There is a real meaning in this Chapter 184 There are so many roads, but she can't find a way home.
Ouyang Jing VS Song Yuming
"Young lady, your courier." Mother Liu stood at the door of the study with the courier she had just delivered.
"Come in!" Ouyang Jing took the courier, thinking that it was sent by Zhang Hui, Zhang Hui is considered to be her popular, but she is also famous because of Zhang Hui, she, the gold medal agent, is called to get married and retire, but I don't know whether it is right or wrong.
Zhang Hui tore it open casually without looking at it, and the photos inside were revealed.
It was Sun Qingqing and Song Yuming, Song Yuming held her hand with a gentle face, Sun Qingqing smiled at him like a child, he lovingly helped her brush the hair that covered her eyes, and he hugged her and sat beside him.
Her head rested on his shoulder, she smiled, he was affectionate, Ouyang Jing couldn't bear to look at it anymore, but the tears dripped down involuntarily, and one by one hit the smiling faces of the two in the photo.
With such a smile, Ouyang Jing, who was stabbed, couldn't open her eyes, and her heart was like being cut by a sharp knife, and her chest was suffocated, okay, you are very good, really good, you keep saying that you love her husband, and that she only treats Sun Qingqing as a good husband for her sister.
If you love each other so much, why go to the trouble of marrying her.
Song Yuming, why are you, why did you cruelly let me know that you didn't love me after I fell in love with you, how cruel you were, gave me all the love, full of surprise, and told me that you will always love me, let me mistakenly think that I can be happy like a spoiled child, let me mistakenly think. As long as I hold you, I have the whole world, but when I thought that happiness could reach the peak, you suddenly withdrew, and my world collapsed and fell to the bottom of death.
Are you too good at disguise, or am I just a fool from start to finish······
Song Yuming, why do you want me to let me know this after I fall in love with you completely and make up my mind to stay with you for the rest of my life, I would rather never meet you, never know you, never fall in love with you······
The photos scattered from Ouyang Jing's hands to the ground one by one, just like Ouyang Jing's broken heart.
Ouyang Jing sat on the ground weakly and desperately, picked up those photos one by one, and gently stroked Song Yuming's smile on the photos, which was as bright as a galaxy, bewitching and charming.
It was a smile that once belonged only to her, and she gently brushed away the tears on it with her hand, very light, very light, as if every stroke rubbed on her heart, tears, more and more. The vision is getting blurred·····
Song Yuming, let me cry for you again, for you who once loved me.
She slowly got up from the ground and carefully put the photos into the drawer, she still couldn't bear to tear them off, because she was reluctant, the person on it was so much in love with her, how she was willing to give it, how to give it up.
It's been a long time since she's seen his smile, every time she sees it, his tangled brows, a silent sigh, it turns out that he smiled so gently, only for his beloved, once, maybe she too, but now it's not her, it's not her······
Song Yuming, why don't you love me anymore, but I still can't forget you, I can't bear to leave you, do you have to love so humbly after falling in love with someone?
You said that as long as I love you a little, you will give me full, all love, but why do you refuse to give me a little love when I love you full, you, those mountains and seas that you keep vowing, will never give up, is the most beautiful lie and poison you gave me, you are a love liar, and I am an ignorant fool·····
Ouyang Jing was even quieter, except for Miaomiao's voice and smile when she was at home, the rest of the time, she was so quiet that you couldn't feel her presence at all.
She is also thinner than before, she is already thin, and now it seems that a gust of wind can blow her away, for Song Yuming's concern, she always sneered, looked at him contemptuously, as if she was watching a clown, funny and funny on stage, until he was terrified, and then left coldly.
Song Yuming always couldn't help but want to care about her, but when he saw her mocking eyes, he didn't dare to speak again, that kind of look made him feel that even in this hot summer, it was still cold, and she went back to when she first met her.
No, no, at that time she was just indifferent, but now, he felt that her eyes were disdainful mockery, and he felt like a clown, humble and had nowhere to escape.
Their relationship was originally just a suffocating stalemate, but now it is a frozen backwater, and even Liu's mother feels so depressed that she can't breathe.
"Young lady, there are people outside who want to see you."
"Nope!"
"You, you····· How can you break in, our young lady can't see you. Qiu Shaolin had already broken in regardless of the obstacles.
"Ouyang Jing, are you doing too much of your heart, and you don't have the face to see people!" Qiu Shaolin saw Sun Qingqing's crying pear blossom with rain, he couldn't help it anymore, he must come to this woman to settle accounts.
is also a woman, how can she be so cold-blooded, so inhumane, and even want to find someone to rape Qingqing.
He has said a long time ago that this woman is insidious and cunning, and she can be mixed in that kind of place in the entertainment industry, how can it be as simple as it seems on the surface, but the eldest brother seems to be obsessed with marrying this woman, and he has failed Qingqing, but what do you get?
This woman, she is simply cold-blooded and cold-hearted!
Ouyang Jing came down from the upstairs slowly, with a condescending and noble posture, step by step, calmly, and his steps were not cramped and messy because of his shouting, as if he didn't see him.
sat on the sofa casually and asked Liu's mother for tea. Her movements of drinking tea are extremely elegant, even the posture of holding the cup seems to have been accurately calculated, her eyes are not squinting, her expression is indifferent, it really seems that she is just enjoying her afternoon tea.
"You ruthless woman, you hurt Qingqing so badly, and you still have the leisure to drink tea here, you really deserve to go to hell." Qiu Shaolin frantically knocked down the cup in her hand, the freshly brewed tea was very hot, the back of Ouyang Jing's entire hand was quickly red, and the cup fell to the ground with a crisp sound.
But she still leaned on the sofa calmly as if nothing had happened, if it wasn't for seeing it with her own eyes, Qiu Shaolin really didn't believe that there was such a person in this world, he really doubted that he had made her tea, but the broken cup lay there quietly reminding him of what he had just done.
He had regretted his rudeness. But seeing that she is still like this, she turns a blind eye to him and hangs him aside, although he is standing and she is sitting, but she still has a cold and hard aura that people can't ignore.
The anger factor in Qiu Shaolin's body shouted again, "Why, my heart is weak, I don't dare to speak, I tell you, I won't let you go, I want a hundred times the sins suffered by Qingqing, a thousand times more on your body, you'd better bless you to go out in this life and not be seen by me." Qiu Shaolin gritted his teeth with hatred.
It took a long time to hear her speak lightly. "What do I have to be kind, if something really happened to Sun Qingqing, you should be looking for Song Yuming, what does it have to do with me, you dare to be so presumptuous here, spread wild, and threaten me, don't you just think that Song Yuming will not do anything to you because of me now?"
Song Yuming hurried back after receiving a call from Liu's mother, and what he heard when he entered the door was this sentence, you dare to be so presumptuous here, be wild, and threaten me, don't you just think that Song Yuming will not do anything to me now because of me?
It turned out that Ouyang Jing actually thought so in his heart, when did they become like this?
He is ······ It's a bit nonsense, but the person he cares about the most in his heart is her, and this has never changed.
Ouyang Jing glanced indifferently at Song Yuming with a complicated expression, "The person you should be looking for is back, forgive me for missing me." After saying that, he didn't stay for a moment, and turned around to leave them with a cold back.
Qiu Shaolin stomped his feet angrily, he really hadn't seen such a calm and arrogant woman who had done bad things.
"Get out of here, don't make me repeat it again, if there is another time, we'll ····· Break up, get out! Song Yuming's last word shouted out with all his strength.
Qiu Shaolin also seemed to realize that he was too impulsive, so he ran to someone's house in such a rage and yelled at a woman It is indeed not what a man should do, but when he heard Song Yuming say this, the anger came up again, "You really found a good woman!" He ran out in a rage.
Song Yuming wandered downstairs and hesitated for a long time, thinking about how to explain everything, he really didn't expect that Qiu Shaolin's madman would come over.
He decided to go upstairs and plan to tell Ouyang Jing about Sun Qingqing, who was almost ······ in Feixing yesterday Although fewer people knew about this matter, he really couldn't bear them to continue like this anymore, especially Ouyang Jing's words just now, it was like a slap in the face, he really had to explain all this, otherwise he would really go crazy.
"Ah Jing, Shaolin has a bad temper, but he really has no malice, he looks like this because of Qingqing, Qingqing she..."
"Get out!"
"Ah Jing, don't you do this, you listen to my explanation, Qingqing ····· her"
"Get out, I don't want to hear it, now I feel disgusted when I hear Sun Qingqing's three words and your hypocritical face!"
"Ah Jing, don't be so stubborn, okay, I know that you have always been resentful of Qingqing because of Miaomiao's birthday last time, that incident was really an accident, Qingqing had a car accident that day. How can I care, it's all my fault, Ah Jing, it has nothing to do with Qingqing. ”
"Didn't you hear me when I said it? Song Yuming, you get out of here, since you care about her so much, she is so good for life and death, why don't you go to accompany her, what are you doing when you come back and pretend to be benevolent, what does her business matter to me, a person like her who deceives others with a faction of innocence will be considered dead. I won't shed a single tear either! ”
Ouyang Jing thought of what Sun Qingqing said to her, and thought of the photos of her and Song Yuming together, and her heart burned like a fire.
Why do everyone feel pitiful for Sun Qingqing, but what about her? Isn't she pitiful for her wonderfulness?
Now even one of his friends could run to her and shout, he, had ever thought about her feelings, and what little sanity she had left had been completely destroyed.
"Ah Jing, you, what are you talking about, how can you say that, you have changed, when did you become so paranoid." Song Yuming couldn't believe that these were all words that Ouyang Jing said.
"Why, you can do it, I don't even have the qualifications to say it." Ouyang Jing looked directly into his eyes and sneered, his eyes were full of mockery, have I changed, Song Yuming, who are the two of us, you are the most unqualified person to say this.
"Ah Jing, Qingqing she..." Before Song Yuming finished speaking, Ouyang Jing heard the name from his mouth again, and the anger in his heart had nowhere to vent, and he slapped Song Yuming in the face with a hard slap.
She hated him being so gentle and calling her name in front of her again and again, speaking for her.
She had already pretended not to know about them, and had endured them with all her might, asking why all of them had to come to her to provoke and challenge her reason.
Song Yuming seemed to be stunned by this slap, and looked at Ouyang Jing in a daze, Ouyang Jing was also shocked by his behavior, his hand stopped in mid-air, and forgot to put it down.
Song Yuming noticed that Ouyang Jing's hand was red and swollen, and he didn't care that he had just been beaten, so he immediately ran forward, "What's wrong with your hand, why is it so hot that you can't take medicine." Sit down, I'll help you with the medicine. ”
Ouyang Jing was stunned, did not refuse, and let him sit on the edge of the bed until he finished taking the medicine, Song Yuming looked at Ouyang Jing's increasingly haggard face distressedly and said, "Wife, let's get along, let's not do this again, okay?" Ouyang Jing came to her senses at this time, she showed a weak smile, as if she was mocking herself, she was always deceived by his affectionate appearance, it seemed that he was really her calamity.
She knew she still loved him, and she was like her mother. Once you fall in love, even if it is inevitable, you will not easily turn back after nine deaths.
Although she treated him so coldly, she was still reluctant to leave him in her heart, she was really conflicted, "You go out, I want to be quiet." ”
Song Yuming glanced at Ouyang Jing, this time he went out obediently and helped her close the door, Ouyang Jing would also lose his temper because of his late return, and he had been in a cold war recently because of Sun Qingqing's affairs, but at least for the sake of Miaomiao's face, he occasionally made peace with him.
This time, it was like hating him.
Song Yuming slept in the guest room for half a month, they seemed to have reached a tacit understanding, trying not to meet, Ouyang Jing calculated the time when Song Yuming was not there before going downstairs, even if he had to meet, he almost didn't speak, and he was polite and alienated like a neighbor who had just moved in.
Ouyang Jing didn't get angry at him anymore, he didn't even look at him again, and he didn't explain Sun Qingqing's matter anymore, as if he was worried about that quarrel. Occasionally, when she came home late and got drunk, she was carried back by Qiu Shaolin and them, she knew that he was back, but she didn't go downstairs once.
The weather is getting hotter and hotter, and even Liu's mother is complaining that this year's summer seems to be particularly hot, but Ouyang Jing is still wearing long-sleeved sportswear at home, and she is getting thinner and thinner, as if she has stolen other people's clothes, and she can swing loosely.
Her heart was too cold, she could only feel the endless coldness, even if she wore it so thickly, she couldn't cover her cold heart.
"Young lady, your courier." During this time, it seems that a courier will come every few days, and the young lady usually stays at home, but her friends are really worried about it, and Liu's mother put it down and left as usual.
Ouyang Jing no longer has the courage to open these couriers, at first she will open them, but every time she looks at it, her heart is more desperate, now her heart really can't bear it anymore, she is afraid that she will quarrel with him like the last time, like that, she doesn't want to see it again, a hysterical jealous woman, no one will like it, it will only make him hate her more and more.
"Young lady, do you want to go out? Do you want to prepare a car? Mother Liu shouted at Ouyang Jing's back, Mr. Song has explained every day when he goes out, he must take good care of the young lady, and someone must follow him when he goes out.
"No, you don't have to wait for me for dinner, I don't use it at home." Ouyang Jing didn't look back, and her voice was light and fluttering without a trace of strength.
"Lawyer Wan, then everything will be left to you, I want to divorce as soon as possible, and it doesn't hurt to leave the house!"
"Miss Ouyang, in fact, if there is evidence of his cheating, this lawsuit will be over soon, rest assured, he will not leave the house!"
After talking about things, it was still early, and suddenly it occurred to her that she actually had a small home of her own in H City, so she took a taxi back to her former apartment.
I haven't been back for a long time, everything is as usual, nothing has changed, when they got married, she didn't take any of the things here, Song Yuming was still joking at the time, this is half of her maiden home, if he makes her angry in the future, she can still come back here to dissipate her anger, and he is easy to find.
Ouyang Jing looked at it again, and finally fell on the sofa, which was the place where he lived when he didn't leave, and it seemed that there was still his smell.
It's only been a few years, but it's been a matter of time in the blink of an eye. Maybe it was because the room had been unoccupied for a long time and the smell of dust choked, Ouyang Jing suddenly coughed, one after another, until he coughed up tears, until he fell to the ground weakly.
Although she has told herself countless times in her heart not to think about him, not to think about him anymore, but the memory is like a disobedient mirror, every time she sees something, she can't help but think of him, recalling those sweet pasts.
Ouyang Jing felt that she couldn't stay for a moment, she originally wanted to find a place to calm down without him, but why could she think of him everywhere.
She already loved him to the core, and she was reluctant to leave him, but she was so afraid to see him, she was afraid that she would not be able to control it, and she was afraid that she would annoy him even more.
She had sworn by it before. If he loves her, then he will never leave him, and if he does not love her, then she must leave him without hesitation and without looking back.
But now she really doesn't have that courage, at that time she can say such things so easily, either because she doesn't love deeply enough, or she is too happy to think that there will be such a day.
She began to say those things self-righteously because she didn't love him enough, and that he couldn't hurt her if she didn't, and then she said that because she believed in him. even said such firm things at the press conference, and now that I think about it, she is really ridiculously stupid.
But this day came so unexpectedly. She knew that love is not something you want to love and stop if you don't want to love, she was so caught off guard, unexpected, and fell in love with him deeply, drawing the ground as a prison.
He was the first man to walk into her heart, he was the first man she loved, he was the first man she loved deeply, the man she wanted to be with him for the rest of her life, but he was also the man who hurt her the most.
She loves him so wholeheartedly, so afraid that he will leave her, even if, even if he makes so much lace news, she believes that it is because he is acting on the scene because of business, and he endures the hard work and makes a smile.
She shed all her pride and dignity just to stay by his side, but he still shattered the dream he had prepared for her with his own hands, broke the beauty, and shattered all her expectations for the future.
Song Yuming, she never saw him again, she was really tired.
Ouyang Jing wandered in the vast sea of people, aimless. There was no direction, no goal, she was afraid to go home, she was afraid of being so crazy that even she felt strange to herself, she was afraid that she would appear in front of him like a shrew, covered in thorns.
But as soon as she saw him, she would think of those photos, think of his gentle embrace, bewitching smile, and careful care that none of them belonged to her, and she couldn't help but lose control, couldn't help but get angry, and couldn't help but say anything.
She hates herself like this, what about her indifference, her demeanor, her demeanor, her heart is as calm as water, why are they all gone? Is it really like Song Yuming said, she has also changed?
She didn't want them to hurt each other any longer, it would only force them to have no way out.
She had become accustomed to all that he had given, his love, his doting, his sweet words, and habit was the worst of diseases, because it made people accept any misfortune, any pain, any betrayal.
Although she resented him, but subconsciously, she had been trying hard to persuade herself to give him a chance, so she was waiting, waiting for him to turn back, but why didn't he have the patience he had before?
Just give her a word of comfort. Give her a warm embrace, tell her that he still loves her, he will change, she is still his only one, she is willing to care about nothing, she is willing to make compromises, she is willing to treat all this as just a nightmare, but now he doesn't even bother to lie to her, is he really disgusted with her?
It turns out that she is as proud as Ouyang Jing, and she is just as humble and pitiful in the face of love.
Twilight falls, which is the prelude to another day. At the beginning of the lanterns, the lights of thousands of homes, Ouyang Jing's lonely figure was abandoned by the bustling crowd, so many laughter did not come for her, so many lights did not shine for her, so many roads, but she couldn't find a way home.