Chapter 20 The shallow love seems to be in the end, and the clouds are uncertain, still in the soul of a dream

I don't want to dream of him anymore, I don't want my heart to be imprisoned in a prison of melancholy and sadness. But I was like a lonely sail fluttering in the sea, I didn't know where I would dock, looking for a sheltered harbor, but I was overturned by the merciless waves.

Ending a wandering and uncertain fate, an unforgettable love, only the lingering and annoying lovesickness remains.

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In the past few days, the weather has been suddenly cold.

In the evenings, I make up notes in the classroom. I was so tired that I counted and made up a total of ten pieces of paper, my hands hurt so much, my shoulders hurt, ho, I was in pain again. Susan didn't know where to go, so I took a sip of water and looked around the classroom without seeing her. But I happened to see Yu Haibin sitting at the back of the classroom.

The water in my mouth that I hadn't swallowed almost squirted. It's weird, doesn't he hate going to the classroom at night! After a while, I went to the toilet, and when I came back, he was gone. He really can't bear to learn mentally.

Thinking that when he dragged him to the classroom in the past, he would always bring a novel or comic and his CD player, and occasionally watch me write notes and write English words, he always lowered his sword eyebrows slightly, and whispered: "Your writing is so beautiful, Chinese characters are beautiful, and English is even better!" I was a little shy, then proudly straightened my chest, flicked my ponytail, and said, "Pretty good!" Tell me how it looks good? ”

"I can't say this!" He looked helpless. "Susan said that I am beautiful in regular writing and domineering in English. The regular script was taught by my grandfather when I was a child, and it is horizontal and vertical, square and square. English is a word that imitates a high school English teacher, chic and handsome. He stroked my soft hair dotingly. Occasionally, when I write, I feel his fingers wandering around my back, and I shudder, and I pull his hand away and say, "Don't make trouble, I'm learning!" ”……

That's when I knew I had to work hard to be with him, trying to stand where he could see me and be proud of me. But I don't know...... He probably didn't like that.

I remember the dream I had a few days ago, he gave me two letters on a piece of paper, on which I wrote a lot, but I only remember two sentences: For so many days, we have been torn between loving and not loving...... In fact, the dream is right, not only that, but it also hovers between proximity and distance, between joy and pain, and endures the torment of lovesickness in escape.

I wanted to give him a note before he left, advising him to drink more boiled water in the past few days, because I heard him cough badly during class, and it was estimated that he had a cold. I have always wanted to use reason to control my fragile emotions, and I don't want it to flood and make lovesickness a disaster, but once the floodgates of memories open a little bit, it will gurgle out. It turns out that I love him so deeply that I didn't know it before, but now after leaving, although I know it, I feel pain alone.

I was in a trance, and Susan was back. She kept stamping her feet, "It's so cold, it's so cold, it's freezing me to death!" "Where have you been, it's still scurrying around on such a cold day!"

"I went to the conservatory in the east, there was a singing competition, and I listened to it, which was good!" Susan rubbed her hands together and said.

"Hmph, don't call me, you deserve to freeze to death!" I said as I packed my things.

Susan put her hand into my neck, and I shrank from the cold, and the chill filled my body. "Ahh Die, you, Susan...... Stop me! "We ran out of the classroom after us......

Susan and I were on our way back to our dorm. We saw Yu Haibin and You Yingying in front of us, my pace slowed down unconsciously, and the chill in my heart shrank into a ball, and I couldn't breathe, my heart was torn as if it was about to break, and my body trembled. "He Qingyin, are you okay?" Susan asked with concern when she saw that I didn't look right, her face was pale.

"I ...... It's okay......" After saying this, I fell down slowly, no longer had the strength to speak, my eyes were white, I couldn't see anything, let Susan cry in this world, I felt that my soul had reached another world. "Qingyin, Qingyin!" Susan was about to cry, and her voice was hoarse calling to me.

"Yu Haibin, Yu Haibin, you come here to help!" In the paleness I heard Susan shout, but I didn't even have the strength to shake my head. After a while, I felt a strong arm under my armpit, and the other arm was also raised. Susan's worried voice was mixed with You Yingying's delicate and charming voice: "What's wrong with sister-in-law?" ”

"It's close to Ping An Clinic, go there!" It was Yu Haihai's voice, which was not as natural as usual, with a thick nasal voice. I was carried to the clinic by them.

After the doctor diagnosed hypoglycemia and gave me an infusion of energy, I regained my vision, but my eyes were still closed. After a while, I felt a warm quilt covering my body, and a pair of warm and generous palms touched my forehead, and immediately I felt a familiar warmth. "I don't have a fever, why am I still dizzy and haven't opened my eyes. Susan, you take care of her, You Yingying and I will go first, I have a cold, I'm afraid I'll infect her. Yu Haibin coughed twice.

"By the way, brother, you can take some medicine by the way, take some medicine and get better quickly!" You Yingying said.

"What's a big deal, just carry it for two days. I'm in good health and fine. As Yu Haibin spoke, I heard their footsteps walking away, and the sound tore at my heartache.

Susan tucked the corners of the quilt for me, held my hand and said, "Sister, wake up, please......" I immediately opened my eyes when I heard Susan's words, "You scared me to death!" It scared her.

"It's good that you wake up, I'll go to the phone booth next door and make a call to talk to the boss and Lu Xue, so that they don't worry. I'll give you water when I come back. Susan put a cup of hot water on the table and walked out.

The winter night was so quiet that the clinic clock was ticking brightly. How can time pass so slowly, so slow that even the memories are glamorous and have never aged at all. The past that I tried my best to forget always came back inadvertently.

This time last year. Yu Haibin and I have just known each other.

One day, Yu Haibin saw that I didn't go to class, and he called at noon: "What's wrong with you, why didn't you come to class?" "I, my foot is swollen, it hurts, I dare not move......" I almost cried.

"You wait!" Hung up the phone and he ran to our dormitory, the dormitory door was open for me when they left, he came in and saw me sitting on the stool with tears in his eyes, his eyes were full of concern, and a pair of sword eyebrows were also gone, leaving only tenderness: "Still hurts?" "Well, it hurts......" I said with a little coquettishness.

"Can you go downstairs? No, I'll carry you! Yu Haibin said that he was about to squat.

"No, don't, don't carry me, I'm not a sister-in-law, she's light, only a hundred pounds, I'm heavy, you can't carry it!" I'm afraid I'll crush him. Not long ago, a few people in their dormitory just didn't have to carry their sister-in-law to class.

"Then, I'll hold you! Which foot of yours hurts? "Right foot." He approached and put his arm around my left arm to get me to my feet. I had to take two steps in one jump. But I didn't have the strength to jump for long, and I didn't even reach the gate of the dormitory. "Doesn't Zhang Luxue have a pair of crutches? Is it here? He said. At noon, Lu Xue ate in the classroom and didn't come back. "Oh......" he suddenly crouched down, "come, up!"

"No, no!" I said firmly.

"Come up! You are a man who wants to die and suffer to be sinned! Hurry up! He said commandingly.

"Wait, wait until they all come back......"

"What are you waiting for! Hurry up! I had to lie on his broad, thick back. At this time, roommates came back one after another, and they all smiled when they saw us. I had to put my arms around his neck and put my face on the side of his shoulder to hide the blush on my face. I could feel his pounding heartbeat and heavy gasps. I thought to myself how good it would be if I could have him to take care of me for the rest of my life!

After a break on the next two floors, I finally reached the bottom floor. I leaned on his shoulder and leaned close to his ear and whispered, "Yu Haibin, I like you!" By the way, he gently kissed his earlobe. I felt him shiver all over, and the sweat on his sideburns was even more. He didn't respond, and I knew he was shy. As soon as I got out of the hallway, I ran into Susan and Xiaohong, and I yelled to come down. Yu Haibin and Susan set me up, and I held back the pain and limped to the clinic in the dormitory.

The doctor said it was a fungal infection of athlete's foot. Brought me a green ointment for me to go back and apply it. I bowed my head in embarrassment, as if my secret had been spied on. It's always hard to talk about girls with athlete's foot in front of the boy you like.

I've been contracting athlete's foot since high school, and I've never been able to cure it, especially when the seasons change. The coastal city is close to Haiti and the air is wet, and my shoes can't be dried frequently, so I can't help but scratch the itch with my hands. As a result, I got an infection and my feet were swollen. When I went back, I didn't want to hold on to the beach, and he reluctantly went back.

To this day, the strength he came from his shoulders to support me was exactly the same as it was tonight. In just one year, the warmth is no longer there, and the vicissitudes of life go their separate ways. What is left behind is his original decision and my heartache now. He has withdrawn and continued to enjoy freedom and uninhibitedness, but I was imprisoned by heartache and groaned alone, and the past tears could not be collected.

"Is it uncomfortable? Why are you crying, uncomfortable and you don't know how to call a doctor? Drink water! Susan came back and said.

"Why am I crying?"

"Dead duck, hard mouth! Miss your little lover! People and beauties are long gone! "Susan's words broke my heart, and I stopped talking. When she saw that I bowed her head in silence, she said no more. After being silent for a long time, Susan sighed lightly and said, "Life is a lover! You were enemies in your previous life! ”

I burst out laughing, "When are you sentimental too!" Also write a crepe drag text! ”

"I learned from you, my Lin Daiyu, Miss He!" Susan said with a smile, her eyes shining brightly.

"I really want to be Wang Xifeng, pull out the needle and poke your mouth a hundred times!" I deliberately feigned evil.

"Have you finished taking the medicine?" Suddenly, I heard a voice outside.

"Almost, my mom will send me another one, and I'll get a package from the post office tomorrow." A very nice sound, more clear than the crane in the early morning, thick and magnetic. "Lin Ziqian!" I said to myself. Susan heard it, too, and stood still like me. We hung hanging bottles in the middle so he couldn't see us.

"Then you usually pay more attention to your body, and if there is anything abnormal, go back quickly!"

"Hmm...... This is the roasted sweet potato I just bought, seeing that you haven't left yet, I'll take it to fill your stomach for supper, I'm leaving, third brother. ”

As Susan and I walked out of the clinic, we glared at the doctor's business license hanging on the wall, which said responsible: Li Sanfu. I thought: the name of the good soil.