child? ”

I just want to know how my children are now, I don't want to care about anything else, even if Song Yichen treats me badly, I will live happily.

Seeing me say this, my godmother breathed a sigh of relief.

smiled and said: "You can rest assured, the child is very healthy, and the child was born with 7 catties and 2 taels." You don't see that the kid is so pretty, just like you. ”

It seems that my sacrifice is still rewarded, although I am fat, but the child's body is still healthy, there are 7 pounds and 2 taels, I used to think that as long as the child can be born with more than five pounds, I can be happy, I didn't expect to grow so good.

"Mom, can you bring the child over and let me take a look, I want to see her." As soon as I heard my godmother's words, I was a little excited.

I never thought that my blue heart would actually be a mother. It's been 10 months since I was pregnant, but I still can't believe it's all true.

Hearing me say this, my godmother shook her head: "You have to wait a minute, the child is being carried by the nurse to take a bath." ”

Actually, I really wanted to ask my godmother where Song Yichen went, but I just couldn't ask.

If Song Yichen had a conscience, he would definitely stay by my side and never leave, who knew that I woke up for so long, and he didn't show up, which proves that Song Yichen and I are married just for the child in my belly.

In the past ten months, he has taken care of me meticulously, just for the sake of the children, it seems that now I have no such use, and I should recognize the facts.

The more I thought about it, the sadder I became.

I could only smile bitterly and say to my godmother: "Mom, then wait for the child to come over and ask you to call me, I want to take a break." ”

Even though my body was in a lot of pain, I still wanted to sleep on my side. Because I don't want them to see me crying.

"Xinxin, you can rest, but you can't sleep on your side like this, so that the blood in your stomach will not come out, just lie down like this, and sleep a little higher, which is also good for your body in the future."

As she spoke, my godmother took out another pillow and put it behind my back.

Actually, I can't sleep at all right now, I just don't want to talk to them. I feel like they're all good to me because they're kids.

Now that I've given birth to my baby, they won't be bothering me. As soon as I thought about this, I couldn't help but cry.

And at this moment, suddenly a hand wiped away my tears for me: "Silly girl, who provoked you." ”

When I heard this familiar voice, I didn't open my eyes, but tried to cry desperately.

"Okay, don't cry in your heart, it's not good to cry for a long time in confinement, do you say anything, don't hold it in your heart."

Hearing Song Yichen say this, I slowly opened my eyes and looked at him, and asked him very angrily, "Where have you been?" ”

Song Yichen, who was standing next to him, quickly took out a tissue and wiped all the tears off my face.

He said to me softly: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have left you, there was something in the hospital at first, so I was in a hurry to deal with it, and I ran back as soon as I finished dealing with it." ”

Although Song Yichen's answer made me powerless to resist, I was just unhappy in my heart. Is his work more important or is it me?

He pouted and said, "Is your work more important than mine?" Do you think that now that I have given birth to a child, I am not important now. Song Yichen, how can you be like this, do you know how much I have paid for you? ”

As I spoke, I cried again, I don't know why I became the way I am, I just felt a lot of anger in my heart, I wanted to vent it, but I didn't know what to do.

I thought that Song Yichen would be unhappy after I said this, but he didn't, he didn't say anything but came to me, and stretched out his hand and hugged me tightly in his arms.

I really want to push Song Yichen away, but my strength is too small, and I just gave birth to a child, so I am a weak sister Lin to him.

I only heard him say in my ear, "I'm sorry! I have made you feel insecure, but don't worry, I will definitely correct my mistakes in the future and give you a sense of security. ”

When I heard Song Yichen say this, I regretted it very much, I don't know why I have become so unreasonable now.

I've never been like this before, why have I become so stingy since I had a child, if I continue like this, sooner or later Yichen will hate me.

Realizing this, I was a little apprehensive: "I'm sorry, I don't want to lose my temper with you, but I really can't control myself, I feel like my brain is not under my control at all." ”

Fortunately, Song Yichen has always tolerated me, otherwise I don't know what kind of quarrel we would have.

"It's okay, it'll be fine after this period of time, in fact, you're just postpartum depression, don't worry, I'll cure you." You just need to be calm and try not to let yourself lose your temper, and I'm sure it won't be long before you get back to your old self. ”

After listening to what I said, Song Yichen hugged me and told me very distressed.

Postpartum depression. I have seen this symptom on the Internet, and I heard that people with this disease will commit suicide in serious cases, but after listening to Song Yichen say this, I found that my symptoms seem to be similar to those symptoms for them. Am I really suffering from postpartum depression?

If I continue like this, will I kill myself? If that's the case, then I'm not just a fool?

So I was a little panicked: "Yichen, then what should I do!" I won't miss a day when I can't think about suicide, I'm still young, I don't want to die. ”

No wonder from pregnancy to now, I have always had a bad temper, and I have been sick for a long time, could it be that Song Yichen has always known that I am sick, so he has always accommodated me.

No matter what I say, he will not object, and no matter how angry I am, Song Yichen will not bother with me, it turns out that I am just a patient in his heart.

Seeing that I was so scared, Song Yichen hugged me tighter.

said vigorously: "Don't worry, your depression is not so serious, just a little recuperation, besides, isn't there still your husband and me?" How could I possibly let you do something like that, don't worry, now you just need to be calm, as for the rest of the matter, you can leave it to me, you don't have to worry. ”