Chapter 34 Seeing each other is like not seeing, how ruthless is affection.

It's been a year, and I'm calming down a bit.

But seeing a letter from a good friend in the mailbox: "He gave me hope, and broke it with my own hands, I took care of this emotion, I was ......so tired"

I still thought of my beachfront. The waterfront that I lost forever. Every memory is a painful reincarnation.

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February 9 is the first day of classes. There are two literature courses, one public course. The "Ancient Literature" class in the afternoon almost knocked me out of hunger, and the "*Theory" class in the evening almost dozed me to death. Hateful holiday syndrome!

After three or four days, I finally adapted to the life of the beginning of school. It happened to be Saturday, and it coincided with Valentine's Day. It was an ordinary and special day. For lovers, special, for me, ordinary.

Walking on the road, I saw the bright red roses, which were really dazzling, so I simply avoided them. Thinking of everything that happened last year, Yu Haibin indirectly let me know on this day that he didn't love me. The thousand paper cranes were lost before they could fly in the wind, just like our feelings, like snowflakes, which had long since disappeared before we saw the midsummer sun.

It just so happens that there is no class today, and I won't see his shadow. There was a faint expectation in my heart to see him. But when I think about it, I can't change anything, can I? Seeing each other is like not seeing.

"Happy Valentine's Day on the seaside!" I said silently in my heart. Because he once gave me hope, once ignited my desire for life, he was like a ray of sunshine into my dark and inferior heart. I hate him and hate him but I like him, the contradictions are full of pain, and every memory is a painful reincarnation.

He has turned into a scar on my heart. Because of the passage of time, it is no longer painful. It's just that when the heart moves, the faint wound will hurt.

The sky was overcast. There was no wind, but the fog was heavy. It is also moist and melancholy to infect people's hearts. Reading Baby Anne's works in this kind of weather is even more depressing, feeling the confusion of the whole world, the loneliness and helplessness of people. Anne should not look at it much, and if she sees too much, she will be poisoned.

She often uses the "brown tear mole" as the finishing touch to the heroine's appearance, full of uneasy fatalistic colors-------- the person with the tear mole, there are only two endings for those who love her and the person she loves, leave or die. Therefore, the pessimism of the work is strong, and the helplessness of people in fate is exposed on the paper.

I lay on the bed and watched Baby Anne fascinated.

Suddenly, the door to the dormitory was slammed open. The old girl fell on the bed all of a sudden, covered her head with a pillow and cried. I quickly put the book down and quickly climbed out of bed barefoot.

"Boss, what's wrong with you? What's wrong? I took her pillow away and whispered. Seeing that she didn't speak and just cried, I had to take her towel and dip it in some warm water, turn her head over, and wipe her face.

"Boss, what the hell is going on? If you're willing to tell me, I'll give you ideas, you know, no matter what happens, I'm on your side! I said as I wiped.

"It's Shi Zheng, he said, he said...... Hmm......" She couldn't stop crying again. Seeing her like this, I had to gently pat her on the back. The boss cried for a while and fell asleep. After a while, Susan returned. As soon as she entered, she was babbling. "The news, the big news, the absolute excitement!"

I put my index finger to my lips and made a "shhh Pointing to the boss's bed. Motioned for Susan not to disturb the boss's rest.

"Boss asleep? Can she still sleep? Her family's Shi Zheng has cheated, and she can still sleep! Susan was a little angry. What does it mean to cheat? "Cheating, you don't know, you learned Chinese, and you are a self-proclaimed talented girl, and if you cheat, Shi Zheng is looking for a new love......"

"I know what cheating means, you don't have to explain it to me, I want to know the ins and outs of things." I said anxiously.

"Hehe, I also listen to others...... Specifically, it seems to involve Shi Zheng's high school classmates...... I don't know...... You see the boss must know......" Susan said, looking worriedly at the boss's body curled up in the quilt.

"Hey, I thought he was the most reliable, and entrusted the boss to him...... You say, how can a person who looks so considerate and can tolerate the boss's temper cheat? I muttered to myself.

Susan is changing her clothes. "What are you going to do?" I asked. I've never seen Susan go out and change her clothes alone. "Go to Big Brother's dormitory to play cards! Li Angran: They are all ......"

"Susan, are you ashamed, you have to be a girl with self-respect, what kind of system do you have to play cards in the boys' dormitory?" I'm angry.

"How do you know, I'm calling it playing card PR, you wait, wait for me to find out the latest news about Shi Zheng, by the way, by the way......" Susan grinned, I knew it must be fine. By the way, what? ”

"By the way, I will listen to you and Yu Haibin......"

"Susan, I don't want to hear that name! We've broken off our love......"

"Yo, it's like a loyal saint, I really don't want to know his current situation, I don't want to know who he is thinking about?" Susan poked me in the chest, and then pulled her cotton slippers out of the dormitory.

I shook my head helplessly, caught up with her and said, "Susan, you haven't changed your shoes yet!" ”

"You don't need to change it, so you have a personality, and you have to play cards without restraint! I like it, I'm free! Susan shook her hair and turned around in a dashing manner, when she stumbled and almost fell, and I covered my mouth and smiled. Quietly close the door to the dormitory, and wait for the boss to wake up.

At this time, in the boundless loneliness and sorrow, a singing voice came from the stereo of Yanyuan Supermarket: "Valentine's Day without a lover, how much will there be a feeling of loneliness, because the person who has loved does not understand, and the miss is still in my heart." Valentine's Day ...... without a Valentine"

What a Valentine's Day without a Valentine, it's a Valentine's robbery! He shook his head violently, not allowing himself to recall the past without being angry. Hurry up and boil the water, and clean the dormitory while boiling the water.

Lin Ziqian glanced at the amphibious butterfly hairpin in his hand, sighed, and put it in his shoulder bag. Pedal a bicycle to the business school. When he heard the phone ringing, he stopped, looked at the familiar three words, and hesitantly picked up the phone: "Hello! I'm Lin Ziqian! ”

“……”

"Ruoshui, what are you looking for me, the school leaders were very satisfied with the charity donation last time, and suggested that the donation be diversified, I think it can be ......"

"Can't we talk about anything but work?" Shan Ruoshui was disappointed and angry.

Lin Ziqian returned to his usual coldness: "As I said, we only talk about work, not feelings!" ”

"Okay, I'm not going to talk to you about feelings, I just want to meet you, today!"

"Let's talk about work on the phone, if you meet, there's no need for that!"

"Lin Ziqian, I don't believe that you are hard-hearted, it's been more than two years, don't you really know that I love you, will spending Valentine's Day with me make you lose face Lin Ziqian? Lin Ziqian, you, please don't treat me like this, okay, Ziqian......" Hearing the painful voice on the other end of the phone, Lin Ziqian's eyes narrowed, the cold wind blew, and his long eyelashes trembled in the wind. After a while, he said slowly:

"Ruoshui, I'm really not free today! I'm going to go to Jin Lao to tutor in business school......"

"Excuses, all excuses!" Shan Ruoshui hung up the phone angrily, Lin Ziqian knew that she was proud of her self-esteem, and she must have said what she said just now.

Since it is destined to be a tragedy, it is destined to be sad, so let's hurt enough at once, don't let her have any illusions, don't let her have any hope...... Lin Ziqian said silently in his heart. It's just that He Qingyin ...... What should I do with you?

Bury the affection, I hope the years are quiet, and everything is safe for her. How ruthless is affection.

In the evening, Susan had not returned from playing cards. Lu Xue and I comforted the boss together. Lu Xuelian "There is no grass at the end of the world, why do you prefer to look for it in this department!" In this way, the eldest brother will be heartbroken when he hears it, and all the words are spoken. Subsequently, Lu Xue and her eldest brother went out for Valentine's Day. I went to the classroom with Xiaohong to watch a movie.

One movie is "Go Left, Go Right". Played by Takeshi Kaneshiro and Gigi Leung. Perhaps, the encounter of people is destined by God, divided and merged, and fate gathers and disperses. Cherish it when love comes, and leave silently after fate is over. I really don't understand why the original author Jimmy's comic of his tragedy was replaced by a comedy movie. There aren't so many comedies in life.

The other film is Madame Bovary. The heroine, Emma, yearns for a romantic life and material pleasures. was used by his lover. Every time she loved, she devoted herself wholeheartedly, but as a result, the people who said they loved her left her. But she ignored the husband who silently doted on her and loved her. "Emma, isn't being happy enough to be with me?" The simple and affectionate words express the deep spiritual estrangement between the husband and wife. Emma's death was a tragedy, but wasn't it a relief?

When I went back after watching the movie, the tears on my face were not dry, looking at the blurred moon shadow in the sky, as if I saw Lin Ziqian's disdainful smile: You are really an idiot, he doesn't love you, what are you sad about! Suddenly remembered Lin Ziqian's rare gentle words in the radio sound waves: "I would like to send you a bright moon, so that you can have a sweet dream, and there will be no more sadness in the dream." Friend, I hope you can get out of your heartache, be a happy bird, not be imprisoned in the net of heartbreak, do not decorate the scenery in other people's dreams, and be free and happy! ”

The mood finally brightened. I was jumping and walking forward, like I was back in time when I was seven or eight years old. I thought: Next Saturday, I must give Lin Ziqian the new whistle I bought during the winter vacation!

By the time I got back to the dorm, Susan had already returned. When she saw me, Susan said, "Boss, boss, Shi Zheng has a new situation, big news!" "The boss was hungry, she ate fire at the fragrant cake shop, and said that she would come back when she was done, and let me go first." What happened to Shi Zheng? ”

"Let me tell you, Shi Zheng didn't really cheat, Shi Zheng's high school classmates fell in love with Shi Zheng, but Shi Zheng didn't mean anything to her, Shi Zheng deliberately wanted to make the boss jealous, he wanted to see if he was the most important person in the boss's heart......"

"Oh my God, this kind of thing, this kind of thing is not an experiment, how can it be used as a test? Outrageous! "I'm very dissatisfied with Shi Zheng's approach.

"I also heard about Yu Haibin and you from Li Angran, do you want to hear it?" Susan looked at me with a deep look on her face and said, "I know it's not a good thing."

"Susan, you're so gossipy, I don't want to hear it!" I covered my ears.

She broke my hand covering my ears and exclaimed, "You hear me clearly! Yu Haibin pursued you because he made a bet with the people in the dormitory, the bet was to chase you for a month, and if he won the bet, let the three of them have a week's meal......"

For a moment, I was stunned, ashamed and angry, my face was red and white, and the tears were swirling but swallowed back. I slammed the table and yelled hysterically, "Susan, are you my He Qingyin's best friend!" That's how you stuck a knife in my heart! If you go to the boys' dormitory to play cards again, I will break your legs and break off your friendship, completely break off your friendship! ”

"Second sister, let you see the true face of Yu Haibin clearly, and let you completely die for Haibin, did I do something wrong? Seeing you in such pain, I even have the heart to kill him! Susan said with tears and gritted her teeth.

Tears finally flowed wantonly...... I sat on the edge of Susan's bed at once. Susan slammed the door and left.

"Where are you going?" I hurried to catch up with her.

"Don't worry, I'm just saying that I won't put my life on the line for such an unbearable person as him, I'll go to the bathroom and wash my face and ......"

I burst into tears and laughed.

Didn't you say you had to put it down! It is! It doesn't matter if we came together because of a mistake in the bet, whatever the reason that separated us, it's time to let go.