"Honeyworm, I know that you still have some resentment towards Qingming in front of Tamamo. In fact...... Both Qingming and the emperor were forced to do so. ”

"What do you mean by that?"

Yuan Boya contemplated the lake and pondered for a long time.

"When the emperor brought Tamamo back, he already knew the truth. He took her into the palace, as a man, he really longed to stay with the woman he loved, so he was so reckless, and even wanted to give her a name. But after all, he is the emperor, the center of power, and the symbol of Yamato, and his every move is watched by the world. If he just took her into the palace and wronged her namelessly, I'm afraid no one would know who Yuzao was in front of him until now......"

"So, the emperor really loves her."

I bowed my head sadly, thinking of Tamamo's disheartened heart before he died, could she know the emperor's intentions?

"If you love her, why did you kill them all later?"

I looked up and asked, tears in my eyes.

"Honey worm, you have always been well informed, and you will not be unintelligible. If Tamamo was just silent, after the truth was exposed, the emperor would definitely protect her even if he abolished the concubine. The fault is that she stole the emperor's soul, and the world knows that this has directly endangered Yamato's safety, and the emperor has to reluctantly cut his love. ”

"Then why did Harumi stand on the emperor's side and hide the truth?"

"You don't get it."

Yuan Boya didn't answer, looked at me and waited for me to calm down and figure it out for myself.

Taking a deep breath, tears fell and I finally spoke.

"The emperor is the foundation of Yamato's existence, and if the truth is revealed, the emperor's credibility will be greatly lost, the people's will be discouraged, and Yamato will cease to exist. The emperor has an unshirkable historical responsibility, and he will take on Tamamo Mae. In the same way, Harumi is not to protect the emperor, he is to protect the entire nation and keep the foundation of Yamato. ”

"Yes, honey worm, this is also the first time Qingming has violated his conscience, you have to understand him."

"Neither the emperor nor Tamamomae, nor even Harumi can escape the burden of history. In this intricate detail, no one wants to bear anyone, no one has to make sacrifices. Maybe people will never be able to compete with history. ”

"Honey Worm ......"

Yuan Boya's eyes darkened, turning to worry.

"It's okay, I'm fine."

I wiped away my tears and continued.

"Therefore, we must follow the trend of history and do our best to reduce human suffering."

"How can you have such insight?"

"That's what I read from the history books."

Smiling, I turned to Yuan Boya and returned to my usual relaxed and cheerful attitude.

"You know, I've always understood Qingming. It's just that at that time, for the sake of anger, I suppressed it. ”

"Because of me?"

"Hmm."

I nodded amusedly.

"Huh"

Yuan Boya couldn't help laughing.

"I didn't expect the honey worm to be so stingy and jealous."

I was embarrassed to lower my head and smile, and I cleared myself up.

Thankfully, my fault hasn't been a catastrophe yet. Fortunately, Qingming woke up, otherwise...... The consequences are unimaginable! At that time, my subconscious always understood Qingming's intentions, but I just willfully suppressed them, blamed Qingming all the time, and pushed everything he shouldn't have borne to him, everything was his fault. Probably out of jealousy of Yuan Boya, he hated him angrily.

Perhaps, only in front of the person you like will be so willful, eager to be tolerated and spoiled.

I'm ashamed that I'm jealous of my best friend......

What a shame.

I buried my head deeply, Yuan Boya didn't say anything more, and there was silence all around.

Half-ringing, Yuan Boya stared at the water surface and said slowly:

"Actually, Qingming has always been lonely. You also know his mother, Kudzu...... Because of that incident, Qingming has not been accepted by the world. Even if he did so much for everyone, it was impossible for people to truly regard him as a friend from the bottom of their hearts. Even Fujiwara Michicho couldn't fully communicate with him. ”

"I know that Qingming has always been too lonely."

Under the moonlight, I saw Yuan Boya's face, with a clear sadness and sigh:

"So, sometimes I'm glad I got to know Harumi and make him less lonely. Let him have someone to talk to, drink wine, and dispel his sorrows. Otherwise, what would he do alone? I get tired of talking to Shikijin every day, and those who ask for him are also so utilitarian. But you're different...... honey worm."

Yuan Boya turned to me, a light of hope in his eyes.

I couldn't hold my breath, my heart was warm, and there was a vague happiness and touch.

Yuan Boya said seriously: "You have brought joy and happiness to Qingming, and as a confidant, I am also ashamed of myself in this regard." ”

"Really?"

Tears glistened in my eyes, and a throbbing beat passed through the tip of my heart.

I brought joy and happiness to Qingming?

Qingming really because I ...... Feeling happy?

"Well, there's nothing wrong with that, trust me."

Yuan Boya affirmed.

Great, it's not going to be a dream today, is it?

"So," Yuan Boya's gaze turned to a faint worry, "you and I are both the most important and caring people in Qingming. If you like it, go after it. ”

"Is that okay?"

"But promise me not to get hurt in Harumi, okay? It's hard to open Qingming's heart, once you walk in, don't quit, don't hesitate, don't let him be hurt in any way. I don't want him to get hurt any more. ”

Yuan Boya's eyes were very serious, and he looked at me very sincerely.

"Yes! I promise...... I sure! ”

I threw up my hands in excitement and swore, returning the same earnest promise. Looking directly into Yuan Boya's eyes, he let him see my seriousness and sincerity as well.

"I don't know what the end of Harumi and I will be, but I have experienced so many things in the world with him, whether it is Taisei Jiro and Rain Hime, who have lovers and eventually become married, or the emperor and Tamamo who can't escape their fate, they have touched me a lot. No matter what happens, I will be brave enough to pursue my own happiness. Maybe people can't get rid of the shackles of history, but ...... I want to be with Harumi! I will always guard him and will not let him ...... Take any damage! ”

"Well, honey worm, I believe in you!"

Yuan Boya also seems to be inspired by me.

Under the moonlit night, we high-fived and cheered.

I looked up at the moonlight, and in history Harumaki Abe finally married to Kamo Sara. So, where would I be? The round moon didn't tell me the answer, and it hung in the sky as if it was a mess.

But no matter what happens, it's good to cherish the moment. I was in Heiankyo a thousand years ago, and I was a thousand years ago with him, by his side, with him. It doesn't matter what happens in the future, because ...... I'll face it with him.

I'm going to be brave enough to hold on to my happiness!