When I returned to the house, Shen Mo had already started drinking tea, and he looked very indifferent, as if he didn't take what had just happened to heart at all, and when he saw me go in, he slowly raised his head and said, "Cheng Zi, if you keep interrupting, you will suffer from it." ”

"Where did you go last night, was it really just to me off?" I didn't answer his question and got down to business.

"Got some personal business." Shen Mo looked at me, "By the way, I'll be angry with you, and let you know what it's like to wait for someone for a night." ”

"Private?" I said self-deprecatingly, "Then you'd better explain to your good friends that I called everything I could last night for fear something would happen to you." After all, you went out in a negative mood yesterday morning. Call yourself, I'll go back and catch up on some sleep, and I'll have to go to work later." With that, I went back to my room.

Shen Mo went back to his room, but he didn't expect Shen Mo to come in: "Cheng Zi, I'm worried about you and you're worried about me." You don't say anything and don't come home all night outside, you're a woman, how anxious I have to be, can you understand? ”

"I know, but doesn't it feel naïve for you, as an adult, to retaliate against me in the same way?" I listened to Shen Mo's words, and I couldn't cry or laugh a little, he looked mature and steady, and he acted like a child.

He was silent for a moment, and then suddenly said, "I'm sorry, I may have thought too much." ”

After saying that, he seemed to lose interest in talking to me, turned around and went out. I stood on the spot and thought about it for a while before I realized what he meant by overthinking.

I patted my head a little regretfully, what am I anxious about Shen Mo, he is someone I will never forget in my life, if it weren't for him, I would have been waiting on Huangquan Road to drink Meng Po soup now.

Annoyed for a while, I made Shen Mo a cup of tea and knocked on the door of his room.

Shen Mo's expression was completely normal when he opened the door, and when he saw me, he spoke first, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have made you anxious." ”

I handed the tea over: "I'm not mad at you, but I'm really worried about you." ”

"Sit down." He dodged away and let me in.

Although I lived under the same roof as Shen Mo, it was the first time I entered his room, and he was also a gentleman, never entering my room, and when I had something to look for, he always knocked on the door first and called me to the living room.

Shen Mo's room, like himself, was unusually clean and neat, the main color was blue, gray, white and black, and it looked neat and plain at a glance. In addition to the bed and wardrobe, there were two round brown linen cushions and a small green sandalwood table by the window.

There are a few books spread out on the floor, and the long strip of floor-to-ceiling windows that have been renovated from old windows just cast the shadow of the pane onto the books. He sat down on one of the cushions and said to me, "What do you want to talk to me about?" ”

I simply sat down across from him generously: "Shen Mo, you have to be honest with me. ”

"What truth?" He looked at me puzzled.

"What are your feelings for Cheng Zi?" I asked.

He didn't react for a while when he was stared at by my burning gaze, and stared at my face for a long time before he said, "Do you think my concern and worry about you are all because you have a Cheng Zi's face?" ”

I nodded, he got to the point, I do think so, because every time Shen Mo hates me for iron, he will stare at my face for a long time, and he took the initiative to suggest that I be made into Cheng Zi, if he doesn't have any thoughts about Cheng Zi, I don't believe it at all.

Shen Mo smiled, stretched out his hand and pinched my face and said, "How much do you want to know about Cheng Zi and me?" ”

"I want to know." I said firmly.

I had to figure this out, I didn't want to put a woman's face on her face and enjoy everything she deserved, both material and spiritual.

Shen Mo's body relaxed loosely, as if thinking of those unknown beauties, and asked, "Where do you want to start listening?" ”

"Start from scratch." I thought about it.

Shen Mo began to tell the story between him and Cheng Zi in a very peaceful tone, and I was fascinated by it, but I felt that there are still such stories happening in society now, which makes me feel a little incredible.

Shen Mo was seventeen years old when he went out to mingle with society, like a little poplar that had just been drawn, quite and immature. He grew up in the palm of his hand by his family, and never knew that the outside society was cruel, and he was hit hard as soon as he entered the society, and even experienced some things in the middle that made people want to collapse and jump off the building. But he met the noble man in his life - Lin Leyi's father, with his help, Shen Mo's life finally got on the right track, and got the opportunity to study abroad, in the first month abroad, he picked up Cheng Zi, who was only five years old, from the street.

It was a girl wearing beautiful clothes, but her whole body was dirty, Shen Mo thought it was a lost child of a rich family, but she held her and searched the whole city and didn't find her relatives, the little girl could speak, but the narrative was not clear, and from the spiritual point of view, it seemed that she had been hit hard, and she couldn't tell what her name was and where her home was. Shen Mo used his living expenses to take her to check her body, and found that she was hurt far more seriously than he thought.

When Shen Mo said this, the hand holding the teacup was trembling.

I can't imagine what kind of beast would attack a five-year-old girl, Shen Mo said that Cheng Zi's lower body was severely torn, and the doctor's examination result was that he was sexually assaulted by an adult. also suspected Shen Mo, and saw Cheng Zi's expression of trust in Shen Mo to dispel his doubts.

At that time, Shen Mo took Cheng Zi to a private clinic opened by Chinese, and stuffed some more money, but the person did not call the police. Shen Mo didn't want to hand over the child to the government because he was afraid that Cheng Zi would be hurt even more.

Just when the doctor said about the injuries that Cheng Zi had encountered, Shen Mo decided to put Cheng Zi by his side as his sister for the first time until he found her relatives; Second, don't let her get hurt in any way.

In order to keep Cheng Zi by his side, he went out to work two jobs and rented a house and moved out of the student dormitory.

With the passage of time, Cheng Zi slowly got better, and Shen Mo knew that her name was Cheng Zi, her home was in China, and she came here just for tourism, as if she was lost with her family in the process of traveling. Cheng Zi was too young, and he was hit hard psychologically, as long as he asked about the past, he would collapse, Shen Mo inquired about this little by little, and it took half a year.

Next, Cheng Zi grew up little by little, and the more Shen Mo knew, the more he dared not disclose Cheng Zi's identity. Because from Cheng Zi's incomplete narrative, he knew that she was on a boat, whether the ship was big or small, how many people there were, and what her family looked like, Cheng Zi couldn't say clearly.

Shen Mo vaguely felt that things were not as simple as he thought, so he never asked Cheng Zi about it again, and later when he graduated, Cheng Zi was already nine years old, and when she asked about her childhood, she couldn't remember it clearly.

All along, Shen Mo has taken care of her very carefully, Cheng Zi's psychological injury is slowly healing, looking at Cheng Zi's more and more smiling faces, Shen Mo doesn't want to ask her about the past. And Shen Mo had selfishness at this time, he suddenly felt that having a well-behaved and beautiful sister was God's reward for him, so he kept Cheng Zi hidden.

Shen Mo stopped at this point, looked at me and asked, "Do you think I'm very selfish, and in order to have more warmth in my life, I secretly let a little girl forget her family." ”

I don't know how to answer him, he has the same experience as Cheng Zi, and he is relying on self-healing, Cheng Zi at least still has him, and the feeling of sympathy makes Shen Mo unable to let go of Cheng Zi. Moreover, he is really good to Cheng Zi!

"I don't know, I can't comment on that." I said to Shen Mo.

He didn't ask any more questions, and went on.

After he returned to China, he sent Cheng Zi to a noble school, and as for the identity, he paid a high price on the black market to solve it, and Cheng Zi's nominal guardian became Shen Mo. It's just that because of guilt, he didn't change Cheng Zi's name, hoping that one day her family can find it by themselves, of course, this hope is very small.

Shen Mo was doing business in China, and he didn't have the pocket money of Cheng Zi in the most difficult time, and in the eyes of all Cheng Zi's classmates, Cheng Zi's family was a standard local tyrant.

In this way, the two got together during the holidays, he bought her good-looking, fun and delicious food, and spoiled a lonely little girl into a princess.

When Cheng Zi was nineteen years old, he called Shen Mo and said that he was going to Hong Kong with his classmates to play, he called money and told him to have fun, and then there was no news of Cheng Zi, and when he received the phone again, it was the news of Cheng Zi's suicide.

No one could imagine what kind of mood Shen Mo was in at that time, and how much this incident hit him, only Shen Mo himself could say clearly.

When he said this, he paused for a long, long time.

I was about to get up and pour him a cup of hot tea, but he stopped me with a gesture. I sat back down beside him and looked at his bloodless face.

He seemed to have a very painful heart, his upper body leaned forward halfway, his face was snow-white, and his eyes were sad.

What I experienced in this moment was the feeling that a father has for his daughter. I feel strange and sick when I go.

Shen Mo slowed down for more than ten minutes before he spoke again: "That's it, what do you think my feelings for Cheng Zi will be?" ”

"Father to daughter." I say.

He nodded and let out a heavy breath: "That's it, I can't have any thoughts about Cheng Zi, she was raised by me." ”

Shen Mo's meaning was already very clear, and I said to him with some guilt: "I'm sorry, I thought you wrong." ”

He waved his hand and said, "I don't blame you, you don't know anything about the past, and it's normal to have misunderstandings." Now that you understand, let me be quiet, my heart is a little unbearable. ”

"Are you alright?" I'm a little worried about him.

"It's okay, I was going to talk about it after I finished talking about it, and then I would make it clear why I looked at you differently, but now I can't hold it anymore, let's talk about it in a day or two." He looked tired.

I exited his room and heard him sigh as I closed the door. My eyes were so red when I saw him just now, he was holding on to his face in front of me, and I needed to give him the space to vent.

After closing the door for him, I walked to the courtyard, sat at the stone table and looked at the sky above the courtyard, and then thought about what to do with Hua Yuanshu next.

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