Chapter 36 is the most heartbreaking when I want to laugh and return my cheeks.

I love you, I love you like a crescent moon with crooked eyebrows, even if time passes, I treat you as before, and the years are the same.

I love you, I love you like a full moon full of smiles, even if the vicissitudes of life, I also haunt you, soft intestines.

Because I love you, I will always feel sorry for that crescent moon, and because I love you, I will always love that full moon.

My love, the world is beautiful with you, why are you willing to push me away and make me sad?

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Maybe it's because the high beams of the taxi are making people's eyes hurt, and my eyes are sour. I don't want to look at the hugging figure anymore, I don't want to experience the heartache again. saw You Yingying push away from the seashore and strode into the dormitory area.

"Qingyin, let's go!" Lu Xue sighed softly, grabbed my arm, and walked forward with my stagnant steps.

At noon the next day, after class, Susan and Shi Zheng and I hurriedly got on the bus and rushed to the train station to pick up the boss, knowing that her train arrived in Marina City at one o'clock in the afternoon. At the exit of the train, in the crowd, Susan and I anxiously searched for the boss. "Oops, what if you miss it? It's not like the boss is lying to us! Susan said worriedly.

"No, I said yesterday that the boss is a smart person, she won't joke about her future!" I say. Susan clutched her stomach and said, "Sister, you wait for me here, I'll go buy something to eat, I'm dying of hunger!" Seeing Susan's hungry appearance, I said, "Okay, don't get lost, I'm still here waiting for you, go and come back quickly!" ”

After waiting for a long time, seeing that the passengers were gone, my heart slowly sank to the bottom: Boss, you won't ...... Finally saw the boss, her thin and thin figure looked even more lonely in the wind. I hurried forward...... saw that Shi Zheng had already hugged Xiaohong first. Xiaohong pushed him away, he hugged him again, and finally, Xiaohong stopped struggling and burst into tears. I thought there would be a sweet kiss next, but I saw Shi Zheng slowly helping the boss's body to fall. "Shi Zheng, Shi Zheng! What happened to you? The Boss exclaimed. I also hurried over.

Fortunately, the problem was not big, and Shi Zheng woke up slowly.

"It's okay, these two days...... I miss you and didn't sleep...... Last night, I ...... I'm waiting for you on the Internet café QQ...... One night, I want to ...... I want to explain ...... to you," Shi Zheng said intermittently. He was a little stammering, but now he said sincerely, and we won't laugh at him.

"Don't say it, I believe you!" The boss cried. I saw a joyful smile on Shi Zheng's pale face, and his eyes instantly turned red......

By this time, Susan had returned. "What's the matter, why are you squatting underground on a cold day?" "Shi Zheng, what's wrong with you?" "I almost fainted!" I say.

"It's all to blame He Qingyin, I said that I would come back after lunch, and she was in a hurry like that!" Susan pouted.

"Don't blame her, yes, I was in a hurry, and I told He Qingyin that I would come after class......" Shi Zheng said slightly apologetically.

"Eat it, I bought four servings! But the people who were waiting to eat the pancakes were in a hurry! I saw Susan carrying four pancakes and four buckets of soy milk and said.

The early spring sun was not strong, and on the main square of the train station, the four of us ate happily and enjoyed a good time quietly. I looked at Shi Zheng with a smile in his eyebrows, looked at the boss with guilt and remorse, and watched Susan gobble up, the corners of his mouth unconsciously curled.

Such warm and beautiful memories emerge from the deep time, as if they are within reach, but they are permanently dissipated......

Two weeks after the start of school, the dust had settled and I was living my life to the fullest. I go to class every day, go to self-study, go to the library, and go to the Internet when I have time.

I didn't have classes this afternoon, so I went to the Internet café in the dormitory area after a good night's sleep. I read a few articles on the website under the banyan tree, typed new articles, and browsed the news page. QQ's voice sounded. It turned out to prompt a friend to go online, and it was Li Angran.

"Are you really sure you don't need me to probe Yan Xiaoni's tone for you?" I typed him and asked him.

"No thanks!"

"Why bother? Obviously still in love, but still can't let go, why did you break off the relationship so recklessly and impulsively? ”

"Acacia is known, but it's too late to ......"

"No delay, no delay, you wait ......"

Glancing at the gray-colored avatar on the beach, I closed QQ and was stunned for a long time. I opened the mailbox and wanted to tell Li Angran that he couldn't let go of Yan Xiaoni, and I couldn't let go of Yu Haibin, and I wanted Li Angran to tell Yu Haibin that I had a deep love, my secret tears, my heartache and heartbreak, and my unstoppable attachment to him...... However, after I wrote it, I deleted it all. Replace it with the following text:

Angran, unlike your deepening feelings for her, my feelings have faded, and this is a cruel process. It's like the feeling of a suicidal person who cuts his wrist with a razor blade and watches the blood run out drop by drop------- pain is intertwined with helplessness. I killed this emotion with my own hands...... I have buried my infatuation deep in the darkest corner of my heart, dusty, and I don't want to mention it......

I've been lying in bed for the past two days, and the taste of a cold has been lost for a long time. The nose is not breathable, and the mouth alone cannot supply the heart, and it is difficult to breathe. I'm wiping my nose on the bed while the boss is cleaning.

"I really don't want to be on duty behind Susan anymore. Look at where she cleaned, it's all dirty......" The boss complained that Susan was not up to standard.

"Okay, who will make her the smallest, you are the biggest, I hope Susan will find a wicked mother-in-law in the future, and stare at her mopping the floor every day......" I said angrily.

"Hahahaha!" The boss was amused by me and stopped caring about Susan's laziness.

"Hey, what's this?" Xiaohong took out something from under the bed, gray-black oval spherical, and the dry leaves drooped down.

"Ah, my daffodils! Oops! "I didn't care about catching a cold, so I got out of bed and went to see it. Sure enough, the daffodils dried up. I slapped my head hard, how could I have forgotten it all after so long! I didn't bring it back during the winter vacation, so I naturally died. I had to throw it away.

"It's a pity, what a beautiful daffodil a year ago, people from other dormitories came to praise it for being beautiful!" The boss also said very regretfully. When she saw that I was full of remorse, she said, "Let's buy it again next year!" There should still be a ...... for sale."

"Mine is not bought, it is Lin ......" Thinking about it again, the flowers are dead, and there is no need to tell her the ins and outs of the flowers. Find a shallow dish with flowers, brush it and put it in the closet.

Thinking of the demeanor of the daffodils when they were in full bloom, I thought of Lin Ziqian's back when he stepped on the snow, white clothes were better than snow, luxurious and cold, covering up all the splendor in the world...... I shook my head, I was confused with a cold, how could I suddenly think of Lin Ziqian?

At this moment, Susan walked in with a huff. "Hey, have you heard, You Yingying is really cool, she was in a bad mood, and she spent six hundred yuan to get the taxi driver to take her around the coastal city, but from morning to dusk! Rich people are just different! ”

"Of course, her father is the director ......of the finance bureau," Xiaohong said.

"It's just a small local treasurer!" Susan said.

"Alright, Susan, you're going to get rid of the bad habit of gossiping! Be careful to find a bad mother-in-law in the future......" I said with a smile, and the boss and I smiled.

"You're speaking ill of me again behind your back?"

"No, absolutely not!" The boss and I said in unison. Then I saw Susan's raised willow eyebrows......

The cold has finally improved, and the books from the library that I borrowed last time have been finished. In the afternoon, I went to the library to return the books without class. Walk and rest, it's not easy to arrive. It's strange that the magnificent library was built in such a remote location, in the southwest corner of the entire campus. It takes more than 20 minutes to walk quickly, which is really a test of physical strength!

Quiet reading area of the library. Lin Ziqian heard the sound of the seat behind him, and when he looked back, it was He Qingyin. He Qingyin took a few books and sat down with his back to him. Lin Ziqian felt his heart beating hard, hoping that she would recognize herself, but also wishing that she hadn't seen herself.

After sitting for a long time, I heard He Qingyin get up and go to the bookshelf. Lin Ziqian hurriedly packed up the books on the table and prepared to leave. He was in a hurry to leave, but he happened to bump into a person who came out of the aisle.

"Hey, you're not long...... Lin Ziqian! How are you? He Qingyin stroked his forehead with surprise in his eyes.

"What a stupid! Don't you walk and look ahead! After Lin Ziqian finished speaking, he strode over with a stack of books.

"Hey! You ...... "The library needs to be quiet, please be conscious!" The administrator said. I'm really angry. "No, if you don't take revenge, I won't be called He Qingyin!" The grievances in my heart can't be vented, which adds more anger.

I immediately packed up my book and walked to the exit. Lin Ziqian was still waiting for the book to scan the code. The administrator swept through them without hurrying. "Lin Ziqian, I haven't seen you here for a long time, and you haven't been busy with your homework recently?" Lin Ziqian is really a woman killer, even a librarian in his forties treats him like this...... No, I looked at the three books in my hand, how could he borrow so many books, almost ten, isn't it stipulated that undergraduates can only borrow five books at a time? Don't...... The librarian is biased towards him, or is there some secret to him......

"I've just been busy for a while, and I happened to have a free time today and I thought that the book would expire soon......"

"Lin Ziqian, how can you borrow so many books at once!" In the face of my doubts, Lin Ziqian ignored them indifferently. The administrator stared at me vigorously, maybe he hated me being nosy, but I was in charge of this idle matter, and just as I wanted to speak, I saw the administrator's aunt handing Lin Ziqian two library cards.

"You can also take Qin Fanghua's library card, don't lose it, remember the date, don't forget to return it!"

"Thank you, Sister Wang!" Lin Ziqian said that he deliberately smiled at He Qingyin, and there was sarcasm in his eyes: Look! What can you do with me, if you have the ability, you can also borrow ten copies to try!

He Qingyin was even more angry at this time. Pouting his lips, the boss reluctantly finished scanning his book code. When he came out, he didn't see Lin Ziqian, and he thought that he had already gone far. There was nowhere to vent his anger, and like a deflated ball, he had to stomp his feet hard.

At this time, a clear and rich voice like a hollow valley spring sounded behind him: "He Shuang, take my car back!" My heart trembled.

"I'm not uncommon to ride your 'amazing broken car'!" Hearing me bring up the old story again, Lin Ziqian couldn't help laughing. Full of smiles, like a full moon. I admit that the way he laughed was wanton, cozy, and warm. As precious and beautiful as the sunshine of early spring. I remember that when he intercepted me and drove me to the classroom by the green lake last year, he was also smiling like this, and his eyebrows and eyes were crooked.

Seeing him laughing, I couldn't help laughing, and the grievances and anger just now disappeared in the laughter.

Laughing and laughing, he coughed and hurriedly covered it with his hands. The moment he looked up, he saw the tenderness of concern in Lin Ziqian's eyes, frowned slightly, and seemed to be very distressed, and his hand paused in mid-air...... Then it was retracted, and it reverted to its usual coldness.

"You have a cold? Something is wrong! Lin Ziqian asked.

"Well, it's already much better, I've been drinking medicine for four days, and it's coming to an end!" After I finished speaking, I saw a trace of love and pity flashing in Lin Ziqian's eyes, and I was about to distinguish it carefully, but I saw Lin Ziqian lower his head. The voice said unusually gently: "Go back and have a good rest, get in the car and I'll send you back to the dormitory!" ”

"Lin, Lin Ziqian, there's something I want to tell you......"

"Say!" It seems that the gentleness just now has been swept away.

"That, that...... You give me a daffodil......" Lin Ziqian seemed very embarrassed when he saw He Qingyin wanting to speak and stopped, although he was talking to him with a smile, he frowned frequently, and his slender eyebrows trembled slightly, and suddenly separated. Shen Yun is delicate and lovely. This appearance of wanting to laugh made Lin Ziqian's heart itch and panic, he didn't know that He Qingyin was the most heartbreaking like this.

"That'...... Daffodils, I forgot to bring them back during the winter vacation, and I died......" After He Qingyin finished speaking, he leaned back slightly as if he was afraid. Lin Ziqian leaned over and tapped the hairline on her bangs with his index finger, and saw He Qingyin close his eyes tightly.

"You, what a stupid pig, such a good daffodil!"

After a while, He Qingyin opened one eye tremblingly, and said apologetically, "I'm sorry!" ”

"Forget it, let's go! Get in! After Lin Ziqian finished speaking, he stretched out his slender legs and stepped into his bicycle.

I sat in the back seat of Lin Ziqian's car, smelling the aroma of herbs mixed with the fragrance of mint in the wind, and I was slightly intoxicated.

"It's strange, Lin Ziqian has something bad, he always likes to knock on my head with his index finger......"

Many years later, listening to another story, I realized what this small action meant to Lin Ziqian and what it meant to me......

Affection is hard to say, love is hard to hide, only a light knock in the heart.