"This child can't keep ......" is like an irreversible curse, which instantly throws people into reincarnation.

"Master Hou." The candle flame was lit when he was out of Xiu, trying his best to see Yun Ci's expression. But she fails, and when tears wells up in her eyelashes, Mizusawa blurs her vision.

In the haze, the white-clothed figure just lowered his eyes and whispered, holding the glass wine glass tightly in his hand: "This kid can't ask for it." Now...... Not the time. ”

Isn't it time......

yes! The new lady has not yet entered the door, and there really shouldn't be a child in this stall. Especially, it is a child who is not rightly named. Izumi understood instantly, don't look over: "I understand." ”

Three words, a thorn, poked both of them in pain.

Yun Ci was silent for a long time, unwilling to look up to see Xiu, for fear that when he saw her tears, he would be the first to disarm and surrender. Originally, I was forced to convince myself that if I softened my heart at this moment, that child, whether male or female, would once again taste the bitterness of love that life was worse than death.

The poison brought out of the womb cannot be eliminated no matter how hard you try. Fortunately, the body is weak and the medicine does not leave the body; The unfortunate will die young.

He is the son of the Yun family, and he can still be cured with good medicine after suffering from fetal poison; However, the flesh and blood in the abdomen of the concubine are not the heirs, and they can't even be regarded as concubines, even if they are born, they can take care of them for a while, how can they take care of them for a lifetime? If there really is a what if...... The two of them, mother and son, are left, but they are afraid that it will be even more difficult.

Rather than be heartbroken at that time, it is better to cut off the antecedents now.

"Out of Xiu," Yun Ci finally decided to tell the truth, "but do you remember your coughing up blood?" ”

"Coughing up blood?" Izuku remembers. It's true that there have been two times, both months ago, wasn't it a stagnant bruise in the throat?

"Doctor Qu deceived you that day...... Are you poisoned...... On a skin-to-skin relationship with me. A flash of self-reproach flashed in Yun Ci's eyes: "I want this child more than anyone else...... But he is destined to be born with fetal poison, and perhaps a lifetime of disability like mine. ”

"Poisoned?" Izuku was incredulous: "You mean...... Aren't you also poisoned? ”

"Hmm." Yun Ci did not deny it: "The fourth aunt has made an antidote, and she must be taken with wine." Just now I mixed the medicine in the wine and coaxed you to drink it. ”

It turned out that this was the reason why he proposed to have a drink.

When Chu Xiu heard this, a glimmer of hope gradually rose in his heart, and he subconsciously protected his lower abdomen with both hands: "Since you have taken the antidote, is this child also ......?"

"No!" Yun Ci knew what it meant, and immediately retorted: "You are three months pregnant, and the fetal poison has been brought into the bones and blood. You can get rid of it, but the child can't. ”

"Hou Ye ......" Izumi was already choked: "How could you be poisoned, who ......?"

This is the responsibility of the Lixin Hou. Sitting on the wealth and grace of the world, it also has to bear unpredictable dangers. Yun Ci only sighed.

There is as much glory as there is bitterness and suffering. This burden weighs more than a thousand catties.

Izumi knows that he can't ask anything anymore, but if he wants to give up this child for this...... She wondered if she would be blessed to conceive his child again in the future.

originally thought that there would be a constant connection with him. But if he loses his child and marries again, I am afraid that this relationship will be unsustainable. Even if she is unwilling to break, how can the new lady endure it? And Mrs. Tai......

She didn't want to embarrass him, and she didn't want to leave a handle on his name. It's just that if you don't get pregnant, it's just that, and now you're pregnant and then have an abortion......

"There's no room for maneuvering?" Almost begging each other, Izumi wanted to make the last effort to fight for it, and her eyes were full of humble eyes: "If the child is born with a disability, I will take care of him for the rest of his life." ”

"No!" Although Yun Ci was shocked by Izuxiu's persistence, he still refused to deny it in the end, and his face was cold: "This kid will drag you down, and it will also ...... Drag me down. He let go of the wine glass he was holding in his hand and said calmly: "We will have another child in the future, and it doesn't matter if we lose this one." Besides, this is not the right time. ”

The real foothold is still the last four words. It's just that this kid came at the wrong time.

Izuku closed her eyes slightly, and when she opened them again, all the water in her eyes had been removed, and only indifferently remained: "I understand." ”

This was the first time that Yun Ci felt that the two of them had a disagreement. But who is to blame for this? He didn't even guess that Izumi wanted to risk giving birth to this child.

How can you be patient, how can you rest assured...... Mother's words are still in my ears. I'm afraid that even if this child is born, no matter whether he lives or dies, it will not be his turn to raise it himself.

I thought that the child would be her talisman; But now, it will only be her life-saving talisman...... In order to prevent her from hurting her body and heartbreak, he had to be cruel to himself first.

"Tomorrow I will personally bring the medicine to ......" Yun Ci looked directly at the pair of clear eyes in front of her, deliberately ignoring the undried tears on her cheeks: "These days, you are so resting, and you will come to take care of you." ”

It was almost a desert escape, and when this cruelty was still controllable, Yun Qi left.

Behind him, the wax torch turned to ashes.

*****

No matter how difficult the time is, I will have to get through this day in the end. On the ninth day of September, he got married.

From the hour onwards, the sound of cannons and music outside was endless, and it was almost conceivable how lively and grand it was. Zhiyanxuan's subordinates were gone, each of them had a job, and the courtyard was empty, except for a woman lying on the couch in the house, staring blankly at the top of the tent.

The prosperity of this day, and the desolation and loneliness in his heart, will be unforgettable for a lifetime.

The cold feeling of emptiness in her belly reminded her of the passing of a life, day and night, physical and mental torment.

In fact, I don't remember the process of sliding tires very clearly, after all, more than 20 days have passed. Yun Ci is very considerate, and even the bowl of abortion medicine brought is sweet and sour like soup, taking care of her taste very much.

However, she would rather drink a bowl of poison, perhaps in this way she would find a bitter excuse that would be difficult to swallow. Instead of being mellow and sweet, she was forced to be willing.

I have the impression that the abortion is not very painful, but the decoction prepared by Xu is too clever, and I only remember that I was drowsy and weak. When I woke up again, the lower half of my body was already bleeding, and there were only Qu Shen Doctor and Danxin beside the couch. Yun Ci is gone.

He was not without resentment in his heart, and he must have been uncomfortable too. These days, Yun Ci comes to visit every day, and every time he stays in front of his bed for half an hour, but no one will say a word to each other.

The sound of silk and bamboo outside was a little louder, mixed with deafening firecrackers, and the cheers were louder and louder. In contrast, the interior of Izumi's house was dim and unlit, so that she could see the outside more clearly.

As far as the eye can see, it is red, and even the branches of the trees are tied with red silk, which makes the whole night red...... It was like the blood of her abortion that day.

Thinking and watching, Izuku suddenly felt a feeling of tightness in her chest, so she struggled to sit up and looked down to find her embroidered shoes. At this time, I heard the door "creak" and was pushed open, followed by another exclamation:

"Out of Xiu! How can you go down to the ground! Danxin hurriedly put the basin in her hand on the shelf, and hurried to stop her from getting out of bed.

"It's okay, after lying down for more than 20 days, it's time to get out of bed and leave." Out of Xiu smiled, and his eyes fell on the overwhelming red outside the window: "Everyone else went to see this rare lively scene, but you are the only one who takes care of me here." ”

It's okay not to say this, but as soon as I say it, the straight teaching's eyes are red. She couldn't help but sniff for a moment, and then forced herself to laugh and said: "What's so beautiful, and you can't see anything in the crowd, it's better to be comfortable here." ”

Hearing this, Xiu smiled, leaned back on the couch, and did not insist on getting out of bed again.

looked at the bloodless face in front of him, and felt uncomfortable. Out of Xiu was originally a melon seed face with a pointed chin, but at the moment it was not as thin as a palm, and the snow muscles that used to be white and red are now as white as paper.

"Don't blame the master," unconsciously, blurted out lightly, "The master is not close to women in his life, but he is good to you...... This child is gone, and his heart is more bitter than anyone else. ”

Izuku still smiled: "I understand." ”

"You don't understand...... there was already some crying in his light words: "During the day, the master came to visit you and went back, but you don't know...... Every night, Bamboo Shadow would push him over...... Sometimes the master stays outside for most of the night, only staring at your door, and that look, that look is simply ......."

At this point, I can't continue to speak, only crying.

The two parties were silent, holding everything in their hearts. But Bamboo Shadow and Danxin watched it day by day, and they really couldn't say how uncomfortable it was.

Hearing this, Izumi still had no expression on her face, but reached out to wipe away her tears for Dan Xin: "I didn't cry, why are you crying?" Yan Yu turned over and lay down gently: "I'm a little tired, take a nap." ”

"You sleep." Sitting in front of the couch without moving, he watched Izuku slowly close his eyes. The two of them sat and lay down, and I don't know how long it took, until Izumi's breathing was even and steady, and he sighed inaudibly, got up, blew out the candle, and walked out of the house.

The door opened and closed again, and the sound was so discreet. The woman on the couch opened her eyes at this time, and she was cool and did not see any tiredness and sleepiness.

Izumi opened her eyes in a daze, and the sound of silk and bamboo in her ears gradually became more and more vigorous to remind her that the wedding ceremony had begun. Getting up and putting on her embroidered shoes, she wanted to find a more remote place where she could not hear the firecrackers, the noise of the guests, and the ...... Laughter.

It's September, it's night, and there's a hint of coolness outside the house. Out of Xiu tightened the clothes on her body, and walked out of Zhiyanxuan with light steps, not knowing where to go. There was only one consciousness in her mind - far away from the bustling place.

Walking aimlessly, until the surroundings had gradually become quiet, and there was no bound red silk to be seen on the branches, she seemed to calm down a little.

The evening breeze blew the scent of flowers into the nose, with a hint of wine and a low sigh.

Out of Xiu raised his eyes to look into the distance, but under the yellowing moonlight, a man in a purple brocade robe was leaning on the bluestone bench arbitrarily, tilting his head and gulping wine. That posture is indescribably romantic and ...... Lonely.