Before I started, I assumed that it was difficult and difficult, made a careful plan for myself, anticipated the difficulties of each step, and even thought of the solutions to the difficulties, and then threw myself into it and prepared to do it. However, when it comes time to actually implement it, you suddenly find that everything is unexpectedly smooth, and you have accumulated all the strength but nowhere to start. All the difficulties are gone, all the assumptions are not there, everything is going well in the best situation you want. This kind of feeling makes people feel bottomless.

I'm like that now, and in terms of emotional matters, I came across the Empty City. Like when I was a girl, I had a crush on someone for a long time, and then I mustered all the courage in my life to run to confess, and that person said I have always liked you. If it's in girlhood, I believe it. Now, I don't believe it.

Hua Yuanshu's attitude towards me is like this, I tried to get close to him, but as soon as I got close, he expressed strong love for me, and it was still not adulterated.

After he left my office, I struggled with the barrel of my pen for a long time.

For the first time in my life, something went so smoothly that I couldn't do it. I have the delusion that this is fake. At the same time, I know that it is true.

His initiative scared me off, and I was ready to keep the status quo for two or three weeks and see how it went. My relationship with Hua Yuanshu was fixed by me at this distance.

A week passed quickly, and he was still the same as me. He can no longer see those violent temperaments in him, and he is warm every day. Considerate dinners, sometimes with some friends in his own circle. From what I felt, he was really bringing me into his social circle.

During the meal, those people also made some jokes, saying that Hua Shao had met true love this time. At this time, he looked at me with a slight smile, neither denying nor admitting it. In our relationship of mutual temptation, the only discordant factor is Cheng Mo. His ghost will appear at any time, and at first I feel awkward, but then I feel used to it.

It was another Friday, I went to eat Western food with Hua Yuanshu, steak and red wine, and ate well to repay him for the gentleman who sent me to the door, pulled me into his arms and kissed me on the cheek, and politely said goodbye good night. I waved my hand at him and signaled that I was going upstairs. He started the car and turned around to leave.

As soon as I turned around, I saw Cheng Mo standing next to the green plants in front of my house, looking at me all the time.

I'm used to have a look of surprise when he's so elusive, but now it's gone, I'm used to it. I walked up to him in a few steps and said to him with a smile: "Cheng Shao, how long have you been watching here?" ”

His face did not change and his heart did not beat, and he said indifferently: "I feel that your acting skills have improved in the past few days, and it is really not easy to do this in the face of the person I have always hated in my heart." ”

I didn't want to continue arguing with him, so I bypassed him and said: "My acting skills have always been online, but it just depends on the person standing opposite, whether it is worth my performance." ”

When I staggered past him, he said in a low voice: "Tomorrow Saturday, I think you have forgotten a very important thing, Shen - the end - to get engaged - married." ”

In the last sentence, he paused word by word.

I thought I could walk over like Hua Yuanshu without care, but his words made me involuntarily stop and look back at him.

He smiled: "It seems that you really forgot, self-hypnosis is good." ”

"Thanks for the reminder, I remember." My voice froze.

When I entered the living room, I said a few words to Guan Yunzhu absentmindedly, and I hurried upstairs.

I closed the door of my room and locked it, making sure that Cheng Mo would not come in suddenly, and I breathed a sigh of relief.

Shen Mo wants to get engaged. I knew about this for a long time, but there was no accurate news all along, I thought that this news would be postponed indefinitely, but I didn't expect it to come unexpectedly, and after I completely ignored it, it came so accurately.

Sitting on the bed, tears flowed down my face.

This is my weakness, my weakness in the face of Shen Mo.

My relationship with Hua Yuanshu did not go any further, I thought that I had lost my sense of proportion because of the easy gains, but now I look at it, no. I don't want to go further with Hua Yuanshu because I still have illusions about Shen Mo in my heart. After knowing the news from Cheng Mo's mouth just now, the only illusion left in my heart is gone, I can't tell whether I am down-to-earth or sad, and I don't want to move now.

Cheng Mo didn't bother me all night, and by the time I cleaned up my emotions and stopped crying, it was already half past twelve at night.

I thought I would be sad for a long time, but after washing my face and looking at the time, only an hour and a half had passed. I smiled silently to myself, and then lay down on the bed and slept.

Early the next morning, I went downstairs refreshed. I didn't expect Cheng Mo to get up, and when I turned the corner of the stairs, I saw that he had been looking at my eyes.

"Have you decided if you want to go?" He asked.

I knew what he was asking, shook my head and said, "If you don't go, if you lose, you lose, and there is no need to look at the smug face of the person who won." ”

I walked over to the table, grabbed a glass of water, and drank it.

Cheng Mo didn't speak for a while, I thought he was leaving, but when I put down the cup, I turned around and saw that he had walked behind me, because the distance was so close, I almost hit his nose, which startled me.

"Really not going?" He confirmed repeatedly.

"No, no." I shook my head firmly.

"I think if you really let go and don't care, you should go, let him see, you live well and well without him, at least better than when you were with him." Cheng Mo said.

He is a character who is afraid that the world will not be chaotic, I didn't listen, shook my head and ignored him.

"It seems that you haven't really let go of your heart, otherwise how would you be afraid to see him." Cheng Mo did not relent.

I originally wanted to open it, but with an attitude of not being out of sight and out of mind, I wanted to ignore the past. I thought about it last night, I'll go, Shen Mo is embarrassed, I'm also embarrassed, it's best if I don't go. What's more, Shen Mo didn't send me an invitation, which means that he doesn't want me to go. Why should I bother to block others after a breakup. People have to be self-aware, so I don't go.

"According to me, you better go, go to let Shen Mo know that you treat him as a fart." Cheng Mo is still talking.

I was so big by him that I felt a voice ringing in my ears, and I turned back to him and yelled: "I said I wouldn't go, why do you have to let me go?" What if I can't control myself? Is it me who is disgraced, or is he disgraced? Or the two of them lose face together? ”

My voice was loud, and Cheng Mo was stunned.

At home, I never lost my temper, because I knew in my heart that this home was a place for me not to be presumptuous, so no matter what emotions I had, I tried to suppress them.

As soon as the word "face" came out of my mouth, I saw Guan Yunzhu and Cheng Siyan appear on the stairs in silk loungewear.

They shouldn't have heard the conversation between me and Cheng Mo before, they only heard my roar and the last sentence, thinking that Cheng Mo had provoked me, Cheng Siyan yelled directly at Cheng Mo: "Cheng Mo, what are you making trouble on Saturday morning, how can you make your sister angry like this." ”

According to Cheng Mo's previous temper, he would definitely speak out to defend himself, but today he didn't, he just moved his lips and swallowed back what he wanted to say, and then said after a while: "It's me who is wrong, can't I not provoke her in the future!" ”

"That's right, you are brother and sister, and you are an elder brother, pay more attention when you speak. Ah Zi has a good personality, you can't always bully her, right? Guan Yunzhu said.

"Got it." Cheng Mo frowned, as if he suddenly thought of something, and said, "Dad, Mom, I have something to do today, go out first, breakfast and lunch are not eaten at home." ”

"Take your sister with you." Cheng Siyan said.

"She's a girl, and today's scene is not suitable for her." Cheng Mo prevaricated casually, wearing the light gray cotton slacks and a beige crewneck T-shirt, threw the dark beige linen suit over his shoulder, pushed open the door and left.

I was visibly relieved to see him leave.

Cheng Siyan walked to the kitchen to see if her aunt had made breakfast, Guan Yunzhu came to my side and asked softly, "What's wrong?" Cheng Mo bullied you again? ”

"No, we're stumbling." I'll put it simply.

She didn't believe it, and continued to say softly: "In the future, he will bully you, and you tell me that I can't get around him." ”

I answered, chatted with her about something, and my mood slowly calmed down. At this time, my aunt also made breakfast, and I looked at the time at eight o'clock in the morning.

Wake up early, and the day is stretched out a lot.

After breakfast, Guan Yunzhu beckoned to me and said, "Come, Ah Zi, Mom has some jewelry, now you wear it just right, come with me to see if you like it." ”

I was idle, so I nodded and followed.

At this time, Yu Youran walked in from outside the door, stood not far from my mother and me with a red letter in his hand, and said, "Ah Zi's invitation." ”

Guan Yunzhu frowned and asked, "Who sent it?" ”

"People are still waiting outside." Yu said leisurely.

I'm a little surprised, who will send me an invitation now? Shen Mo? Unlikely, he would have sent it a long time ago.

"I'll see." Guan Yunzhu took it directly.

I saw that she had made the first move, and I couldn't snatch it myself, so I just stood on the sidelines, my eyes glancing over the open invitation. As soon as the invitation card was opened, I clearly saw Shen Mo's name.

"Shen Mo?" I whispered, "He sent me an invitation?" ”

I think it's incredible.

Guan Yunzhu finished reading it, handed the invitation card to me, and said with burning eyes: "Ah Zi, someone has provoked the door." ”

I took the invitation and took a look, the invitation was for Shen Mo's engagement banquet, and the person who sent the invitation was not Shen Mo, but Gu Xin. That day, I saw her in Shen Mo's yard.

"Someone came to deliver it personally? Not a courier? I couldn't help the pain in my heart and asked Yu Youran.

"No, it was sent by Gu Xin's people personally." Yu Youran said.

Guan Yunzhu looked at me seriously: "Ah Zi, do you dare to meet this person?" ”

If it's an invitation from Shen Mo, I won't go. But Gu Xin, I don't need to give her this face. She probably wanted to test what Shen Mo's reaction would be when she saw me on that occasion. When I thought of this, I couldn't help but sneer. Testing a man in this way should be the stupidest way.

"Mom, I'll go to see it, what dare I not see." I raised my eyebrows and said.

Guan Yunzhu smiled when she heard my words, stretched out her hand and touched my head: "Do you want your mother to accompany you?" ”

"No, you don't." I shook my head.

I've been with Cheng Mo for a long time, and I still hold this kind of scene.

Guan Yunzhu nodded and said, "Okay, if you have something, let you call me, wait for you to deal with it, come upstairs to find me." ”

"yes, okay." I answered.

When Yu Youran went out to invite the man in the suit in, Guan Yunzhu had already gone upstairs. I sat on the white couch in the living room and waited for him.

After the man entered the room, he first glanced left and right, then focused his eyes on me, and said in a very respectful manner: "Miss Cheng Zi, I am entrusted by someone to deliver the invitation. ”

"I saw it, it was Gu Xin who asked you to send it, she got engaged today, and now there are still three hours before the ceremony begins, so she came to deliver the invitation, isn't it a little late. What's more, others may not have time. I laughed.

Judging by the tone and expression alone, I didn't have anything out of the ordinary.

In the face of Shen Mo, I may not be a little calm, but in the face of a person who came from Gu Xinzhi, my mood fluctuates, and even if there is a fluctuation, he can't see it.

"Miss Gu Xin said that if you see the invitation, you will definitely go. My job is to deliver the invitation directly to you, so I can't leave until I see you. Now that my mission is complete, Miss Cheng Zi, goodbye. He didn't sit down, said this respectfully to me, turned and left.

Yu Youran asked me with his eyes, what should I do now, do you want to beat this kid and let him go. I shook my head at him, and when the man was about to walk to the door, I said, "You go back and tell Gu Xin, I will definitely go, but she notified me late, and I may be a little late." ”

The man paused, then looked back at me and said, "Okay, I'll tell you." ”

Watching the man leave, Yu Youran asked a little puzzled: "I really don't understand you women, since you don't want to go, why don't you just refuse?" ”

I glanced at him, "You can ask your girlfriend this question." ”

His face flushed and he stopped talking.

When I walked into Guan Yunzhu's room, she spread out several jewelry boxes on the table, each one full of turquoise bracelets, some rings, and more necklaces. At a glance, I was a little dazzled by the jewels in my eyes.

"Mom, that's a lot." I say.

"Women, there must be a lot of jewelry, and different accessories are worn on different occasions." Guan Yunzhu pulled me over, asked me to sit down and said, "I choose which one I like, I wear less now, and it's a waste to put it away." ”

I leaned over and looked at them one by one, and finally said, "These are so gorgeous, I don't think I have any occasion to wear them." ”

Guan Yunzhu smiled, picked out a set of gold bead jewelry from the box and said to me: "You should wear this set well, your white skin is suitable for wearing this color, atmospheric and expensive." ”

I glanced sideways at the mirror, it was really good, with jewelry to set off, the whole person's temperament was different.

"Today is the right occasion to wear this, you go and pick a set of dresses, the last time I wanted to hold a birthday banquet for you, you didn't agree, you ordered three sets of dresses for nothing, it was a waste." Guan Yunzhu said.

"I don't have any friends in the imperial capital, what a birthday." I'm a little embarrassed. When I talk about my birthday, my face is full of embarrassment.

After returning from the birthday banquet that Hua Yuanshu held for me, Cheng Mo helped me order the dress and began to prepare for the birthday banquet. When I found out, I immediately refused.

Hua Yuanshu prepared it, and I can accept it because I am really trying my best to get close to him. And the scale of the Cheng family's preparation is even grander, but I accept incompetence. Because I am not Cheng Zi, I can't play this role well on these major occasions, and the most important thing is that I have a ghost in my heart and deserve it.

I was relieved that the birthday party was not successful due to my firm refusal, but the dress was custom-made and was not returned.

"Dresses, jewelry, and shoes are indispensable items for women." Guan Yunzhu looked at me for a moment and said, "Let's wear that light blue dress today, the gold beads with this luster and color are the most beautiful." ”

"Okay." I answered and prepared to run upstairs to the cloakroom, ready to take off my gown.

"Let's go get it." Guan Yunzhu made a phone call to the living room, and a few minutes later, Yu Youran sent the dress over.

I thought it was too grandiose to dress up like this, and I was a little hesitant to wear it. Guan Yunzhu looked at me who was entangled in the mirror, smiled, put his hand on my shoulder and said, "Gu Xin invited you to watch the ceremony, naturally I want to compare with you on the scene, if you are simple and go like a passerby, just follow her wish." It can be regarded as proving that Shen Mo's choice is correct in front of everyone. ”

This is how people's fighting spirit is aroused, and I am no exception. After listening to what Guan Yunzhu said, he immediately changed into a dress and put on jewelry. Afterwards, I learned that the price of a string of such superb round gold beads was a small square meter house in the imperial capital, and I suddenly felt that the necklace was heavy. But that's all for later.

Today is the rhythm of two chapters in one!