Outside the three outcasts one after another

I am Wang Xiao, I only graduated from high school when I came to this place alone from Chongqing, and I am not very old, but my determination to leave home is very firm.

I saw the results of the college entrance examination that day, and I understood in a second that I was tired of this life, living a monotonous and boring life, thinking that I would be able to get out of the sea of misery immediately, and this college entrance examination result knocked me back to my original form, I couldn't accept the reality of needing to repeat, and I wouldn't complain about what I tried hard and then didn't get rewarded. Because no one knows better than me what I was doing in my three years of high school, no, I wasn't playing games, I chose to work when I was idle, and I could only relax when I was working. At that time, my mind was full of one sentence, "I don't want to study anymore." ”

It was not difficult to leave Chongqing, I grew up living with my grandmother, my parents were both in Shanghai, they didn't pay much attention to me, in my own eyes, I was an outcast. All loneliness and fear were clear as early as childhood, so now a person's life just feels pure. My grandmother and my parents both knew that I went from Chongqing to Fujian alone, and surprisingly no one objected, and then my grandmother also went to Shanghai to live with my parents, and only occasionally called me, and each call was so simple that the phone bill did not come to a few cents.

I used the money from my high school job to open this remote and quiet bar, saying that it was a bar, but it was a book-like place, there were no bright lights as I imagined, only some students who came to read and talk. Soon after starting this "upheaval", I met Chen Fan, she often came here, and in the conversations between intentional and unintentional, I learned some things about her, and I also knew that she was also a person who wanted to be pure. I pity her as if I am pitying myself, looking at her as if I am looking at myself.

In the three years I have been here, all my youthful vigor has been smoothed out, and when I see her, I always feel that she is the edge I have lost, and I want to protect her from being hurt, and I just hope that someone will want to protect me like this. But no. What's even sadder is that I always thought she was an outcast like me.

It wasn't until these days that I woke up to the fact that I was the only one who was abandoned, all this was just my own fate playing tricks on my eyes, I saw Chen Fan's loneliness and sadness, and at the same time I also saw Zhang Xinuan's kindness to her, and Zhang Xinuan's own purity. Maybe Zhang Xinuan is the state of mind that Chen Fan and I yearn for.

After a long time, many of the things that had happened before were almost forgotten, what was sad and uncomfortable, and all the firm thoughts of the nineteen-year-old became precarious, as if it would collapse with a simple push. In fact, I could have given up everything and returned to Chongqing immediately, but I always felt that I was still angry, and I didn't know what I was angry about.

Maybe he's angry and backtracking.

Maybe just want to wait a while.

An opportunity.