Every day people are walking towards an unknown road, which is both smooth and muddy; There are both beautiful scenery and traps, but no matter what awaits us in front of us, we can only move forward, we can't turn back, we can't turn back, we can't turn back!

When I got home, there was a torrential rain in Shanghai, which soaked the soil in the flower pots in the courtyard, and after the heavy rain, through the window, I saw a butterfly struggling desperately in the mud.

When it was about to give up, it repeatedly chose to be strong, struggled, and finally left the quagmire, waving its wings still with mud spots and flying in the sun...

After the rain passed, I took a small shovel and dug a pit at the back of my house, buried Wangcai, and erected a monument for it!

I brought Wangcai's favorite meat and bones and sat with him all morning.

My sister left Shanghai and went to Beipiao, occasionally calling my dad, no one knows how she is doing there, but people, you always have to go through the ups and downs to taste the taste of the world and find your own track.

And I,Cancel the live broadcast account,And my dad gets up early every day to make a small shop,Sometimes I sit on my dad's battery car and think it's funny,His battery car is a New York trading tycoon who has carried a boom,If my dad knew that the dog is such a powerful and ruthless character,I must have pegged him to do something big!

When the dog was separated from me, he put a bank card in my bag, and I didn't find out until a month after I returned to China, I went to the ATM at the door to check the balance, and I was a little dizzy when I looked at the zeros! Is he ready to buy me out for the rest of my life?

……

It wasn't long before my life was back on track.

The shadow of the dog still appears in my memory from time to time, as if he was sitting at the cash register, the sun outside the door shone on his short brown hair, handsome and handsome, sleeping at night, a turn over always felt that he could still get into his arms, but suddenly fell out of bed, came back late at night, still habitually looking at the phone, as if always thinking that the dog would come to pick me up.

His bits and pieces have long been integrated into my life, into my bone marrow, but like a bubble, I can't find a trace of his coming, sometimes, I wonder if all this is just a dream, I am not even sure if there is really such a person in the world, or if it is a perfect male god who fantasized when I was most helpless and desperate.

Isn't it always like this on TV? When a person is in a desperate situation, he often refines and hallucinates.

Later, I would always ask my dad if there was a dog who had lived in our house for a while, and my dad would answer me: "Yes, didn't he stay in Hollywood to film after going to the United States with you?" ”

Me: "......"

Later, I often went to Tang Wan, although she was very busy, and she had to take care of her children and work, I would still ask her, "Have you ever seen me with the dog?" He's a half-race dude? ”

I tried to prove to everyone that he was not my imagination, that he was not just living in my head, but that he was a real person!

Until one day, when I asked Tang Wan miserably, Li Gongzi was very impatient next to him and knocked on the computer for a while and threw the notebook on me.

“Alston· Leander, born in Missouri, USA, is a well-known currency speculator and professional manager in the United States, when he was 20 years old, he led speculative funds in the financial market to make waves, overturned the river and the sea, and raised a large amount of money in the United States to stop a certain government. become famous. ”

I looked at the picture of my suit on my computer, it was indeed my dog, I pulled out my phone and took a picture of it, it seemed to be the only connection between me and Auston.

It wasn't until soon after I found out I was pregnant!

I told Tang Wan about this, she was still attending an event, and she came to my house in a long dress, and said to me when she entered the door: "Su Fengwei!" No way! You're not going to give birth, are you? ”

I smiled at her, and she scolded: "You are really crazy enough, it is not difficult for you to find a man to marry now, what will you do in the future with a child, in case he doesn't come back, I ask you, what should you do alone?" ”

I touched my stomach and lowered my head and said, "Then you can't let me beat him off, can you?" This is Auston Leander's child, he could be a genius! I can't let such an influential person disappear from this world because of the happiness of the second half of my life! ”

I raised my head and took Tang Wan's hand: "My life is muddy, and I always have to do something to contribute to society!" ”

Tang Wan looked at me with a smile and couldn't say a word, I pulled the corners of my mouth: "Moreover, I hooked up with the dog." ”

"Hooked?" Tang Wan looked at me puzzled.

Yes, I hooked up with him, and in that sea of lavender, I promised to love him well, and I will keep my promise!

No one stopped my decision, in the Chinese environment, unmarried children always have to bear more pressure, there is inevitably gossip, and strange eyes in the hutongs, but I am only immersed in my own expectations, every day is a new day, as if every night before going to bed I will tell the baby, maybe your father will suddenly appear at the door tomorrow and reunite with us!

So, every morning I wake up full of excitement and anticipation, so that the days are also fulfilling, and I use my camera to record the growth of my belly day by day.

It wasn't until I gave birth to him more than half a year later, because I had to get a household registration, so I had to take my surname, but I always felt that the name had to be left to the dog to come back and take it, and I didn't know what to call him temporarily, so when I went to report the household registration, I had a "dog egg, Su dog egg." ”

At that time, the staff all looked at me with high-energy eyes, and I was embarrassed to look at me.

When I got home, my dad excitedly asked me what my name was, because he had already taken more than a dozen names, so he wanted me to use him, but when I heard that it was called Su Goudan, my dad almost didn't pick it up in one breath.

Anyway, every time I go out with Su Goudan, whether it is at the door of the house or someone outside asks the child's name, after I say it, there is a silence...

But I gradually liked this name, because I can always carry the shadow of his father, the more the dog grows more and more like a baby in his arms, unlike my own one, because it is not like me at all, brown pupils, long eyelashes, and a towering nose bridge, in Tang Wan's words: "Su Fengwei, you will definitely not be able to marry in this life!" ”

I asked her why, and she said: "The child looks like a Chinese, who can you marry in the future and raise it as your own child, you give birth to a foreigner, how can you call people happy to be fathers?" ”

It's embarrassing... But I didn't want to make the dog recognize the thief as his father!

I still remember that I used to take Tang Wan's two babies with the dog, and we wanted to shit in just a few days, and we couldn't have children after all kinds of complaints, but when the dog was born, every time I looked at his fleshy and tender little appearance, my heart was happy, and I also liked to tease his long eyelashes while he was asleep, which was the same as his father's, as if he had applied eyelash growth liquid.

It's not very difficult to take the dog, if I have something to do, I'll throw him to Aunt Thirteen, although Aunt Thirteen is more unreliable, but she is very concerned about her little grandson, but I often quarrel with her!

For example, she always buys famous brands for her two-month-old grandson, and I have said this several times, which will make him have vanity and wrong views! The thirteenth aunt said that she wanted three views, she was rich and capricious! For this, we argued for half an hour, and in the end it was my dad who came up to persuade us to fight!

In this way, a year has passed in a flash, and during that time I often sit at the door of the house with the puppy egg, looking at it, imagining that the dog is like a warrior returning triumphantly, facing the sunset towards us, and holding our mother and son into his arms, but the dog is half a year old, and we have never waited for him.

One day, I went to get vaccinated with my dog's eggs, and before I got home, I heard Aunt Wang next door say, "I just saw a foreigner in your house!" ”

My brain exploded, and the long-suppressed throbbing instantly surged, I rushed into the house with the dog's egg, my hanging heart shook a few times when I saw the back, he turned around, and my eyes moistened: "Dilanke!" ”

He looked at the dog in my arms with wide eyes: "This? ”

"Auston's son!"

Dillank reached out and I handed him the ball, and he smiled and touched his little face, reaching out and hugging me.

Later, Dillanque stayed at my house for lunch, and after the meal I sat in the courtyard with Dillan, and I asked him if he had seen Auston again, and Dillanque shook his head, saying that he had been to New York before coming, and that he had left for London three months ago and had not returned.

It's the only news I've heard about Auston in over a year, and I'm relieved that as long as it's not bad news, it's good news for me!

I asked DeRanke what his plans were, and he pulled out the license plate I brought him from the backpack, and we both laughed.

Dilanke said: "After she left, I never married, I lived all my life, I only had her in my heart, she was just like this oriental country, mysterious, sexy, charming..."

"Stop, stop! How do I feel that the more you talk about it, the more dirty it gets! When you are old, can you be serious! ”

DiRank's smile meaningfully at me, I rolled my eyes, "Got it!" ”

I went into the house and called Aunt Thirteen, asking her to ask her at two o'clock in the afternoon at the tea house where we first met, and then threw the dog eggs to my dad, and my dad mysteriously came over and asked me what I was doing? I said to be a matchmaker!

Di Ranke and I arrived at half past one, Di Ranke drank three glasses of water in a row, looking very nervous, I almost laughed and smoked, this love veteran can be afraid of being like this, probably only when it is against the thirteenth aunt!

Time passed minute by minute, and after I made a fruit bowl, I finally saw Aunt Thirteen's Mercedes-Benz stopped downstairs!

I looked at Dillanke playfully: "Guess what Aunt Thirteen's reaction is when she sees you?" We bet on ten horses! ”