Chapter 38 I don't remember when I am drunk, and the moon is dusk on the way back.

My heart is like a lonely boat, stranded in the sea of love, and your smile has a breeze to carry me forward. This is destiny, this is destiny. You are the only one that you should not miss, I am only waiting for you in this life and this life, I only love you wholeheartedly, know and cherish each other, and it is the most touching beauty. I am only waiting for you in this life and this life, and I will love you in the next life, and I will depend on each other and love to become the brightest star.

------------ Wu Zhangquan "This Life and This World is Only Waiting for You"

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waited for a Saturday, but did not see Lin Ziqian at the Moon Lake Stadium. I wanted to call a few times but gave up.

It's the weekend again, and I'm quietly putting up my whistle. But he sat on a stool in a daze.

"He Qingyin, you don't think anything wrong about Lin Ziqian, do you! As soon as he gives you a good face, you don't know how many pounds and taels you weigh? I meditated in my mind several times, shaking my head like a rattle.

"Second sister, what's wrong with you?" Susan asked.

"Don't call me second sister, you're only the second!" I looked at the smile in Susan's eyes and understood what she was talking about.

"Hey, my brain hasn't shaken yet! Gee! What did you just secretly put in your bag? "Sure enough, it's a mouse's eyes, a thief is bright! Before I could finish speaking, Susan snatched the bag I had placed on the table. I wanted to fight her, but I was afraid that the whistle would be broken again, so I rummaged through her bag.

"English Books, Notebooks, Introduction to Literature...... Found it, huh, what is this? "Sure enough, she found the whistle." It's a child's whistle, give it to me! I held out my hand to Susan, my expression serious.

"No, I'll play first!" Listening to Susan blowing, I shook my head helplessly. Seeing that she had sex, I quickly said, "It's not fun, give it to me!" ”

"Who do you think this is for? Such a mysterious and secretive thing is still hiding it from me? ”

“……”

"I can't say it, it's for Yu Haibin, people and girlfriends have stayed and flown together, you still can't forget it......"

"That's enough, Susan!" I snatched the whistle, threw it into my bag, stuffed the books scattered on her bed into my bag, and snatched the door out of the bag. Susan was left stunned.

There really is no waiting in vain today. Lin Ziqian is really playing basketball. Spring is coming, the weather is warm, and there are a lot more people watching the game. I found a position, squeezed to the front, and watched Lin Ziqian play. He has a flexible body and graceful movements. They were obviously playing, without the intensity of the game, and there was a complete sense of peace. It turned out that it was still warming up. After a while, they officially competed in groups. But it wasn't an official game, so everyone played very easily. I glanced back...... I saw a familiar figure.

The enthusiasm of the audience was obviously high, and many girls shouted: "Lin Ziqian, come on!" I also took out the whistle in my bag, blew it, blew it for a while, and shouted "Lin Ziqian, come on!" ”

Lin Ziqian, who was on the field, glanced at me, his body was stagnant, his feet slipped, and he was knocked down by other team members. "Ah, Lin Ziqian!" The crowd exclaimed and rushed up. The flowers were clustered, surrounding Lin Ziqian. My heart thumped and I yelled that it was not good. I just wanted to step forward to see how Lin Ziqian was hurt, but after thinking about it, I still gave up. What if you stay...... Lin Ziqian definitely can't spare me...... Thirty-six plans, go for the top!

Before leaving, I found Lin Ziqian's sports shirt on the side of the playground and stuffed the whistle into his pocket.

As soon as Lin Ziqian looked up, he only saw He Qingyin's distant back. His brow furrowed instantly.

"Lin Ziqian, does it hurt? Check it out! "Let's go to the hospital!" The girls were babbling.

"I'm fine, just take a break! You all go away......" After a while, all the girls saw Lin Ziqian's dark and calm face, and they all left with a look of indifference and detachment.

"Alright, don't pretend! Let me see, young master? Qin Fanghua walked over, carried Lin Ziqian's clothes, and said with a smile. Seeing that Lin Ziqian still looked silent, Qin Fanghua walked over, picked up Lin Ziqian's trouser leg to take a look, hammered Lin Ziqian's shoulder and said, "I know that your kid is a fake fall!" ”

"Qin Fanghua, the injury is in the elbow, not in the leg!" Hearing what Lin Ziqian said, Qin Fanghua nervously wanted to pull his sleeve. "Don't pull it! Let others see that I have counted, at most a little bit of skin, it's okay! Lin Ziqian still said lightly. Qin Fanghua breathed a long sigh of relief: "I'm worried about you, in case ......"

Qin Fanghua saw Lin Ziqian's frowning brows with an obviously unhappy expression, and said with concern: "What's wrong with you, you are in such a bad mood after a fall?" As he spoke, he put on Lin Ziqian's coat.

"Huh, what's it, hard?" Qin Fanghua put her hand in her pocket and took out the whistle. "Hey, it's still a porcelain whistle, and it was given to you by your classmate!" Lin Ziqian snatched the whistle and held it in his hand, it was still like a puppy, but it was different from the one that was broken last time, obviously, He Qingyin bought him another one, which he said he wanted, a new one.

I just heard the whistle Qingyue's voice sound, and saw He Qingyin shouting loudly Lin Ziqian to come on, which really scared Lin Ziqian, because He Shuang, whom she knew, disdained to do such a thing, could it be that she was also as attracted to him as other girls? Lin Ziqian just crossed a trace of joy in his heart, and then denied it, no, what is He Shuang's purpose like this?

When Lin Ziqian and Qin Fanghua passed by the apricot blossom forest east of the school, the apricot blossoms were like snow, pink and white, and scattered with the wind...... Qin Fanghua looked at Lin Ziqian's appearance in a daze, and said with emotion: "The flowers can be broken and must be broken, don't wait for no flowers and empty branches!" Yes! Love happily, no one is wrong! Lin Ziqian clenched the whistle in his hand tightly, tightly, as if he wanted to crush it in the palm of his hand, so that it had nowhere to escape. Why did you run away when you saw me hurt? Are you afraid that I will blame you? You just didn't take me to heart, I don't blame you......

When I returned to the dormitory, I saw Susan eating instant noodles slowly.

"Stick a knife in my heart, is it interesting?" I asked her.

"I was just about to ask you that!" Susan said, putting down the instant noodle fork in her hand.

"If you don't love it, it won't hurt, Susan, I have completely let go of my obsession with the seaside, I believe you have already let go of your obsession with Lin Ziqian, don't play tracking in the future, your skills are still too tender! Compared to mice, it's far worse! After listening to me, Susan laughed, came over and hugged me tightly, and said: "If you are willing to say this, I will believe you, I am just worried that I will not worry when you see you go out angrily, you promise me, you also have to stay away from Lin Ziqian......"

"I know, I know......" I whispered as I leaned over Susan's shoulder.

In the library, I put my bookboards on the shelves. After taking the book, he sat on the ground, leaning on the bookshelf on the other side, and looked at it with relish. Time passed, and I didn't care.

There was a slight sound of footsteps, followed by a tall figure blocking out the sun's rays. I looked up and saw Lin Ziqian's tall figure like a green pine standing in the sun, shining brightly. He approached slowly, facing the high sun of spring, and I saw that his complexion was becoming more and more white and clear, and his dark and deep pupils were like a night pearl in an unfathomable pool, scorching and shining. The handsome face was smiling, and the eyebrows and eyes were crooked. The breathtaking smile ripples in the brilliant thousand suns, bright and moving.

Even though he was close to me, he still stood there, and I saw him slowly stretch out his slender hand, and the sun jumped in his palm...... At this moment, time seemed to hold its breath and stand still, just like me......

He's waiting for me, and I'm ...... I saw that Lin Ziqian's smile remained unchanged, and the posture of stretching out his hand was still the same. I obediently reached out my hand, and as soon as he pulled me, I got up. His hands still had a cool touch.

"Look at the mud, my mother is fascinated! Sit down in Dihagang Lianglian! He deliberately lowered his voice and spoke in Qingcheng's dialect. I, who had never heard him speak in tongues, couldn't help but laugh out loud. But he gently covered his mouth, "Shhh......hh He took me by the hand and walked over to the table and chair in the reading area and sat down.

I was just about to sit down when I suddenly felt a sharp gaze shoot, and when I saw it, it turned out to be Shan Ruoshui. I embarrassedly sneered, "Hello, Senior Sister Shan! Shan Ruoshui enlarged the curvature of the corners of his lips a little, but did not speak, just lowered his head and continued to read.

Seeing Lin Ziqian sitting down next to Shan Ruoshui, I was neither sitting nor standing at this time. With a jerk on my arm, I sat down on the stool. I stared at Lin Ziqian with disgust and pouted hatefully. Lin Ziqian just smiled.

After sitting down, although my eyes are looking at the book, I always feel that the atmosphere is not right, after all, it doesn't feel good to be a light bulb! I secretly left my seat and pretended to change books, went to the bookshelf, took the bookboard, and ran out of the huge reading room.

"Run faster than a rabbit! With this speed, will you fail the 800-meter run in high school? ”

"Lin Ziqian, don't deceive people too much! If you have the ability, you follow me! "I ran quickly into the women's bathroom. When I came out and looked around, there was finally no Lin Ziqian, so I walked back slowly. I suddenly remembered that Lin Ziqian once drove me back to the dormitory in a car here, and once tapped my bangs and hairline...... Why? I don't know.

"I was really uncomfortable and didn't want to go! I have classes in the evening,...... Elective Ancient Writing Studies......... Oh, well, I got it! "Unprecedentedly, I actually received a call from Lin Ziqian, asking me to accompany him to a place on Wednesday night, I found many reasons not to go but were all rejected, and finally had to agree.

When the door of the KTV box was pushed open by Lin Ziqian, I subconsciously took two steps back. Lin Ziqian pushed me the back of my waist and walked forward. I walked two steps and moved through the door. There were a lot of people in the box, most of whom they didn't know. I only know Qin Fanghua and his girlfriend Qi Wanyun, as well as Shan Ruoshui. Shan Ruoshui sat in the center, and the girls around him were all dressed up to attend, their makeup was flawless, charming and enchanting, Yingyu Yan, their clothes were fragrant and their temples were shadowy, and the room was full of fragrance. A large cake sits on the coffee table in the center. It seems to be a birthday party.

As soon as the door opened, I felt a myriad of hot eyes sweeping towards me. This was followed by an unconcealable astonishment, followed by a look of disdain and disdain. I naturally know that I am plain-faced, not beautiful, and have a bad temperament, why did Lin Ziqian bring me. I smiled and said naturally: "Lin Ziqian, you are too few friends, if Sister Shui celebrates her birthday, you won't tell me, and I haven't prepared a gift, what a faux pas!" ”

Lin Ziqian said coldly: "No! After that, he pulled me to sit on the sofa next to Qin Fanghua.

The girls gave Lin Ziqian the vacant seat next to Shan Ruoshui. "Lin Ziqian, come here!" "Thank you, Yan Yiping, it's good for me to sit here!" Lin Ziqian smiled and declined. I secretly saw that Shan Ruoshui's face was not good, and the hand holding the wine glass was a little white. I thought: Lin Ziqian, what is the purpose of you asking me to come? Is it just for the sake of being angry? You're not making a fuss, make fun of me! You said that you and Shan Ruoshui got married as soon as they graduated. What's going on? At this point, it clearly feels like one head is not enough.

"Lin Ziqian, don't you introduce, who is this senior girl?" Yan Yiping, who had just spoken, said.

"Chinese, He Qingyin!" I finally let go of my hanging heart a little, but fortunately, Lin Ziqian didn't say the word "specialty" that was very embarrassing. But I still didn't guess what Lin Ziqian had in mind to let me attend Shan Ruoshui's birthday party.

I saw that everyone allocated a toast to Shan Ruoshui. I also picked up the wine glass full of red wine and walked to Shan Ruoshui, who was sitting on the side with a cold face, and said, "Sister Ruoshui, happy birthday!" Every year there is today, every year there is today! ”

"Thank you!" Shan Ruoshui is really good for drinking, she looked at me after drinking, I just drank two sips and couldn't drink it, but I saw Shan Ruoshui's right palm Qingtian made a gesture of invitation with 100,000 graces, so I had to drink it hard. Under the dim light, Lin Ziqian's eyes became deeper.

After a while, everyone took turns ordering songs. Once you've chosen what to sing, it's time to start officially. Shan Ruoshui first ordered a song "When is the Bright Moon". She stood in front of the screen, under the light, she had a good figure, her waist was graceful like a willow, and her legs were round and slender like jade rings. Wearing a retro carmine modified cheongsam, the white peacock on it is about to fly...... She turned her back to us, revealing the back of her fair, graceful neck, her hair coiled into a cloud, and three crystal rose hair ornaments glittered brightly in the lamp...... I'm a little crazy. She sang sweetly and softly, and I was intoxicated......

Lin Ziqian suddenly walked over, brought a piece of cake and said, "You didn't eat at night, you drank wine just now, eat this!" ”

Before I could take it, I heard a senior sister say, "Lin Ziqian, you and Ruoshui sing a song together!" Everyone wants to hear you sing, and they've been waiting for two years......"

"Han Yuchan, I said, I really can't sing!"

"How can it be, you have been broadcasting and hosting since elementary school, and vocal training is essential!"

"I said, I won't! Besides, I've been busy on the radio until late for the past two days, and my throat hurts......," Lin Ziqian said and handed me the cake, and I quickly took it, but put it on the coffee table.

"You just make excuses, the birthday star is big, Ruoshui, you speak, let Lin Ziqian sing!"

After Shan Ruoshui finished singing, he turned around and saw Lin Ziqian handing me a cake, raised his head and looked at the ceiling for a while, and said, "Little Cicada, if he doesn't want to, forget it...... It's the same to find someone to replace him, He Xuemei, you'll be next! ”

"Ah~~~" I was dumbfounded. "I won't, I really won't!"

"Didn't you sing it at the New Year's Day party in your sophomore year of high school?" Lin Ziqian sat on the sofa and said.

I immediately glanced at him, and scolded in my heart: "Damn Lin Ziqian, I kind of understand, this is making me ugly......" "Ah, do you mean the ending song "You are the wind, I am the sand"? "I'm confused, Lin Ziqian, you really have you, your memory is so good!

I heard a few girls around me giggling and muttering, "It's really old-fashioned!" You're the wind, I'm the sand, I'm a madman and a fool...... Toad wants to eat ......"

"Ruoshui, she won't let her sing......" Qi Wanyun looked at me worriedly, looked up and said to Shan Ruoshui.

I lowered my head and twisted the hem of my sweater vigorously. Lin Ziqian was about to stand up, but sat down again under Shan Ruoshui's sharp eyes. At this time, I don't know what force is driving me, I stood up at once, walked to the song platform, and searched for "Lin Yilian "At Least You", when Lin Yilian's thin eyebrows and sad eyes appeared on the screen, I closed my eyes, listened to the prelude, and sang softly:

"I'm afraid it's too late, I'm going to hold you until I feel your wrinkles, with the traces of time. Until I'm sure you're real, until I lose my strength, I'm willing to do it for you. I can't move, but I also have to look at you, until I feel your hairline, there are traces of snow, until my vision becomes blurred, until I can't breathe, and we are inseparable......

If I can give up the whole world, at least there are still you worth cherishing. And you are here, it is a miracle of life. Maybe the whole world can forget it, I just don't want to lose your news, the mole in your palm, I always remember it there......"

Shan Ruoshui didn't expect He Qingyin to sing such a low and touching song, the voice was so good, although the voice seemed immature, and the tone was jerky, but the love was sincere. The box was quiet, so quiet that only the delicate and affectionate voice of the girl who was devoted to singing was left...... Shan Ruoshui suddenly thought of something, He Qingyin, hqy...... The mailbox in Lin Ziqian's wallet, Lin Ziqian's hands stretched out to the photo, Lin Ziqian's approach to He Qingyin against the wall, Lin Ziqian's every gaffe, Lin Ziqian's figure jumping down from the back of his bicycle, and Lin Ziqian's back in the library when he glimpsed He Qingyin's rapid departure...... Shan Ruoshui looked over at Lin Ziqian, and saw Lin Ziqian's hands tightly entangled, although he lowered his head, but Shen Yun was sad. Lin Ziqian suddenly raised his head to look at He Qingyin, and Shan Ruoshui saw the crystal silver line on Lin Ziqian's face through the suddenly bright screen light...... Extremely quickly, Lin Ziqian took out a napkin and wiped it...... Shan Ruoshui took He Qingyin's cup and poured the wine slowly......

After singing the song, I opened my eyes and didn't know that the lyrics of this song and the melody of this song were so familiar to me. However, the person I wanted to sing to him was a stranger to me, and I broke off my relationship. On the seashore, there is no more chance......

"He Xuemei, the real person doesn't show her image, she sings so well, I salute you, thank you for your face and my birthday party!" Shan Ruoshui said with a smile on his face. I took the glass, and she said it so high-soundingly, how embarrassed I was to refuse.

"If water, I'll drink this cup for her!" Lin Ziqian's deep voice sounded.

"No, you didn't sing, you didn't give me a cheer, why do you drink, this is what I respect He Qingyin, not you, you say yes, He Xuemei......"

"Hmmm! Thank you, Lin Ziqian, I can do it myself, thank you Sister Ruoshui......" I took the wine glass, just took a sip, and the spicy spicy taste made me know that this glass of wine is not exactly red wine...... However, I had to drink it hard, drink it in a big gulp, and don't let Lin Ziqian see the clues. After drinking, I said to Shan Ruoshui, "I'm sorry, I'll go to the bathroom......" and ran out.

Lin Ziqian looked at the smile hidden at the corner of Shan Ruoshui's lips, and said loudly angrily: "Shan Ruoshui! He then dragged her by the arm and pulled her outside the box.

"Let go of me!" Shan Ruoshui violently broke free.

"Is this your hospitality! Punch her and get her drunk! ”

"Yo, Ziqian, you're distressed......" Shan Ruoshui stroked Lin Ziqian's jaw with his index finger.

"Take your hands away!" Lin Ziqian waved his hand in disgust to block it.

"Lin Ziqian, are you in love with her? This is not fair, Lin Ziqian, it's been three years, it's been three years, you haven't felt sorry for me, I can't compare to her, you are so mean to me...... Today is my birthday, and the birthday present you said was to let me know that you are in love with someone else! Shan Ruoshui's wide, angry eyes overflowed with tears. Across the cheeks of delicate makeup......

Shan Ruoshui still remembers the first time he saw Lin Ziqian's tall and handsome figure during the student union election, and heard his rich and charming voice for the first time...... Later, Shan Ruoshui took the initiative to find Lin Ziqian to explain his intentions, and the disdain in Lin Ziqian's eyes was instantly hidden and replaced with indifference, and he lightly stretched out his slender hand and said, "Are you Shan Ruoshui?" Fine Arts Department? I'm Lin Ziqian from the Department of Journalism! Nice to meet you! I...... I'm willing to withdraw from the presidency race! At that time, Lin Ziqian's eyes were reflected in Shan Ruoshui......

From then on, that person's shadow was like a thorn, piercing deep into the heart and never pulling it out. It's been a year, and the two have worked tacitly, but the relationship has not progressed. Shan Ruoshui chased, Lin Ziqian fled......

"I'll make overall arrangements for such a hard job of welcoming new students, and you, the chairman, just have a summer of leisure!" In the past, he also felt sorry for himself, but this was just work, and he said that he didn't talk about feelings. The usual indifference and indifference deeply hurt Shan Ruoshui's heart.

"Shan Ruoshui, you have no reason to make trouble, I said, I won't fall in love with you or anyone......"

"Lie, Lin Ziqian, you big liar!" Shan Ruoshui shouted and rushed into the box crying. After all, she was born in a high-ranking family, and she has her own pride.

Lin Ziqian reached into his pocket and took out a box with a pair of gold bead tassel earrings inside. Lin Ziqian knows that pearls are the most suitable for the temperament of single water. He sighed, put it back in his pocket, and turned to walk to the bathroom......

"If you can't drink enough, don't do it! Look what you've become! Lin Ziqian held He Qingyin's arm, and He Qingyin staggered along.

"Why does it smell so big? The wine you drank was ......," Lin Ziqian suddenly understood. "No wonder you get drunk like this with two glasses! I don't know what to do to protect myself and burn out my stomach! ”

Looking at He Qingyin's drunken cheeks and misty eyes, Lin Ziqian helplessly helped He Qingyin to sit on the side of the road. After resting for a while, seeing that He Qingyin was even more drunk, Lin Ziqian put her up again, and He Qingyin's body staggered and fell into Lin Ziqian's arms. The spring shirt was thin, and Lin Ziqian felt warm in his arms. Looking down at He Qingyin, his eyes were closed, his eyelashes were trembling, his cherry lips were delicate, and when he moved from time to time, the pear vortex on his cheeks appeared deeply...... Lin Ziqian lowered his head and gently kissed the pear vortex, and ,...... softly Then he slowly approached the cherry lips that were close at hand.

"Seaside ......" Sakura's lips opened lightly, and she spit out a few words in a daze. Lin Ziqian's movements froze. "If I can give up the whole world, at least there are still you worth cherishing. He Shuang, when are you going to sing it to me? When will I understand my mind? How can I bear to let you know that I love you, how can I bear to let go of your hand......" Lin Ziqian's tears flowed wantonly......

I don't remember when I'm drunk, and the moon is dusk on the way back.