Fear.

Real fear......

Thin, fat, young, beautiful, ugly, who the fuck has ever died?!

I looked up at the sky, the cloudy sky seemed to be a little lower, I don't want to take those roads, I don't want to go wide and narrow, I just want to go home, to find Zhuo Jing, I used to be really tired of the world, I feel that life is too difficult, but when it comes to this day, I feel that I have not dealt with a lot of things, I can't just go!

I want to cry, but my eyes are dry except for the water that drains out, my eyes don't seem to be used to cry anymore, but every cell in my body is helping me cry, and I finally know why some things bleed and dripble when I am emotional, and they didn't mean to!

Turning around, I wanted to find another way to go, in other words, I was trying to find a way to the sun, but as soon as I turned back, the whole person was directly covered, and the place behind me that should have been the river became a smoky intersection, I felt that my heartbeat should be speeding up at the moment, but I touched my chest, and I couldn't touch anything except a piece of coldness.

At that moment, I suddenly realized that I was dead, and now I am no longer an onmyoji, but a poor worm who was caught by Feng Xia......

The water on my body was dripping to the ground, I thought I should have a sour nose, but I didn't have any previous reaction at all, only the water that flowed down my body endlessly, and, the double iron shoes like a thousand catties, biting my lip, I looked around, there were roads everywhere, as if I was invisibly forcing you to make a choice, you, which one to take?

My feet were very heavy, very heavy, gritting my teeth, I trembled and walked towards the widest one, I don't know how my grandfather is, is he okay, but after thinking about it, if my grandfather also has an accident in this river, will I be able to see him, I don't see him, does it mean that he is fine?

The heart can be regarded as letting go, I walked along the faint mist like the avenue, I have also shown people white things before, so the procedure after the person leaves is also the head of the white life is the way, you can't wear leather shoes, you have to wear cloth shoes, you can't wear collar clothes, you have to wear open plackets, but how can I occupy it all when I die!

The shirt began to strangle my neck a little, I was uncomfortable and kept loosening it with my hands, but to no avail, even if I took off all the shirts, I was still panicked, and it was very cold, I knew that if I wanted not to be cold, I could only warm up if I waited for my family to burn me paper and send me some cold clothes or something, thinking of this, the water on my body began to drip and tick out, which made me particularly unhappy, you fucking can't make me normal!

The more I walked, the more sad I became, and I couldn't walk, so almost all of them had to rest for a while after walking a few steps, and I couldn't imagine that I, Ma Jiaolong, as an onmyoji who dispelled evil, would one day become an evil thing, if I wanted to go home and see it in the future, I would have to be jealous, otherwise, it would be too easy to be destroyed.

But after thinking about it, I can't go back, I'm not a human being now, and when I go back, I will scare my family, my grandfather, and even make Zhuo Jing sick or something...... Thinking of this, I suddenly didn't know how to express my emotions, so I just stood there, on the empty and boundless road, like a man-made fountain, and I couldn't do anything but keep spraying water from my clothes.

I seem to want to understand why the water seeps on my grandmother's tombstone, and why the incense is fried, the so-called broken family is dead, that is, I will die, but who can tell me, why am I still so sober when I die, what should I do, am I going to go to the land for the record, but where is the land lord, normal people are guided by yin after death, even if they don't guide themselves, they will find their way like the instinct to eat when they are hungry, but I seem to be completely confused, my mind is messy, and I can't have any clue, Based on this, I should not have died, so no one cares about me, according to what I said when I was alive, I died in vain!

O God! Am I the most aggrieved!

If you go on like this, after the ghost gate, there will really be no turning back, I can't imagine that I always take detours when I am alive, but I didn't expect to die and take a shortcut, directly across the land temple and set foot on Huangquan Road, not even a chance to avenge me, and there is no conscience in the industry!

I remember that I didn't know where I had read a passage before, which was written on Huangquan Road, saying that I was looking up, I couldn't see the sun, moon and stars, looking down, I couldn't see the dust of the land, looking forward, I couldn't see Yangguan Road, looking back, I couldn't see the neighborhood, I laughed at it at that time, but now I looked at it all over the front and back, and the road under my feet was not that kind of plate oil pavement, I can't describe what the material is, in short, it's very smooth, and the sky is indeed gray and foggy. At this moment, I really want to see an acquaintance, even if everyone encourages each other to be brave.

At the beginning, I stood alone on the avenue where I didn't go to the village and didn't look for a store, but after a while, I could see people coming one after another, and there were a lot of them, men and women, old and young, and old people wearing boards as if they were going out to be guests, this kind of one should be at the end of his life, change his clothes and prepare to walk properly, so he walked up with full posture and full of energy.

There are also people who are skinny in hospital gowns and walk like they are panting, and there are children who look ignorant and have to walk forward as if they know where to go, of course, there are also people like me who are almost embarrassed, their clothes are ragged and their faces are full of blood, and after a while, people are walking more and more, and it is strange to say, this' But there is no sense of congestion, I feel that this road is as wide as you can imagine, and no one can touch anyone, but you can't see the facial features on everyone's face if you look closely, you can distinguish the expression and their joy and anger, but it seems to be a little short-sighted, and you can't see the double eyelids or something.

I stood there in a daze, feeling every' People', no matter how old or young, all know the direction, but only I, particularly confused, at that moment, I suddenly felt that I was not a competent onmyoji, because I can put the head of the following is the Tao, but really come down by myself, it is not an ordinary circle, I have never walked through the yin, so to be honest, I am not clear about what is below, my feeling can not be said, as if frightened with a trace of curiosity, looking back, the intersection when I came has long been gone, and there are all people behind me, I don't know where to go, and I don't want to go to the ghost gate, I'm afraid, unspeakable fear。