It was a secret that had never been confided in anyone, an experience that she didn't want to mention, and a pain in Zhang Yan's heart.

It was when Zhang Yan was in her first year of junior high school, one day her cousin drove her out to play, but she didn't expect to come to a remote courtyard, saying that she was looking for a friend to have something to do, and asked her to wait outside. After a while, before the cousin came out, Zhang Yan called at the door for a long time, but there was no response, so she pushed the door in. Unexpectedly, as soon as she walked in, she was hugged tightly from behind, and she smelled a strange breath, a dangerous breath. A pair of large, powerful palms pressed against her chest, and she kept struggling, shouting, "Cousin! Cousin! “

The man behind her said to her, "Stop screaming! Your brother gave you to me! He took me a lot of money! “

Zhang Yan was stunned, she heard the sound of a car engine coming from the door, and shouted desperately: "Cousin! Save me! Cousin! She cried for a long, long time, her voice echoing through the empty courtyard, and there was no response. There was no sound at the door. She was completely disappointed, as if she had fallen into an ice cave.

The man had already begun to pull her clothes, she began to panic, struggling hard, in the panic, she had a flash of inspiration, her right foot stomped the man's right foot, the man was in pain instantly, and as soon as his hand was released, Zhang Yan broke free of the restraints and rushed towards the door. The man who reacted followed closely and chased all the way. Running to a wood, Zhang Yan found cover, and carefully retreated while observing the man's movements. Suddenly, a pair of hands grabbed her behind her, Zhang Yan was startled, turned around and swung her fist, and found that the person who came turned out to be her cousin, and her hand stopped in mid-air and was at a loss for a while. The cousin made a silent gesture and motioned for Zhang Yan not to speak.

"Come with me, don't talk." The cousin whispered to Zhang Yan that Zhang Yan wanted to break away from her cousin's hand, but when she saw the figure of the man not far away, she thought about it and followed her cousin carefully.

The cousin pulled Zhang Yan through the woods to the side of the road, where his car was parked.

"Get in the car, let's go!" The cousin opened the car door and motioned for Zhang Yan to go up.

"I don't! Who knows if you're going to sell me again! Zhang Yan looked at him angrily.

"If I really want to hurt you, will I come back and save you? Don't get in the car yet! The cousin pulled Zhang Yan into the car.

"You didn't hurt me, why did you sell me?" Zhang Yan carried her cousin and was reluctant to get into the car.

"I'll tell you later, you get in the car first!" The cousin increased his strength to pull Zhang Yan.

"I'm not on!" Zhang Yan struggled to break free of her cousin's hand.

"Good! It's up to you to get up, and when that person comes, don't blame me for not saving you! Saying that, my cousin put down Zhang Yan and got into the car.

Zhang Yan thought of the terrifying picture just now, and still twisted and got into the car.

"Xiaoyan, brother really doesn't want to hurt you, it's just that my brother has been relatively tight recently, so he has a crooked thought, and he can only wronged you. But isn't my brother coming back to save you! It shouldn't be okay to look at you, my brother also got the money, so that's it! While driving, the cousin said to Zhang Yan flatteringly.

"Humph! What did you take me for? I must sue you! Zhang Yan glared at him angrily.

The cousin's face changed instantly: "Okay! What a boldness! I'll tell you today, if you dare to say it, I'll tell your parents that you are prostituting yourself, and I'll call the person just now to testify, so that you can't argue. If you talk to your parents, when the time comes, the two families will start to fight, and your family will not be able to take advantage of it, and don't think about it! “

The simple Zhang Yan was very scared, she didn't dare to tell anyone, she was afraid that her parents would be hurt because of this matter, she had only one choice, that is, she swallowed her anger.

When she got home, Zhang Yan lived as usual, pretending that nothing had happened, she was afraid that her parents would see that something was wrong, so she tried her best to hide.

However, she did not know that an even greater disaster awaited her!!!!

That night, because her parents were both out to work, she took some luggage and prepared to go to her grandmother's house for a few days.

In the sky, the moon hid in the clouds for a while, and then showed half of its head, like a shy girl. With the faint light of the flashlight, Zhang Yan walked in the direction of her grandmother's house.

Grandma's house is very close to Zhang Yan's house, but there is a dense bamboo forest on the way, and there is no family around, and the black hole is very terrifying at night. When passing by, she quickened her pace, but unexpectedly, a man suddenly jumped out of the forest and blocked her way: "Little girl, look where you are running this time!"

"Ah!!!h Zhang Yan screamed in fright, the flashlight in her hand fell to the ground and lost its light, and her luggage was scattered all over the ground. She turned and ran away, and the man quickly lunged at her, covering her mouth with one hand and locking her hands behind her with the other, crushing her to the ground. Zhang Yan struggled hard, but the man was very strong, and she was difficult to resist.

"! Lao Tzu gave the money, you have to be by Lao Tzu! Out of nowhere, the man took out a towel and stuffed it into Zhang Yan's mouth, violently stripped her naked, and ripped off her pants.........

Zhang Yan couldn't shout when she wanted to, her body was tightly pressed to the ground and she was powerless to resist, her tears were like springs, and tears wet her hair. Just as the man was about to break through her last line of defense, footsteps and a bright light could be heard in the distance.

"Fuck it! This kind of time! The man lifted his pants and fled into the depths of the bamboo forest.

"Yan'er, is that you?" The footsteps were getting closer and closer, and my grandfather's voice was heard.

Zhang Yan trembled and got dressed, wiped her tears with her hands, picked up the flashlight and luggage on the ground, and stood up.

"Yan'er, what's wrong with you? What's wrong with your hair? Grandpa's flashlight shone on Zhang Yan.

"I didn't ...... It's nothing" Zhang Yan didn't dare to look at her grandfather.

"Didn't you bring a flashlight? Why is your voice still hoarse? “

"That's it......... I just fell and the flashlight broke, and it hurt so much that I cried for a while! Zhang Yan desperately held back the tears that were about to burst out of her eyes, she didn't want to be seen by her grandfather.

"You kid, why are you crying after such a big wrestling? Be careful when walking in the future. Grandpa's concerned voice made Zhang Yan's nose sour.

Every night after that, she had nightmares, and she no longer dared to walk at night, and every day she lived in fear, afraid that the man would appear again. She didn't confide in anyone, and she was alone and silently endured all the pain and fear. Thankfully, the man didn't reappear.

For Zhang Yan, the person she hates the most is her cousin, all her pain comes from her cousin, she once thought about killing her cousin and then committing suicide herself, but she can't do it because she is weak by nature, she will think a lot, she is afraid that her family will be hurt and hit, afraid that her family will suffer because of her, and after all, she buried this secret in the deepest part of her heart.

But the damage to her was indelible, and I don't know who had circulated Zhang Yan's rumors on campus that she slept with her cousin, she didn't explain, just silently endured the strange eyes and cynicism of others. Later, Tong Jie said the word "dirty" to her, which made her doubly painful. It was the darkest day of her life, and although she didn't have any nightmares in the past few years at work, she was still scared of the intimate touch of the opposite sex.

Because of her mother's urging, she worked hard to overcome her mental obstacles, go on a blind date, and contact with the opposite sex, but when this happened today, she fell into the abyss of pain again and couldn't extricate herself!