Fanwai 1: Everyone is in charge of Beibei

I'm Guan Beibei, since I was a child, I was the child of someone else's family in the eyes of the bystanders, to tell you the truth, I like this title, I like the feeling of dominating others, in my own eyes, these ideas of mine are right, I just want to be the best manager.

And I don't seem to be doing my best.

I was hated by so many people, by men, by women, hated. Even my favorite boy advised me to give up. So all these almost three years of efforts have been in vain? The answer is yes, there is no reward and no worship.

Now, I've been fighting these things with these people for more than two years, and what is the reward? Ostracized, ridiculed. In the past two years, I thought about helping my classmates, and they sneered at me; I think about managing the class, they are yin and yang; I thought that this was the case, and I was quiet, and they did not cause anything. Let go of these people, why should those class committee members who should be on the same front as me also slander me in vain.

When I found out that I didn't have anyone to like anymore, I started to please those people, and I tried to help them as much as possible within the scope of the class rules and discipline, and I naively thought that they would like me, and then it would be calm, right? Things do not turn out the way you want.

I didn't understand until later.

The impression of a person is not easy to change, hate is hate, even if you do something to please others, even if they accept the affection and change their opinion of you, when you do something even if you only do those things they hate, the trend of action, the clue, they will look at you with a magnifying glass, and then whisper behind you.

Hate is hate, it's all hate, right?

That day, he told me that if he felt wronged, he should not be the squad leader.

It's grievances, it's sadness, it's complaining.

But think about it. These are the consequences of my pursuit of unearned gains, do I deserve it? I'm afraid of these consequences, but I don't want to give up my pursuit, I have very high requirements for myself and others, I hope I am the best, they are also the best class, and the pursuit that seems to be not wrong is what a thousand people refer to. I don't like to give up and be decadent, I fantasize about a sparkling and confident look, when in fact I'm embarrassed.

So I didn't give up that day. I continue to pursue.

This is not a TV series, and it is impossible for me to have a smooth ride in the future because of this setback. I'm still the class leader that Qianfu refers to, even if it's only my affirmation of myself, it's all lucky, because at least I'm recognized by myself, at least I'm satisfied with myself.

There is no plug-in in the game life, and it often freezes, sometimes viruses invade, and there is a reboot or factory reset. Thinking about it is to plan your life clearly and clearly, and you just think about it. I can't be as happy as I thought, but fortunately, there are so many people, including myself, who always think about life high and shining. I think it's good-looking, but the reality is ugly. I still have to take it step by step, I still have to be myself, or I still chase what I like, the difference is that I don't care about other people's likes and dislikes.

Life is for oneself, and the results are for others to see.