In early autumn, I was still a little dry, and the moment I came out of the hospital, Mu Xiya's face was not good-looking, checked, rechecked, and checked endlessly, until the final diagnosis, it was only half a month. [Ran^Text^Library] []. [774] [buy]. [com]

I have never been afraid, because I have never felt that I may be unlucky, she has always been God's ** child, even if her parents are not there, she still has a strong backer like Song Tianming, until now, fading all the halo, she walked into the hospital, and those she once despised and gave alms, she was just a patient. The only thing that is different is that the place where they are sick is different.

Yes, she was sick, and more sick than she had imagined.

Cervical cancer, moreover, has reached the middle stage, but this almost killed her, she is not yet 30 years old, how can she get such a terrible disease? Is it because she has been too busy all these years to have time to check her body? wanted to cry, but she has endured it all these days, not wanting Song Tianming to look down on herself, nor wanting him to see her most embarrassing side. In front of him, she has always been elegant and dignified, even if she is sick, she must be elegant and generous.

Autumn dryness, the mood is a little annoying, Mu Xiya put down the car window, let the cold wind blow across her neck, the slightly cool stimulation made her can't help but shrink her neck, but the comfortable feeling inexplicably made her want to cry. Once upon a time, she didn't feel valued even holding the stars in front of her eyes, but now, just a touch of coolness can make her feel so satisfied.

Very aggrieved, very helpless, she just leaned quietly by the window, quietly exhaled, and imagined sadly that maybe, one day in the future, she would fall asleep and not even breathe in this turbid air.

"Be so cold, be careful of catching a cold." Song Tianming turned his face slightly sideways and reminded him carefully, Mu Xiya ignored it, just slowly closed her eyes and continued to enjoy the cold breeze outside the window.

"What about a cold? Can anyone still die? ”

Her voice was very cold, it was the kind of temperature that could freeze people to death, Song Tianming looked at her, and had mixed feelings in his heart: "Xiya, don't talk about yourself like that, you will be fine." ”

"It's all like this, and it's going to be okay?"

"I have connected you with the best gynecologist, and he said that as long as you have surgery, there is no big problem with your disease." That's what the doctor told him, and he also believed that, although the disease was not small, but he would find the best doctor for her, and if she couldn't do it in H City, she would go to Beijing, and if Beijing didn't work, she would go abroad, and he believed that there was always a place that could help them solve practical problems.

Hearing this, Mu Xiya's upright eyebrows twitched almost invisibly: "Surgery? Do you mean cutting out the uterus? ”

"It's the most straightforward and the best way to do it."

"It means that from then on, I was no longer a normal woman." Saying this in pain, Mu Xiya's heart stagnated, as if the blood was flowing back, and it was blocked there, and it couldn't go up, and it couldn't go down.

"It's just a womb, and that doesn't mean everything for a woman." For women, if they don't have to give birth to children, the use of the uterus is just an organ, as long as people live, it is more important than anything else.

She smiled, faintly, coldly: "But it means that I can never have my own children again, doesn't it?" ”

"To live is to succeed."

What do people like them want and what is happier than being alive? Only by being alive can he do what he wants to do most, and only by living can he see the person he wants to see the most, so as long as he lives, there will be hope for everything, and as long as he lives, he can look forward to the day when he sees her again.

"For me, being with you and having a bunch of children for you is where I want to be, but now, I know I don't have a chance anymore." In the past, when he still loved her, she could have no scruples, but now that his heart has left, even if he reluctantly marries her, the wealthy family is deep, if there is no child to rely on, what can she guarantee in the future?

"I've already mentioned the engagement to my family. (Baidu search is the fastest and most stable update of the library)"

"They're still against it, aren't they?"

"They didn't object." Naturally, they will not object, because they don't know anything, they only know that Song Tianming has finally figured it out now, and he is no longer looking for a notorious star, but is back on the original track.

If half a month ago, if Mu Xiya didn't know about her illness, she might still be happy when she heard this, but now, she could only smile miserably and ask: "Is there really no objection?" That's because they don't know why you brought me to the gynecologist, right? Did you tell them? I didn't conceive your child, as it was rumored to be, but I had this disease that deprived me of my right to be a mother. ”

"It's our business, they don't need to know."

She laughed, feeling sorry for her insight: "One day you will know, and when the time comes, what will you do?" ”

"I'm in charge of my business."

"So, what about her?"

Two words, like a sigh!

A sharp turn, Song Tianming parked the car in front of Mu Xiya's community with a cold face, this question, he didn't want to answer, and he couldn't answer it, he could only do things according to his conscience, as for the rest, perhaps, he would pay attention to this heartache for a lifetime.

His silence was like a piece of iron burning red in her heart, she watched him stop with cold eyes, watched him get out of the car with cold eyes, and watched him come and open the door for himself, but when he opened the door, her originally cold eyes had already been replaced by a false gentleness.

This man's heart is no longer in him, but he still wants to force himself to accept her, should she be grateful to him? No, she won't, since she knew she had this disease, she knew she would never be grateful to anyone again. Hate! With her heart full of eyes, she hated him like she hated the woman who had destroyed all this balance, a hatred that went deep into her bones!

She suddenly pounced, snuggled into his arms and cried bitterly, her tears merged into a river, and a line flowed into Song Tianming's heart, liver, spleen, lungs and kidneys, so that he couldn't help but feel pain with her sobbing.

"Ming, don't leave me, now, I have nothing but you."

Her tears are real, and so is her heart, but the void of desolation can no longer be filled by his embrace. It was cold, like a valley blown by a cold wind, and there was nothing left but those sad whimpering sounds that echoed in my heart.

"I'm still here, am I?" God knows how reluctant he was to say this, and God knows how much he wished that his conscience would be gnawed away by a dog, so that he could irresponsibly shirk everything? Including the woman in front of him, including his guilt and responsibility for her?

"I know you still like her, and I know you stayed because you sympathized with me, but let me be selfish again, okay? Lend me two years, and when I'm dead, you can go to her. Mu Xiya cried very sadly, as if she was really going to die in the next moment, Song Tianming hugged her back, the corners of her lips squirmed, and after a while, she squeezed out a complete sentence.

"What is not dead, don't talk nonsense."

"You know that very well, don't you? Although it is only in the middle stage, surgery can still be done, but there is still a possibility of recurrence or metastasis, once the cancer cells metastasize, maybe, my life will come to an end, I am afraid of that day will come, but I also know that this is the cruelest fact that belongs to my Muhia, and it can no longer be changed. She sobbed, but said all this clearly, every word, every sentence, bloody ran through Song Tianming's heart, and added one stroke after another to his already overwhelmed heart.

"There won't be that day."

She deliberately wept silently at his heart, burning his warm chest with tears: "I hope there won't be, but ............"

"Don't be afraid, I've got you covered."

"Ming, don't leave me, don't leave me."

"No, it won't."

No, he wouldn't leave her. The mouth responds like this, but the bottom of the heart is frantically shouting and unwilling, why do you still feel very painful? Why do you still feel so lost? It turned out that he was forced to pretend that he didn't like a person, and he only pretended for three months and began to feel unbearable, and that stupid woman turned out to be off for six or seven years.

Six or seven years! How did she get here?

Su Lian, Su Lian, I may be sorry for you again, forgive me, okay?

***

A new day, refreshed!

Perhaps, it was because the three-day hanging water medication was in place, perhaps, because there was something on her mind that she was in a hurry to deal with, or maybe she just felt that she had to get up. Therefore, on the fourth day after the adaptation to the water and soil, when Su Lian's spirit appeared in front of Director Feng and the main actors a hundred times, everyone's faces were mixed.

The first person to catch up was naturally Director Feng, who carefully looked at Su Lianhong's fluttering face, and asked suspiciously, "Okay?" Nice? ”

"Hmmm! All right. ”

In fact, her head is still a little dizzy, and her feet are still a little soft, but she is not a little flower in a greenhouse, and she can still withstand the wind and rain. What's more, if she doesn't show up now, how can she get rid of those ghosts around her?

glanced at her suspiciously, Director Feng was still not at ease: "Let's rest for a few more days!" Anyway, we also helped you find a stand-in, so you won't be tired again, and we are anxious to watch. ”

"Since I'm well, then I don't need a stand-in, I'll just come by myself." As soon as Su Lian's words came out, the audience was stunned, no one thought that she, who was usually as obedient as a little white rabbit, would say such domineering words. never showed weakness or flinched, Su Lian just looked at Director Feng with shining eyes, emphasizing his determination with his eyes.

As if he hadn't heard her words clearly, Director Feng was surprised: "What? ”

"Director Feng, I mean, I want to come by myself, and I can save more trouble for everyone when editing later." This reason is justified and legitimate, and it is reluctant to say that she can really save a sum of money for the crew by coming in person, but since she can be lazy, I really haven't heard of anyone who wants not to be lazy. Therefore, it is obviously a very reasonable matter, but when Su Lian brought it up, there was only one thought left in everyone's minds. That is, Su Lian began to rectify himself before he became famous, and he was still his own stand-in.

"Are you okay?"

She smiled and was coquettish: "Okay, don't you know if you try it?" ”

For the director, it is naturally better to use a real person than a stand-in, not to mention, he has always had high hopes for Su Lian, and she feels very good about the previous literary drama, if this paragraph can also be played by her in person, it will naturally be more in line with the director's requirements. Therefore, although she was very entangled, looking at her confident appearance, Director Feng hesitated for a moment, and finally nodded: "Okay then!" Just let you give it a try. ”

"Thank you, director, then I'll go down and change my costume now to prepare."

"Go ahead!"

Yan Ran smiled, Su Lian thanked the director and went straight to the dressing room, just walked to his own position, but saw that there was still a timid Bai Meichang standing there, smiled a little apologetically, Su Lian took the hood in her hand that she hadn't put on yet, and said, "I'm sorry!" Today, you can rest for a day, and I can do it myself. ”

"Miss Su, why are you doing this?" Just now, Bai Meichang had actually heard the movement outside, because she was too embarrassed, so she chose to stay alone in the dressing room, until Su Lian walked in, and then she couldn't wait to ask again.

So I didn't know, Su Lian asked in surprise: "Huh? What's wrong with me? ”

"How can you steal my show?"

Hearing this, Su Lian smiled coldly and sneered at each other: "What you said, this scene is yours?" I'm robbing your play? ”

Knowing that she was speechless, Bai Meichangqiao blushed and explained: "I mean, didn't you say that you would use me as a stand-in?" Why do you want to do it yourself now? ”

Ignoring Bai Meichang, Su Lian sat down in front of her generously, and deliberately raised the hood in his hand to compare himself in the mirror: "Why should I find a stand-in?" Isn't it because I'm sick? But now, I'm cured, why don't I come by myself? ”

"What's in it for you?"

Xu is annoyance and anger, Bai Meichang's face changed, and she was extremely happy, Su Lian didn't look at her, but said casually: "What's good?" The good thing is that I can play my favorite role again, and it may save the director a lot of editing and production costs. ”

As soon as she heard this, Bai Meichang was also anxious: "The director doesn't mind these expenses, what do you save him for?" ”

With a bang, Su Lian put down the hood in his hand like a negative heart, and said sourly: "Yo yo yo!" Look at what you said, if everyone in the crew is a 'big name' like you, how much more production cost will the director spend? ”

Actually, she really isn't so fierce, nor is she so arrogant and mean, but who makes this woman not know how to read her face? Knowing that she is not good, she still wants to come to confront her, she is easy to bully, but she can't be bullied by someone to that extent. She may not know Song Tianming's position in her heart very well, but if she touches the most untouchable place, she is bound to pay the price. What's more, she has 10,000 reasons to suspect that the instigator behind Bai Meichang must be Mu Xiya.

Since the opponent has made a move, is it wrong for her not to take it? Now that she has made a move, why should she pretend to be a good person in front of the wicked?

"Su Lian, you did it on purpose, right?"

Finally, she stopped calling her Miss Su, very good, very good!

got up elegantly, Su Lian was not angry or laughing, and only said coldly in an almost piercing tone: "Mei Chang, everyone is an actor, you should be able to understand my feelings, I finally won such a role, and finally had the opportunity to act in such a big drama, I want to do it myself, I also want the audience to see my best side, and I want the director to know how hard I work, I am not wrong about this, right?" ”

Su Lian's sentence was reasonable, and Bai Meichang couldn't help her, so she only said madly: "Since you want to act by yourself, why did you look for me in the first place?" ”

"I'm sick."

"Then don't be reckless when you're sick."

"I didn't, I didn't start work the other day, did I? However, today I am fine, and I naturally have to go to work, right? Of course, Su Lian's originally clear eyes have a faint murderous intent, this woman really doesn't know how to look at people's faces! A good wife is like a dream:.miao.

"You, you deceive people too much!"

Finally amused by these four words, Su Lian looked at her sharply, and smiled without smiling: "Miss Bai, don't say that!" I'm going to do this thanks to you! If you hadn't come to see me yesterday and said so many compassionate words to me, how could I have come to see you today? Oh! Speaking of which, your words are really more effective than a panacea, Mei Chang, I thank you. ”

“…………”

In a word, Bai Meichang's disguise was finally torn apart, she looked at Su Lian in a daze, as if she wanted to say something, but she couldn't say a word.

Sneering, Su Lianfu glanced at her again and said jokingly: "Oh! By the way, if you don't want to go back, just watch us film here, in case I unfortunately fall, you can fill it up immediately, right? ”

Hearing this, Bai Meichang finally couldn't help it anymore, and directly covered her mouth and rushed out, looking at the tears full of resentment when she left, Su Lian couldn't help but think of what Bai Meichang said to her yesterday. She said that she has been martial arts since elementary school, and a woman who learns martial arts will also shed tears because of such a few words? A woman who deliberately plays right and wrong in front of her will also be vulnerable because of such a counterattack?

Ridiculous, ridiculous!