When I said the words "He Shishi", my heart ached!

In the past, when Li Zhao and I were not in this kind of relationship, I often mentioned He Shishi in front of him from time to time, and I would always use He Shishi to block his heart, so as to achieve inner balance! And tease him for fun!

But later, as our relationship changed, I became more and more afraid to mention it again, I was afraid that once this layer of paper was torn, Li Zhao would tell me that he couldn't let go of He Shishi, and I was willing to pretend that I didn't know anything than to hear such a cruel answer!

But when faced with Li Zhao's bewitching eyes, I couldn't help but spit out this name that made my heart ache, and at the same time, emotions surged up all of a sudden, and tears slipped down the pillow: "Back then, after she came back, everything changed, I was crazy with jealousy, and asked Little Tail to help me check her, and later learned that she lived in your house, I followed you, saw you go to her, and even accompanied her to the hospital, Li Zhao, do you know how I felt at that time?" It's like my world is falling apart!

But I have Xiao Gesang in my belly, Tang Jia is like that, I don't dare to mess with you, I don't dare to let you choose between me and He Shishi, I'm afraid that you will be in case, in case you dislike me, you think I am fierce, not gentle, not cute, disobedient, you choose her, what should I do!

Don't look at what I dragged at that time, in fact, I was very afraid, I was afraid that you would leave me and Xiao Gesang, I always thought that as long as I didn't pierce this layer of paper, at least I could maintain the harmony on the surface.

But you know me, I can't change my stinky temper, so I'm angry with you every day

But you don't know how sad I feel in my heart, every time I see you hurt, I will secretly hide and cry!

Later, I was driven crazy, I was really going crazy, I had no choice, I wanted He Shishi to disappear, but I didn't know what to do, so at that time I spread rumors that she was bad, and her job was lost because I lost it.

She knew that she saw me downstairs in the company that time, she should know that I made it bad, I was afraid for several days, I was afraid that she would tell you, afraid that you would be angry with me and say that I was messing around!

But you haven't moved, and you know I'm even more scared later!

I'm afraid of my own evil, and I'm even more afraid of her goodness!

Li Zhao, I'm not good anywhere, I'm so bad to you, you're sick and hospitalized, I'm traveling abroad, you're working hard for richness, but I'm squandering everywhere, you've placed Wan Tingwan for me, but I've never treated it as my home, and even stabbed you with a wine bottle

I said a lot of bastard things to you, I said that I would leave you one day in this life, I said that I hate you and hate you and I don't want to see you for a moment, when I said that I was doing that with you, I was thinking of Song Qingyi, I

I wanted to cut out my tongue later! When I saw such a kind He Shishi, I felt even more uncomfortable, looked down on myself even more, and felt that I was terrible in front of you."

My tears wet a large pillow towel, and Li Zhao hugged me tightly into his arms and said in a hoarse voice: "Don't say it, Xiaowan, don't say it!" ”

I couldn't stop trembling because of sobbing: "No, I'm going to say that my belly is getting bigger and bigger, and I am more and more aware that my feelings for you may not be what I thought it would be, I began to be afraid, I thought that what I loved was always Song Qingyi, I thought you killed my father, and even Tang Jia, I live in a tangle every day, and I am ashamed because I find out my feelings for you!"

But I can't control it, I just keep hurting you, hurting myself, I don't know how to balance the inner entanglement and hesitation, I've never encountered such a difficult problem.

So I don't blame you for leaving me, but as long as I think of you being with He Shishi in the past few years, I can't sleep all night long, and at the beginning, I even closed my eyes as if you were with her!

But I know that she is suitable for you, she is more suitable for you than me, if she was with you from the beginning, you would not have worked so hard for so many years, and you would not have lived so badly, even if you left me later, it would be natural to be with her.

You should have been together, because of me, her fate will be rewritten, she should have married you in the first place, if she had married you at that time, she wouldn't have suffered so much later!

I always feel like I'm a scourge, like everybody is having a bad time because of me!

So I don't dare to ask you, and I don't dare to mention her, I'm afraid."

My sobs interrupted all speech, and I couldn't go on anymore

Li Zhao's heavy breathing fell on top of my head, his arms locked me very strongly, and his voice was full of gloom: "I didn't know that she had such a great influence on you!" ”

There was silence between us, I closed my eyes and sniffed the breath that belonged to Li Zhao uncomfortably, but he kept gently patting my back and coaxing me, until I stopped sobbing, he opened his mouth again: "I said it a long time ago, there has never been her between us!" Tang Wan! Do you still want to be with me? ”

I nodded noncommittally, but seeing Li Zhao's frowning and unspeakable, I asked him with some concern: "Do you want to say something?" ”

"Can you trust me once?"

When I saw him like this, I suddenly felt a little worried.

Seeing that I didn't speak, he nervously clenched my hand and stared at me with burning eyes: "Promise me." ”

His eyes were too gentle, and his voice was too delicate for me to resist, so I nodded.

He suddenly propped himself up and pressed against me: "After the divorce procedures are completed, you give me time, and I will get everything back to square one as soon as possible." ”

I couldn't believe my ears, my eyes were so affectionate, my voice was so beautiful, why the words I said were so heartbreaking!

I felt my whole head shaking for a while, and I looked at Li Zhao with wide eyes and helplessness.

When he saw me like this, his eyes ached and he lay down on his side again, hugged me into his arms, and his voice was a little tired: "When I didn't say, sleep well." ”

That night I slept very lightly, there was always something in my heart, Li Zhao hugged me tightly all night, whenever I wanted to break free, he would pull me into his arms again, in a daze I said, "Hot, you go over there." ”

His voice came to my ears indistinctly: "You ask me if I am afraid of losing you, I used to be afraid, because you don't have me in your heart, you are like a hedgehog that will run away at any time, and now you are even more afraid"

The sleepiness gradually hit, and then I entered a state of light sleep without hearing clearly.

When I woke up in the morning, I didn't know if I was hugged by Li Zhao all night, and there was a thin layer of sweat on my body, so I planned to take a shower first, but what I didn't expect was that I suddenly felt lightheaded and unsteady in the middle of the rush, and I was so frightened that I screamed softly: "Li Zhao!" ”

Leaning on the wall, I felt that my body was about to fall, Li Zhao pushed the door in, saw me like this, immediately rushed over to turn off the water, pulled up a bath towel and wrapped me in a horizontal hug, and said fiercely: "You are stupid!" Don't know how to eat before taking a shower? Look at the sequelae of eating instant noodles, I will see you eating instant noodles for labor and management in the future, and I will take you to cook it! ”

I said in my heart, big brother, I'm dizzy like this, can you educate me later?

After he carried me to bed, I was paralyzed, and after a while he came up with a tray, helped me up, put the tray on my lap, and then I stared at him desperately!

What does this mean, when he wrapped the bath towel, he also wrapped my hands and arms, and the old lady is now like a mummy, and she still lets me eat?

I said, "How am I going to eat this?" ”

I mean, you helped me remove the bath towel, but people will be wrong, and think that I am coquettish with him, and immediately pick up the bowl and feed the porridge to my mouth.

So he obediently opened his mouth, and as a result, he ate all over his mouth, just like the mentally retarded, Li Zhao shook his head with a smile: "I used to feed you when I was a child, do you remember?" ”

I said I don't remember, I really don't remember when this brother fed me.

He smiled and said: "You were a little more than a year old at the time, your father brought you and Tang Jia to my house to play, they talked about things, I was almost four years old at the time, so I let the maid watch you and let me take you to play, Tang Jia liked to pretend to be cold since he was a child, and he didn't play with us, just you, crawling all over the ground and chasing me, and almost pulled my pants off."

Later, the maid fed you rice cereal or something, and I said I'll feed it, and I probably thought it was fun at the time.

Then you fed me all over your face and made me laugh, but when you saw me laughing, you were also excited, and climbed on top of me to gnaw me, rubbing my face with rice paste, and making me angry! ”

As he spoke, he wiped the side of my mouth with a tissue, and I laughed out loud, I didn't even know that there was such a thing!

When he saw me laughing, he put the tray aside, then lifted my face and said a little jokingly, "But you should have had your first kiss at that time, right?" ”

I immediately smiled and froze on my face: "You're big at the beginning!" So saying, I kicked him.

He jumped on the bed, ripped off the bath towel from my body, and said with a smile: "You don't know, you pressed me to the ground and kissed me, and your little tongue licked me like cotton, which made me happy!" ”

With that, he poked into my lips and teased his so-called little cotton.

I saw that my face was getting darker and darker: "You are a happy fart!" ”

His laughing hand has unconsciously wandered on me, I was only tossed by him yesterday and reddened my body, and immediately reacted again, damn it!

He also said very cheaply: "I also took you to change diapers when I was a child, and I also secretly beat your fat ass." ”

After saying that, I pinched my ass hard! I resisted with great indignation: "You really don't even let me go when I'm a year old, evil!" ”

Li Zhao smiled, and the warm fingers slowly moved down from my chest, reaching into the deepest depths, and my nervous body straightened.

Li Zhao stopped abruptly, got up and said to me with a tray: "Quickly put on your clothes, don't freeze so that you say that labor and management evil will harm you." ”

I sat up in a daze: "That's it?" ”

The figure he walked to the door and turned back: "Otherwise? In broad daylight. ”

I said to myself, why are you embarrassed to say that it's broad daylight, do you need to control the outdoor light when you need it?

I immediately lay down and felt a burst of panic, chest tightness, shortness of breath, held it for a long time, and decided to wrap the bath towel and walk out